he lived through the winter in order to live. through the spring and summer he lived to breed. he was unable to think. he acted instinctively, because god had so ordained it. instinct alone guided him.
he lived to eat in the winter so that he should not die. the winters were cold and cruel.
in the spring he bred. then the blood coursed warmly through his veins. it was calm; the sun was bright; the stars glittered; and all the time he longed to stretch himself, to close his eyes, to smite the air with his wings, and to croak with an unreasoning joy.
the birdlings flew away in the autumn. the old birds and the young bade adieu for ever with indifference. rain came, mists swept by, the sky hung lowering over the earth. the nights were dreary, damp and dark. the old couple sat together in their nest, trying to cover themselves and sleep. they froze and tossed about in discomfort. their eyes gleamed with greenish-yellow lights.
thus passed the thirteen years of their life together.
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then the male-bird died.
his wing had been injured in youth, at the time he fought for his mate. as the years rolled on, he found it more and more difficult to hunt his prey: he had to fly ever farther and farther for it, and in the nights he could get no rest because of the overwhelming pain that shot right through the whole of his wing, and tormented him terribly. formerly he had not heeded the injury; now he found it grew exceedingly grave and painful.
he did not sleep, but let his wing hang down as though he were thrusting it from him. and in the morning he was hardly able to use it when he flew off after his prey.
his mate forsook him.
she flew away from the nest at dusk one evening in early spring.
he sought for her all through the night—at dawn he found her with another male, young and strong, who croaked tenderly round her. then the old bird felt life was over: he had lost all that made it beautiful. he flew to fight his younger rival, but his attack was weak and wavering. the young one rushed at him violently and passionately, tore his body, and croaked menacingly. the female watched the fray with indifference, as she had done many years before.
the old bird was beaten.
fluttered, blood-stained, with one eye swollen, he flew back to his nest and painfully perched himself on the end of a root. something within him told him his life was at an end. he had lived in order to eat and to breed. now he had only to die. instinct told him that. for two days he sat perched above the steep, quiet, immovable, his head sunk deep into his shoulders.
then, calmly, unperceivingly, he died. he fell down from the steep and lay with his legs crooked and turned upward.
this was during the night. the stars were brilliant. birds were crying in the woods and over the river. somewhere owls hooted.
the male-bird lay at the bottom of the ravine for five days. his body was already decaying, and emitted a bitter, offensive odour.
a wolf came and devoured it.
