all these days i have not once departed from my system. princess mary has come to like talking to me; i have told her a few of the strange events of my life, and she is beginning to look on me as an extraordinary man. i mock at everything in the world, especially feelings; and she is taking alarm. when i am present, she does not dare to embark upon sentimental discussions with grushnitski, and already, on a few occasions, she has answered his sallies with a mocking smile. but every time that grushnitski comes up to her i assume an air of meekness and leave the two of them together. on the first occasion, she was glad, or tried to make it appear so; on the second, she was angry with me; on the third—with grushnitski.

“you have very little vanity!” she said to me yesterday. “what makes you think that i find grushnitski the more entertaining?”

i answered that i was sacrificing my own pleasure for the sake of the happiness of a friend.

“and my pleasure, too,” she added.

i looked at her intently and assumed a serious air. after that for the whole day i did not speak a single word to her... in the evening, she was pensive; this morning, at the well, more pensive still. when i went up to her, she was listening absent-mindedly to grushnitski, who was apparently falling into raptures about nature, but, so soon as she perceived me, she began to laugh—at a most inopportune moment—pretending not to notice me. i went on a little further and began stealthily to observe her. she turned away from her companion and yawned twice. decidedly she had grown tired of grushnitski—i will not talk to her for another two days.