sloane st., thursday (april 18, 1811).
my dear cassandra,—i have so many little matters to tell you of, that i cannot wait any longer before i begin to put them down. i spent tuesday in bentinck street. the cookes called here and took me back, and it was quite a cooke day, for the miss rolles paid a visit while i was there, and sam arnold dropped in to tea.
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the badness of the weather disconcerted an excellent plan of mine,—that of calling on miss beckford again; but from the middle of the day it rained incessantly. mary and i, after disposing of her father and mother, went to the liverpool museum and the british gallery, and i had some amusement at each, though my preference for men and women always inclines me to attend more to the company than the sight.
mrs. cooke regrets very much that she did not see you when you called; it was owing to a blunder among the servants, for she did not know of our visit till we were gone. she seems tolerably well, but the nervous part of her complaint, i fear, increases, and makes her more and more unwilling to part with mary.
i have proposed to the latter that she should go to chawton with me, on the supposition of my travelling the guildford road, and she, i do believe, would be glad to do it, but perhaps it may be impossible; unless a brother can be at home at that time, it certainly must. george comes to them to-day.
i did not see theo. till late on tuesday; he was gone to ilford, but he came back in time to show his usual nothing-meaning, harmless, heartless civility. henry, who had been confined the whole day to the bank, took me in his way home, and, after putting life and wit into the party for a quarter[157] of an hour, put himself and his sister into a hackney coach.
i bless my stars that i have done with tuesday. but, alas! wednesday was likewise a day of great doings, for manon and i took our walk to grafton house, and i have a good deal to say on that subject.
i am sorry to tell you that i am getting very extravagant, and spending all my money, and, what is worse for you, i have been spending yours too; for in a linendraper's shop to which i went for checked muslin, and for which i was obliged to give seven shillings a yard, i was tempted by a pretty-colored muslin, and bought ten yards of it on the chance of your liking it; but at the same time, if it should not suit you, you must not think yourself at all obliged to take it; it is only 3s. 6d. per yard, and i should not in the least mind keeping the whole. in texture it is just what we prefer, but its resemblance to green crewels, i must own, is not great, for the pattern is a small red spot. and now i believe i have done all my commissions except wedgwood.
i liked my walk very much; it was shorter than i had expected, and the weather was delightful. we set off immediately after breakfast, and must have reached grafton house by half-past eleven; but when we entered the shop the whole counter was thronged, and we waited full half an hour before[158] we could be attended to. when we were served, however, i was very well satisfied with my purchases,—my bugle trimming at 2s. 4d. and three pair silk stockings for a little less than 12s. a pair.
in my way back who should i meet but mr. moore, just come from beckenham. i believe he would have passed me if i had not made him stop, but we were delighted to meet. i soon found, however, that he had nothing new to tell me, and then i let him go.
miss burton has made me a very pretty little bonnet, and now nothing can satisfy me but i must have a straw hat, of the riding-hat shape, like mrs. tilson's; and a young woman in this neighborhood is actually making me one. i am really very shocking, but it will not be dear at a guinea. our pelisses are 17s. each; she charges only 8s. for the making, but the buttons seem expensive,—are expensive, i might have said, for the fact is plain enough.
we drank tea again yesterday with the tilsons, and met the smiths. i find all these little parties very pleasant. i like mrs. s.; miss beaty is good-humor itself, and does not seem much besides. we spend to-morrow evening with them, and are to meet the coln. and mrs. cantelo smith you have been used to hear of, and, if she is in good humor, are likely to have excellent singing.
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to-night i might have been at the play; henry had kindly planned our going together to the lyceum, but i have a cold which i should not like to make worse before saturday, so i stay within all this day.
eliza is walking out by herself. she has plenty of business on her hands just now, for the day of the party is settled, and drawing near. above eighty people are invited for next tuesday evening, and there is to be some very good music,—five professionals, three of them glee singers, besides amateurs. fanny will listen to this. one of the hirelings is a capital on the harp, from which i expect great pleasure. the foundation of the party was a dinner to henry egerton and henry walter, but the latter leaves town the day before. i am sorry, as i wished her prejudice to be done away, but should have been more sorry if there had been no invitation.
i am a wretch, to be so occupied with all these things as to seem to have no thoughts to give to people and circumstances which really supply a far more lasting interest,—the society in which you are; but i do think of you all, i assure you, and want to know all about everybody, and especially about your visit to the w. friars; mais le moyen not to be occupied by one's own concerns?
saturday.—frank is superseded in the "caledonia." henry brought us this news yesterday[160] from mr. daysh, and he heard at the same time that charles may be in england in the course of a month. sir edward pollen succeeds lord gambier in his command, and some captain of his succeeds frank; and i believe the order is already gone out. henry means to inquire further to-day. he wrote to mary on the occasion. this is something to think of. henry is convinced that he will have the offer of something else, but does not think it will be at all incumbent on him to accept it; and then follows, what will he do? and where will he live?
i hope to hear from you to-day. how are you as to health, strength, looks, etc.? i had a very comfortable account from chawton yesterday.
if the weather permits, eliza and i walk into london this morning. she is in want of chimney lights for tuesday, and i of an ounce of darning-cotton. she has resolved not to venture to the play to-night. the d'entraigues and comte julien cannot come to the party, which was at first a grief, but she has since supplied herself so well with performers that it is of no consequence; their not coming has produced our going to them to-morrow evening, which i like the idea of. it will be amusing to see the ways of a french circle.
i wrote to mrs. hill a few days ago, and have received a most kind and satisfactory answer. any time the first week in may exactly suits her, and[161] therefore i consider my going as tolerably fixed. i shall leave sloane street on the 1st or 2d, and be ready for james on the 9th, and, if his plan alters, i can take care of myself. i have explained my views here, and everything is smooth and pleasant; and eliza talks kindly of conveying me to streatham.
we met the tilsons yesterday evening, but the singing smiths sent an excuse, which put our mrs. smith out of humor.
we are come back, after a good dose of walking and coaching, and i have the pleasure of your letter. i wish i had james's verses, but they were left at chawton. when i return thither, if mrs. k. will give me leave, i will send them to her.
our first object to-day was henrietta st., to consult with henry in consequence of a very unlucky change of the play for this very night,—"hamlet" instead of "king john,"—and we are to go on monday to "macbeth" instead; but it is a disappointment to us both.
love to all.
yours affectionately,
jane.
miss austen, edward austen's, esq.,
godmersham park, faversham, kent.