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DEATH AND THE CHILD I

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the peasants who were streaming down the mountain trail had in their sharp terror evidently lost their ability to count. the cattle and the huge round bundles seemed to suffice to the minds of the crowd if there were now two in each case where there had been three. this brown stream poured on with a constant wastage of goods and beasts. a goat fell behind to scout the dried grass and its owner, howling, flogging his donkeys, passed far ahead. a colt, suddenly frightened, made a stumbling charge up the hill-side. the expenditure was always profligate and always unnamed, unnoted. it was as if fear was a river, and this horde had simply been caught in the torrent, man tumbling over beast, beast over man, as helpless in it as the logs that fall and shoulder grindingly through the gorges of a lumber country. it was a freshet that might sear the face of the tall quiet mountain; it might draw a livid line across the land, this downpour of fear with a thousand homes adrift in the current—men, women, babes, animals. from it there arose a constant babble of tongues, shrill, broken, and sometimes choking as from men drowning. many made gestures, painting their agonies on the air with fingers that twirled swiftly.

the blue bay with its pointed ships and the white town lay below them, distant, flat, serene. there was upon this vista a peace that a bird knows when high in the air it surveys the world, a great calm thing rolling noiselessly toward the end of the mystery. here on the height one felt the existence of the universe scornfully defining the pain in ten thousand minds. the sky was an arch of stolid sapphire. even to the mountains raising their mighty shapes from the valley, this headlong rush of the fugitives was too minute. the sea, the sky, and the hills combined in their grandeur to term this misery inconsequent. then too it sometimes happened that a face seen as it passed on the flood reflected curiously the spirit of them all and still more. one saw then a woman of the opinion of the vaults above the clouds. when a child cried it cried always because of some adjacent misfortune, some discomfort of a pack-saddle or rudeness of an encircling arm. in the dismal melody of this flight there were often sounding chords of apathy. into these preoccupied countenances, one felt that needles could be thrust without purchasing a scream. the trail wound here and there as the sheep had willed in the making of it.

although this throng seemed to prove that the whole of humanity was fleeing in one direction—with every tie severed that binds us to the soil—a young man was walking rapidly up the mountain, hastening to a side of the path from time to time to avoid some particularly wide rush of people and cattle. he looked at everything in agitation and pity. frequently he called admonitions to maniacal fugitives, and at other moments he exchanged strange stares with the imperturbable ones. they seemed to him to wear merely the expressions of so many boulders rolling down the hill. he exhibited wonder and awe with his pitying glances.

turning once toward the rear, he saw a man in the uniform of a lieutenant of infantry marching the same way. he waited then, subconsciously elate at a prospect of being able to make into words the emotion which heretofore had only been expressed in the flash of eyes and sensitive movements of his flexible mouth. he spoke to the officer in rapid french, waving his arms wildly, and often pointing with a dramatic finger. "ah, this is too cruel, too cruel, too cruel. is it not? i did not think it would be as bad as this. i did not think—god's mercy—i did not think at all. and yet i am a greek. or at least my father was a greek. i did not come here to fight. i am really a correspondent, you see? i was to write for an italian paper. i have been educated in italy. i have spent nearly all my life in italy. at the schools and universities! i knew nothing of war! i was a student—a student. i came here merely because my father was a greek, and for his sake i thought of greece—i loved greece. but i did not dream——"

he paused, breathing heavily. his eyes glistened from that soft overflow which comes on occasion to the glance of a young woman. eager, passionate, profoundly moved, his first words, while facing the procession of fugitives, had been an active definition of his own dimension, his personal relation to men, geography, life. throughout he had preserved the fiery dignity of a tragedian.

the officer's manner at once deferred to this outburst. "yes," he said, polite but mournful, "these poor people! these poor people! i do not know what is to become of these poor people."

the young man declaimed again. "i had no dream—i had no dream that it would be like this! this is too cruel! too cruel! now i want to be a soldier. now i want to fight. now i want to do battle for the land of my father." he made a sweeping gesture into the north-west.

the officer was also a young man, but he was very bronzed and steady. above his high military collar of crimson cloth with one silver star upon it, appeared a profile stern, quiet, and confident, respecting fate, fearing only opinion. his clothes were covered with dust; the only bright spot was the flame of the crimson collar. at the violent cries of his companion he smiled as if to himself, meanwhile keeping his eyes fixed in a glance ahead.

from a land toward which their faces were bent came a continuous boom of artillery fire. it was sounding in regular measures like the beating of a colossal clock, a clock that was counting the seconds in the lives of the stars, and men had time to die between the ticks. solemn, oracular, inexorable, the great seconds tolled over the hills as if god fronted this dial rimmed by the horizon. the soldier and the correspondent found themselves silent. the latter in particular was sunk in a great mournfulness, as if he had resolved willy-nilly to swing to the bottom of the abyss where dwell secrets of his kind, and had learned beforehand that all to be met there was cruelty and hopelessness. a strap of his bright new leather leggings came unfastened, and he bowed over it slowly, impressively, as one bending over the grave of a child.

then suddenly, the reverberations mingled until one could not separate an explosion from another, and into the hubbub came the drawling sound of a leisurely musketry fire. instantly, for some reason of cadence, the noise was irritating, silly, infantile. this uproar was childish. it forced the nerves to object, to protest against this racket which was as idle as the din of a lad with a drum.

the lieutenant lifted his finger and pointed. he spoke in vexed tones, as if he held the other man personally responsible for the noise. "well, there!" he said. "if you wish for war you now have an opportunity magnificent."

the correspondent raised himself upon his toes. he tapped his chest with gloomy pride. "yes! there is war! there is the war i wish to enter. i fling myself in. i am a greek, a greek, you understand. i wish to fight for my country. you know the way. lead me. i offer myself." struck by a sudden thought he brought a case from his pocket, and extracting a card handed it to the officer with a bow. "my name is peza," he said simply.

a strange smile passed over the soldier's face. there was pity and pride—the vanity of experience—and contempt in it. "very well," he said, returning the bow. "if my company is in the middle of the fight i shall be glad for the honour of your companionship. if my company is not in the middle of the fight—i will make other arrangements for you."

peza bowed once more, very stiffly, and correctly spoke his thanks. on the edge of what he took to be a great venture toward death, he discovered that he was annoyed at something in the lieutenant's tone. things immediately assumed new and extraordinary proportions. the battle, the great carnival of woe, was sunk at once to an equation with a vexation by a stranger. he wanted to ask the lieutenant what was his meaning. he bowed again majestically; the lieutenant bowed. they flung a shadow of manners, of capering tinsel ceremony across a land that groaned, and it satisfied something within themselves completely.

in the meantime, the river of fleeing villagers had changed to simply a last dropping of belated creatures, who fled past stammering and flinging their hands high. the two men had come to the top of the great hill. before them was a green plain as level as an inland sea. it swept northward, and merged finally into a length of silvery mist. upon the near part of this plain, and upon two grey treeless mountains at the side of it, were little black lines from which floated slanting sheets of smoke. it was not a battle to the nerves. one could survey it with equanimity, as if it were a tea-table; but upon peza's mind it struck a loud clanging blow. it was war. edified, aghast, triumphant, he paused suddenly, his lips apart. he remembered the pageants of carnage that had marched through the dreams of his childhood. love he knew that he had confronted, alone, isolated, wondering, an individual, an atom taking the hand of a titanic principle. but, like the faintest breeze on his forehead, he felt here the vibration from the hearts of forty thousand men.

the lieutenant's nostrils were moving. "i must go at once," he said. "i must go at once."

"i will go with you wherever you go," shouted peza loudly.

a primitive track wound down the side of the mountain, and in their rush they bounded from here to there, choosing risks which in the ordinary caution of man would surely have seemed of remarkable danger. the ardour of the correspondent surpassed the full energy of the soldier. several times he turned and shouted, "come on! come on!"

at the foot of the path they came to a wide road, which extended toward the battle in a yellow and straight line. some men were trudging wearily to the rear. they were without rifles; their clumsy uniforms were dirty and all awry. they turned eyes dully aglow with fever upon the pair striding toward the battle. others were bandaged with the triangular kerchief upon which one could still see through bloodstains the little explanatory pictures illustrating the ways to bind various wounds. "fig. 1."—"fig. 2."—"fig. 7." mingled with the pacing soldiers were peasants, indifferent, capable of smiling, gibbering about the battle, which was to them an ulterior drama. a man was leading a string of three donkeys to the rear, and at intervals he was accosted by wounded or fevered soldiers, from whom he defended his animals with ape-like cries and mad gesticulation. after much chattering they usually subsided gloomily, and allowed him to go with his sleek little beasts unburdened. finally he encountered a soldier who walked slowly with the assistance of a staff. his head was bound with a wide bandage, grimey from blood and mud. he made application to the peasant, and immediately they were involved in a hideous levantine discussion. the peasant whined and clamoured, sometimes spitting like a kitten. the wounded soldier jawed on thunderously, his great hands stretched in claw-like graspings over the peasant's head. once he raised his staff and made threat with it. then suddenly the row was at an end. the other sick men saw their comrade mount the leading donkey and at once begin to drum with his heels. none attempted to gain the backs of the remaining animals. they gazed after them dully. finally they saw the caravan outlined for a moment against the sky. the soldier was still waving his arms passionately, having it out with the peasant.

peza was alive with despair for these men who looked at him with such doleful, quiet eyes. "ah, my god!" he cried to the lieutenant, "these poor souls! these poor souls!"

the officer faced about angrily. "if you are coming with me there is no time for this." peza obeyed instantly and with a sudden meekness. in the moment some portion of egotism left him, and he modestly wondered if the universe took cognizance of him to an important degree. this theatre for slaughter, built by the inscrutable needs of the earth, was an enormous affair, and he reflected that the accidental destruction of an individual, peza by name, would perhaps be nothing at all.

with the lieutenant he was soon walking along behind a series of little crescent-shape trenches, in which were soldiers, tranquilly interested, gossiping with the hum of a tea-party. although these men were not at this time under fire, he concluded that they were fabulously brave. else they would not be so comfortable, so at home in their sticky brown trenches. they were certain to be heavily attacked before the day was old. the universities had not taught him to understand this attitude.

at the passing of the young man in very nice tweed, with his new leggings, his new white helmet, his new field-glass case, his new revolver holster, the soiled soldiers turned with the same curiosity which a being in strange garb meets at the corners of streets. he might as well have been promenading a populous avenue. the soldiers volubly discussed his identity.

to peza there was something awful in the absolute familiarity of each tone, expression, gesture. these men, menaced with battle, displayed the curiosity of the café. then, on the verge of his great encounter toward death, he found himself extremely embarrassed, composing his face with difficulty, wondering what to do with his hands, like a gawk at a levée.

he felt ridiculous, and also he felt awed, aghast, at these men who could turn their faces from the ominous front and debate his clothes, his business. there was an element which was new born into his theory of war. he was not averse to the brisk pace at which the lieutenant moved along the line.

the roar of fighting was always in peza's ears. it came from some short hills ahead and to the left. the road curved suddenly and entered a wood. the trees stretched their luxuriant and graceful branches over grassy slopes. a breeze made all this verdure gently rustle and speak in long silken sighs. absorbed in listening to the hurricane racket from the front, he still remembered that these trees were growing, the grass-blades were extending according to their process. he inhaled a deep breath of moisture and fragrance from the grove, a wet odour which expressed all the opulent fecundity of unmoved nature, marching on with her million plans for multiple life, multiple death.

further on, they came to a place where the turkish shells were landing. there was a long hurtling sound in the air, and then one had sight of a shell. to peza it was of the conical missiles which friendly officers had displayed to him on board warships. curiously enough, too, this first shell smacked of the foundry, of men with smudged faces, of the blare of furnace fires. it brought machinery immediately into his mind. he thought that if he was killed there at that time it would be as romantic, to the old standards, as death by a bit of falling iron in a factory.

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