katy had not time then to tell her mother about the candy speculation she had in view, and she was obliged to wait till her return from temple street. promptly at the hour, she presented herself at mrs. gordon's, and they went to the house of the mayor; but that distinguished gentleman was not at home, and the lady promised to go again with her the next day.
as she walked home, she thought of what she should say to her mother in favor of the candy project, for she felt sure her mother's pride would throw many obstacles in her path. the best argument she could think of was, that the business would be an honest calling and though she was too proud to beg, she was not too proud to work, or to take a very humble position among the people around her. she did not look upon the act of selling candy to the passers-by in the streets as degrading in itself, and therein she differed very widely from her mother, who had been brought up in ease and affluence. before she got home she had made up her mind what she should say, and how she should defend her plan from the assaults of pride.
"now, mother, you shall hear my plan," she continued, after she had announced the ill success of her visit to the mayor's house. "i am going into business, and i expect to make a great deal of money."
"are you, indeed?" replied mrs. redburn, smiling at the enthusiasm of her daughter.
"i am; and you must not be angry with me, or object very much to my plan."
"well, what is your plan?"
"i am going to sell candy," said katy, pausing to notice the effect of this startling declaration. "you know what nice molasses candy you used to make for me. mrs. sneed and mrs. colvin said a great many times that it was a good deal better than they could buy at the shops."
"but, child, i am not able to make candy now. i cannot get off my bed."
"i will make it; you shall lay there and tell me how. i am sure i can make it."
"it is very hard work to pull it."
"i won't mind that."
"suppose you can make it, how will you sell it?" asked mrs. redburn, casting an anxious glance at the enthusiastic little girl.
"o, i shall take a box, and offer it to the folks that pass along the streets."
"are you crazy, katy?" exclaimed the mother, raising her head on the bed. "do you think i could permit you to do such a thing?"
"why not, mother?"
"what a life for a child to lead! do you think i could let you wander about the streets exposed to the insults and rude jests of the vicious and thoughtless? you do not understand what you propose."
"i think i do, mother. i don't see any harm in selling candy to those who are willing to buy."
"perhaps there is no harm in the mere act of selling candy; but what a life for you to lead! it makes me shudder to think of it."
"it is your pride, mother."
"i am thankful i have: some pride left, katy."
"but mother, we can't be poor and proud. we haven't got any money to proud with."
"i am proud, i know; i wish i could banish it," replied mrs. redburn, with a deep sigh.
"let me try the plan, mother, and if i can't get along with it, i will give it up."
"it will subject you to a great many trials and temptations."
"i can manage them, mother."
"can you submit to the insults of evil-minded persons?"
"yes, mother; no decent person would insult me and i don't care for others. i can pity them, and run away from them. i am not afraid of anything. do let me try."
mrs. redburn saw that katy was too earnest to be thwarted; that, impelled by a noble purpose, she had set her heart upon making the attempt, and she did not like to disappoint her. it is true, she keenly felt the degradation of such a life, and even feared that katy might be led astray while pursuing such an occupation; but she gave a reluctant consent, trusting that one or two experiments would disgust her with the business.
katy clapped her hands with joy as her mother's scruples gave way, and she found herself at liberty to carry her plan into execution. it seemed to her as though she had crossed the threshold of fortune and had actually entered the great temple. she had an opportunity to accomplish a great work, and her enthusiasm would not permit her to doubt in regard to her final success.
"i must begin now, mother, and make all the candy this afternoon, so that i can commence selling it early to-morrow morning. i will go to the grocery now and get the molasses."
"poor child; you have nothing to get it with. we have no money; you did not think of that."
"yes, i did, and i have the money to buy the molasses. i borrowed it," replied katy, evincing some confusion.
"you borrowed it? pray who would lend you money?"
"miss grace gordon."
"did you borrow it, katy?" asked mrs. redburn, casting a reproachful glance at her.
"yes, mother, i did. i would not accept money now, after what you have said to me. miss grace wanted to give it to me; but i told her i could not take it. she laughed at me, and i said i was poor and proud. she would make me take it, and said so much, that, at last, i told her if she would lend it to me, i would take it."
"it was the same as a gift," said mrs. redburn, blushing with shame at the thought of accepting alms.
"no, it wasn't; she may think it was, but i mean to pay her, and i shall pay her; i know i shall."
"if you can," sighed the proud mother.
"i shall be able to pay her soon, for i mean to sell lots of candy."
"you may be disappointed."
"no: i am sure i shall sell a good deal; i mean to make people buy. i shall talk up smart to them just as the shopkeepers do; i am going to tell them what candy it is, and that their little sons and daughters will like it very much."
"you are beside yourself, katy. it pains me to hear you talk so. it is sad to think a child of mine should relish such an employment as that in which you are going to engage."
"do you remember the book my sunday-school teacher gave me last new year's day, mother? it was all about false pride; i want you to read it, mother. we can't afford to be so proud."
"go and get your molasses. katy," replied mrs. redburn, who could not but acknowledge the truth of her daughter's remarks.
she had read the book alluded to, and was not willing to confront the arguments it had put in the mouth of her child. she was conscious that her pride, which made a humble occupation repulsive to her, was a false pride. if it could have been carried on in private, it would not have seemed so galling. for years she had been a recluse from society, mingling only with her humble neighbors, and with them no more than her circumstances required. she had labored in solitude, and shunned observation as much as possible, by carrying her work back and forth in the evening. years of hard toil had not familiarized her with the circumstances of her lot. she tried to be humble and submissive, but the memory of her early days could not be driven away.
katy returned in a few minutes with the jug of molasses. she bustled round and made up a good fire, got the kettle on, and everything in readiness for the work. her mother gave her directions how to proceed; but katy could impart to her none of her own enthusiasm.
when the molasses had been cooked enough, she was ready to commence the pulling, which was the most difficult part in the manufacture of her merchandise. then she found that her trials had indeed commenced. at first the sticky mass, in spite of the butter and the flour with which she had plentifully daubed her hands, was as obstinate as a mule. it would not work one way or another; now it melted down, and stuck to her fingers, and then it became as solid as a rock. she fretted some at these crosses, and as her spirits sank, her mother's rose, for she thought katy's resolution would not hold out long enough for her to complete the experiment. but she underrated the energy of the devoted girl, who, in the face of every discouragement, stuck to the candy with as much zeal as the candy stuck to her.
as is almost always the case with those who persevere to the end, katy soon won a partial triumph, which gladdened her heart, and gave her courage to continue her trying labors. she had worked a portion of the mass into candy—clear, light-colored, inviting candy. columbus felt no prouder of his achievement when he had crossed the atlantic, or, napoleon when he had crossed the alps. she danced for joy as she gazed upon the clear, straight sticks of candy, as they were arranged in the pan. it was a great conquest for her; but at what a sacrifice it had been won! her little hands, unused to such hard work, were blistered in a dozen places, and smarted as though they had been scalded with boiling water. she showed them to her mother, who begged her not to do any more; but she had too much enthusiasm to be deterred by the smart of her wounds, and resolutely resumed her labor.
she had scarcely commenced upon the second mass before she was interrupted by the entrance of mrs. howard, her friend tommy's mother.
"why, what are you doing, child?" asked the good woman. "i thought you were all sick, and here you are making candy, as merry as on a feast day."
"i am making it to sell, mrs. howard," replied katy, proudly.
"bless me! but you're a queer child! do you think folks will buy it of you?"
"i know they will;" and katy detailed her plan to the interested neighbor, declaring she was sure she could support her mother and herself by making and selling candy. "but it is very hard work," she added; "see how i've blistered my hands."
"poor child! it's enough to kill you!" exclaimed mrs. howard, as she glanced at the great blisters on katy's hands.
"i have been trying to make her give up the idea, but she has more courage than i ever gave her credit for," remarked mrs. redburn.
"it's a shame for you to hurt your hands in this manner; but i dare say that they will soon get hard, like mine, with the labor," replied mrs. howard, as she threw off her hood and rolled up her sleeves. "here, child, let me help you."
"you are very kind, ma'am; and i hope i shall be able to do something for you some time."
"never you mind that; you are a nice girl, and it does my heart good to see you trying to help your mother," added the kind woman, as she detached a large mass of candy, and commenced pulling it with a vigor that astonished the weak-handed little girl. "you're a jewel and a blessing, and you're worth a dozen of the fine ladies that are too proud to lift a finger to keep their bodies from starving. ah, it's a dreadful misfortune to be proud."
"to be poor and proud," said mrs. redburn.
"you are right, ma'am; and i am glad to see you have none of it here; for some of your neighbors used to say you were too proud to speak to them."
mrs. redburn made no reply, and permitted her kind neighbor, whose tongue scarcely ceased to swing for a moment, to continue her remarks without opposition. she and katy worked with all their might till the candy was ready for market, and when the poor invalid poured out her thanks, she ran off and left them.
the exultation with which katy regarded her plentiful stock of merchandise almost caused her to forget her smarting hands; and when she could no longer keep her eyes open, she went to sleep to dream of great operations in molasses candy on change next day.
