lady markham’s story was one which was very well known to society—to which everything is known—though it had remained so long a secret, and was still a mystery to one of her children. waring had been able to lose himself in distance, and keep his position concealed from every one; but it was clear that his wife could not do so, remaining as she did in the world which was fully acquainted with her, and which required an explanation of everything that happened. perhaps it is more essential to a woman than to a man that her position should be fully explained, though it is one of the drawbacks of an established place and sphere, which is seldom spoken of, yet is very real, and one of the greatest embarrassments of{v2-102} life. so long as existence is without complications, this matters little; but when these arise, those difficulties which so often distract the career of a family, the inevitable explanations that have to be made to the little interested ring of spectators, is often the worst part of domestic trouble. waring, whose temperament was what is called sensitive—that is, impatient, self-willed, and unenduring—would not submit to such a necessity. but a woman cannot fly; she must stand in her place, if she has any regard for that place, and for the reputation which it is common to say is more delicate and easily injured than is that of a man—and make her excuse to the world. perhaps, as, sooner or later, excuses and explanations must be afforded, it is the wiser plan to get over them publicly and at once; for even waring, as has been seen, though he escaped, and had a dozen years of tranquillity, had at the last to submit himself to the questions of mr durant. all that was over for these dozen years with lady markham. everybody knew exactly what her {v2-103}position was. scandal had never breathed upon her, either at the moment of the separation or afterwards. it had been a foolish, romantic love-marriage between a woman of society and a man who was half rustic, half scholar. they had found after a time that they could not endure each other—as anybody with a head on his shoulders could have told them from the beginning, society said. and then he had taken the really sensible though wild and romantic step of banishing himself and leaving her free. there were some who had supposed this a piece of bizarre generosity, peculiar to the man, and some who thought it only a natural return to the kind of life that suited him best.
lady markham had, of course, been censured for this, her second marriage; and equally, of course, was censured for the breach of it—for the separation, which, indeed, was none of her doing; for retaining her own place when her husband left her; and, in short, for every step she had taken in the matter from first to last. but that was twelve years ago, which is a long time in all circumstances, and which counts for about a century in society: and nobody thought of blaming her any{v2-104} longer, or of remarking at all upon the matter. the present lords and ladies of fashionable life had always known her as she was, and there was no further question about her history. when, in the previous season, miss waring had made her début in society, and achieved the success which had been so remarkable, there was indeed a little languid question as to who was her father among those who remembered that waring was not the name of the markham family; but this was not interesting enough to cause any excitement. and frances, still thrilling with the discovery of the other life, of which she had never suspected the existence, and ignorant even now of everything except the mere fact of it, suddenly found herself embraced and swallowed up in a perfectly understood and arranged routine in which there was no mystery at all.
“the first thing you must do is to make acquaintance with your relations,” said lady markham next morning at breakfast. “fortunately, we have this quiet time before easter to get over all these preliminaries. your aunt clarendon will expect to see you at once.{v2-105}”
frances was greatly disturbed by this new discovery. she gave a covert glance at markham, who, though it was not his habit to appear so early, had actually produced himself at breakfast to see how the little one was getting on. markham looked back again, elevating his eyebrows, and not understanding at first what the question meant.
“and there are all the cousins,” said the mother, with that plaintive tone in her voice. “my dear, i hope you are not in the way of forming friendships, for there are so many of them! i think the best thing will be to get over all these duty introductions at once. i must ask the clarendons—don’t you think, markham?—to dinner, and perhaps the peytons,—quite a family party.”
“certainly, by all means,” said markham; “but first of all, don’t you think she wants to be dressed?”
lady markham looked at frances critically from her smooth little head to her neat little shoes. the girl was standing by the fire, with her head reclined against the mantelpiece of carved oak, which, as a “reproduction,” was{v2-106} very much thought of in eaton square. frances felt that the blush with which she met her mother’s look must be seen, though she turned her head away, through the criticised clothes.
“her dress is very simple; but there is nothing in bad taste. don’t you think i might take her anywhere as she is? i did not notice her hat,” said lady markham, with gravity; “but if that is right—— simplicity is quite the right thing at eighteen——”
“and in lent,” said markham.
“it is quite true; in lent, it is better than the right thing—it is the best thing. my dear, you must have had a very good maid. foreign women have certainly better taste than the class we get our servants from. what a pity you did not bring her with you! one can always find room for a clever maid.”
“i don’t believe she had any maid; it is all out of her own little head,” said markham. “i told you not to let yourself be taken in. she has a deal in her, that little thing.”
lady markham smiled, and gave frances a kiss, enfolding her once more in that soft{v2-107} atmosphere which had been such a revelation to her last night. “i am sure she is a dear little girl, and is going to be a great comfort to me. you will want to write your letters this morning, my love, which you must do before lunch. and after lunch, we will go and see your aunt. you know that is a matter of—what shall we call it, markham?—conscience: with me.”
“pride,” markham said, coming and standing by them in front of the fire.
“perhaps a little,” she answered with a smile; “but conscience too. i would not have her say that i had kept the child from her for a single day.”
“that is how conscience speaks, fan,” said markham. “you will know next time you hear it. and after the clarendons?”
“well—of course, there must be a hundred things the child wants. we must look at your evening dresses together, darling. tell josephine to lay them out and let me see them. we are going to have some people at the priory for easter; and when we come back, there will {v2-108}be no time. yes, i think on our way home from portland place we must just look into—a shop or two.”
“now my mind is relieved,” markham said. “i thought you were going to change the course of nature, fan.”
“the child is quite bewildered by your nonsense, markham,” the mother said.
and this was quite true. frances had never been on such terms with her father as would have entitled her to venture to laugh at him. she was confused with this new phase, as well as with her many other discoveries: and it appeared to her that markham looked just as old as his mother. lady markham was fresh and fair, her complexion as clear as a girl’s, and her hair still brown and glossy. if art in any way added to this perfection, frances had no suspicion of such a possibility. and when she looked from her mother’s round and soft contour to the wrinkles of markham, and his no-colour and indefinite age, and heard him address her with that half-caressing, half-bantering equality, the girl’s mind grew more and more hopelessly confused. she withdrew, as was expected of her, to write her letters,{v2-109} though without knowing how to fulfil that duty. she could write (of course) to her father. it was of course, and so was what she told him. “we arrived about six o’clock. i was dreadfully confused with the noise and the crowds of people. mamma was very kind. she bids me send you her love. the house is very fine, and full of furniture, and fires in all the rooms; but one wants that, for it is much colder here. we are going out after luncheon to call on my aunt clarendon. i wish very much i knew who she was, or who my other relations are; but i suppose i shall find out in time.” this was the scope of frances’ letter. and she did not feel warranted, somehow, in writing to constance. she knew so little of constance: and was she not in some respects a supplanter, taking constance’s place? when she had finished her short letter to her father, which was all fact, with very few reflections, frances paused and looked round her, and felt no further inspiration. should she write to mariuccia? but that would require time—there was so much to be said to mariuccia. facts were not what she would want—at least,{v2-110} the facts would have to be of a different kind; and frances felt that daylight and all the arrangements of the new life, the necessity to be ready for luncheon and to go out after, were not conditions under which she could begin to pour out her heart to her old nurse, the attendant of her childhood. she must put off till the evening, when she should be alone and undisturbed, with time and leisure to collect all her thoughts and first impressions. she put down her pen, which was not, indeed, an instrument she was much accustomed to wield, and began to think instead; but all her thinking would not tell her who the relatives were to whom she was about to be presented; and she reflected with horror that her ignorance must betray the secret which she had so carefully kept, and expose her father to further and further criticism.
there was only one way of avoiding this danger, and that was through markham, who alone could help her, who was the only individual in whom she could feel a confidence that he would give her what information he {v2-111}could, and understand why she asked. if she could but find markham! she went down-stairs, timidly flitting along the wide staircase through the great drawing-room, which was vacant, and found no trace of him. she lingered, peeping out from between the curtains of the windows upon the leafless gardens outside in the spring sunshine, the passing carriages which she could see through their bare boughs, the broad pavement close at hand with so few passengers, the clatter now and then of a hansom, which amused her even in the midst of her perplexity, or the drawing up of a brougham at some neighbouring door. after a minute’s distraction thus, she returned again to make further investigations from the drawing-room door, and peep over the balusters to watch for her brother. at last she had the good luck to perceive him coming out of one of the rooms on the lower floor. she darted down as swift as a bird, and touched him on the sleeve. he had his hat in his hand, as if preparing to go out. “oh,” she said in a breathless whisper, “i want to speak to you; i want to ask you something,”—holding up her hand with a warning hush.{v2-112}
“what is it?” returned markham, chiefly with his eyebrows, with a comic affectation of silence and secrecy which tempted her to laugh in spite of herself. then he nodded his head, took her hand in his, and led her up-stairs to the drawing-room again. “what is it you want to ask me? is it a state secret? the palace is full of spies, and the walls of ears,” said markham with mock solemnity, “and i may risk my head by following you. fair conspirator, what do you want to ask?”
“oh, markham, don’t laugh at me—it is serious. please, who is my aunt clarendon?”
“you little spartan!” he said; “you are a plucky little girl, fan. you won’t betray the daddy, come what may. you are quite right, my dear; but he ought to have told you. i don’t approve of him, though i approve of you.”
“papa has a right to do as he pleases,” said frances steadily; “that is not what i asked you, please.”
he stood and smiled at her, patting her on the shoulder. “i wonder if you will stand by me like that, when you hear me get my due?{v2-113} who is your aunt clarendon? she is your father’s sister, fan; i think the only one who is left.”
“papa’s sister! i thought it must be—on the other side.”
“my mother,” said markham, “has few relations—which is a misfortune that i bear with equanimity. mrs clarendon married a lawyer a great many years ago, fan, when he was poor; and now he is very rich, and they will make him a judge one of these days.”
“a judge,” said frances. “then he must be very good and wise. and my aunt——”
“my dear, the wife’s qualities are not as yet taken into account. she is very good, i don’t doubt; but they don’t mean to raise her to the bench. you must remember when you go there, fan, that they are the other side.”
“what do you mean by ‘the other side’?” inquired frances anxiously, fixing her eyes upon the kind, queer, insignificant personage, who yet was so important in this house.
markham gave forth that little chuckle of a laugh which was his special note of merriment. “you will soon find it out for yourself,” he{v2-114} replied; “but the dear old mammy can hold her own. is that all? for i’m running off; i have an engagement.”
“oh, not all—not half. i want you to tell me—i want to know—i—i don’t know where to begin,” said frances, with her hand on the sleeve of his coat.
“nor i,” he retorted with a laugh. “let me go now; we’ll find an opportunity. keep your eyes, or rather your ears, open; but don’t take all you hear for gospel. good-bye till to-night. i’m coming to dinner to-night.”
“don’t you live here?” said frances, accompanying him to the door.
“not such a fool, thank you,” replied markham, stopping her gently, and closing the door of the room with care after him as he went away.
frances was much discouraged by finding nothing but that closed door in front of her where she had been gazing into his ugly but expressive face. it made a sort of dead stop, an emphatic punctuation, marking the end. why should he say he was not such a fool as to live at home with his mother? why should {v2-115}he be so nice and yet so odd? why had constance warned her not to put herself in markham’s hands? all this confused the mind of frances whenever she began to think. and she did not know what to do with herself. she stole to the window and watched through the white curtains, and saw him go away in the hansom which stood waiting at the door. she felt a vacancy in the house after his departure, the loss of a support, an additional silence and sense of solitude; even something like a panic took possession of her soul. her impulse was to rush up-stairs again and shut herself up in her room. she had never yet been alone with her mother except for a moment. she dreaded the (quite unnecessary, to her thinking) meal which was coming, at which she must sit down opposite to lady markham, with that solemn old gentleman, dressed like mr durant, and that gorgeous theatrical figure of a footman, serving the two ladies. ah, how different from domenico—poor domenico, who had called her carina from her childhood, and who wept over her hand as he kissed it, when she was coming away. oh, when should she see these faithful friends again?{v2-116}
“i want you to be quite at your ease with your aunt clarendon,” said lady markham at luncheon, when the servants had left the room. “she will naturally want to know all about your father and your way of living. we have not talked very much on that subject, my dear, because, for one thing, we have not had much time; and because—— but she will want to know all the little details. and, my darling, i want just to tell you, to warn you. poor caroline is not very fond of me. perhaps it is natural. she may say things to you about your mother——”
“oh no, mamma,” said frances, looking up in her mother’s face.
“you don’t know, my dear. some people have a great deal of prejudice. your aunt caroline, as is quite natural, takes a different view. i wonder if i can make you understand what i mean without using words which i don’t want to use?”
“yes,” said frances; “you may trust me, mamma; i think i understand.”
lady markham rose and came to where her {v2-117}child sat, and kissed her tenderly. “my dear, i think you will be a great comfort to me,” she said. “constance was always hot-headed. she would not make friends, when i wished her to make friends. the clarendons are very rich; they have no children, frances. naturally, i wish you to stand well with them. besides, i would not allow her to suppose for a moment that i would keep you from her—that is what i call conscience, and markham pride.”
frances did not know what to reply. she did not understand what the wealth of the clarendons had to do with it; everything else she could understand. she was very willing, nay, eager to see her father’s sister, yet very determined that no one should say a word to her to the detriment of her mother. so far as that went, in her own mind all was clear.
