mother, mother, mother!" cried pat, drawing a long breath of awe and wonder, "it seems like as if we had gone straight to heaven!"
"nay, my son, not quite to heaven, for sure the blessed book tells us that there will be no more sea there;" and the woman looked out over the heaving expanse of grey-blue water with a strange soft wistfulness in her big grey eyes. one would have said to look at her then that she had known what it meant to lose those near and dear to her through the hungry cruel sea, as indeed in her young life she had done; for she was an irish woman, and had lived all her young life beside the wild coast of galway, and many of those who bore her name had found a last resting-place beneath the heaving tossing waves. therefore it was small wonder if she had come to look forward to that bright land beyond the moaning waves, of which it has been expressly said that "there shall be no more sea."
but patrick could scarcely enter at this moment into his mother's feelings on this score. he was wild with excitement and delight, as indeed he well might be, seeing that he had only just come from a close crowded alley in a smelling fishing and trading town to this lighthouse home, which seemed to lie alone in the very heart of the sea, with nothing above or around but sea and sky, the wild sea-birds for visitors, and the plash of the waves for one long "hush-a-by." no wonder if in these first moments of returning consciousness to outward things, little pat felt as though some strange thing, almost like death, had befallen him, and that he had awakened to find himself either in heaven itself, or else in some beautiful and wonderful place very like to it indeed.
for pat had been very ill. he had been a frail little fellow all his short life, and had never been able to run about and shout and play as the other children did who lived in his court. he had spent most of his time indoors with his mother, growing more and more wan and white with each succeeding summer as it came and went. although the sea lay only a mile away from his home, he had scarcely ever walked as far as its margin, for there was nothing to attract him when he did so. it was not beautiful open sea such as what he was now looking upon, but a piece of ugly tidal water, with quays and wharfs lining the brink, and evil smells everywhere.
his father had a boat, and would have taken his boy out with him in it sometimes; but pat was afraid of the rough looks of the other men, and his mother knew that the frail child would be weary to death long before he could be put ashore. so that pat had grown up seeing little more than the sights of his own court, hearing little besides the shouts and cries and foul words so freely bandied about there. he had not been much better off in that respect than if he had come from a london slum, and this sudden awakening in the lone rock lighthouse was like an awakening in a new world.
it was on pat's account that his parents had come to this strange new home. when the hot may sunshine had come streaming into the alley in which the child had been reared, he had suddenly failed and fallen ill of a low fever, which had almost sapped his little life away; and so near had he come to the gates of death, that the doctor had shaken his head and said, "there is only one thing that can save him, and that is lots of fresh air and sunshine and pure salt breezes—not the breezes you get in here, reeking with all that is foul and impure. if you keep him here, he will die. the only chance for him is to take him right away; and i am afraid that, situated as you are, you will find it impossible to do so."
perhaps it would have been impossible at another time; but just at this very juncture it chanced that lone rock lighthouse was vacant, and indeed the post of caretaker had actually been offered to nathaniel carey, because he was known to be a steady respectable man, who could be relied upon to do his duty there. lone rock lighthouse was always changing its keeper, for the life there was so solitary that men could not long stand the strain of it; and by the end of a year, or a couple of years, almost always resigned the post, in spite of the regular pay and comfortable home.
it was not a post that nat would have cared to accept under ordinary circumstances, for he was a sociable man, and liked to have other men about him; but when the life of his only child was at stake, and his wife, with wan drawn face and piteous eyes, pointed to the little figure on the bed and told him what the doctor had said, the only thing to be done was to go and accept the post without any more hesitation; and the next business was to get the sick child removed there upon the first calm and suitable day.
for lone rock was not to be approached at all times and seasons, even in summer weather, and often was cut off from communication with the shore in winter for many weeks together. it was built upon a very dangerous sunken reef, round which the sea boiled and surged and raged from year's end to year's end. and herein lay the chief peril and the chief drawback of the keeper's life. if anything were to go wrong with him or with his home—if he were to be ill, or in want of some necessary of life, or if the structure of the lighthouse needed attention, it might be long weary days, or even weeks, before he could receive the help he had signalled for. it is true that every precaution was taken to ensure his safety. the structure was carefully examined by competent persons at short intervals. a large store of dried and salted provisions was always kept under the roof of the building, so that the keeper and his assistant might never be put to actual shifts for food, and stores of oil, for the great lamp, were likewise kept—stores which could scarcely run out, however long a spell of bad weather might last. every care and precaution was taken; but for all that the life there was one of singular isolation, and men had been known to go mad during the long dreary winter months; and once a terrible crime had been committed there through this very cause—a crime of which men whispered still sometimes with 'bated breath, though pat's mother always resolved that the child should never hear the gruesome tale.
eileen carey was the first woman who had had the courage to make a home upon the lone rock. other keepers had either been unmarried men, or had left their wives behind for the time that they lived there. but nat carey came with his wife and his child; and those in authority were glad that it was so, for they argued that a man who had a real home about him would not suffer from the loneliness of the life as others had done; and they had done several things to brighten up the little home before the new-comers arrived there. eileen's clever hands had done more so soon as they were fairly landed, for little pat required very little nursing, as he lay day after day in a trance of weakness and exhaustion. but his mother was satisfied that each day he grew slightly stronger, and was quite content to wait until he should awaken to a knowledge of his new surroundings, which she meantime strove to make as bright and as homelike as possible; for she meant that her husband and her little boy should not lack any of the comforts which her hands could provide during their whole stay on the lone rock.
and now the mother was to have her reward. for several days pat had begun to look about him, to follow her movements with his eyes, to answer when she spoke to him, and to smile when she looked his way. he was a long time in taking notice of anything except his mother and father. it seemed to them as though he had no eyes for any of the other strange things about him. he must have known that this new room, with its whitewashed walls, so spotless and clean, its queer shape, its fresh furniture and bright curtains to the sunny window, was not the room in which he had lived for all the previous years of his small life. yet he did not take any open notice of these things for many days, and his mother would not let him be spoken to about them, for, as she truly said, if he hadn't strength to take them in with his eyes, he had far better be let alone till the strength began to come back to him of itself.
and now that time had come. pat had for some days been noticing everything—noticing with an ever-increasing curiosity and pleasure. he had begun by asking what was "that funny noise that never stopped;" and when his mother had told him it was the sound of the waves, he had asked "how they got there, for they didn't use to be so near." and so little by little eileen had told him all the tale—how father had been offered the care of lone rock lighthouse, and how the doctor had said that little pat might thrive and grow strong if he were to be taken right away from the court in which he had always lived. and pat lay and smiled at the tale, and got his mother to tell it him again and again, and grew so fond of the song of the sea before ever he had been able to get up and look at it, that he often told her "it was making him well as fast as it could;" and she would smile with tears in her eyes and believe him.
every day had seen some improvement in little pat's condition; but it seemed long to the mother before he had expressed the wish to get up and look out at the window. she knew that would be the first thing he was likely to ask for, because he lay and watched the sunny square hour after hour, with a smile of contentment on his face. but it was only to-day that he had said he wanted to get up and look; and now she was sitting with him wrapped in a blanket, he standing with his little bare feet upon the window-seat, and gazing with wide-open wondering eyes over the vast expanse of sparkling water that was as little like "the sea," as he had been accustomed to think of it, as was the noise of the waves like the ceaseless bawling and brawling that his ears had grown used to in the court whence he had come.
pat was greatly moved and excited by all he saw, and from that day forward was most eager and anxious to regain his strength, that he might be able to explore the wonders of the lighthouse, and see what manner of place his new home was. so he ate everything that his mother brought to him "to make him strong;" he slept from sunset till morning like a young bird. he began to chatter and laugh to his father whenever he appeared; and long before he could attempt to mount the giddy spiral staircase, which led to the big circular room where the great lamp lived, he got his father to tell him all about it, and at night he would get out of bed if he chanced to wake up to see the circle of flashing light which it cast around upon the dark heaving mass of waters. the child was fascinated by the thought of the great lamp's lonely vigil over the wide empty sea long before he was able to understand what it was that it was doing.
the first step in the child's convalescence which seemed to mark the era of "getting better," was when he was able to be dressed and to go into the other room for his meals. the base of the lighthouse was divided into several queer-shaped rooms. there was the sleeping-room, in which the child had hitherto spent all his time; and opening from that was the kitchen or living room, in which he was used to hear his mother bustling about as he lay in bed. there were also, as he presently found out, other smaller and darker chambers. one of these was appropriated to the use of the keeper's assistant, whilst others contained the stores for the lamp and its caretakers, of which mention has been made before. it was quite a surprise to pat to learn that he and his parents were not the only occupants of the lighthouse. he had never heard any strange voice from the inner room all the time he had been lying in bed, and so he was very much astonished the first day he sat up to supper, to see a heavy-looking dark-browed man come slouching in, and taking his seat without a word of explanation or apology. the child looked wonderingly at his mother.
"that is jim," she said; "jim helps daddy with the lamp. they take it in turns to watch. jim, this is our little boy, pat—him as has been so ill, you know. i have told you about him often."
pat looked across the table and nodded, but jim said nothing, and scarcely appeared to hear himself addressed. he took his food in perfect silence, and as soon as he had finished he got up and went out, and they heard him going heavily up the winding staircase towards the lantern house.
"can't he talk?" asked pat wonderingly. "is he dumb, do you think?" eileen smiled, and shook her head at the question.
"nay, he can speak. he has a tongue, but he is wonderful loth to use it. i suppose it is the life here as has made him so quiet. surly jim is what folks call him. he has been with several keepers, but none has had a good word for him, save that he does his work well and can be trusted with the lamp. he won't be keeper, though they did offer him the place. but he stays on year after year when nobody else will. he does all his work well, and is very clean and neat; but he scarce opens his lips, save in the way of business, from one year's end to the other."
this seemed so very strange to pat that he sat for some time turning it over in his mind. he thought when he had time he would try and get surly jim to talk to him; but at present there were many other things to think of, and the child's head was crowded with new ideas and questions.
what a fascinating place the lighthouse was! as he grew stronger, he began to explore it from end to end, and found new wonders every hour of the day.
there was the little door leading out to the rocks on which the place was built, and the flight of slippery steps which led down to the tiny creek where the boat lay moored. there were chains for hauling up the boat in rough weather on to a ledge, where it would not be likely to be swept away, save perhaps in the very worst weather; and at low tide there was a wonderful mass of rock uncovered by the sea, where he could wander about and pick up untold treasures, such as he had never seen or dreamed of before. and his mother was not afraid to let him wander about here. she had grown up herself on the wild coast, and had no fear of the slippery rocks and the plashing waves. pat was only instructed to take off shoes and stockings before trying to scramble about them, and very soon he grew so sure-footed and fearless that neither parent was afraid for him. moreover, he was growing brown and healthy-looking, and stronger than he had ever been in his life before; and though he might not be very robust for some time to come, he was gaining every day, and they were glad and thankful to see it.
oh, that wide, wild, beautiful sea! how pat came to love it! it was at once a friend and playmate and a deep unspeakable mystery. he was never tired of watching its wild play over the rocks, or of sitting listening to its deep strange voice, as it laughed or shouted in its wild wonderful strength. he would sit with his face towards the west as the sun was going down, and watch whilst the great blazing ball dipped lower and lower, till it sank, sank, sank, right into the sea itself. and then as the sea opened its mouth and swallowed it up, it seemed all dyed crimson and gold, as though it had caught some of the colour from the prisoner it had taken.
the child would watch with awe this daily mystery, and when he found that every morning the sun came up again out of the sea, but in quite a different place, he was awed and perplexed past the power of speech. it never occurred to him to ask questions even of his mother about this daily wonder; but he watched it with unfailing interest, and seemed to drink in new thoughts every time it happened. he was more and more sure that his new home was very like heaven—not so beautiful as the real heaven, because jesus would be there to make the light of it: but like it in some things—in its peace and beauty and wonderful calm. pat had been so near to the gates of death that his mind naturally turned to thoughts like this. he was still not strong enough to play more than a few hours every day, and the rest of his time would be spent sitting on the rocks or at the window watching the sea, and thinking about it, until his face took a new expression, as though some of the sunshine and the clearness of the blue sea had got into them and had taken up an abode there.
very often he would carry out his little testament to his favourite nooks in the rocks, and find some of the places where he loved to read. he was particularly fond of the chapter about the "sea of glass mingled with fire," because he was so sure it must be just like his own sea at sunset time; and there were other places he was fond of too, because they always set him thinking and dreaming, and chimed in with all his new ideas. he did not talk much about his thoughts; when he went in to his mother he would chatter to her of his play and of the live things he had seen in the pools. to his father he would ask questions about the lamp, and how it kept awake all the night through—whether it never went to sleep by accident; for to him that lamp was like a living creature. he had only seen it once, because the climb up the spiral stairs turned him queer and giddy, and his parents had bidden him wait till he was stronger before he tried again. but that one visit had been enough to excite him strangely, and he always thought with awe of the great revolving light going round and round the whole night through. he was never tired of hearing about it and asking questions; but of his own strange thoughts, when he was all alone with the sea and the sunshine, he said nothing. that was his own secret—perhaps because he lacked words in which to express himself. and the new, strange, beautiful life began for little pat upon the isolated reef which supported lone rock lighthouse.
