he said goodbye, you hobbled out,
the doctor shut the door.
from your face i knew he’d told you
things we had guessed before.
i saw you slightly tremble
but i reached you ere you fell.
your fixèd face said many things
more than you cared to tell.
one does not receive death warrants
as one would a courtesy.
after awhile your head went up
and you talked it all out with me.
brave little woman i knew you
knew you were never afraid.
not for yourself, you forbid me—
to speak and my questions you staid.
all i could give was silence.
your pride forbade me much.
tho’ i longed to bear your burden
even to be your crutch.