they called her the "far away lady"—those on the train who had already met her. just why the name was bestowed by some one with imagination and aptness of expression or why it had been so readily adopted by the others, perhaps none could have clearly told, but it had its fitness. there was a certain soft dignity and reserve of manner and a "far away" look in the eyes of this stately, but certainly loveable human being. she possessed the subtle distinction there is to women of a certain sort, impressing those about her in spite of themselves, as years before, she had impressed john stafford. as has been told he knew her on the moment, yet in their words was nothing, and, even as they met, they had not looked into each other's eyes unless, it may be, with a hungering furtiveness and a dizziness at the marvel of the meeting.
it is hard to describe the far away lady. her face was exquisite in its pure womanliness,[53] but in its expression was something which told of a life unfilled. it was not a protest; it was too good for that, but it seemed to suggest with this woman a bewildered resignation. the face was one which, in other times, might, before the end, have been turned toward and found the cloister. yet there was all of modern living and appreciative conception in it. a smile came to the lips at certain incidents of the story-telling, and interest showed in the soft eyes at the relation of some striking episode. there was intelligence as there was sad sweetness in every feature of the lovely face. yet there remained always in the look that quality, not of listlessness, but of abstraction. it was a face as fascinating as it was appealing.
in her own stateroom the far away lady sat at her window, but seeing no whirling snow, hearing not the plaint of the dying wind. she was detained in no cold and rugged canyon. her thoughts were far away.
about her was no scene of pallid desolation. she looked instead, upon the blue waters of a great calm lake, the wavelets of which splashed at her feet, while about her all was sunshine. seated beside her on the rustic bench was a man, one strong, tender and trustworthy, and[54] they were about to part, as they thought, forever. very sad was the man, almost a weakling for the moment, though talking lightly in an effort to distract her mind from what was near, blundering and only nurturing their mutual sorrow, by indulging in foolish fancies of what might have been.
he was smiling by force of will as he looked across the waters toward the invisible other shore and dreaming aloud:
"we would build a house upon some high wooded out-jutting point upon the other side," he said, "a house, it might be, most unpretentious, as near the southern end of the lake as practicable, so that we would be conveniently near the city. it might be of almost any material and be a sort of bungalow or even only what they call a 'shack,' but comfort would be in and all about it and happiness within its walls. it would face the lake with an outlook on all its moods, its bright placidity or its rage in storms, and there would be white sails and the passing steamers and all that pertains to those who go down to the sea in ships. and the sun would make yellow bars on the blue in the morning and in the evening we would see it go down into the water red and 'big as a barn,' and there[55] would be a crimson pathway from us to it, and when the summer darkness came, we should sit happily together, listening to the voices of the night, the katydids and the whippoorwills and all the other things. then we would be waked in the morning by the sunlight again and the songs of all the wild birds instead of by the whistles and the noisy chattering of city sparrows.
"and the house would have a big front room with a mighty fireplace in the winter, and the windows would be made wide and high so that ever in the daytime there would be light—more light—and there would be lamps a-plenty to make it light when the dark changed into blackness. and about the sides of all this big room there would be cases with many books and in the center of a great table, with all the magazines and everything of passing interest. there would be chairs, cosy, indolent chairs, to dream in, and light ones and business-like ones, and a great couch with many cushions.
"outside you should have your garden, the flowers you love so, and in the wood there would be a fountain, fed from the lake by a windmill, where the birds could drink and bathe and quarrel and mate, and where we[56] could watch and study them. you would become as wise as linnæus and i as burroughs.
"and there will be dogs,"—unconsciously he changed the tense—"what is home without a dog! and about the shack we shall have no limitations. we'll have as many as we want; there'll be an irish setter, soft-eyed and chestnut-coated, the perfect gentleman among dogs; there'll be a bull terrier, bright and loving; there'll be a collie, wisest and most observing, and, possibly, a toy dog, for your plaything at times, when you are tired of me. and, finally, there will be a bulldog, a creature of such aspect as to give a ghost or burglar spasms, a monster in appearance, though kind at heart, a thing so hideous as to have a baneful beauty, with massive bow legs, wide apart, bloodshot and leering eyes and a countenance generally like that of a huge fanged toad. and all of these too shall be dogs of lineage, hapsburgs among dogs, and i will give each of them to you when a puppy, so that you may rear them yourself and they will become your adoring vassals and protectors. eh, but you will be well guarded, and i shall feel more at ease when i am away from you, riding over to town for the mail or to get a lemon or two.[57]
"and what friends we will have, not the casual, conventional, flitting friends alone, such as some might be content with, but those closest to us because of that which cannot be defined but which exists, and, besides them, perhaps less close but hardly less companionable, others of tastes and inclinations like our own, and who will riot or rest as suits them in the atmosphere about us. they will be the brothers and sisters of the time, and there will be doings both whimsical and wise. there will be a rendezvous for those who know—our author friends, our artist friends—what a lot of them are ours!—and our musical friends, to give an added and different flavor. what a piano you'll have! i'll get the one used by david and miriam and orpheus and apollo and st. cecelia and liszt and mrs. zeisler—if i can. never mind the anachronisms and solecisms—and we'll let them 'sound the loud timbrel o'er egypt's dark sea,' or rather o'er lake michigan, or engage in any other fantasies appropriate to arcady—land fifty dollars an acre—and, at times, we will, no doubt, be unentitled to call our souls our own.
"and—so well do i know you—there will be often there some of those whose lines are not[58] cast in the pleasant places and to whom such freedom from care, and such taste of home and real companionship about them will be like an outing in the outskirts, at least, of paradise. and we'll try to deserve the shack! yes, we'll deserve it all the time—when buds are bursting, when the green leaves hide the oriole in the maple, when the maple's leaves are red, and when there are no leaves, and the fireplace is doing its winter's roaring. what a home it will be! ah, my girl, we'll"—but the sorrowful jesting failed him, and he said no more. then came the parting.
and now the dreaming woman's thoughts reverted to the present. she could see the snow and hear the wind and realize existent things. how strange it was! years had passed and he and she were together again, he drifting from another hemisphere, sterner faced, perhaps, but still the same, and she, changed too, she thought, but doubtless to less advantage. she felt rebellious. the world was lost. to him and her could never come in life the close comradeship which is the crown of things, the right to share good and ill alike, and meet the future, shoulder to shoulder, laughingly in the enduring[59] love which can become so sublimely a part of two souls that it is a part of immortality.
and in the next car stafford, too, was sitting alone and thoughts very like those of the woman were in his mind. but he was far less patient. his bonds were chafing him.
