she certainly made up with susie directly, however, for any allowance she might have had privately to extend to tepid appreciation; since the late and long talks of these two embraced not only everything offered and suggested by the hours they spent apart, but a good deal more besides. she might be as detached as the occasion required at four o'clock in the afternoon, but she used no such freedom to any one about anything as she habitually used about everything to susan shepherd at midnight. all the same, it should with much less delay than this have been mentioned, she had not yet—had not, that is, at the end of six days—produced any news for her comrade to compare with an announcement made her by the latter as a result of a drive with mrs. lowder, for a change, in the remarkable battersea park. the elder friends had sociably revolved there while the younger ones followed bolder fancies in the admirable equipage appointed to milly at the hotel—a heavier, more emblazoned, more amusing chariot than she had ever, with "stables" notoriously mismanaged, known at home; whereby, in the course of the circuit, more than once repeated, it had "come out," as mrs. stringham said, that the couple at lancaster gate were, of all people, acquainted with mildred's other english friend—the gentleman, the one connected with the english newspaper (susie hung fire a little over his name) who had been with her in new york so shortly previous to present adventures. he had been named of course in battersea park—else he couldn't have been identified; and susie had naturally, before she could produce her own share in the matter as a kind of confession, to make it plain that her allusion was to mr. merton densher. this was because milly had at first a little air of not knowing whom she meant; and the girl really kept, as well, a certain control of herself while she remarked that the case was surprising, the chance one in a thousand. they knew him, both maud and miss croy knew him, she gathered too, rather well, though indeed it was not on any show of intimacy that he had happened to be mentioned. it had not been—susie made the point—she herself who brought him in: he had in fact not been brought in at all, but only referred to as a young journalist known to mrs. lowder and who had lately gone to their wonderful country—mrs. lowder always said "your wonderful country"—on behalf of his journal. but mrs. stringham had taken it up—with the tips of her fingers indeed; and that was the confession: she had, without meaning any harm, recognised mr. densher as an acquaintance of milly's, though she had also pulled herself up before getting in too far. mrs. lowder had been struck, clearly—it wasn't too much to say; then she also, it had rather seemed, had pulled herself up; and there had been a little moment during which each might have been keeping something from the other. "only," said milly's mate, "i luckily remembered in time that i had nothing whatever to keep—which was much simpler and nicer. i don't know what maud has, but there it is. she was interested, distinctly, in your knowing him—in his having met you over there with so little loss of time. but i ventured to tell her it hadn't been so long as to make you as yet great friends. i don't know if i was right."

whatever time this explanation might have taken, there had been moments enough in the matter now—before the elder woman's conscience had done itself justice—to enable milly to reply that although the fact in question doubtless had its importance she imagined they wouldn't find the importance overwhelming. it was odd that their one englishman should so instantly fit; it wasn't, however, miraculous—they surely all had often seen that, as every one said, the world was extraordinarily "small." undoubtedly, too, susie had done just the plain thing in not letting his name pass. why in the world should there be a mystery?—and what an immense one they would appear to have made if he should come back and find they had concealed their knowledge of him! "i don't know, susie dear," the girl observed, "what you think i have to conceal."

"it doesn't matter, at a given moment," mrs. stringham returned, "what you know or don't know as to what i think; for you always find out the very next moment, and when you do find out, dearest, you never really care. only," she presently asked, "have you heard of him from miss croy?"

"heard of mr. densher? never a word. we haven't mentioned him. why should we?"

"that you haven't, i understand; but that she hasn't," susie opined, "may mean something."

"may mean what?"

"well," mrs. stringham presently brought out, "i tell you all when i tell you that maud asks me to suggest to you that it may perhaps be better for the present not to speak of him: not to speak of him to her niece, that is, unless she herself speaks to you first. but maud thinks she won't."

milly was ready to engage for anything; but in respect to the facts—as they so far possessed them—it all sounded a little complicated. "is it because there's anything between them?"

"no—i gather not; but maud's state of mind is precautionary. she's afraid of something. or perhaps it would be more correct to say she's afraid of everything."

"she's afraid, you mean," milly asked, "of their—a—liking each other?"

susie had an intense thought and then an effusion. "my dear child, we move in a labyrinth."

"of course we do. that's just the fun of it!" said milly with a strange gaiety. then she added: "don't tell me that—in this for instance—there are not abysses. i want abysses."

her friend looked at her—it was not unfrequently the case—a little harder than the surface of the occasion seemed to require; and another person present at such times might have wondered to what inner thought of her own the good lady was trying to fit the speech. it was too much her disposition, no doubt, to treat her young companion's words as symptoms of an imputed malady. it was none the less, however, her highest law to be light when the girl was light. she knew how to be quaint with the new quaintness—the great boston gift; it had been, happily, her note in the magazines; and maud lowder, to whom it was new indeed and who had never heard anything remotely like it, quite cherished her, as a social resource, for it. it should not therefore fail her now; with it in fact one might face most things. "ah, then let us hope we shall sound the depths—i'm prepared for the worst—of sorrow and sin! but she would like her niece—we're not ignorant of that, are we?—to marry lord mark. hasn't she told you so?"

"hasn't mrs. lowder told me?"

"no; hasn't kate? it isn't, you know, that she doesn't know it."

milly had, under her comrade's eyes, a minute of mute detachment. she had lived with kate croy for several days in a state of intimacy as deep as it had been sudden, and they had clearly, in talk, in many directions, proceeded to various extremities. yet it now came over her as in a clear cold way that there was a possible account of their relations in which the quantity her new friend had told her might have figured as small, as smallest, beside the quantity she hadn't. she couldn't say, at any rate, whether or no she had made the point that her aunt designed her for lord mark: it had only sufficiently come out—which had been, moreover, eminently guessable—that she was involved in her aunt's designs. somehow, for milly, brush it over nervously as she might and with whatever simplifying hand, this abrupt extrusion of mr. densher altered all proportions, had an effect on all values. it was fantastic of her to let it make a difference that she couldn't in the least have defined—and she was at least, even during these instants, rather proud of being able to hide, on the spot, the difference it did make. yet, all the same, the effect for her was, almost violently, of mr. densher's having been there—having been where she had stood till now in her simplicity—before her. it would have taken but another free moment to make her see abysses—since abysses were what she wanted—in the mere circumstance of his own silence, in new york, about his english friends. there had really been in new york little time for anything; but, had she liked, milly could have made it out for herself that he had avoided the subject of miss croy, and that miss croy was yet a subject it could never be natural to avoid. it was to be added at the same time that even if his silence had been labyrinthe—which was absurd in view of all the other things too he couldn't possibly have spoken of—this was exactly what must suit her, since it fell under the head of the plea she had just uttered to susie. these things, however, came and went, and it set itself up between the companions, for the occasion, in the oddest way, both that their happening all to know mr. densher—except indeed that susie didn't, but probably would,—was a fact belonging, in a world of rushing about, to one of the common orders of chance; and yet further that it was amusing—oh, awfully amusing!—to be able fondly to hope that there was "something in" its having been left to crop up with such suddenness. there seemed somehow a possibility that the ground or, as it were, the air might, in a manner, have undergone some pleasing preparation; though the question of this possibility would probably, after all, have taken some threshing out. the truth, moreover—and there they were, already, our pair, talking about it, the "truth!"—had not in fact quite cropped out. this, obviously, in view of mrs. lowder's request to her old friend.

it was accordingly on mrs. lowder's recommendation that nothing should be said to kate—it was on this rich attitude of aunt maud's that the idea of an interesting complication might best hope to perch; and when, in fact, after the colloquy we have reported milly saw kate again without mentioning any name, her silence succeeded in passing muster with her as the beginning of a new sort of fun. the sort was all the newer by reason of its containing a small element of anxiety: when she had gone in for fun before it had been with her hands a little more free. yet it was, none the less, rather exciting to be conscious of a still sharper reason for interest in the handsome girl, as kate continued, even now, pre-eminently to remain for her; and a reason—this was the great point—of which the young woman herself could have no suspicion. twice over, thus, for two or three hours together, milly found herself seeing kate, quite fixing her in the light of the knowledge that it was a face on which mr. densher's eyes had more or less familiarly rested and which, by the same token, had looked, rather more beautifully than less, into his own. she pulled herself up indeed with the thought that it had inevitably looked, as beautifully as one would, into thousands of faces in which one might one's self never trace it; but just the odd result of the thought was to intensify for the girl that side of her friend which she had doubtless already been more prepared than she quite knew to think of as the "other," the not wholly calculable. it was fantastic, and milly was aware of this; but the other side was what had, of a sudden, been turned straight towards her by the show of mr. densher's propinquity. she hadn't the excuse of knowing it for kate's own, since nothing whatever as yet proved it particularly to be such. never mind; it was with this other side now fully presented that kate came and went, kissed her for greeting and for parting, talked, as usual, of everything but—as it had so abruptly become for milly—the thing. our young woman, it is true, would doubtless not have tasted so sharply a difference in this pair of occasions had she not been tasting so peculiarly her own possible betrayals. what happened was that afterwards, on separation, she wondered if the matter had not mainly been that she herself was so "other," so taken up with the unspoken; the strangest thing of all being, still subsequently, that when she asked herself how kate could have failed to feel it she became conscious of being here on the edge of a great darkness. she should never know how kate truly felt about anything such a one as milly theale should give her to feel. kate would never—and not from ill-will, nor from duplicity, but from a sort of failure of common terms—reduce it to such a one's comprehension or put it within her convenience.

it was as such a one, therefore, that, for three or four days more, milly watched kate as just such another; and it was presently as such a one that she threw herself into their promised visit, at last achieved, to chelsea, the quarter of the famous carlyle, the field of exercise of his ghost, his votaries, and the residence of "poor marian," so often referred to and actually a somewhat incongruous spirit there. with our young woman's first view of poor marian everything gave way but the sense of how, in england, apparently, the social situation of sisters could be opposed, how common ground, for a place in the world, could quite fail them: a state of things sagely perceived to be involved in an hierarchical, an aristocratic order. just whereabouts in the order mrs. lowder had established her niece was a question not wholly void, as yet, no doubt, of ambiguity—though milly was withal sure lord mark could exactly have fixed the point if he would, fixing it at the same time for aunt maud herself; but it was clear that mrs. condrip was, as might have been said, in quite another geography. she would not, in short, have been to be found on the same social map, and it was as if her visitors had turned over page after page together before the final relief of their benevolent "here!" the interval was bridged, of course, but the bridge, verily, was needed, and the impression left milly to wonder whether, in the general connection, it were of bridges or of intervals that the spirit not locally disciplined would find itself most conscious. it was as if at home, by contrast, there were neither—neither the difference itself, from position to position, nor, on either side, and particularly on one, the awfully good manner, the conscious sinking of a consciousness, that made up for it. the conscious sinking, at all events, and the awfully good manner, the difference, the bridge, the interval, the skipped leaves of the social atlas—these, it was to be confessed, had a little, for our young lady, in default of stouter stuff, to work themselves into the light literary legend—a mixed, wandering echo of trollope, of thackeray, perhaps mostly of dickens—under favour of which her pilgrimage had so much appealed. she could relate to susie later on, late the same evening, that the legend, before she had done with it, had run clear, that the adored author of the newcomes, in fine, had been on the whole the note: the picture lacking thus more than she had hoped, or rather perhaps showing less than she had feared, a certain possibility of pickwickian outline. she explained how she meant by this that mrs. condrip had not altogether proved another mrs. nickleby, nor even—for she might have proved almost anything, from the way poor worried kate had spoken—a widowed and aggravated mrs. micawber.

mrs. stringham, in the midnight conference, intimated rather yearningly that, however the event might have turned, the side of english life such experiences opened to milly were just those she herself seemed "booked"—as they were all, roundabout her now, always saying—to miss: she had begun to have a little, for her fellow-observer, these moments of fanciful reaction—reaction in which she was once more all susan shepherd—against the high sphere of colder conventions into which her overwhelming connection with maud manningham had rapt her. milly never lost sight, for long, of the susan shepherd side of her, and was always there to meet it when it came up and vaguely, tenderly, impatiently to pat it, abounding in the assurance that they would still provide for it. they had, however, to-night, another matter in hand; which proved to be presently, on the girl's part, in respect to her hour of chelsea, the revelation that mrs. condrip, taking a few minutes when kate was away with one of the children, in bed upstairs for some small complaint, had suddenly, without its being in the least "led up to," broken ground on the subject of mr. densher, mentioned him with impatience as a person in love with her sister. "she wished me, if i cared for kate, to know," milly said—"for it would be quite too dreadful, and one might do something."

susie wondered. "prevent anything coming of it? that's easily said. do what?"

milly had a dim smile. "i think that what she would like is that i should come a good deal to see her about it."

"and doesn't she suppose you've anything else to do?"

the girl had by this time clearly made it out. "nothing but to admire and make much of her sister—whom she doesn't, however, herself in the least understand—and give up one's time, and everything else, to it." it struck the elder friend that she spoke with an almost unprecedented approach to sharpness; as if mrs. condrip had been rather specially disconcerting. never yet so much as just of late had mrs. stringham seen her companion as exalted, and by the very play of something within, into a vague golden air that left irritation below. that was the great thing with milly—it was her characteristic poetry; or at least it was susan shepherd's. "but she made a point," the former continued, "of my keeping what she says from kate. i'm not to mention that she has spoken."

"and why," mrs. stringham presently asked, "is mr. densher so dreadful?"

milly had, she thought, an hesitation—something that suggested a fuller talk with mrs. condrip than she inclined perhaps to report. "it isn't so much he himself." then the girl spoke a little as for the romance of it; one could never tell, with her, where romance would come in. "it's the state of his fortunes."

"and is that very bad?"

"he has no 'private means,' and no prospect of any. he has no income, and no ability, according to mrs. condrip, to make one. he's as poor, she calls it, as 'poverty,' and she says she knows what that is."

again mrs. stringham considered, and it presently produced something. "but isn't he brilliantly clever?"

milly had also then an instant that was not quite fruitless. "i haven't the least idea."

to which, for the time, susie only answered "oh!"—though by the end of a minute she had followed it with a slightly musing "i see"; and that in turn with: "it's quite what maud lowder thinks."

"that he'll never do anything?"

"no—quite the contrary: that he's exceptionally able."

"oh yes; i know"—milly had again, in reference to what her friend had already told her of this, her little tone of a moment before. "but mrs. condrip's own great point is that aunt maud herself won't hear of any such person. mr. densher, she holds that's the way, at any rate, it was explained to me—won't ever be either a public man or a rich man. if he were public she'd be willing, as i understand, to help him; if he were rich—without being anything else—she'd do her best to swallow him. as it is, she taboos him."

"in short," said mrs. stringham as with a private purpose, "she told you, the sister, all about it. but mrs. lowder likes him," she added.

"mrs. condrip didn't tell me that."

"well, she does, all the same, my dear, extremely."

"then there it is!" on which, with a drop and one of those sudden, slightly sighing surrenders to a vague reflux and a general fatigue that had recently more than once marked themselves for her companion, milly turned away. yet the matter was not left so, that night, between them, albeit neither perhaps could afterwards have said which had first come back to it. milly's own nearest approach, at least, for a little, to doing so, was to remark that they appeared all—every one they saw—to think tremendously of money. this prompted in susie a laugh, not untender, the innocent meaning of which was that it came, as a subject for indifference, money did, easier to some people than to others: she made the point in fairness, however, that you couldn't have told, by any too crude transparency of air, what place it held for maud manningham. she did her worldliness with grand proper silences—if it mightn't better be put perhaps that she did her detachment with grand occasional pushes. however susie put it, in truth, she was really, in justice to herself, thinking of the difference, as favourites of fortune, between her old friend and her new. aunt maud sat somehow in the midst of her money, founded on it and surrounded by it, even if with a clever high manner about it, her manner of looking, hard and bright, as if it weren't there. milly, about hers, had no manner at all—which was possibly, from a point of view, a fault: she was at any rate far away on the edge of it, and you hadn't, as might be said, in order to get at her nature, to traverse, by whatever avenue, any piece of her property. it was clear, on the other hand, that mrs. lowder was keeping her wealth as for purposes, imaginations, ambitions, that would figure as large, as honourably unselfish, on the day they should take effect. she would impose her will, but her will would be only that a person or two shouldn't lose a benefit by not submitting if they could be made to submit. to milly, as so much younger, such far views couldn't be imputed: there was nobody she was supposable as interested for. it was too soon, since she wasn't interested for herself. even the richest woman, at her age, lacked motive, and milly's motive doubtless had plenty of time to arrive. she was meanwhile beautiful, simple, sublime without it—whether missing it and vaguely reaching out for it or not; and with it, for that matter, in the event, would really be these things just as much. only then she might very well have, like aunt maud, a manner. such were the connections, at all events, in which the colloquy of our two ladies freshly flickered up—in which it came round that the elder asked the younger if she had herself, in the afternoon, named mr. densher as an acquaintance.

"oh no—i said nothing of having seen him. i remembered," the girl explained, "mrs. lowder's wish."

"but that," her friend observed after a moment, "was for silence to kate."

"yes—but mrs. condrip would immediately have told kate."

"why so?—since she must dislike to talk about him."

"mrs. condrip must?" milly thought. "what she would like most is that her sister should be brought to think ill of him; and if anything she can tell her will help that—" but milly dropped suddenly here, as if her companion would see.

her companion's interest, however, was all for what she herself saw. "you mean she'll immediately speak?" mrs. stringham gathered that this was what milly meant, but it left still a question. "how will it be against him that you know him?"

"oh, i don't know. it won't be so much one's knowing him as one's having kept it out of sight."

"ah," said mrs. stringham, as if for comfort, "you haven't kept it out of sight. isn't it much rather miss croy herself who has?"

"it isn't my acquaintance with him," milly smiled, "that she has dissimulated."

"she has dissimulated only her own? well then, the responsibility's hers."

"ah but," said the girl, not perhaps with marked consequence, "she has a right to do as she likes."

"then so, my dear, have you!" smiled susan shepherd.

milly looked at her as if she were almost venerably simple, but also as if this were what one loved her for. "we're not quarrelling about it, kate and i, yet."

"i only meant," mrs. stringham explained, "that i don't see what mrs. condrip would gain."

"by her being able to tell kate?" milly thought. "i only meant that i don't see what i myself should gain."

"but it will have to come out—that he knows you both—some time."

milly scarce assented. "do you mean when he comes back?"

"he'll find you both here, and he can hardly be looked to, i take it, to 'cut' either of you for the sake of the other."

this placed the question at last on a basis more distinctly cheerful. "i might get at him somehow beforehand," the girl suggested; "i might give him what they call here the tip—that he's not to know me when we meet. or, better still, i mightn't be here at all."

"do you want to run away from him?"

it was, oddly enough, an idea milly seemed half to accept. "i don't know what i want to run away from!"

it dispelled, on the spot—something, to the elder woman's ear, in the sad, sweet sound of it—any ghost of any need of explaining. the sense was constant for her that their relation was as if afloat, like some island of the south, in a great warm sea that made, for every conceivable chance, a margin, an outer sphere of general emotion; and the effect of the occurrence of anything in particular was to make the sea submerge the island, the margin flood the text. the great wave now for a moment swept over. "i'll go anywhere else in the world you like."

but milly came up through it. "dear old susie—how i do work you!"

"oh, this is nothing yet."

"no indeed—to what it will be."

"you're not—and it's vain to pretend," said dear old susie, who had been taking her in, "as sound and strong as i insist on having you."

"insist, insist—the more the better. but the day i look as sound and strong as that, you know," milly went on—"on that day i shall be just sound and strong enough to take leave of you sweetly for ever. that's where one is," she continued thus agreeably to embroider, "when even one's most 'beaux moments' aren't such as to qualify, so far as appearance goes, for anything gayer than a handsome cemetery. since i've lived all these years as if i were dead, i shall die, no doubt, as if i were alive—which will happen to be as you want me. so, you see," she wound up, "you'll never really know where i am. except indeed when i'm gone; and then you'll only know where i'm not."

"i'd die for you," said susan shepherd after a moment.

"'thanks awfully'! then stay here for me."

"but we can't be in london for august, nor for many of all these next weeks."

"then we'll go back."

susie blenched. "back to america?"

"no, abroad—to switzerland, italy, anywhere. i mean by your staying here for me," milly pursued, "your staying with me wherever i may be, even though we may neither of us know at the time where it is. no," she insisted, "i don't know where i am, and you never will, and it doesn't matter—and i dare say it's quite true," she broke off, "that everything will have to come out." her friend would have felt of her that she joked about it now, had not her scale from grave to gay been a thing of such unnamable shades that her contrasts were never sharp. she made up for failures of gravity by failures of mirth; if she hadn't, that is, been at times as earnest as might have been liked, so she was certain not to be at other times as easy as she would like herself. "i must face the music. it isn't, at any rate, its 'coming out,'" she added; "it's that mrs. condrip would put the fact before her to his injury."

her companion wondered. "but how to his?"

"why, if he pretends to love her——!"

"and does he only 'pretend'?"

"i mean if, trusted by her in strange countries, he forgets her so far as to make up to other people."

the amendment, however, brought susie in, as if with gaiety, for a comfortable end. "did he make up, the false creature, to you?"

"no—but the question isn't of that. it's of what kate might be made to believe."

"that, given the fact that he evidently more or less followed up his acquaintance with you, to say nothing of your obvious weird charm, he must have been all ready if you had at all led him on?"

milly neither accepted nor qualified this; she only said, after a moment, as with a conscious excess of the pensive: "no, i don't think she'd quite wish to suggest that i made up to him; for that i should have had to do so would only bring out his constancy. all i mean is," she added—and now at last, as with a supreme impatience "that her being able to make him out a little a person who could give cause for jealousy would evidently help her, since she's afraid of him, to do him in her sister's mind a useful ill turn."

susan shepherd perceived in this explanation such signs of an appetite for motive as would have sat gracefully even on one of her own new england heroines. it was seeing round several corners; but that was what new england heroines did, and it was moreover interesting for the moment to make out how many really her young friend had undertaken to see round. finally, too, weren't they braving the deeps? they got their amusement where they could. "isn't it only," she asked, "rather probable she'd see that kate's knowing him as (what's the pretty old word?) volage——?"

"well?" she hadn't filled out her idea, but neither, it seemed, could milly.

"well, might but do what that often does—by all our blessed little laws and arrangements at least; excite kate's own sentiment instead of depressing it."

the idea was bright, yet the girl but beautifully stared. "kate's own sentiment? oh, she didn't speak of that. i don't think," she added as if she had been unconsciously giving a wrong impression, "i don't think mrs. condrip imagines she's in love."

it made mrs. stringham stare in turn. "then what's her fear?"

"well, only the fact of mr. densher's possibly himself keeping it up—the fear of some final result from that.

"oh," said susie, intellectually a little disconcerted—"she looks far ahead!"

at this, however, milly threw off another of her sudden vague "sports." "no—it's only we who do."

"well, don't let us be more interested for them than they are for themselves!"

"certainly not"—the girl promptly assented. a certain interest nevertheless remained; she appeared to wish to be clear. "it wasn't of anything on kate's own part she spoke."

"you mean she thinks her sister does not care for him?"

it was still as if, for an instant, milly had to be sure of what she meant; but there it presently was. "if she did care mrs. condrip would have told me."

what susan shepherd seemed hereupon for a little to wonder was why then they had been talking so. "but did you ask her?"

"ah, no!"

"oh!" said susan shepherd.

milly, however, easily explained that she wouldn't have asked her for the world.