with such celerity did mr. balch work in behalf of his wards, that he soon had everything in train for the recovery of the property.
at first george stevens was inclined to oppose the execution of the will, but he was finally prevailed upon by his advisers to make no difficulty respecting it, and quietly resign what he must inevitably sooner or later relinquish. lizzie stevens, on the contrary, seemed rather glad that an opportunity was afforded to do justice to her old playmates, and won the good opinion of all parties by her gentleness and evident anxiety to atone for the wrong done them by her father. even after the demands of the executors of mr. garie were fully satisfied, such had been the thrift of her father that there still remained a comfortable support for her and her brother.
to poor clarence this accession of fortune brought no new pleasure; he already had sufficient for his modest wants; and now that his greatest hope in life had been blighted, this addition of wealth became to him rather a burden than a pleasure.
he was now completely excluded from the society in which he had so long been accustomed to move; the secret of his birth had become widely known, and he was avoided by his former friends and sneered at as a "nigger." his large fortune kept some two or three whites about him, but he knew they were leeches seeking to bleed his purse, and he wisely avoided their society.
he was very wretched and lonely: he felt ashamed to seek the society of coloured men now that the whites despised and rejected him, so he lived apart from both classes of society, and grew moody and misanthropic.
mr. balch endeavoured to persuade him to go abroad—to visit europe: he would not. he did not confess it, but the truth was, he could not tear himself away from the city where little birdie dwelt, where he now and then could catch a glimpse of her to solace him in his loneliness. he was growing paler and more fragile-looking each day, and the doctor at last frankly told him that, if he desired to live, he must seek some warmer climate for the winter.
reluctantly clarence obeyed; in the fall he left new york, and during the cold months wandered through the west india islands. for a while his health improved, but when the novelty produced by change of scene began to decline he grew worse again, and brooded more deeply than ever over his bitter disappointment, and consequently derived but little benefit from the change; the spirit was too much broken for the body to mend—his heart was too sore to beat healthily or happily.
he wrote often now to emily and her husband, and seemed desirous to atone for his past neglect. emily had written to him first; she had learned of his disappointment, and gave him a sister's sympathy in his loneliness and sorrow.
the chilly month of march had scarcely passed away when they received a letter from him informing them of his intention to return. he wrote, "i am no better, and my physician says that a longer residence here will not benefit me in the least—that i came too late. i cough, cough, cough, incessantly, and each day become more feeble. i am coming home, emmy; coming home, i fear, to die. i am but a ghost of my former self. i write you this that you may not be alarmed when you see me. it is too late now to repine, but, oh! em, if my lot had only been cast with yours—had we never been separated—i might have been to-day as happy as you are."
it was a clear bright morning when charlie stepped into a boat to be conveyed to the ship in which clarence had returned to new york: she had arrived the evening previous, and had not yet come up to the dock. the air came up the bay fresh and invigorating from the sea beyond, and the water sparkled as it dripped from the oars, which, with monotonous regularity, broke the almost unruffled surface of the bay. some of the ship's sails were shaken out to dry in the morning sun, and the cordage hung loosely and carelessly from the masts and yards. a few sailors lounged idly about the deck, and leaned over the side to watch the boat as it approached. with their aid it was soon secured alongside, and charlie clambered up the ladder, and stood upon the deck of the vessel. on inquiring for clarence, he was shown into the cabin, where he found him extended on a sofa.
he raised himself as he saw charlie approach, and, extending his hand, exclaimed,—"how kind! i did not expect you until we reached the shore."
for a moment, charlie could not speak. the shock caused by clarence's altered appearance was too great,—the change was terrible. when he had last seen him, he was vigorous-looking, erect, and healthful; now he was bent and emaciated to a frightful extent. the veins on his temples were clearly discernible; the muscles of his throat seemed like great cords; his cheeks were hollow, his sunken eyes were glassy bright and surrounded with a dark rim, and his breathing was short and evidently painful. charlie held his thin fleshless hand in his own, and gazed in his face with an anguished expression.
"i look badly,—don't i charlie?" said he, with assumed indifference; "worse than you expected, eh?"
charlie hesitated a little, and then answered,—"rather bad; but it is owing to your sea-sickness, i suppose; that has probably reduced you considerably; then this close cabin must be most unfavourable to your health. ah, wait until we get you home, we shall soon have you better."
"home!" repeated clarence,—"home! how delightful that word sounds! i feel it is going home to go to you and em." and he leant back and repeated the word "home," and paused afterward, as one touches some favourite note upon an instrument, and then silently listens to its vibrations. "how is em?" he asked at length.
"oh, well—very well," replied charlie. "she has been busy as a bee ever since she received your last letter; such a charming room as she has prepared for you!"
"ah, charlie," rejoined clarence, mournfully, "i shall not live long to enjoy it, i fear."
"nonsense!" interrupted charlie, hopefully; "don't be so desponding, clary: here is spring again,—everything is thriving and bursting into new life. you, too, will catch the spirit of the season, and grow in health and strength again. why, my dear fellow," continued he, cheerfully, "you can't help getting better when we once get hold of you. mother's gruels, doctor burdett's prescriptions, and em's nursing, would lift a man out of his coffin. come, now, don't let us hear anything more about dying."
clarence pressed his hand and looked at him affectionately, as though he appreciated his efforts to cheer him and felt thankful for them; but he only shook his head and smiled mournfully.
"let me help your man to get you up. when once you get ashore you'll feel better, i've no doubt. we are not going to an hotel, but to the house of a friend who has kindly offered to make you comfortable until you are able to travel."
with the assistance of charlie and the servant, clarence was gradually prepared to go ashore. he was exceedingly weak, could scarcely totter across the deck; and it was with some difficulty that they at last succeeded in placing him safely in the boat. after they landed, a carriage was soon procured, and in a short time thereafter clarence was comfortably established in the house of charlie's friend.
their hostess, a dear old motherly creature, declared that she knew exactly what clarence needed; and concocted such delicious broths, made such strengthening gruels, that clarence could not avoid eating, and in a day or two he declared himself better than he had been for a month, and felt quite equal to the journey to philadelphia.
the last night of their stay in new york was unusually warm; and clarence informed charlie he wished to go out for a walk. "i wish to go a long distance,—don't think me foolish when i tell you where. i want to look at the house where little birdie lives. it may be for the last time. i have a presentiment that i shall see her if i go,—i am sure i shall," added he, positively, as though he felt a conviction that his desire would be accomplished.
"i would not, clary," remonstrated charlie. "your health won't permit the exertion; it is a long distance, too, you say; and, moreover, don't you think, my dear fellow, that it is far more prudent to endeavour, if possible, to banish her from your mind entirely. don't permit yourself to think about her, if you can help it. you know she is unattainable by you, and you should make an effort to conquer your attachment."
"it is too late—too late now, charlie," he replied, mournfully. "i shall continue to love her as i do now until i draw my last breath. i know it is hopeless—i know she can never be more to me than she already is; but i cannot help loving her. let us go; i may see her once again. ah, charlie, you cannot even dream what inexpressible pleasure the merest glimpse of her affords me! come, let us go."
charlie would not permit him to attempt to walk; and they procured a carriage, in which they rode to within a short distance of the house. the mansion of mr. bates appeared quite gloomy as they approached it. the blinds were down, and no lights visible in any part of the house.
"i am afraid they are out of town," remarked charlie, when clarence pointed out the house; "everything looks so dull about it. let us cross over to the other pavement." and they walked over to the other side of the street, and gazed upward at the house.
"let us sit down here," suggested clarence,—"here, on this broad stone; it is quite dark now, and no one will observe us."
"no, no!" remonstrated charlie; "the stone is too damp and cold."
"is it?" said clarence vacantly. and taking out his handkerchief, he spread it out, and, in spite of charlie's dissuasions, sat down upon it.
"charlie," said he, after gazing at the house a long time in silence, "i have often come here and remained half the night looking at her windows. people have passed by and stared at me as though they thought me crazy; i was half crazy then, i think. one night i remember i came and sat here for hours; far in the night i saw her come to the window, throw up the casement, and look out. that was in the summer, before i went away, you know. there she stood in the moonlight, gazing upward at the sky, so pale, so calm and holy-looking, in her pure white dress, that i should not have thought it strange if the heavens had opened, and angels descended and borne her away with them on their wings." and clarence closed his eyes as he concluded, to call back upon the mirror of his mind the image of little birdie as she appeared that night.
they waited a long while, during which there was no evidence exhibited that there was any one in the house. at last, just as they were about to move away, they descried the glimmer of a light in the room which clarence declared to be her room. his frame trembled with expectation, and he walked to and fro opposite the house with an apparent strength that surprised his companion. at length the light disappeared again, and with it clarence's hopes.
"now then we must go," said charlie, "it is useless for you to expose yourself in this manner. i insist upon your coming home."
reluctantly clarence permitted himself to be led across the street again. as they were leaving the pavement, he turned to look back again, and, uttering a cry of surprise and joy, he startled charlie by clutching his arm. "look! look!" he cried, "there she is—my little birdie." charlie looked up at the window almost immediately above them, and observed a slight pale girl, who was gazing up the street in an opposite direction.
"little birdie—little birdie," whispered clarence, tenderly. she did not look toward them, but after standing there a few seconds, moved from between the curtains and disappeared.
"thank god for that!" exclaimed clarence, passionately, "i knew—i knew i should see her. i knew it," repeated he, exultingly; and then, overcome with joy, he bowed his head upon charlie's shoulder and wept like a child. "don't think me foolish, charlie," apologized he, "i cannot help it. i will go home now. oh, brother, i feel so much happier." and with a step less faint and trembling, he walked back to the carriage.
the following evening he was at home, but so enfeebled with the exertions of the last two days, as to be obliged to take to his bed immediately after his arrival. his sister greeted him affectionately, threw her arms about his neck and kissed him tenderly; years of coldness and estrangement were forgotten in that moment, and they were once more to each other as they were before they parted.
emily tried to appear as though she did not notice the great change in his appearance, and talked cheerfully and encouragingly in his presence; but she wept bitterly, when alone, over the final separation which she foresaw was not far distant.
the nest day doctor burdett called, and his grave manner and apparent disinclination to encourage any hope, confirmed the hopeless impression they already entertained.
aunt ada came from sudbury at emily's request; she knew her presence would give pleasure to clarence, she accordingly wrote her to come, and she and emily nursed by turns the failing sufferer.
esther and her husband, mrs. ellis and caddy, and even kinch, were unremitting in their attentions, and did all in their power to amuse and comfort him. day by day he faded perceptibly, grew more and more feeble, until at last doctor burdett began to number days instead of weeks as his term of life. clarence anticipated death with calmness—did not repine or murmur. father banks was often with him cheering him with hopes of a happier future beyond the grave.
one day he sent for his sister and desired her to write a letter for him. "em," said he, "i am failing fast; these fiery spots on my cheek, this scorching in my palms, these hard-drawn, difficult breaths, warn me that the time is very near. don't weep, em!" continued he, kissing her—"there, don't weep—i shall be better off—happier—i am sure! don't weep now—i want you to write to little birdie for me. i have tried, but my hand trembles so that i cannot write legibly—i gave it up. sit down beside me here, and write; here is the pen." emily dried her eyes, and mechanically sat down to write as he desired. motioning to him that she was ready, he dictated—
"my dear little birdie,—i once resolved never to write to you again, and partially promised your father that i would not; then i did not dream that i should be so soon compelled to break my resolution. little birdie, i am dying! my physician informs me that i have but a few more days to live. i have been trying to break away from earth's affairs and fix my thoughts on other and better things. i have given up all but you, and feel that i cannot relinquish you until i see you once again. do not refuse me, little birdie! show this to your father—he must consent to a request made by one on the brink of the grave."
"there, that will do; let me read it over," said he, extending his hand for the note. "yes, i will sign it now—then do you add our address. send it now, emily—send it in time for to-night's mail."
"clary, do you think she will come?" inquired his sister.
"yes," replied he, confidently; "i am sure she will if the note reaches her." emily said no more, but sealed and directed the note, which she immediately despatched to the post-office; and on the following day it reached little birdie.
from the time when the secret of clarence's birth had been discovered, until the day she had received his note, she never mentioned his name. at the demand of her father she produced his letters, miniature, and even the little presents he had given her from time to time, and laid them down before him without a murmur; after this, even when he cursed and denounced him, she only left the room, never uttering a word in his defence. she moved about like one who had received a stunning blow—she was dull, cold, apathetic. she would smile vacantly when her father smoothed her hair or kissed her cheek; but she never laughed, or sang and played, as in days gone by; she would recline for hours on the sofa in her room gazing vacantly in the air, and taking apparently no interest in anything about her. she bent her head when she walked, complained of coldness about her temples, and kept her hand constantly upon her heart.
doctors were at last consulted; they pronounced her physically well, and thought that time would restore her wonted animation; but month after month she grew more dull and silent, until her father feared she would become idiotic, and grew hopeless and unhappy about her. for a week before the receipt of the note from clarence, she had been particularly apathetic and indifferent, but it seemed to rouse her into life again. she started up after reading it, and rushed wildly through the hall into her father's library.
"see here!" exclaimed she, grasping his arm—"see there—i knew it! i've felt day after day that it was coming to that! you separated us, and now he is dying—dying!" cried she. "read it—read it!"
her father took the note, and after perusing it laid it on the table, and said coldly, "well—"
"well!" repeated she, with agitation—"oh, father, it is not well! father!" said she, hurriedly, "you bid me give him up—told me he was unworthy—pointed out to me fully and clearly why we could not marry: i was convinced we could not, for i knew you would never let it be. yet i have never ceased to love him. i cannot control my heart, but i could my voice, and never since that day have i spoken his name. i gave him up—not that i would not have gladly married, knowing what he was—because you desired it—because i saw either your heart must break or mine. i let mine go to please you, and have suffered uncomplainingly, and will so suffer until the end; but i must see him once again. it will be a pleasure to him to see me once again in his dying hour, and i must go. if you love me," continued she, pleadingly, as her father made a gesture of dissent, "let us go. you see he is dying—begs you from the brink of the grave. let me go, only to say good bye to him, and then, perhaps," concluded she, pressing her hand upon her heart, "i shall be better here."
her father had not the heart to make any objection, and the next day they started for philadelphia. they despatched a note to clarence, saying they had arrived, which emily received, and after opening it, went to gently break its contents to her brother.
"you must prepare yourself for visitors, clary," said she, "no doubt some of our friends will call to-day, the weather is so very delightful."
"do you know who is coming?" he inquired.
"yes, dear," she answered, seating herself beside him, "i have received a note stating that a particular friend will call to-day—one that you desire to see."
"ah!" he exclaimed, "it is little birdie, is it not?"
"yes," she replied, "they have arrived in town, and will be here to-day."
"did not i tell you so?" said he, triumphantly. "i knew she would come. i knew it," continued he, joyfully. "let me get up—i am strong enough—she is come—o! she has come."
clarence insisted on being dressed with extraordinary care. his long fierce-looking beard was trimmed carefully, and he looked much better than he had done for weeks; he was wonderfully stronger, walked across the room, and chatted over his breakfast with unusual animation.
at noon they came, and were shown into the drawing-room, where emily received them. mr. bates bowed politely, and expressed a hope that mr. garie was better. emily held out her hand to little birdie, who clasped it in both her own, and said, inquiringly: "you are his sister?"
"yes," answered emily. "you, i should have known from clarence's description—you are his little birdie?"
she did not reply—her lip quivered, and she pressed emily's hand and kissed her. "he is impatient to see you," resumed emily, "and if you are so disposed, we will go up immediately."
"i will remain here," observed mr. bates, "unless mr. garie particularly desires to see me. my daughter will accompany you."
emily took the hand of little birdie in her own, and they walked together up the stairway. "you must not be frightened at his appearance," she remarked, tearfully, "he is greatly changed."
little birdie only shook her head—her heart seemed too full for speech—and she stepped on a little faster, keeping her hand pressed on her breast all the while.
when they reached the door, emily was about to open it, but her companion stopped her, by saying: "wait a moment—stop! how my heart beats—it almost suffocates me." they paused for a few moments to permit little birdie to recover from her agitation, then throwing open the door they advanced into the room.
"clarence!" said his sister. he did not answer; he was looking down into the garden. she approached nearer, and gently laying her hand on his shoulder, said, "here is your little birdie, clarence." he neither moved nor spoke.
"clarence!" cried she, louder. no answer. she touched his face—it was warm. "he's fainted!" exclaimed she; and, ringing the bell violently, she screamed for help. her husband and the nurse rushed into the room; then came aunt ada and mr. bates. they bathed his temples, held strong salts to his nostrils—still he did not revive. finally, the nurse opened his bosom and placed her hand upon his heart. it was still—quite still: clarence was dead!
at first they could not believe it. "let me speak to him," exclaimed little
birdie, distractedly; "he will hear my voice, and answer. clarence!
clarence!" she cried. all in vain—all in vain. clarence was dead!
they gently bore her away. that dull, cold look came back again upon her face, and left it never more in life. she walked about mournfully for a few years, pressing her hand upon her heart; and then passed away to join her lover, where distinctions in race or colour are unknown, and where the prejudices of earth cannot mar their happiness.
our tale is now soon finished. they buried clarence beside his parents; coloured people followed him to his last home, and wept over his grave. of all the many whites that he had known, aunt ada and mr. balch were the only ones that mingled their tears with those who listened to the solemn words of father banks, "ashes to ashes, dust to dust."
we, too, clarence, cast a tear upon thy tomb—poor victim of prejudice to thy colour! and deem thee better off resting upon thy cold pillow of earth, than battling with that malignant sentiment that persecuted thee, and has crushed energy, hope, and life from many stronger hearts.
aunt ada bell remained for a short time with emily, and then returned to sudbury, where, during the remainder of her life, she never omitted an opportunity of doing a kindness to a coloured person; and when the increasing liberality of sentiment opened a way for the admission of coloured pupils to the famous schools of sudbury, they could always procure board at her house, and aunt ada was a friend and mother to them.
walters and dear old ess reared a fine family; and the brown baby and her sister took numberless premiums at school, to the infinite delight of their parents. they also had a boy, whom they named "charlie;" he inherited his uncle's passionate fondness for marbles, which fondness, it has been ascertained, is fostered by his uncle, who, 'tis said, furnishes the sinews of war when there is a dearth in the treasury of master walters.
kinch and caddy were finally united, after various difficulties raised by the latter, who found it almost impossible to procure a house in such a state of order as would warrant her entering upon the blissful state of matrimony. when it was all over, kinch professed to his acquaintances generally to be living in a perfect state of bliss; but he privately intimated to charlie that if caddy would permit him to come in at the front door, and not condemn him to go through the alley, whenever there happened to be a shower—and would let him smoke where he liked—he would be much more contented. when last heard from they had a little caddy, the very image of its mother—a wonderful little girl, who, instead of buying candy and cake with her sixpences, as other children did, gravely invested them in miniature wash-boards and dust-brushes, and was saving up her money to purchase a tiny stove with a full set of cooking utensils. caddy declares her a child worth having.
charles and emily took a voyage to europe for the health of the latter, and returned after a two years' tour to settle permanently in his native city. they were unremitting in their attention to father and mother ellis, who lived to good old age, surrounded by their children and grandchildren.
