my sister joyce is older than i am. at the time of which i am thinking she was twenty-one, and i was barely nineteen. we were the only children of farmer maliphant of knellestone grange, in the county of sussex. the maliphants were an old family. their names were on the oldest tombstones in the graveyard of the abbey, whose choir and ruined transepts were all that was left standing of a splendid church that had been the mother of a great monastery, and of many other churches in the popish days, when our town was a feature in english history. i am not sure that our family dated as far back as that. i had read of knights in helmets and coats of mail skirmishing beneath the city wall, of which there were still fragments standing, and of gallant captains bringing the king's galleys to port in the bay that had become marsh-land, and i hoped that there might have been maliphants too, riding up and down the hill under the gate-ways that were now ivy-grown; but i am afraid that, even if the family had been in existence at the time, they would only have been archers, shooting their arrows from behind the turrets on the hill.
at all events—to leave romancing alone—maliphants had owned or rented land upon the udimore hills and the downs of brede for more than three hundred years, and it must have been nearly as long as that that they had lived in the old stone house overlooking the romney marsh. for almost all our land had been a manor of the old abbey, and had been granted to my father's family at the dissolution of the monasteries in 1540, and it was not much more than a century since the maliphants had been obliged to sell most of it to the ancestors of him who was now squire at the big house. but they had never left the old home, renting the land that they had once owned, and tilling the soil that they had once been lords of. our house was the oldest house in the place, antiquaries testifying to the fact that it was built of the same foreign stone that fashioned the walls of the old abbey; and our name was the oldest name, a fact which my father, democrat as he was, never really forgot. but we were not so well-to-do as we had once been, even in the memory of living folk.
family portraits of ladies in scanty gowns and high waists, and of gallants in ruffled shirts, made pleasant pictures in my fancy, and there were whispered stories of kegs of spirits stored at dead of night in the old cellars beneath the house in my grandfather's time, and of mother's old mechlin lace having been brought, at the risk of bold lives, in the merry little fishing-smacks that defied the revenue-cutters. but smuggling was a dead art in our time, and respectable folk would have been ashamed to buy smuggled goods. we lived the uneventful life of our neighbors, and were no longer the great people that we had been even in my grandfather's time; for farming was not now so lucrative.
my sister joyce was very handsome. i have not seen much of the world, but i am sure that any one would have said so. she was tall, taller than i am, and i am not short, and she was slight, and fair as a rose. there was a sort of gentle quaker-like dignity about joyce which i have never seen in one so young. she had it of our mother. both women were very tall, and both bore their height bravely. sometimes, it is true, when joyce walked along the dark passages of the old grange, her arms full of sweet-scented linen, and bending her little head to pass under the low door-ways, or when she made the jam in the kitchen, or pats of butter in the dairy, she stooped just a little over her work; but when—of a june evening—she would come across the lawn with her hands full of guelder-roses and peonies for the parlor, no one could have said that she was too tall, so erect and gracefully did she seem to flit across the earth.
of course i did not consciously notice these things when i was nineteen; but as i think of her again now, i can see that it was not at all to be wondered at that the country-folk used to talk of joyce maliphant as a poor slip of a thing, not fit to be a countryman's wife. there was an over-sensitiveness about her—a sort of tremulous reserve—that marked her as belonging to a different order of beings. it was not that she was weak either in mind or in body. joyce would often surprise one by her sudden purposes; and as for fatigue, that slender figure could work all day without being tired, and though the cheek was as dainty as the petal of a flower, it had nothing frail about it: it told of health, just as did the clearness of the blue eye and the wealth of the rippling auburn hair.
joyce kept her complexion, partly because she was less out-of-doors than i was; but if i had known that i could have had her lovely skin instead of my own freckled face, i do not believe that i would have changed with her. no doubt mother was right, and i might have kept that—my one good point—if i had cared to. red-haired people generally do have fresh skins, and my hair is just about the color of virginia-creeper leaves in autumn, or of the copper kettle in the sunlight. i was very much ashamed of it in those days.
luckily, i gave little heed to my appearance. i was quite content to leave the monopoly of the family beauty to my sister, if i might have freedom to scour the marsh-land with taff, the big st. bernard; and so long as my father treated me like a boy, and let me help him superintend the farm, he might banter as much as he liked about "margaret's gray eyes that looked a different color every day," and even rail at me for heavy eyelids that didn't look a bit as if i led a healthy out-door life. but i did: when there was neither washing nor baking nor butter-making to help with, i was out-of-doors from morning to night. when i was a child it was with reuben ruck the shepherd, and his black collie luck, who was the best sheep-dog in the country.
reuben taught me many things—where to find the forms of the hares upon the marsh-land, the nests of the butcher-birds and yellow-hammers and wheat-ears that were all peculiar to our home; he taught me to surprise the purple herons upon the sands or by the dikes at eventide, to find the pewits' eggs upon the shingle, to tame the squirrels in the manor woods, to catch gray mullet in the channel, to spear eels in the dikes, to know when every bird's brood came forth, to welcome the various arrivals of the swifts and martins and swallows.
at the time of which i write, reuben had had to give up his shepherd's duties, owing to ill health, and used to do odd jobs about the house and garden; but he had bred the love of the country in me, and now it was useless for mother to bemoan my wandering habits, or even for our old nurse, deborah, to take me to task for not caring more about the home pursuits in which my sister so brilliantly excelled. whatever related to a bird or a beast i would attend to with alacrity; but as for household duties, i only got them over as quickly as i could, that i might the sooner be out in the air. i knew every hill's crest inland, every headland out to sea, every shepherd's track across the marsh, every plank across the channels. the shepherds and the coast-guards were all my friends alike, and i think there was not one of them who would not have braved danger rather than i should come to harm, although i do not suppose that i ever exchanged more than six words' conversation with any of them in all my life. words were not necessary between us.
"farmer maliphant's little miss" had always been a favorite, and "farmer maliphant's little miss" was always his youngest daughter. i like to remember the title now; i like to remember that if joyce was mother's right hand in the house, i was father's companion in the fields. i was very fond of father; i was very fond of any praise of his. i did not get on so well with mother. i suppose daughters often do not get on so well with their mothers. for though joyce was a fresh, neat, deft girl, just after mother's own heart, and i know that she thought there was none to equal her, they never got on well together. i was always fighting her battles. she was too gentle, or too proud—i was never sure which—to fight them for herself. a cross word, only spoken in the excitement of a domestic crisis—which meant worlds to a woman to whom house-keeping was an art—would shut joyce up in an armor of reserve for days, and i often laughed at her even while i fought for her.
as for me, i used to think i could manage mother. i wish i had the dear old days back again! it's little managing i would care to do. it came to very little good. i believe that every quarrel i had for joyce only did her harm with mother; i was such a headstrong girl that it took a deal to set me down, and i am afraid that she got some of the thrusts that were meant for me in consequence.
one of the special, though tacit, subjects of difference between mother and myself was upon the choice of a husband for my sister. i quite agreed with the country-folk, that she was not suited to be a countryman's wife, but i did not agree with mother's idea of a suitable husband for her.
mother was a very ambitious woman. she wanted us to rise in the world; she wanted us to hold once more something of the position she knew the family had once held. she was not a highly educated woman herself, but she was a shrewd woman. she had had us educated to the best of her abilities, a little better than other farmers' daughters; if she had had her way, she would have sent me, as the cleverer, to school in london. but father would have none of it. he never denied her a whim for herself, but he did not hold with boarding-school learning.
i was left to finish my education by living my life. but mother was none the less ambitious for us, and being an old-fashioned woman, her ambition aspired to good marriages for us. and i—foolish girl that i was—chose to think that the particular man whom she hoped that joyce's beauty would secure was a very commonplace lover, and not at all worthy of her. in the first place, he occupied a better position in the world than she did, and would probably consider that he was raising her by the marriage, which my pride resented. for, after all, it was only what the world considered a better position; he owned the land that we worked. but the land had only been bought by his ancestors; whereas our forefathers had owned it for more than two hundred years before that, so that we considered that we were of the finer stock.
as i set this down now in black and white i smile to myself; it represents so very badly the real relations that existed between our two families, for the man of whom i speak has always been to us the best and stanchest of friends, and even at that time there was hearty simple intercourse between us that was quite uninfluenced by difference of rank or party-spirit. but the words express a certain side of our feelings, especially a certain side of my own particular feelings, and therefore they shall stand.
the man whom mother hoped joyce might marry was squire broderick. ever since we girls could remember, he had been squire at the big house, for his father had died when he was scarcely twenty-one, and from that time he had been master of the thousand rooks that used to fly across the marsh at even, to their homes in the beeches and elms that sheltered the manor from the sea-gales.
i remember thinking when i was a child that it was very strange the rooks should always fly to squire broderick's trees rather than to ours. for we had trees too, although not so many nor so big, and our house only stood at the other end of the hill, that sloped down on both sides into the marsh. his house was large and square and regular—a red brick elizabethan house—and had a great many more windows and chimneys than ours had, and a great many more flower-beds on the lawn that looked out across the marsh to the sea.
but although the grange had been often added to in the course of its history, and was therefore irregular in shape and varied in color, according to the time that the stone had stood the weather, or to the mosses and ivy that clung to its gray walls, i am sure that it was just as fine an old structure in its way, with its high-pitched tiled roof and the lattice-windows, that only looked like eyes in the empty spaces of solid stone.
we certainly had a better view than the squire. from the low windows of the front parlor we could see the red-roofed town rise, like a sentry-tower out of the plain, some three miles away; and, beyond the ruin of the round stone fortress, lying like a giant asleep in the tawny marsh-land, we looked across the wide stretch of flat pasture-land to the storms and the blue of the sea in the distance.
i do not suppose that i was conscious of the strange beauty of this marsh-land as i am conscious of it now; but i know that i loved it—though people do say that country-folk have no admiration of nature—and i know that i was glad that we saw more of it than they did from the manor, where a belt of trees had been allowed to grow up and shut out the view. but the rooks loved that lordly belt of trees, and i think that, as a child, i envied the squire the rooks. if i did, it was the only thing i ever did envy him.
as the child of the squire's tenant, and proud of my family pride, it was born in me rather to dislike him than otherwise for his fine old house and his many acres. but this was only when something occurred to remind me of these sentiments—to wit, mother's desire for a marriage between my sister and the village big-wig. otherwise i did not think of him in this light at all, but rather as the provider of the only treats that ever came our way in that quiet life; for it was he who would make up a party to take us to the travelling shows in the little town when they came by, or even sometimes to the larger seaport ten miles off. i can still remember the school feasts at the manor when we were little girls, and the squire had but just come into his own; and how, when the village tea and cake had been handed round, he would take us two all over the grounds alone, and give us lovely posies of hot-house flowers to take back to the grange parlor.
i can even recollect a ride on his back round the field when i tried to catch the pony, and how wildly i laughed all the time, making the meadows ring with my merriment; but that must have been when i was scarcely more than five years old. since then he had been a husband and a father, and now he was a widower, and in my eyes quite an old man; although, i suppose, he can have been little more than five-and-thirty.
i do not remember mrs. broderick. i asked mother about her once, and she told me that she had died when i was scarcely ten years old. and from our old servant, deborah, i had further gleaned that it was in giving birth to a little son, who had died a year after her, and that mother could not bear to speak of it, because it was just at the same time that we lost our little brother john. both children had died of scarlet-fever, and mother had nursed the squire's motherless boy before her own. i suppose that was why the squire was always so tender and reverential to her.
i know i was sorry for the squire; for it seemed hard he should have no heir to all his acres, and should have to live in that big house all alone. but he did not seem to mind it much: he was always cheery; his fair, fresh face always with a smile on it; his frank, blue eyes always bright. it did one good to see him; it was like a breath of fresh air. i think everybody felt the same thing about him. it was not only that he was generous, a just landlord, "always as good as his word"—there was something more in it than that; there was something that made everybody love him, apart from anything that he did. and as i look back now to the past, i can see that the squire can have had no easy time of it among the people. he had a thorn in the flesh, and that thorn was my father.
the squire was an ardent conservative, and father was—well, whatever he was, he was opposed to the squire; and as he was one of those people who have the rare gift of imparting their convictions and their enthusiasms to others, he had great influence among the working-classes, and his influence was not favorable to the squire's party. and yet father was no politician. i knew nothing about shades in these matters at that time, and because father was not a tory i imagined that he must be a liberal. but he was not a liberal, still less was he a radical, in the party sense of the word. as i have said, he belonged to no party. the reforms that he wanted were social reforms, and they could only be won by the patient struggles of the people who required them. that was what he used to say, and i suppose that was why he devoted all his strength to encouraging the working-classes, and cared so little for their existing rulers. but i did not understand this at the time; it was not till long afterwards that i appreciated all that my father was. then it occurred to me to wonder how he had come by such advanced ideas living in a quiet country village, and i remembered of a sudden some words that he had said to me one day when i had asked him about a little crayon sketch that always hung above the writing-table in his business-room. it was the portrait of a young man with a firm square chin, a sensitive mouth, liquid, fiery eyes. he wore his hair brushed back off his broad forehead, and had altogether a foreign air. it was a fascinating face.
"that, meg," he had said, "was a great man—a man who made war against the strong, who helped the poor and down-trodden, and fought for the laws of justice and liberty. he gave his affections, his goods, his brains, and his life to the service of others. he died poor, but was rich. he was a real christian. his name was camille lambert."
he said no more, and i never liked to broach the subject again; for mother had told me afterwards that he had had a romantic friendship for the young frenchman shortly after her engagement to him, and that he could never bear to speak of him after the time when he laid him to rest under the shadows of the old abbey church.
mother could tell me little about him beyond the fact that he was some years older than father, and that his parents had belonged to the remnants of that colony of french refugees who had inhabited our town during the last century, and still left their names to many existing houses. indeed, i thought no more of it at the time; but when long afterwards i remembered the matter, i hunted up a little manuscript pamphlet in father's handwriting, telling the story of his friend's life.
camille lambert was a disciple of st. simon, who had died when my father was yet but a lad. of an eager and romantic temperament, his enthusiasm had been early fired by those exalted doctrines, and he had given all his substance to the great "school," which had just opened its branch houses in the provinces.
in all the works connected with it, camille lambert had taken an active part; and when financial troubles and dissensions between the leaders led popular ardor to cool and the scheme to be declared unpractical, he broke his heart over the failure of his hopes, and came home to the little english village to die.
as i read those pages in after years, i felt that it was no wonder that such an enthusiasm should have kindled a kindred flame in the heart of a man so just and so tender as i knew my dear father to be. i love to think of that friendship now; it explains a great deal to me which has sometimes been a puzzle, when i have looked at my father's character with the more mature eyes of my present years. but in those days i did not think deeply enough for anything to be a puzzle. i was proud of my father's influence among the country-folk; i liked to hear the shouts of applause with which he was greeted when he stood up to speak at winter evening assemblies in the old town-hall. i knew that the crusade he preached was that of the poor against the rich; and a confusion had arisen in my mind as to our attitude towards the squire. i fancied i noticed a restive feeling in father towards the man to whom he paid the rent of his land; and when i guessed at that secret hope in mother's heart, i began to class the squire with "the rich" against whom he waged war in theory, and forgot the many occasions in which they were one at heart in the performance of kindly and generous actions.
my mood did not last long, for the old habit of a lifetime was stronger than a mood, and the squire was our friend, but for the moment that was my mood. the squire belonged to an antagonistic class; perhaps, even worse than that in my eyes, he was a middle-aged man, and joyce must not marry him. mother never spoke of her hopes to me. it was old deborah who sometimes discussed them; she always did discuss the family concerns far more freely than any one else in the house. she was with us when joyce was born, and it was natural she should talk most of what mattered to those whom she loved most in the world. but deborah could not be expected to enter into the delicacy of such a situation, and i felt sure that on me fell the duty of fighting to the death before my beautiful sister should be sacrificed to commonplace affluence, instead of shining in the world of romance that i loved to fancy for her.
