when i was grass, perhaps i may have wept
as every year the grass-blades paled and slept;
or shrieked in anguish impotent, beneath
the smooth impartial cropping of great teeth—
i don’t remember much what came to pass
when i was grass.
when i was monkey, i’m afraid the trees
weren’t always havens of contented ease;
things killed us, and we never could tell why;
no doubt we blamed the earth or sea or sky—
i have forgotten my rebellion’s shape
when i was ape.
now i have reached the comfortable skin
this stage of living is enveloped in,
and hold the spirit of my mighty race
self-conscious prisoner under one white face,—
i’m awfully afraid i’m going to die,
now i am i.
so i have planned a hypothetic life
to pay me somehow for my toil and strife.
blessed or damned, i someway must contrive
that i eternally be kept alive!
in this an endless, boundless bliss i see,—
eternal me!
when i was man, no doubt i used to care
about the little things that happened there,
and fret to see the years keep going by,
and nations, families, and persons die.
i didn’t much appreciate life’s plan
when i was man.