at last, having worn itself out, as sailors say, the storm began to lessen: first showing its weakening by losing its little lulls and fiercer gusts after them, and then dropping from a tempest to a mere gale—that in turn fell slowly to a gentle wind. but even after the wind had fallen, and for a good while after, the ship labored in a tremendous sea.
as i grew easier in my mind and body, and so could think a little, i wondered why my friend the doctor did not come to me; and when at last my door was opened i looked eagerly—my eyes being the only free part of me—to see him come in. but it was the steward who entered, and i had a little sharp pang of disappointment because i missed the face that i wanted to see. however, the man stooped over me, kindly enough, and lifted off the mattress and did his best to make me comfortable; only when i asked him where the doctor was he pretty dismally shook his head.
"it's th' doctor himself is needin' doctorin', poor soul," he answered, "he bein' with his right leg broke, and with his blessed head broke a-most as bad as yours!" and then he told me that when the storm was near ended the doctor had gone on deck to have a look at things, and almost the minute he got there had been knocked over by a falling spar. "for th' old ship's shook a-most to pieces," the man went on; "with th' foremast clean overboard, an' th' mizzen so wobbly that it's dancin' a jig every time she pitches, and everything at rags an' tatters of loose ends."
"but the doctor?" i asked.
"he says himself, sir, that he's not dangerous, and i s'pose he ought to know. th' captain an' th' purser together, he orderin' 'em, have set his leg for him; and his head, he says, 'll take care of itself, bein' both thick an' hard. but he's worryin' painful because he can't look after you, sir, an' th' four or five others that got hurt in th' storm. and i can tell you, sir," the man went on, "that all th' ship's company, an' th' passengers on top of 'em, are sick with sorrow that this has happened to him; for there's not a soul ever comes near th' doctor but loves him for his goodness, and we'd all be glad to break our own legs this minute if by that we could be mendin' his!"
the steward spoke very feelingly and earnestly, and with what he said i was in thorough sympathy; for the doctor's care of me and his friendliness had won my heart to him, just as it had won to him the hearts of all on board. but there was comfort in knowing that he had got off with only a broken leg and a broken head from a peril that so easily might have been the death of him, and of that consolation i made the most—while the steward, who was a handy fellow and pretty well trained as a surgeon's assistant, freshly bandaged my head for me as the doctor had ordered him to do, and so set me much more at my ease. after that, for the rest of the day, he came every hour or so to look after me; giving me some broth to eat and a biscuit, and some medicine that the doctor sent me with the message that it would put strength enough into a dead pig to set him to dancing—by which i knew that even if his head and leg were broken there was no break in his whimsical fun.
the steward was the only man who came near me; but this did not surprise me when he told me more about the condition that the ship was in, and how all hands—excepting himself, who had been detailed because of his knowledge that way to look after the hurt people under the doctor's direction—were hard at work making repairs, with what men there were among the passengers helping too. the ship was not leaking, he said, and this was the luckier because her frame was so strained that it was doubtful if her water-tight compartments would hold; but the foremast had been carried away, and all the weather-boats had been mashed out of all shape or swept overboard, and the mizzen was so shaky that it seemed likely at any moment to fall. indeed, the mast was in such a bad way, he said, that the first and second officers were for getting rid of it—and of the danger that there was of its coming down all in a heap anyway—by sending it overboard; but that the captain thought it safe to stand now that the sea was getting smooth again, and was setting up jury-stays to hold it until we made the azores—for which islands our course was laid.
by the time that night came again the sea had pretty well gone down, and beyond the easy roll that was on her the ship had no motion save the steady vibration of her screw. with this comforting change the pain in my head became only a dull heavy aching, and i had a chance to feel how utterly weary i was after the strain of mind and body that had been put on me by the gale. a little after eight o'clock, as i knew by hearing the ship's bell striking—and mighty pleasant it was to hear regularly that orderly sound again—the steward brought me a bowl of broth and propped me up in my berth while i drank it; and cheered me by telling me that the doctor was swearing at his broken leg like a good fellow, and was getting on very well indeed. and then my weariness had its way with me, and i fell off into that deep sleep which comes to a man only when all his energy has slipped away from him on a dead low tide. how long i slept i do not know. but i do know that i was routed suddenly into wakefulness by a jar that almost pitched me out of my berth, and that an instant later there was a tremendous crash as though the whole deck above me was smashing to pieces, and with this a rattle of light woodwork splintering and the sharp tinkling of breaking glass. for a moment there was silence; and then i heard shouts and screams close by me in the cabin, and a little later a great trampling on deck, and then the screw stopped turning and there was a roar of escaping steam.
i was so heavy with sleep that at first i thought we still were in the storm and that this commotion was a part of it; but as i shook off my drowsiness i got a clearer notion of the situation—remembering what the steward had told me of the condition of the mizzen-mast, and so arriving at the conclusion that it had fetched away bodily and had come crashing through the cabin skylight in its fall. but what the shock was that had sent it flying—unless we had been in collision—i could not understand. and all this while the trampling on deck continued, and out in the cabin the shouts and cries went on.
i thought that the steward would come to me—forgetting that in times of danger men are apt to think only of saving their own skins—and so laid still; being, indeed, so weak and wretched that it did not seem possible to me to do anything else. but he did not come, and at the end of what seemed to me to be a desperately long time—though i doubt if it were more than five minutes—i realized that i must try to do something to help myself; and was the more nerved to action by the fact that there no longer was the sound of voices in the cabin, while the noises on deck a good deal had increased. indeed, i began to hear up there the puffing and snorting of the donkey-engine, and so felt certain that they were hoisting out the boats.
somehow or another i managed to get out of my berth, and on my feet, and so to the door; but when i tried to open the door i could not budge it, and in the darkness i struck my head against what seemed to be a bar of wood that stuck in through one of the upper panels and so held it fast. the blow dizzied me, for it took me close to where my cut was and put me into intense pain.
while i stood there, pulling in a weak way at the door-knob and making nothing of it, i heard voices out in the cabin and through my broken door saw a gleam of light. but in the moment that my hope rose it went down again, for i heard some one say quickly and sharply: "it's no good. the way the spar lies we can't get at him—and to cut it through would take an hour."
and then a voice that i recognized for the steward's answered: "but the doctor ordered it. where's an axe for a try?" to which the other man answered back again: "if it was the doctor himself we couldn't do it, and we'll tell him so. the ship'll be down in five minutes. we've got to run for it or the boats'll be off." and then away they ran together, giving no heed in their fright to my yells after them to come back and not leave me there to drown.
for a little while i was as nearly wild crazy as a man can be and yet have a purpose in his mind. the keen sense of my peril made me strong again. i kicked with my bare feet and pounded with my hands upon the door to break it, i shouted for help to come to me, and i gave out shrill screams of terror such as brutes give in their agony—for i was down to the hard-pan of human nature, and what i felt most strongly was the purely animal longing to keep alive.
but no one answered me, and i could tell by the sounds on deck getting fainter that some of the boats already had put off; and in a little while longer no sound came from the deck of any sort whatever, and by that i knew that all the boats must have got away. and as i realized that i was forsaken, and felt sure from what i had heard that the ship would float for only a few minutes longer, i gave a cry of downright despair—and then i lost track of the whole bad business by tumbling to the floor in the darkness in a dead swoon.
