dr. and mrs. millar could make no objection to dr. harry ironside as a suitor for their daughter. it was all the other way. they were highly satisfied with the young man's antecedents and credentials, and yet dr. millar was a good deal taken aback. he had grown to look on nursing as a career for annie, and to take pride in her excellence in it, as he would have done had she been his son and a young doctor. he could not help feeling as if marriage interfered a little with his views for her. he had to recall that ironside was a very fine young fellow, with a commendable spirit of inquiry in medical matters. he would do credit to his profession, and annie, especially if she went with him to a new colony, might work in his company, and be his right hand.
mrs. millar had too much good sense and womanly experience to approve of long engagements, and she did not like the chance of annie's
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going to africa—still she would fulfil what mrs. millar considered the highest and happiest destiny for a woman, that of becoming the wife of a worthy man. as to africa, the little doctor, a fixture in his chair, told her, "my dear maria, we shall simply be giving hostages to providence, for man was told to occupy the earth, and carry civilization and redemption to its utmost bounds."
to spare annie's feelings, her relations kept her engagement and their laughter well in the background, while dr. harry ironside, having probed the russian fever to the bottom, and seen nearly the last of it, returned in triumph to london, to make arrangements for his medical mission.
as for annie, in her eagerness to escape from the rallying she had provoked, she talked incessantly about going back to st. ebbe's, where, however, she was not yet due. a longer leave of absence had been granted to her, in consideration of the fact that her holiday had been mainly spent in hard work in the impromptu hospital at redcross. she would not have accepted the additional grant apart from the circumstance that harry ironside was in london. annie admitted to herself, in the secret recesses of her heart, that now it had come to this, she would fain have passed these last precious weeks near her young lover. but she would not consent to give occasion to
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rose, or any other person—not even to harry ironside himself—to think or say that she, annie millar, was already not able to live without him. annie's wings might be clipped, but she would be annie proud and "plucky" to the last; and her lover, instinctively knowing her to be true as steel, loved her the better because of her regard for what she considered his credit as well as her own. the pride was only skin deep; the pluck was part of the heroic element in annie.
rose had been delayed in her work. she had not found it in her heart to walk about taking sketches when the good friend who had so much to do with the commission was little likely to see its completion. but when tom robinson could sit up, walk into the next room, and go back to his own house, she felt at liberty to set about her delightful business, in which her father took so keen an interest. she lost no time in starting every fine day in pursuit of the selected views, to put them on canvas while their autumnal hues were still but tinges of red, russet, and gold.
rose was mostly waited on by may, who took much satisfaction in helping to carry and set up the artist's apparatus, feeling, as she said, that she was part of a painter when she did so.
dora had been with rose, may, and tray at a pretty reach of the dewes. the elder sister was
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returning alone, along the path between the elms by the river, near the place where tom robinson had come to tray's rescue, when she met him face to face. he was taking what "constitutional" he was able for, and enjoying the light breeze which was rippling the river, just as it rippled the ripe corn and fanned the hot brows of the men who were working the corn machine in the field beyond.
dora had seen and spoken to him several times since his illness, but there had been other people present, and now the old shy dread of a tête-à-tête again took possession of her. she would have contented herself with a fluttered inquiry after his health, and a faltering remark that she ought not to detain him. she would have hurried on, as if the errand on which she was bound demanded the utmost speed, supremely wretched while she did so, to notice how pale and worn he still looked when she saw him in the broad sunshine. she would have mourned over the circumstance that he wore no wrap, though there was always some damp by the river, and speculated in despondency whether it could be right for him, while he still looked so ill, to be walking thus by himself? what would happen if faintness overtook him, and he could not accomplish the distance between him and the town?
tom robinson, delicate though he looked, quiet as he was, would not let dora have her way. he
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turned and walked back with her, which ought to have set one of her fears at rest. and his appearance must have belied him, for he was clearly in excellent spirits, with not the most distant intention of being overcome by faintness.
"this is very pleasant," he said, with a smile, and his smile was a peculiarly agreeable one.
dora could not tell whether he meant the day, or the road, or her company, or even her summer dress, which was fresher and better cared for than when he had encountered the family group "place-hunting" in london. dora had owned more leisure lately, and, absurd as it might sound, her heart had been singing with joy, so that she could not resist making her dress in keeping with the gladness of her spirit. her little fingers had been cleverer than they had ever shown themselves before in the manufacture of a frock and the trimming of a hat which would not have disgraced the taste and execution of miss franklin. yet the materials were simple and inexpensive to the last degree—a brown holland and a shady brown hat, and about the frock and the hat some old indian silk which in its mellowed gorgeousness of red and maize colours softly reflected the hues of rose's parrot tulips.
dora did not dare to ask her companion what he thought so pleasant. it seemed right to take it for
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granted that it was the weather, so she answered quickly, yes, it was a fine day for the harvest, which she believed was going to be a good one this year.
"our present encounter is more tranquil than our last, near this very spot," he went on, still smiling. "perhaps it is as well that there are no disturbing elements of collies and terriers on the scene, for though i am getting on famously, i am not sure that i am up to the mark of dragging tray and a giant assailant to the edge of the bank, and pitching them head-foremost into the water."
"i should think not," said dora briefly.
"how 'little may' screamed, and you stood, as white as a sheet, valorously aiming your stone."
"we were great cowards, both of us," admitted dora, smiling too; "and i am thankful to say tray has been much better behaved since he was at the veterinary surgeon's."
"there was room for improvement," tom robinson said, with the gravity of a judge.
"i left him on in front, begging to may for a bit of chalk."
"it is as well that it was not for a bit of beef," he said. then he suddenly changed the subject. "do you know that i have something of yours which has come into my hands that i have been
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wishing to give back to you ever since i was a responsible being again?"
as he spoke, he unfastened for the second time in their acquaintance the tiny vinaigrette case from his watch-chain, and handed it to her.
dora flushed scarlet, and took it without a word.
"i got it one night in the course of that fever, when i was at the worst, and i know you will like to hear that i am sure it did me good. the first thing that i recollect after a long blank, which lasted for days, i believe, was feebly fingering and sniffing at the little box, with a curious agreeable sense of old association. then i was able to look at it, and recognize it as my mother's vinaigrette. she had let me play with it when i was a child; and when i was a boy, subject to headache from staying too long in the hot sunshine in the cricket-field, she used to lend me her vinaigrette for a cure. but i knew that i had asked you to have it, and that you had done me the favour to accept it. the fascinating puzzle was, how had it come back to me? at last i questioned barbara franklin. she could not tell any more than myself at first, and was equally puzzled, until she remembered your sister annie's running into the room on the night when you were listening for news of my death, and asking for a smelling-bottle, and
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your fumbling for an instant in your pocket, and giving her something. that made it perfectly plain."
too plain, dora reflected in horror, for what might not miss franklin have suspected and communicated in addition to her cousin?
"i was glad i had it in my pocket," said dora, stammering. "i took it up to london with me, and—and found it often refreshing in the middle of the heat and fatigue. i am thankful to hear it was of use to you, who have the best right to it."
"no," he said emphatically, "though it was of the greatest use. my cousin barbara said also that you were very sorry for me. dora, was that so?" tom himself blushed a little in asking the question, as if he had a guilty consciousness of having taken rather a mean advantage of dora millar, first by coming so near to death without actually dying, and then by listening to what his kinswoman had to say of miss dora millar's state of mind at the crisis.
on dora's part there was no denying such a manifest truth; she could only utter a tremulous "yes," and turn her head aside.
"that was good of you, though i do not know that i am repaying the goodness properly," he said, with another smile, very wistful this time. "for i must add, that hearing of it tempted me to
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wonder once again whether you could ever learn to think of me? if you cannot, just say no, and i'll cease from this moment to tease you" (as if he had been doing nothing else save besiege and pester her for the last year and a half!).
dora could not say "no" any more than she could say "yes" straight out, though she was certain that to be kept any longer than was absolutely necessary in a state of acute suspense was very bad for him in his weakened health. by a great effort she brought herself to say in little breaks and gasps, "i do not need to learn, mr. tom, because i have thought of you for a long time now—long before you were so good and generous to all of us—almost ever since you wished—you asked—what i was so silly and so ungrateful as to refuse."
he drew her hand through his arm and held it tightly; he could not trust himself to say or do more. he was almost as shy as she was in the revulsion of his great happiness.
she struggled conscientiously to continue her confession. "i had thought hardly at all of you before then. girls are so full of themselves, and i did not know that you wished me to think of you. i seem to see now that if you had given me more time, and let me grow familiar with the idea, even though we were 'donkeys,' as annie and rose
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say, and though we were choke-full of youthful folly——" she stopped short without finishing her sentence, or going farther into the nature of what she seemed to see.
"but i besought you to take time, dora, love," he remonstrated. "you forget, i urged you to let me wait for the chance of your answer's being different." he could not help, even in the hour of the attainment of the dearest wish of his heart, being just to his old modest, reasonable self.
"yes," she said, with the prettiest, faintest, arch smile hovering about the corners of her mouth. "but men ought to be wiser than to take simple girls at their first word, which the girls can never, never unsay, unless the men bid them. now i'll tell you how malicious people will view the present situation. they will say that i refused you point blank when i thought we were well off, then got you to propose again, and graciously accepted the proposal, when i knew we had not a penny in the world. i own it looks very like it, and it is partly your fault; you should not have let me go the first time. but i don't care what people say, so long as there is not a word of truth in it."
"nor i," said tom undauntedly. "they may also say that i was able to make myself useful to your family, and like a very tradesman, traded on the usefulness, buying a reluctant bride with it.
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but what do we care when we love each other, and god has given us to each other? 'they say,'—what do they say? let them say."
there was not the shadow of a cloud the size of a man's hand on dr. and mrs. millar's pleasure in their daughter dora's marriage to tom robinson. for instead of going with annie to africa, or starting on a mission of her own to bring may's college fees from jamaica, dora remained at redcross to be tom robinson's dear wife and cherished darling. mrs. millar had long seen, in her turn, that dora could not do better. the fine old shop, and the fantastic shade of poor aunt penny, had both become of no account. the single thing which troubled mrs. millar was that the instant lady mary pemberton heard of the wedding in prospect, she invited herself to come down to it.
dora's sisters, with the charming inconsistency of young women, were not only acquiescent in her undignified fate—they were jubilant over it.
it did not arrest, though it subdued the general congratulations, when it was discovered that the event made harry ironside all at once both envious and aggressive. he could not see why, if dora millar were marrying a rich man, and he himself had a sufficient income not merely to make a satisfactory settlement on his wife, but to do his part in helping her relatives, who would also be
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his from the day he married her, that his marriage should not take place as soon as dora and tom robinson's. in place of an indefinite engagement, with thousands of miles of land and sea, and all the uncertainties of life into the bargain, between him, harry ironside, and annie millar, would it not be much better that he should carry away with him the brightest, bravest woman who ever asked little from a new colony; who, in place of asking, would give full measure and running over? for annie was not like poor dear little kate—annie would be a godsend, even though she had to go the length of learning to fire a revolver as a defence against lions and hostile natives. it would be nothing else than savage pride in dr. millar, harry continued to argue, to decline to let tom robinson defray may's small expenses at st. ambrose's, whether she won a scholarship or not. he was a man with an ample fortune, as well as the nicest fellow in the world, who was going to be not only may's coach, but her brother-in-law. in like manner it would be downright churlish and positively unkind to dora if her parents refused to occupy the pleasant small house with the large garden belonging to tom robinson, and close to what would be their daughter's house. it was conveniently vacant, and looked as if it had been made for a couple of elderly gentle-folks, who were not rich, but were
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comfortably provided for. in fact, it had been fitted up by the late mr. charles robinson for just such a pair, who had in the course of nature left the house empty.
with regard to rose, she would have to submit to be more or less harry ironside's charge till she painted and sold such 'stunning' pictures that she could afford to look down on his paltry aid. what, not allow him to assist his own sister-in-law, when he was so thankful to think that she might be like a sister in the meantime for his poor little kate to fall back upon? why, the girls could go on making a home together at his good friend mrs. jennings's, till it was right for kate, after she was old enough to choose, to cast in her lot with him and annie, supposing the colony prospered. his heart was already in that strange, far-away region, which, with all its mysteries and wonders—ay, and its terrors—has such an attraction for the young and high-spirited, the typical pilgrims to a later new england.
and what did annie think of this march stolen upon her, this attempt to extort a yard where she had only granted an inch of favour? perhaps she was dazzled by what would have repelled many another woman, in the primitive, precarious, exciting details of the life of a young colony. perhaps her heart and imagination were alike taken by
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storm when she thought of the untenanted hospital wards and the patients calling for her to go over and help them. perhaps she was simply beginning so to identify herself with harry ironside that what he did seemed her doing. anyhow annie did not say no.
the miss dyers remarked oracularly, when the double marriage was announced in redcross, that it was just what they had expected. the observation was somewhat vague, like other oracles' speeches. the general public of redcross, including the careys and hewetts, were less indefinite and more cordial in their expression of satisfaction at the suitable settlement in life of the little doctor's elder daughters.
miss franklin could not be too thankful and pleased that, after all, she had done no mischief to her cousin tom by her blunder, and by what had been her only too personal reproaches and revelations addressed to his future wife on the night when he was believed to be lying dying. in fact, if she, barbara franklin, had not been conscious of a huge mistake, with all the deplorable consequences it might have carried in its train, if she had not thus been kept shamefacedly humble and silent as to her share in the business, she might have taken credit to herself, with greater reason than mrs. jennings could boast, of having united a supremely happy couple who were drifting apart.
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even if miss franklin's part in it had been played voluntarily and advisedly, she would never have cause to regret that night's work. for dora robinson had no scruple in being the fast friend and affectionate cousin of her husband's forewoman. she had no more qualm than she would have felt if miss franklin had never condescended to trade, but had remained within the bounds of poor gentility by laboriously keeping up her halting classical music and waning foreign languages, and by continuing a finishing governess to the day of her death—or rather till she was superannuated, and had to retire to a too literal garret.
"oh! jonathan"—mrs. millar could not resist a long-drawn sob on the great day of the double marriage—"it is all very well to say annie has got a good husband—a fine disinterested young man, certain to be distinguished in his profession, you tell me. i believe that, and am very thankful for it. how could i bear the parting otherwise? but to let our eldest, our prettiest, and wittiest, with her warm heart and untiring energy—'the flower of the flock,' as people used to call her when the children were young—go out to africa, it may be to meet unheard-of trials, like your poor aunt penny, it may be never to see our faces again——" mrs. millar could say no more.
"hush! hush! maria; you must be reasonable
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—you must take the bad with the good," enjoined the little doctor from his arm-chair. "why, you are making as much commotion as you did when annie said she would be a nurse. is an hospital ward at home so preferable to an hospital ward in the dark continent, which is ceasing to be dark? its sun is only too blazingly bright, its river plains too teemingly fertile, its mountains too grand even in the grander monotony of its deserts. there is gold in its dust, and its rocks are glittering with diamonds. but, thank god, that is not all. it is the great country for which livingstone was content to spend his life, where the moffats made the wilderness blossom like the rose, and colenso won the wild heart of the zulu to trust him as a brother. you will have dora and tom next door to you, and rose and 'little may' will be constantly coming and going. as for annie and harry, how can you tell that their special gifts would not be wasted here, as i have often thought hers would have been if she had continued only a pretty, sprightly young lady, and not grown up into an hospital nurse!"
"perhaps you are right, jonathan," answered his wife meekly, coming round, as she did now more than ever, to his side of the question.
"do you think sir john richardson's daughter, bishop selwyn's wife, missed the highest calling
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she was capable of when, instead of presiding over a pleasant country-house or a fine london drawing-room, she consented with all her heart to be landed on an island in melanesia, and left among the native converts to help to prepare the malay girls for confirmation? her husband was away in the meantime in his missionary yacht on his noble enterprise, ready to take her off the island on his return, and not fearing to trust her in the interval to their god whose work she was doing," argued the old man, with a note of something like exultation in his voice. "annie and harry are not going out to africa, as my aunt penny and poor beauchamp of waylands went to australia in the days of the earlier squatters, entirely for their own hand, and because they cannot help themselves, since there is nothing left for them to do here. our children are going to render gallant service on which their talents are well bestowed, of which we shall always be proud to hear. they are, as i told you before, our hostages in the carrying out of the great purpose of the almighty ruler of the universe, by which light is to take the place of darkness, and good of evil, from the rivers even to the ends of the earth."
the end.
