and what is friendship but a name,
a charm that lulls to sleep,
a shade that follows wealth and fame,
but leaves the wretch to weep.
when charlotte was left to herself, she began to think what course she
must take, or to whom she could apply, to prevent her perishing for
want, or perhaps that very night falling a victim to the inclemency of
the season. after many perplexed thoughts, she at last determined to
set out for new-york, and enquire out mrs. crayton, from whom she had no
doubt but she should obtain immediate relief as soon as her distress was
made known; she had no sooner formed this resolution than she resolved
immediately to put it in execution: she therefore wrote the following
little billet to mrs. crayton, thinking if she should have company with
her it would be better to send it in than to request to see her.
to mrs. crayton. “madam,
“when we left our native land, that dear, happy land which now contains all that is dear to the wretched charlotte, our prospects were the same; we both, pardon me, madam, if i say, we both too easily followed the impulse of our treacherous hearts, and trusted our happiness on a tempestuous ocean, where mine has been wrecked and lost for ever; you have been more fortunate—you are united to a man of honour and humanity, united by the most sacred ties, respected, esteemed, and admired, and surrounded by innumerable blessings of which i am bereaved, enjoying those pleasures which have fled my bosom never to return; alas! sorrow and deep regret have taken their place. behold me, madam, a poor forsaken wanderer, who has no where to lay her weary head, wherewith to supply the wants of nature, or to shield her from the inclemency of the weather. to you i sue, to you i look for pity and relief. i ask not to be received as an intimate or an equal; only for charity's sweet sake receive me into your hospitable mansion, allot me the meanest apartment in it, and let me breath out my soul in prayers for your happiness; i cannot, i feel i cannot long bear up under the accumulated woes that pour in upon me; but oh! my dear madam, for the love of heaven suffer me not to expire in the street; and when i am at peace, as soon i shall be, extend your compassion to my helpless offspring, should it please heaven that it should survive its unhappy mother. a gleam of joy breaks in on my benighted soul while i reflect that you cannot, will not refuse your protection to the heart-broken. charlotte.”
when charlotte had finished this letter, late as it was in the afternoon, and though the snow began to fall very fast, she tied up a few necessaries which she had prepared against her expected confinement, and terrified lest she should be again exposed to the insults of her barbarous landlady, more dreadful to her wounded spirit than either storm or darkness, she set forward for new-york.
it may be asked by those, who, in a work of this kind, love to cavil at every trifling omission, whether charlotte did not possess any valuable of which she could have disposed, and by that means have supported herself till mrs. beauchamp's return, when she would have been certain of receiving every tender attention which compassion and friendship could dictate: but let me entreat these wise, penetrating gentlemen to reflect, that when charlotte left england, it was in such haste that there was no time to purchase any thing more than what was wanted for immediate use on the voyage, and after her arrival at new-york, montraville's affection soon began to decline, so that her whole wardrobe consisted of only necessaries, and as to baubles, with which fond lovers often load their mistresses, she possessed not one, except a plain gold locket of small value, which contained a lock of her mother's hair, and which the greatest extremity of want could not have forced her to part with.
i hope, sir, your prejudices are now removed in regard to the probability of my story? oh they are. well then, with your leave, i will proceed.
the distance from the house which our suffering heroine occupied, to new-york, was not very great, yet the snow fen so fast, and the cold so intense, that, being unable from her situation to walk quick, she found herself almost sinking with cold and fatigue before she reached the town; her garments, which were merely suitable to the summer season, being an undress robe of plain white muslin, were wet through, and a thin black cloak and bonnet, very improper habiliments for such a climate, but poorly defended her from the cold. in this situation she reached the city, and enquired of a foot soldier whom she met, the way to colonel crayton's.
“bless you, my sweet lady,” said the soldier with a voice and look of compassion, “i will shew you the way with all my heart; but if you are going to make a petition to madam crayton it is all to no purpose i assure you: if you please i will conduct you to mr. franklin's; though miss julia is married and gone now, yet the old gentleman is very good.”
“julia franklin,” said charlotte; “is she not married to montraville?”
“yes,” replied the soldier, “and may god bless them, for a better officer never lived, he is so good to us all; and as to miss julia, all the poor folk almost worshipped her.”
“gracious heaven,” cried charlotte, “is montraville unjust then to none but me.”
the soldier now shewed her colonel crayton's door, and, with a beating heart, she knocked for admission.
