when i perceived the tight fix that i was in my broken head went to throbbing again, and my legs were so shaky under me that i had to sit down on the deck in a hurry in order to save myself from a fall. indeed, i was in no condition to face even an ordinary trouble, let alone an overwhelming disaster; for what with my loss of blood from the cut on my head, and the little food i had eaten since i got it, i was as weak as a cat.
luckily i had the sense to realize that i needed the strength which food would give me in order to save myself from dropping off into sheer despair. and with the thought of eating there suddenly woke up in my inside a hungry feeling that surprised me by its sharpness; and instantly put such vigor into my shaky legs that i was up on them in a moment, and off to the companion-way to begin my explorations below. and when, being come to the cabin again, i had another sup of don josé's wine i got quite ravenous, and felt strong enough to kick a door in—if that should be necessary—in order to satisfy my craving for food.
there was no need for staving in doors, for none of them was fastened; but it was some little time—because of my ignorance of the arrangement of steamships—before i could find one that had things to eat on the other side of it. around the cabin, and along the passage leading forward, were only state-rooms; but just beyond the companion-way i came at last to the pantry—and beyond this again, as i found later, were the store-rooms and the galley. for the moment, however, the pantry gave me all that i wanted. in a covered box i found some loaves of bread, and in a big refrigerator a lot of cold victuals that set my eyes to dancing—two or three roast fowls, part of a big joint of beef, a boiled tongue, and so on; and, what was almost as welcome, in another division of the refrigerator a dozen or more bottles of beer. on the racks above were dishes and glasses, in a locker were knives and forks, and i even found hanging on a hook a corkscrew—and the quickness with which i brought these various things together and made them serve my purposes was a sight to see!
when i had eaten nearly a whole fowl, and had drunk a bottle of beer with it, i felt like another man; and then, pursuing my investigations more leisurely, i found in one of the lockers—which i took the liberty of prying open with a big carving-knife—four or five boxes of capital cigars. in the same locker was a package of safety-matches, and in a moment i was puffing away with such satisfaction that i fairly grew light-hearted—so great is the comfort that comes to a man with good smoking on top of a hearty meal. all sorts of bright fancies came to me: of making one of the battered boats serviceable again and getting off in it, of a ship blown out of her course coming to my rescue, of a strong southerly wind that would carry the hulk of the poor old hurst castle back again into the inhabited parts of the sea. and with these thoughts cheering me i set myself to work to find out just what i had in the way of provisions aboard my shattered craft.
i did not have to search far nor long to satisfy myself that i had a bigger stock of food by me than i could eat in a dozen years. forward of the galley were the store-rooms: a cold-room, with a plenty of ice still in it, in which was hanging a great quantity of fresh meat; a wine-room, very well stocked and containing also some cases of tobacco and cigars; and in the other rooms was stuff enough to fit up a big grocery shop on shore—hams and bacon and potted meats, and a great variety of vegetables in tins, and all sorts of sweets and sauces and table-delicacies in tins and in glass. indeed, although i was full to the chin with the meal that i had just eaten, my mouth fairly watered at sight of all these good things. in the bakery i found only a loaf or two of bread, and this—as it was lying on the floor—i suppose must have been dropped in the scramble while the boats were being provisioned; but in the baker's store-room were a good many cases of fine biscuit, and more than twenty barrels of flour. in addition to all this, i did not doubt that somewhere on board was an equally large store of provisions for the use of the crew; but with that i did not bother myself, being satisfied to fare as a cabin-passenger on the good things which i had found. finally, two of the big water-tanks still were full—the others, as i inferred from the cocks being open, having been emptied for the supply of the boats; and as a reserve—leaving rain out of the question—i had the ice to fall back upon, of which there was so great a quantity that it alone would last me for a long while. in a word, so far as eating and drinking were concerned, i was as well off as a man could be anywhere—having by me not only all the necessaries of life but most of its luxuries as well.
finding all these good things cheered me and put heart in me in much the same way that i was cheered and heartened by finding my floating mast after captain luke and the mate chucked me overboard. again i had the certainty that death for a while could not get a chance at me; and this second reprieve was of a more promising sort than that which my mast had given me in the open sea. on board the steamer, or what was left of her, i was sure of being in positive comfort so long as she floated; and my good spirits made me so sanguine that i was confident she would keep on floating until i struck out some plan by which i could get safe away from her, or until rescue came to me by some lucky turn of chance. and so, having completed my tour of inspection, and my general inventory of the property to which by right of survival i had fallen heir, i went on deck again in a very hopeful mood.
even the utter wreck and confusion into which the steamer had fallen, when i got to the deck and saw it again, did not crush the hope out of me as it did when i came upon it—being then weak and famished—for the first time. i even found a cause for greater hopefulness in observing that the water-line still stood, as it had stood an hour and more earlier, a little forward of the main-mast; for that showed that the water-tight compartments were holding, and that the hulk was in no immediate danger of going down. it did seem, to be sure, that the haze had grown a little thicker, and that the weed and wreckage around the steamer were thicker too; and i was convinced that my hulk was moving—or that the flotsam about it was moving—by seeing a broken boat floating bottom upward that i was sure was not in sight when i went below. but i argued with myself cheerfully that the thickening of the haze might be due to a wind coming down on me that would blow it clean away; and that a small thing like an empty boat drifting down from windward proved that the hurst castle herself was moving southward very slowly, or perhaps was not moving at all. and so, still in good spirits, i set myself to looking carefully for something that would float me, in case i decided to abandon the hulk and make a dash for it—on the chance of falling in with a passing vessel—out over the open sea.
but when i had made the round of the deck—at least of the part of it that was out of water—i had to admit that getting away from the steamer was a sheer impossibility, unless i might manage it by cobbling together some sort of a raft. it had been all very well for me to fancy, while i was being cheered with chicken and beer and tobacco down in the pantry, that i could make one of the battered boats sea-worthy; but my round of the deck showed me that with all my training in mechanics i never could make one of them float again—for the sea had wrenched and hammered them until they were no better than so much old iron. the raft, certainly, was a possibility. spars that would serve for its body were lying around in plenty, and with the doors from the rooms below i could deck it over so as to make it both solid and dry; and somewhere aboard the ship, no doubt, were carpenter's tools—though, most likely, they were down under water forward and could be come at only by diving for them. still, the raft was a possibility; and so was comforting to think about as giving me another reprieve from drowning in case the water-tight compartments broke down—and as that break might come at any moment, and as the job would take me two days at the shortest, i realized that i could not set about it too soon.