but sue was not asleep. she had quite made up her mind now as to her line of action. there was no longer even a particle of lingering doubt in her brave little soul; she was innocent, but as the sin which was committed must be punished, she would bear the punishment; she would go to prison instead of harris. prison would not be so bad if she went there innocent.
yes, sue would certainly go to prison. the next day she would consult mrs. price, and take the proper steps to deliver herself up to the police. she would go to the pawnbroker's shop and say to him, "i am the little girl in whose pocket you found that lovely diamond locket. i am very sorry i hid from you so long, but now i have come back, and you can send for the police. i will promise not to run away again when they are taking me to prison."
this was sue's resolve, but first she intended to do something else. it was because of this something else that she lay awake now; it was because of this almost passionate longing and desire that she lay with her eyes wide open. she was going to put on her disguise once more; just once again, before she was put in prison, she would wander free and unrestrained into the streets. but she must do this very, very early in the morning, and she feared that if she closed her eyes she would sleep over the right time.
it was now march, and the days were lengthening. she rose before the dawn, put on again some portion of the remarkable costume she had worn the day before, and went out. yes, she was going to prison. she was most likely going to prison that very day. but before she was locked up she would visit harris's house. she would steal into his rooms to take one look—one long last look for how many weary months—at giles. she knew the ways of this tenement house well. she had nothing to do but walk up the stairs and lift the latch of harris's room and go in. some of the neighbors locked their room doors at night. but susan remembered with satisfaction that harris never did so. it was quite dark when she set off, for she knew she had a very long walk from great anvill street to westminster.