it was getting dark when i slipped through a side gate, shabby and inconspicuous, into the spaceport square. beyond the yellow lamps, i knew that the old city was beginning to take on life with the falling night. out of the chinked pebble-houses, men and woman, human and nonhuman, came forth into the moonlit streets.

if anyone noticed me cross the square, which i doubted, they took me for just another dry-town vagabond, curious about the world of the strangers from beyond the stars, and who, curiosity satisfied, was drifting back where he belonged. i turned down one of the dark alleys that led away, and soon was walking in the dark.

the kharsa was not unfamiliar to me as a terran, but for the last six years i had seen only its daytime face. i doubted if there were a dozen earthmen in the old town tonight, though i saw one in the bazaar, dirty and lurching drunk; one of those who run renegade and homeless between worlds, belonging to neither. this was what i had nearly become.

i went further up the hill with the rising streets. once i turned, and saw below me the bright-lighted spaceport, the black many-windowed loom of the skyscraper like a patch of alien shadow in the red-violet moonlight. i turned my back on them and walked on.

at the fringe of the thieves market i paused outside a wineshop where dry-towners were made welcome. a golden[34] nonhuman child murmured something as she pattered by me in the street, and i stopped, gripped by a spasm of stagefright. had the dialect of shainsa grown rusty on my tongue? spies were given short shrift on wolf, and a mile from the spaceport, i might as well have been on one of those moons. there were no spaceport shockers at my back now. and someone might remember the tale of an earthman with a scarred face who had gone to shainsa in disguise....

i shrugged the shirtcloak around my shoulders, pushed the door and went in. i had remembered that rakhal was waiting for me. not beyond this door, but at the end of the trail, behind some other door, somewhere. and we have a byword in shainsa: a trail without beginning has no end.

right there i stopped thinking about juli, rindy, the terran empire, or what rakhal, who knew too many of terra's secrets, might do if he had turned renegade. my fingers went up and stroked, musingly, the ridge of scar tissue along my mouth. at that moment i was thinking only of rakhal, of an unsettled blood-feud, and of my revenge.

red lamps were burning inside the wineshop, where men reclined on frowsy couches. i stumbled over one of them, found an empty place and let myself sink down on it, arranging myself automatically in the sprawl of dry-towners indoors. in public they stood, rigid and formal, even to eat and drink. among themselves, anything less than a loose-limbed sprawl betrayed insulting watchfulness; only a man who fears secret murder keeps himself on guard.

a girl with a tangled rope of hair down her back came toward me. her hands were unchained, meaning she was a woman of the lowest class, not worth safeguarding. her fur smock was shabby and matted with filth. i sent her for wine. when it came it was surprisingly good, the sweet and treacherous wine of ardcarran. i sipped it slowly, looking round.

if a caravan for shainsa were leaving tomorrow, it would be known here. a word dropped that i was returning there would bring me, by ironbound custom, an invitation to travel in their company.

when i sent the woman for wine a second time, a man on a nearby couch got up, and walked over to me.

he was tall even for a dry-towner, and there was some[35]thing vaguely familiar about him. he was no riffraff of the kharsa, either, for his shirtcloak was of rich silk interwoven with metallic threads, and crusted with heavy embroideries. the hilt of his skean was carved from a single green gem. he stood looking down at me for some time before he spoke.

"i never forget a voice, although i cannot bring your face to mind. have i a duty toward you?"

i had spoken a jargon to the girl, but he addressed me in the lilting, sing-song speech of shainsa. i made no answer, gesturing him to be seated. on wolf, formal courtesy requires a series of polite non sequiturs, and while a direct question merely borders on rudeness, a direct answer is the mark of a simpleton.

"a drink?"

"i joined you unasked," he retorted, and summoned the tangle-headed girl. "bring us better wine than this swill!"

with that word and gesture i recognized him and my teeth clamped hard on my lip. this was the loudmouth who had shown fight in the spaceport cafe, and run away before the dark girl with the sign of nebran sprawled on her breast.

but in this poor light he had not recognized me. i moved deliberately into the full red glow. if he did not know me for the terran he had challenged last night in the spaceport cafe, it was unlikely that anyone else would. he stared at me for some minutes, but in the end he only shrugged and poured wine from the bottle he had ordered.

three drinks later i knew that his name was kyral and that he was a trader in wire and fine steel tools through the nonhuman towns. and i had given him the name i had chosen, rascar.

he asked, "are you thinking of returning to shainsa?"

wary of a trap, i hesitated, but the question seemed harmless, so i only countered, "have you been long in the kharsa?"

"several weeks."

"trading?"

"no." he applied himself to the wine again. "i was searching for a member of my family."

"did you find him?"

"her," said kyral, and ceremoniously spat. "no, i didn't find her. what is your business in shainsa?"[36]

i chuckled briefly. "as a matter of fact, i am searching for a member of my family."

he narrowed his eyelids as if he suspected me of mocking him, but personal privacy is the most rigid convention of the dry-towns and such mockery showed a sensible disregard for prying questions if i did not choose to answer them. he questioned no further.

"i can use an extra man to handle the loads. are you good with pack animals? if so, you are welcome to travel under the protection of my caravan."

i agreed. then, reflecting that juli and rakhal must, after all, be known in shainsa, i asked, "do you know a trader who calls himself sensar?"

he started slightly; i saw his eyes move along my scars. then reserve, like a lowered curtain, shut itself over his face, concealing a brief satisfied glimmer. "no," he lied, and stood up.

"we leave at first daylight. have your gear ready." he flipped something at me, and i caught it in midair. it was a stone incised with kyral's name in the ideographs of shainsa. "you can sleep with the caravan if you care to. show that token to cuinn."

kyral's caravan was encamped in a barred field past the furthest gates of the kharsa. about a dozen men were busy loading the pack animals—horses shipped in from darkover, mostly. i asked the first man i met for cuinn. he pointed out a burly fellow in a shiny red shirtcloak, who was busy at chewing out one of the young men for the way he'd put a packsaddle on his beast.

shainsa is a good language for cursing, but cuinn had a special talent at it. i blinked in admiration while i waited for him to get his breath so i could hand him kyral's token.

in the light of the fire i saw what i'd half expected: he was the second of the dry-towners who'd tried to rough me up in the spaceport cafe. cuinn barely glanced at the cut stone and tossed it back, pointing out one of the packhorses. "load your personal gear on that one, then get busy and show this mush-headed wearer of sandals"—an insult carrying particularly filthy implications in shainsa—"how to fasten a packstrap."[37]

he drew breath and began to swear at the luckless youngster again, and i relaxed. he evidently hadn't recognized me, either. i took the strap in my hand, guiding it through the saddle loop. "like that," i told the kid, and cuinn stopped swearing long enough to give me a curt nod of acknowledgment and point out a heap of boxed and crated objects.

"help him load up. we want to get clear of the city by daybreak," he ordered, and went off to swear at someone else.

kyral turned up at dawn, and a few minutes later the camp had vanished into a small scattering of litter and we were on our way.

kyral's caravan, in spite of cuinn's cursing, was well-managed and well-handled. the men were dry-towners, eleven of them, silent and capable and most of them very young. they were cheerful on the trail, handled the pack animals competently, during the day, and spent most of the nights grouped around the fire, gambling silently on the fall of the cut-crystal prisms they used for dice.

three days out of the kharsa i began to worry about cuinn.

it was of course a spectacular piece of bad luck to find all three of the men from the spaceport cafe in kyral's caravan. kyral had obviously not known me, and even by daylight he paid no attention to me except to give an occasional order. the second of the three was a gangling kid who probably never gave me a second look, let alone a third.

but cuinn was another matter. he was a man my own age, and his fierce eyes had a shrewdness in them that i did not trust. more than once i caught him watching me, and on the two or three occasions when he drew me into conversation, i found his questions more direct than dry-town good manners allowed. i weighed the possibility that i might have to kill him before we reached shainsa.

we crossed the foothills and began to climb upward toward the mountains. the first few days i found myself short of breath as we worked upward into thinner air, then my acclimatization returned and i began to fall into the pattern of the days and nights on the trail. the trade city[38] was still a beacon in the night, but its glow on the horizon grew dimmer with each day's march.

higher we climbed, along dangerous trails where men had to dismount and let the pack animals pick their way, foot by foot. here in these altitudes the sun at noonday blazed redder and brighter, and the dry-towners, who come from the parched lands in the sea-bottoms, were burned and blistered by the fierce light. i had grown up under the blazing sun of terra, and a red sun like wolf, even at its hottest, caused me no discomfort. this alone would have made me suspect. once again i found cuinn's fierce eyes watching me.

as we crossed the passes and began to descend the long trail through the thick forests, we got into nonhuman country. racing against the ghost wind, we skirted the country around charin, and the woods inhabited by the terrible ya-men, birdlike creatures who turn cannibal when the ghost wind blows.

later the trail wound through thicker forests of indigo trees and grayish-purple brushwood, and at night we heard the howls of the catmen of these latitudes. at night we set guards about the caravan, and the dark spaces and shadows were filled with noises and queer smells and rustlings.

nevertheless, the day's marches and the night watches passed without event until the night i shared guard with cuinn. i had posted myself at the edge of the camp, the fire behind me. the men were sleeping rolls of snores, huddled close around the fire. the animals, hobbled with double ropes, front feet to hind feet, shifted uneasily and let out long uncanny whines.

i heard cuinn pacing behind me. i heard a rustle at the edge of the forest, a stir and whisper beyond the trees, and turned to speak to him, then saw him slipping away toward the outskirts of the clearing.

for a moment i thought nothing of it, thinking that he was taking a few steps toward the gap in the trees where he had disappeared. i suppose i had the idea that he had slipped away to investigate some noise or shadow, and that i should be at hand.

then i saw the flicker of lights beyond the trees—light from the lantern cuinn had been carrying in his hand! he was signaling![39]

i slipped the safety clasp from the hilt of my skean and went after him. in the dimming glow of the fire i fancied i saw luminous eyes watching me, and the skin on my back crawled. i crept up behind him and leaped. we went down in a tangle of flailing legs and arms, and in less than a second he had his skean out and i was gripping his wrist, trying desperately to force the blade away from my throat.

i gasped, "don't be a fool! one yell and the whole camp will be awake! who were you signaling?"

in the light of the fallen lantern, lips drawn back in a snarl, he looked almost inhuman. he strained at the knife for a moment, then dropped it. "let me up," he said.

i got up and kicked the fallen skean toward him. "put that away. what in hell were you doing, trying to bring the catmen down on us?"

for a moment he looked taken aback, then his fierce face closed down again and he said wrathfully, "can't a man walk away from the camp without being half strangled?"

i glared at him, but realized i really had nothing to go by. he might have been answering a call of nature, and the movement of the lantern accidental. and if someone had jumped me from behind, i might have pulled a knife on him myself. so i only said, "don't do it again. we're all too jumpy."

there were no other incidents that night, or the next. the night after, while i lay huddled in my shirtcloak and blanket by the fire, i saw cuinn slip out of his bedroll and steal away. a moment later there was a gleam in the darkness, but before i could summon the resolve to get up and face it out with him, he returned, looked cautiously at the snoring men, and crawled back into his blankets.

while we were unpacking at the next camp, kyral halted beside me. "heard anything queer lately? i've got the notion we're being trailed. we'll be out of these forests tomorrow, and after that it's clear road all the way to shainsa. if anything's going to happen, it will happen tonight."

i debated speaking to him about cuinn's signals. no, i had my own business waiting for me in shainsa. why mix myself up in some other, private intrigue?

he said, "i'm putting you and cuinn on watch again. the old men doze off, and the young fellows get to daydreaming[40] or fooling around. that's all right most of the time, but i want someone who'll keep his eyes open tonight. did you ever know cuinn before this?"

"never set eyes on him."

"funny, i had the notion—" he shrugged, turned away, then stopped.

"don't think twice about rousing the camp if there's any disturbance. better a false alarm than an ambush that catches us all in our blankets. if it came to a fight, we might be in a bad way. we all carry skeans, but i don't think there's a shocker in the whole camp, let alone a gun. you don't have one by any chance?"

after the men had turned in, cuinn patrolling the camp, halted a minute beside me and cocked his head toward the rustling forest.

"what's going on in there?"

"who knows? catmen on the prowl, probably, thinking the horses would make a good meal, or maybe that we would."

"think it will come to a fight?"

"i wouldn't know."

he surveyed me for a moment without speaking. "and if it did?"

"we'd fight." then i sucked in my breath, for cuinn had spoken terran standard, and i, without thinking had answered in the same language. he grinned, showing white teeth filed to a point.

"i thought so!"

i seized his shoulder and demanded roughly, "and what are you going to do about it?"

"that depends on you," he answered, "and what you want in shainsa. tell me the truth. what were you doing in the terran zone?" he gave me no chance to answer. "you know who kyral is, don't you?"

"a trader," i said, "who pays my wages and minds his own affairs." i moved backward, hand on my skean, braced for a sudden rush. he made no aggressive motion, however.

"kyral told me you'd been asking questions about rakhal sensar," he said. "clever. now i, for one, could have told you he'd never set eyes on rakhal. i—"

he broke off, hearing a noise in the forest, a long eerie[41] howl. i muttered, "if you've brought them down on us—"

he shook his head urgently. "i had to take that chance, to get word to the others. it won't work. where's the girl?"

i hardly heard him. i was hearing twigs snap, and silent sneaking feet. i turned for a yell that would rouse the camp and cuinn grabbed me hard, saying insistently, "quick! where's the girl! go back and tell her it won't work! if kyral suspected—"

he never finished the sentence. just behind us came another of the long eerie howls. i knocked cuinn away, and suddenly the night was filled with crouching forms that came down on us like a whirlwind.

i shouted madly as the camp came alive with men struggling out of blankets, fighting for life itself. i ran hard, still shouting, for the enclosure where we had tied the horses. a catman, slim and black-furred, was crouched and cutting the hobble-strings of the nearest animal. i hurled myself on him. he exploded, clawing, raking my shoulder with talons that ripped the rough cloth like paper. i whipped out my skean and slashed upward. the talons contracted in my shoulder and i gasped with pain. then the thing howled and fell away, clawing at the air. it twitched and lay still.

four shots in rapid succession cracked in the clearing. kyral to the contrary, someone must have had a pistol. i heard one of the cat-things wail, a hoarse dying rattle. something dark clawed my arm and i slashed with the knife, going down as another set of talons fastened in my back, rolling and clutching.

i managed to get the thing's forelimbs wedged under my elbow, my knee in its spine. i heaved, bent it backward, backward till it screamed, a high wail.

then i felt the spine snap and the dead thing mewled once, just air escaping from collapsing lungs, and slid limp from my thigh. erect it had not been over four feet tall and in the light of the dying fire it might have been a dead lynx.

"rascar...." i heard a gasp, a groan. i whirled and saw kyral go down, struggling, drowning in half a dozen or more of the fierce half-humans. i leaped at the smother of[42] bodies, ripped one away with a stranglehold, slashed at its throat.

they were easy to kill.

i heard a high, urgent scream in their mewing tongue. then the furred black things seemed to melt into the forest as silently as they had come. kyral, dazed, his forehead running blood, his arm slashed to the bone, was sitting on the ground, still stunned.

somebody had to take charge. i bellowed, "lights! get lights. they won't come back if we have enough light, they can only see well in the dark."

someone stirred the fire. it blazed up as they piled on dead branches, and i roughly commanded one of the kids to fill every lantern he could find, and get them burning. four of the dead things were lying in the clearing. the youngster i'd helped loading horses, the first day, gazed down at one of the catmen, half-disemboweled by somebody's skean, and suddenly bolted for the bushes, where i heard him retching.

i set the others with stronger stomachs to dragging the bodies away from the clearing, and went back to see how badly kyral was hurt. he had the rip in his arm and his face was covered with blood from a shallow scalp wound, but he insisted on getting up to inspect the hurts of the others.

there was no one without a claw-wound in leg or back or shoulder, but none were serious, and we were all feeling fairly cheerful when someone demanded, "where's cuinn?"

he didn't seem to be anywhere. kyral, staggering slightly, insisted on searching, but i felt we wouldn't find him. "he probably went off with his friends," i snorted, and told about the signaling. kyral looked grave.

"you should have told me," he began, but shouts from the far end of the clearing sent us racing there. we nearly stumbled over a single, solitary, motionless form, outstretched and lifeless, blind eyes staring upward at the moons.

it was cuinn. and his throat had been torn completely out.[43]