" … ruth, all heart and tenderness
who wept, like chaucer's prioress,
when dash was smitten:
who blushed before the mildest men,
yet waxed a very corday when
you teased the kitten."
austin dobson.
before seeking her stony couch at the end of her first day at priorsford, pamela finished the letter begun in the morning to her brother.
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" … i began this letter in the morning and now it is bedtime. robinson crusoe is no longer solitary: the island is inhabited. my first visitors arrived about 11 a.m.—a small boy and a dog—an extremely good-looking little boy and a well-bred fox-terrier. they sat on the garden wall until i invited them in, when they ate chocolates and biscuits, and the boy offered to repeat poetry. i expected 'casabianca' or the modern equivalent, but instead i got the song from hippolytus, 'o take me to the mountains, o.' it was rather surprising, but when he invited me to go with him to his home, which is next door, it was more surprising still. instead of finding another small villa like hillview with a breakneck stair and poky little rooms, i found a real old cottage. the room i was taken into was about the nicest i ever saw. i think it would have fulfilled all your conditions as to the proper furnishing of a room; indeed, now that i think of it, it was quite a man's room.
"it had a polished floor and some good rugs, and creamy yellow walls with delicious coloured prints. there were no ornaments except some fine old brass: solid chairs and a low, wide-seated sofa, and books everywhere.
"the shape of the room is delightfully unusual. it is long and rather low-ceilinged, and one end comes almost to a point like the bow of a ship. there is a window with a window-seat in the bow, and as the house stands high on a slope and faces west, you look straight across the river to the hills, and almost have the feeling that you are sailing into the sunset.
"in this room a girl sat, darning stockings and crying quietly to herself—crying because her brother david had gone to oxford the day before, and she was afraid he would find it hard work to live on his scholarship with the small help she could give him, afraid that he might find himself shabby and feel it bitter, afraid that he might not come back to her the kind, clear-eyed boy he had gone away.
"she told me all about it as simply as a child. didn't seem to find it in the least odd to confide in a stranger, didn't seem at all impressed by the sudden appearance of my fashionably dressed self!
"people, i am often told, find themselves rather in awe of me. i know that they would rather have me for a friend than an enemy. you see, i can think of such extraordinarily nasty things to say about people i don't like. but this little girl treated me as if i had been an older sister or a kind big brother, and—well, i found it rather touching.
"jean jardine is her funny little name. she looks a mere child, but she tells me she is twenty-three and she has been head of the house since she was nineteen.
"it is really the strangest story. the father, one francis jardine, was in the indian civil service—pretty good at his job, i gather—and these three children, jean and her two brothers, david and jock, were brought up in this cottage—the rigs it is called—by an old aunt of the father's, great-aunt alison. the mother died when jock was a baby, and after some years the father married again, suddenly and unpremeditatedly, a beautiful and almost friendless girl whom he met in london when home on leave. jean offered no comment on the wisdom or the unwisdom of the match, but she told me the young mrs. jardine had sent for her (jean was then a schoolgirl of fourteen) and had given her a good time in london before she sailed with her husband for india. rather unusual when you come to think of it! it isn't every young wife who has thought on the honeymoon for schoolgirl stepdaughters, and jean had seen that it was kind and unselfish, and was grateful. the jardines sailed for india, and were hardly landed when mr. jardine died of cholera. the young widow stayed on—i suppose she liked the life and had little to bring her back to england—and when the first year of her widowhood was over she married a young soldier, gervase taunton. i'm almost sure i remember meeting him about—good-looking, perfect dancer, crack polo player. they seem, in spite of lack of money, to have been supremely happy for about three years, when young taunton was killed playing polo. the poor girl broke her heart and slipped out of life, leaving behind one little boy. she had no relations, and captain taunton had no one very near, and when she was dying she had left instructions. 'send my boy to scotland. ask jean to bring him up. she will understand.' i suppose she had detected even in the schoolgirl of fourteen jean's most outstanding quality, steadfastness, and entrusted the child to her without a qualm.
"so the baby of two was sent to the child of eighteen, and jean glows with gratitude and tells you how good it was of her at-one-time stepmother to think of her! that is how she seems to take life: no suspecting of motives: looking for, therefore perhaps finding, kindness on every side. it is rather absurd in this wicked world, but i shouldn't wonder if it made for happiness.
"the taunton child has, of course, no shadow of claim on the jardines, but he is to them a most treasured little brother. 'the mhor,' as they call him, is their great amusement and delight. he is quite absurdly good-looking, with great grave green eyes and a head most wonderfully set on his shoulders. he has a small income of his own, which jean keeps religiously apart so that he may be able to go to a good school when he is old enough.
"the great-aunt who brought up the jardines must have been an uncommon old woman. she died (perhaps luckily) just as the young gervase taunton came on the scene.
"it seems she always dressed in rustling black silk, sat bolt upright on the edge of chairs for the sake of her figure, took the greatest care of her hands and complexion, and was a great age. she had, jean said, 'come out at the disruption.' jean was so impressive over it that i didn't like to ask what it meant. do you suppose she made her début then?
"perhaps 'the disruption' is a sort of religious tamasha. anyway, she was frightfully religious—a strict calvinist—and taught jean to regard everything from the point of view of her own death-bed. i mean to say, the child had to ask herself, 'how will this action look when i am on my death-bed?' every cross word, every small disobedience, she was told, would be a 'thorn in her dying pillow.' i said, perhaps rather rudely, that great-aunt alison must have been a horrible old ghoul, but jean defended her hotly. she seems to have had a great admiration for her aged relative, though she owned that her death was something of a relief. unfortunately most of her income died with her.
"i think perhaps it was largely this training that has given jean her particular flavour. she is the most happy change from the ordinary modern girl. her manners are delightful—not noisy, but frank and gay like a nice boy's. she neither falls into the scylla of affectation nor the charybdis of off-handness. she has been nowhere and seen very little; books are her world, and she talks of book-people as if they were everyday acquaintances. she adores dr. johnson and quotes him continually.
"she has no slightest trace of accent, but she has that lilt in her voice—i have noticed it once or twice before in scots people—that makes one think of winds over heathery moorlands, and running water. in appearance she is like a wood elf, rather small and brown, very light and graceful. she is so beautifully made that there is great satisfaction in looking at her. (if she had all the virtues in the world i could never take any interest in a girl who had a large head, or short legs, or thick ankles!) she knows how to dress, too. the little brown frock was just right, and the ribbon that was tied round her hair. i'll tell you what she reminded me of a good deal—romney's 'parson's daughter.'
"what a find for my first day at priorsford!
"i went to tea with the jardines and i never was at a nicer tea-party. we said poems to each other most of the time. mhor's rendering of chesterton's 'the pleasant town of roundabout' was very fine, but jock loves best 'don john of austria.' you would like jock. he has a very gruff voice and such surprised blue eyes, and is fond of weird interjections like 'gosh, maggie!' and 'earls in the streets of cork!' he is a determined foe to sentiment. he won't read a book that contains love-making or death-beds. 'does anybody marry?' 'does anybody die?' are his first questions about a book, so naturally his reading is much restricted.
"the jardines have the lovable habit of becoming suddenly overpowered with laughter, crumpled up, and helpless. you have it, too; i have it; all really nice people have it. i have been refreshing myself with irish memories since dinner. do you remember what is said of martin ross? 'the large conventional jest had but small power over her; it was the trivial absurdity, the inversion of the expected the sublimity getting a little above itself and failing to realise that it had taken that fatal step over the border—those were the things that felled her, and laid her, wherever she might be, in ruins….'
"bella bathgate, i must tell you, remains unthawed. she hinted to me to-night that she thought the hydropathic was the place for me—surely the unkindest cut of all. people dress for dinner every night there, she tells me, and most of them are english, and a band plays. evidently she thinks i would be at home in such company.
"some day i think you must visit priorsford and get to know miss
bathgate.—yours,
"pam.
"i forgot to tell you that for some dark reason the jardines call their cat sir j.m. barrie.
"i asked why, but got no satisfaction.
"'well, you see, there's peter,' mhor said vaguely.
"jock looked at the cat and observed obscurely, 'it's not a sentimental beast either'—while jean asked if i would have preferred it called sir rabindranath tagore!"
