after the snow of the 26th of august a pure sky was resplendent in vain in the upper engadine, an exaltation for the eye and the imagination; in vain a wondrous golden sun enlivened everything, in vain did an even more victorious and absorbing fascination emanate from the whole countryside, and in vain the beauty of things became more absorbing and penetrating. everything was in vain for a crowd that wished to depart, and nothing availed to keep it now that it was bent on fleeing. it was a crowd that no longer had eyes, or feelings, or nerves, with which to see and feel and respond; it was a crowd that was blind, deaf, and inert to every joy-bearing impression, dominated and absorbed as it was by its desire of departing. with the same impetus with which it had arrived from all parts and every distant country a month ago, had violently and feverishly invaded hotels, pensions, and villas, filling them to overflowing, had peopled the most remote and deserted corners, had placed its outposts on the most impervious slopes and climbed the loftiest peaks: with this same irresistible impetus by which it had conquered and fashionably devastated the silence, calm, and poesy of the upper engadine, that crowd was now turning its back, departing, and fleeing, without anyone or anything availing to delay its departure for an hour or a day. but the departure did not seem like a departure, it resembled a precipitous flight, a sauve qui peut, as if there had been a summons to some lofty duty or to the enjoyment of some great pleasure.
for a week the little station of st. moritz dorf had been besieged by the crowd, to book seats in wagons-lits in the expresses of the great international lines for paris, london, brussels, berlin, frankfort, and it would leave the station disconsolate, because for days the places in the wagons-lits on all lines had been taken; for at the mere idea of being forced to continue its sojourn for a day or an hour in the engadine, the despairing crowd caused it to rain telegrams, offering to pay to have the wagons-lits and first-class carriages increased, in a state of agitation at every little obstacle that hindered its departure and flight. for a week the post office of st. moritz bad had been hedged in by a crowd booking places in the mail-coaches that descended twice a day into italy, but so many people wanted to leave that places were lacking and every day the office added extra carriages, but even these were insufficient; so the exasperated crowd that wished to descend pell-mell into italy booked special carriages at a high fee, just to get away on the day and the hour, without giving a glance behind. for a week conversations overlapped.
"i have my places for tuesday evening...."
"i have telegraphed to zurich...."
"i am expecting a telegram from basle...."
"we hired a carriage from tiraboschi to descend...."
"frau goertz has given up her places in the wagons-lits to me: she is returning to italy by carriage from the bernina...."
"if i am unable to find places in wagons-lits i shall descend to chiavenna, and go from thence to the frontier at chiasso."
never had the upper engadine been so beautiful. its surrounding colours and its breezes had indescribable charms in those last days of august. it seemed to change its aspect a hundred times, each more graceful than the other, it was a medley of the brightest colours, it appeared to be swimming in a divine, crystalline air, and to be poised amidst the most vivid freshness. so sensitive souls, hearts secretly pierced, spirits being poisoned by slow poison—some rare soul, some rare heart and spirit—at such exquisite beauty felt themselves trembling with a new, mysterious life, felt themselves in those last days healed of all their old bleeding wounds and freed from gall and bitterness, as if a powerful and unknown medicine had performed such a miracle. but when even for them the hour of departure drew near, a great regret, a great grief, and an immense nostalgia oppressed and suffocated their hearts.
but if by chance a long sigh of nostalgia for the engadine land escaped their oppressed hearts, where they had found a balm for all their wounds, if this sigh became a word or an expression, scandalised, the crowd would turn and brutally tell the poor man or woman that it was ridiculous, yes, ridiculous, to want to remain even a single day longer. brutally the crowd reduced to silence the timid man or tender woman who would still have liked, in those few beautiful september days, to console, heal, and free themselves amidst the grace, purity, and simplicity of the engadine. silently timid man and tender woman bowed the head, expressing all the grief of broken dreams, the nostalgia for things that would have consoled, healed, and freed them and which they must implacably leave.
implacably the crowd bustled, racketing everywhere, with hurry, anxiety, and despair, to arrange its departure. in hotel rooms there was a dull and continuous shock of boxes being put down and lifted, of heavy luggage being filled and strapped, of opening and closing of wardrobes, with a continuous, nervous ringing of electric bells. the coming and going in corridors and salons of managers, waiters, chambermaids, servants, and porters was vertiginous; the offices of the hotels were in a continuous bustle, getting ready bills and cashing money at all hours; the porters no longer had a minute's peace, taking a hundred orders, at the same time, for a hundred things incidental to departure, and every evening, at the great desk of the head porter, on a long black board, written in chalk, were the numbers of the rooms which would be free on the following day, and the number of passengers who would be leaving. joyfully, brutally, the crowd jostled before the blackboard and read there that a part of them, an ever greater part, would be leaving to-morrow by such and such a train, by such and such a post-carriage.
"twenty-seven people left this morning."
"to-morrow, see, thirty-eight are leaving."
"on sunday is the great departure from here, seventy-two people."
from day to day the last words were said, the last acts accomplished rapidly and anxiously. in the hotels the crowd surged round the telephone boxes impatiently waiting its turn to telephone to zurich, or geneva, or basle, giving orders, changing itineraries and instructions, receiving affirmative, or adverse replies. the crowd surged in the roads at the doors of the five or six banks, to withdraw the balance of their last letters of credit, to send away their last sum of money; they surged from shop to shop, to buy the last pretty and useful things from the engadine, and the last souvenirs of st. moritz and the grissons, to take away for relations and friends; they surged at the post office to expedite the last registered letter, to stamp the last picture post cards, to send the last telegrams. but the crowd surged more or less compactly, with one object only in every place, from the little wooden gallery where the music plays in the morning, near the "kurhaus," to the larger gallery at the new springs by the "stahlbad," while the serenade from pagliacci resounded sadly; they surged from the confiserie of de gasparis to the tea-rooms of the "kulm," from the pastry shop of hanselmans to tea at the golf club, as they came and went on foot or tram, with the single idea of looking for friends to say good-bye to them. every moment at these and other places, beneath the beautiful porticoes of the bad, at the inn bridge, before the vestibules of the hotels, on the footpaths of the dorf, at the carriage door, there were meetings, little cries of joy, feigned sighs, greetings and leave-takings.
"... i will look you up."
"... of course i will come."
"... we leave this evening."
"... at paris within three weeks."
"... to-morrow at lucerne, on tuesday at geneva."
"... at varrenna, on the 15th of september."
early in the morning horses pawed the ground and tinkled their little bells before the main doors of the hotels, to warn those who were to descend in special carriages to italy. before the post office, the ordinary and special post-carriages were drawn up in a line, one behind the other, while postilions busied themselves around them, and porters continuously sought out and piled up fresh luggage on the carts which followed the carriages. everywhere there was a rapid movement, a great hurrying of those who were setting out at this early hour, who had few friends and acquaintances and an indescribable anxiety to get away, speeded at the hotel door only by the very sleepy under-secretary, speeded at the post office merely by the under-porter, leaving without companions and without flowers, hurriedly, securing themselves in their carriages and settling themselves comfortably, without a glance at the country they were leaving, without a farewell as they went on their way. amidst the cracking of postilions' and coachmen's whips and the tinkling of bells they went on their way tranquilly and serenely, now that they had started for the maloja, the val bregaglia—and italy.
the others set out in carriages, much later, towards italy, at ten or eleven, those who were in an immense hurry to fly, but who had to take leave of so many people in the hotels, greet so many friends on the square, return thanks and accept and render homage, receive flowers, give bonbonnières, all with an increasing anxiety which worldly politeness did not succeed in concealing, with a joyful excitement which was hidden by a false regret, as if to console those who were still remaining for two or three days, and who had no need of consolation, since they in their turn would leave. so on one side and the other words of farewell tried in vain to be sorrowful, though as a matter of fact the lady who was about to leave was secretly glad that she was being surrounded by this homage for the last time, and the man was secretly glad to be rid of another of his relations in the high mountains. the husband for private reasons, good and bad, was glad to be going elsewhere, and the children were at the height of joy and mischief, as was the case every time they changed ground. a little crowd surrounds the carriage; hats are lifted once more, the horses spring forward: the travellers wave their gloved hands, veils flutter, bells tinkle, and they are away over the inn bridge, towards the maloja, the val bregaglia, and italy. other carriages are with them which have arrived from the dorf hotels, campfer, silvaplana, and sils, and all unite to form a cortège of noisily rolling carriages, of trotting horses, cracking whips, tinkling bells, fluttering veils, without any of those who were on their way giving a glance to the mountains, lakes, and meadows that they are leaving behind them, without any act of farewell for the things around them.
those who had just taken leave of them, bringing flowers and gifts with a wish for a pleasant journey, would remain for a few minutes to talk quietly without the least melancholy, afterwards to disperse among the ever less frequented roads of the bad. they went to see about their final affairs, for within a day or two they, too, would be far-away. many were getting ready for the principal trains leaving that day or on the morrow—the two daily expresses whose departure from st. moritz dorf took place amidst the terrible hurrying of the crowd, which at last left for all the countries of the world. away, away, they went from the upper engadine without a glance or a nod of farewell—for the train pierced two tunnels in succession and was immediately at and beyond samaden—already distrait and forgetful, already anxious and longing for another life elsewhere, where their fantasies, nerves, and feelings should have other visions, other impressions, and other sensations.
carriages and omnibuses arrived at a sharp trot from st. moritz bad and st. moritz dorf, full of people who were turning their backs with such hurry and furor. the pretty, clean little station was groaning with people, was heaped with piles of enormous luggage, and amidst ladies, men and children waved baskets and bunches of flowers, baskets of fresh fruit tied with ribbons and bows, large bonbonnières of swiss chocolate—all gifts and souvenirs for those who were leaving from those who, impatient, were secretly waiting the brief flight of the hours to go in their turn. ah, these accompaniments of flowers and gifts, what a last essay of worldly rivalry! what a steeplechase between madame and miss, each hoping to have more than the other, more than their dearest friend and dearest enemy, hoping to be surrounded by the most followers at the station—by a really big group, while the others should have only five, or six, or eight, but no more. it was a profitable business in these last few days for the florists, confectioners, and vendors of souvenirs. there were retinues of bouquets, of baskets and bunches of flowers amongst the crowd at the little station, flowers wrapped in wrappings of tissue paper were held in the hands of ladies, children, and maids, an occasional bunch pressed to the bosom, the most precious of the bundle of flowers! ah, how the ladies who were leaving counted them! how they paled with envy the day on which the marquise de vieuxcastel left, as they counted, astonished and irritated, the flowers in a hundred shapes that followed her in a floral crown, accompanied by friends, relations, and servants—the marquise who was grace personified, to whom all the ladies gave forty-five or fifty years and all the men thirty; nevertheless, she was full of beauty and youth from the depths of her beautiful young soul. and what deep anger on the part of little madame d'allart, when at the station she perceived that at least four of the bouquets she expected were missing, while, as a matter of fact, the pale, blond, reserved and thoughtful comtesse de la ferté guyon had more than she—the tower of ivory! the tower of ivory to whom no one dare pay court! and what grotesque anger on the part of madame mentzel, who arrived at the station with but five followers and seven bouquets of flowers, one of which she had bought herself, at the sight of floral garlands that were clasped on all sides by the crowd, by all these ladies of the "palace," even by the comtesse pierre de gérard, la grande comtesse, the noble lady of the self-conscious and almost statuesque posings, with a face that seemed almost that of a sphinx, pure, ardent, and silent. although she was considered the proudest and most distant of that assembly, even she was surrounded by friends, and madame mentzel went about exclaiming, from one end to the other of the little station, that unfortunately all her friends had left before her.
even in their departure these ladies of the "palace" were created to exasperate and annoy those from other hotels—all the poor profane! they left—these olympians—with an even more olympic air than usual, with a contempt that was totally distrait, with a serene pride, so much so that it seemed as if a cloud, mythologically speaking, should bear them away and not a trivial train. each had thirty or forty packages to which the railway and railway people servilely gave preference. they had reserved carriages and saloons for themselves alone. madame azquierda was followed by eight or ten servants, who carried a hundred things into her reserved carriage—pillows, her bridge table, her table to prepare lunch, a bird-cage of thirty rare birds: madame de aguilar travelled with two english detectives to watch over her jewels and took with her four guests whom she was transporting to the shores of the north sea, even to heligoland, where her yacht of two thousand tons, la gitana, would take them, together with other guests, for a cruise in the north sea. in fact, these olympian ladies of the "palace," as if to damn the profane, were leaving for, shall we say, the most unexpected countries; none of them, just to be different, were making for the usual, banal places. one was going to munich to hear a cycle of mozart's works; another was going to england and the scotch lakes, another to bruges la morte; another was going to umbria, to perugia; another in automobile to bohemia—each to a strange place, for strange reasons, through artistic, literary, or ?sthetic snobbishness, or perhaps—perhaps—through real taste, but certainly they were making a different journey, looking for a different atmosphere, sighing after different impressions. in fact, madame lawrence, whom many had dubbed a jewess, who never went to church, to do something odd, was going on a pilgrimage to our lady of lourdes. biting her lips, donna mercédès de fuentes, after inquiring from everyone, learnt that no one from the "palace" was coming with her to lucerne for la grande semaine. it was enough to drive one mad, and only don giorgio galanti could console her a little on the day of departure, for he had left over a little bunch of four splendid roses—how one knows not—that had found no billet; he offered them to her, so she arranged a meeting with him for october in paris at the elysée palace.
but in spite of the olympian disdain of the ladies at the station the hour of departure, with the crowd that thronged more densely, grew vertiginous. waves of movement in every sense passed over the crowd: a noise first dull, then higher and higher, became a deafening din, amidst the crashing of carts, the rumbling of baggage, the thousand voices and calls, the arrival of fresh carriages and unloading of fresh luggage, and over all was the invincible anxiety to clamber into the train, to close the eyes, to be transported far, far-away from the engadine, not even putting the head out to see how everything was disappearing to right and left, as if now the engadine were a dream that was over, as if it had never been either reality or dream.
the sky was of a sapphire blue—of the deep sapphire of the east—over the engadine, liquid gold was the sun, like limpid rock crystal the atmosphere, like ambrosia the air, the dawn pink with a thousand rosy tints, the noontide trembling with light and heat, the twilight of a thousand shades of purple, and the nights palpitated indescribably with stars, as never before. amidst such splendour and softness its roads were thinned of passersby, and no longer clouds of dust arose; the paths and little white tracks amongst the immense meadows were no longer crossed except by few people, and for hours and hours by no one. the little donkeys with their red plush saddles, which had taken ladies and children for outings and excursions, had disappeared from the square before the public gardens; slowly donkeys and drivers had taken the bernina road to return to vallettina. before the kursaal of the maloja the comese boats of the lake of sils had been beached; the electric launch on the lake of st. moritz had ceased its trips, and was drawn up to its winter garage; the gondoliers had gone with their gondolas to italy. one day the music played no more in the little wooden gallery by the h?tel kurhaus, another day there was no music in the great gallery at the "serpentquelle," and gradually the musicians began to gather together, to pack their luggage, and set off for the italian lakes and milan. some of the shops of the bad closed towards the end of august; the kiosks for jewellery, lace, and flowers lowered their iron shutters and all tiraboschi's coachmen hurried to leave with their horses by easy stages towards italy, lombardy, piedmont, and the french frontier, to arrive after a couple of months at nice and monte carlo, where they would do service for the greater winter season. gradually waiters and chambermaids, major-domos and grooms left, and there remained but the staff, which, within a week or ten days, would also have disappeared. at certain hours of the day there was a deep silence; no longer at night did the "kulm," the grand hotel, the "palace," the "schweizerhof," flame with their lights reflected in the lake, but only a feeble, flickering light threw some slender spark thereon. a great peace, not melancholy, now spread over the upper engadine; a solemn calm stretched to its farthest borders. above mountains, fields, lakes, in almost deserted country roads, solitude and silence was enhancing the beauty of the upper engadine—its incomparable, intangible beauty.
during the last week the little affairs of love and passion, of big and little flirts, had strangely changed in aspect and substance. nearly all had become more intense, as if the imminent separation had caused their modest flames to flash forth, rendering more serious and sad the gay caprice of a month. every morning in the pine woods, full of the freshest perfumes, in the little paths one met nothing but amorous couples, some silent and slow, with lowered eyes, some rapid and agitated in their conversation, and on the seats in the little woods, and by the lake only flirting couples were to be seen, some melancholy, and contemplating with distracted eyes the even more solitary landscape, others exchanging long, significant glances. in front of the windows of faist's library, amongst the sorrento woods and tortoiseshell of pasquale gallone, at florists', at kiosks where the picture post cards were on sale, these couples of every age and nation and condition stopped to look for a book, buy a little present, exchange bouquets of flowers and post cards, pressing their hands suggestively, after a sentimental exchange. but these meetings and exchanges of little pledges happened at all hours till late at night, even in the vestibules, halls, and salons of the large hotels. there was not a corner unoccupied, not a divan that did not accommodate two persons, not a table at which two heads were not bent, while a gold pencil or silver pen raced rapidly over the page of an open volume, on the white pages of a volume of souvenirs. heads were raised, a long, melancholy, and passionate glance between the twain expounded the motto, the name, and the date. there was now less dancing in the ballrooms, and only a few courageous couples gyrated to the last tunes of the orchestra; but the love-making increased even more, couples sat side by side, always conversing in a low voice, heeding not the calls of the "boston" and "two-step." couples were in the embrasures of windows and verandah, or promenading in the farthest corridors or before the buffet, drinking together a drink of the same colour, each eating a pastry of the same shape; couples withdrew to the salon, the billiard and reading-rooms, pretending to interest themselves in things they saw not; only to get far-away. wherever one could take a cup of tea, in hotels, cafés, restaurants, above at the unteralpina, below at the meieri, everywhere pairs of flirts were seated at the tables; and the tea smoked invitingly and in vain in the cups which the absent and absorbed couples forgot to sip. everywhere mothers and fathers, relations and tutors, as with final complacency they thought that to-morrow, perhaps, all would be over, and not wishing to sadden the last days, pretended more than ever to see and know nothing, not to be aware of anything or understand. they were the last concessions of maternal indulgence, which preferred not to exalt or exasperate the last meetings, the last glances and hand-claspings.
in glances and words, in scribbled mottoes and hand-squeezes, in some fleeting kiss exchanged at the back of a deserted room, behind the pages of a large illustrated paper or the hedge of the tennis-court, there was always a promise and an oath of eternal love and fidelity. who did not promise? who did not swear? the comtesse di durckeim, the eccentric hungarian, smiling bitterly on the last day, told her women friends that she was bound by an everlasting oath to five of her suitors, and that she had given them tryst in five different countries, while she herself would go to a sixth country in search of an unknown lover—l'inconnu, ma chère amie, l'inconnue, celui que j'aime toujours plus que les autres. lia norescu had given at least ten promises and received ten solemn oaths—the astonishing girl with a soul full of ashes and poison—but as a matter of fact she left with only one flirt, an elderly, wealthy gentleman, who, perhaps, would have married her, but she was subtle and elusive, and would not let herself be taken; another flirt, a youth whom she liked very much, was waiting for her at ostend, a handsome youth, who pretended to be rich, but que faire? don giorgio galanti, the fascinating, astute italian, had sworn eternal fidelity to numerous flirts at the bad, the dorf, and pontresina; but he went to join an enchanting woman whom he loved at the semmering, near vienna, and who loved him, but who could only meet him two or three times a year for a single day at a time, in far-away and different districts, a real romance, which he concealed beneath his cynical aspect of viveur. the marquise d'allart, small, exquisite, gracefully corrupt, believing neither what was told her nor what she said, gathered promises and took oaths in a half-pretty and sentimental tone, with a veil of melancholy in her voice; and later, when alone in her room, full of little gifts and flowers, when she was to sleep her last night in the engadine, she laughed cruelly at herself and others, showing her fierce little teeth to her mirror.
madame lawrence, indifferent, unfeeling, listened to promises and oaths, and gathered them with an expressive smile, but she made none in exchange as now and then she uttered some banal word, perhaps purposely insipid. once again her suitors and flirts were indignant at her want of feeling, and some of them took their leave, deciding not to run after her or to see her no more; others, though angry, believed that time and other encounters and opportunities would pierce the heart of this woman who was too beautiful, and disguised their feelings. the other professional beauty, the divine miss miriam jenkyns, was even more terrible in her indifference, since she tranquilly rejected promises and oaths, declared against the inutility of the lies, and the vacuity of these sentimental forms, and beautiful, imperturbable, olympian, but perhaps hugging to her heart a secret that was torturing and killing her, she discouraged, repressed, and settled all her suitors and flirts, carrying her mystery behind her pale, pure brow.
who did not promise? who did not swear? amidst sylvan perfumes, along the shores of the lakes, amidst the fields where the last flowers of summer still bloomed, in flower-clad gardens, in ballrooms, in reading-rooms, in solitary terraces, on white verandahs where the moon was contemplated, more especially on the last evening and morning, at the last moment, before a carriage whose horses were pawing the ground impatient to start, before the closing doors of the train, lovers, flirts, and suitors, a little pale, a little moved, promised in a low voice, made oath subduedly even if convinced they were lying; even if cynical they were moved. here and there one was deeply moved, taken and conquered, by pure sentiments and a sincere love.
on a clear morning the handsome youth, the tall, blond, elegant pole, ladislaus woroniecki, with the dreamy eyes, left for his own country; he was in love with the beautiful, fragile invalid, else von landau, who was remaining in the upper engadine, having decided to live and grow well, and who would remain there for a year or two. she had accompanied him to say good-bye at the station, and the two held each other's hands without caring for the public. their loving eyes spoke a true promise, and a true oath, which they would maintain.
miss ellis robinson was leaving for paris, the charming american old maid of forty; her italian flirt, the gracious don carlo torriani, who had followed her with courteous obstinacy, besieged her with lively but sincere court, striving to make her renounce her part of vieux gar?on—this italian lover—"le beau torriani beau pour moi," as she smilingly spoke of him—suddenly understood that as she promised him to return soon to italy, certainly in november, promising him "d'y penser un peu ... à cette chose ... seulement un peu," as she smiled no more, as she looked at him seriously, that the charming old maid of forty would keep her vow. vows and promises which were true, vows and promises which were half true, and vows and promises which were false, each man and woman uttered them on those last clear nights and limpid mornings—cynics, sceptics, indifferents, ingenuous, or impassioned, all felt a dull agitation disturbing them, all tried in vain to control themselves and to laugh and smile. only those who had had a caprice, a flirtation, a little affair of passion, or love, those who had known how to play with love or whom love had mocked, those who had been chained for a short time, or those who were chained for ever, they only, even the most sceptical and most superficial—and much more so those with feeling heart and soul—experienced the sharp bitterness of having to leave that country, were pierced by the nostalgia for all they were abandoning, and turned to gaze at for the last time, to smile at and bless for the last time the upper engadine.
divine engadine, beloved, adored, blessed by all those who have discovered the face of love and perhaps of happiness. while the pleasure-seekers forgetfully left her without regret, seeking other surroundings with other pleasures, with an inextinguishable thirst that inundated the hearts and souls, while the snobs left without understanding anything, diseased with snobbishness as they were, and anxious to find other circles where they could abandon themselves to their ridiculous infirmity; while the vicious and corrupt fled, shrugging their shoulders, annoyed, in fact, because they had been unable to develop, as they believed and hoped, their vice and corruption; while the indifferent, from whom everything glides away, left without an impression or a recollection, while all those pleasure-seekers, snobs, the vicious, corrupt, and indifferent were dragged along by the same vortex to live elsewhere the same life, while for all of them the magnificent beauty of things and the majesty of the deserted heights had been useless and vain—only those who had loved, for a day, for an hour, for ever in the engadine, took her away with them in their hearts as a sweet, ineffaceable memory. they delighted in her as the country of their dearest poesy, they shut her up in their fantasy, as the purest of their dreams, they blessed her in the name of their love. the divine engadine had offered all her most precious treasure to them, even to those seized by a light caprice, even to those transported by a little flirtation in a summer night in the high mountains, even to lovers' tears, even to those who must forget everything at once: the divine engadine had given to those men and women all her dearest gifts. divine engadine! her winding paths amongst the soft verdure of the meadows had felt the light steps of lovers who had gone along them in forgetfulness of every other human thing; her shady paths amid the salient woods had given their odoriferous freshness to the couples which had traversed them, holding arm or hand; the small singing waters of the brooks hidden amidst grass and rocks had murmured to lovers' ears the music of gaiety and caress; the great, motionless, and shining waters of the lakes had opened before the rocking boats which bore the lovers; had brilliantly reflected the faces of those who had curiously gazed into them from the bank; and the lofty mountain had gathered the more daring, who, in joyous desire of peril, bore their love up there, towards the white and terrible peaks. all her favours—light, flowers, and perfumes—the upper engadine had conceded to those who loved her. she had only been beautiful, pure, luminous, the fount of health and life to her old admirers of half a century, of thirty and twenty years, and one of them she had pressed to her bosom for ever in a mortal embrace; only to the humble sick who had come there to seek peace, solitude, and strength. and for those who would never return again, in spite of their nostalgia, as for those who would return the following year, in sentimental pilgrimage, the upper engadine remained for them, with all her precious treasures and admirable gifts, a country of well-being and dreams; and later, they, on hearing her name or seeing her outlines on a post card, or hearing mention of some high peak, would experience a tremor of inconsolable regret.
thus in these last days they were passing together in the upper engadine, mabel clarke and vittorio lante, in spite of the happy certainty of their love and future, in spite of the fact that they were going thence together to paris, where mrs. annie clarke was feverishly anxious to arrive, requiring a stay of at least six weeks there for all her dresses and hats—thirty dresses and sixty hats for herself and daughter—before setting out for america; in spite of the certainty that in new york the great parent, the great john clarke would at once consent to the marriage of his daughter with don vittorio lante, prince of santalena (there was the title in the family), because john clarke loved his daughter, and would, like every good american, respect her wish; in spite of all that was smiling on their youth and troth, every now and then they looked at the country where they had known each other, where they had grown fond of each other, and a light cloud obscured their eyes. their young nerves vibrated with the fullness of life, and absorbed the deep pleasure of being young, healthy, and of loving: but in the presence of the places where their stay in the high mountains had unfolded itself, in its episodes, now gay, now sentimental, they experienced a feeling of unexpected melancholy. mabel clarke did not want vittorio to love her too much all'italiana, as she said, that is, with currents of vague melancholy, with mysterious languors, obscure currents of sadness which characterise italian love; she did not like that—the frank, lively, american girl, all expansiveness, and without secret comers in her heart or secret thoughts in her mind. but every now and then she was dragged down into that soft, sentimental whirlpool. if they passed before the english library of the dorf, where they had met the first time; if once again they crossed the wood of charnadüras where, a trifle jestingly, they had spoken the first words of love; if they renewed the walk round the lake where one day he had expressed more vigorously and ardently the fascination by which she subdued him; if for a moment they gazed into the dark but limpid night from the balconies of the "palace," with its memories of other nocturnal contemplations; if on the return from the maloja they noticed from the carriage the sunset girdle with its veils crestalta and villa story; if they saw again a turn of the road, a corner of a room—the slow whirlpool of amorous sadness engulfed them both. they mourned for the engadine which they would shortly leave, they even mourned for her when jesting and smiling at st. moritz dorf station, whence they left together, and where the departure of mrs. clarke and her daughter caused a bustle, anxiety, and despair in all; where all the friends and acquaintances had come to provide them with a triumphal departure, with cheers and good wishes—they mourned for the engadine although they were going towards their happiness. while the train entered the tunnel opposite the foaming white cascade of the inn, mabel clarke extricated herself from the slow mental whirlpool, and said to vittorio lante:
"we shall never love each other in another land as we have in the engadine."
"in italy," he replied, serene and confident.
"ah, in italy," she murmured, a little drearily.
lilian temple and lucio sabini had prolonged their stay in the engadine through all that charming first week of september, which had rendered the beauty of the country more intense and penetrating. as by an enchantment it had held them bound, in forgetfulness of all other surroundings.
every day the peace and silence increased around them, and on them the enchantment worked more profoundly. when lilian timidly spoke of their departure she saw lucio's face disturbed with mortal sadness. she became silent, and remained yet a day, and again another; while miss ford waited, calm and patient. at last, one day, the 6th of september, lucio asked permission to accompany the two ladies on a visit they proposed making, after leaving the engadine, to berne, to old berne, the historical, true swiss city, whither go neither worldlings nor snobs, but where it is possible to pass two or three days of tranquillity in touch with an ancient world of art and poesy. he asked hesitatingly, trembling at the fear of a refusal, to be allowed to accompany them still further, to basle, where they wished to stop again, to grey basle, where hans holbein left his best pictures, and where nietzsche taught philosophy. and nothing had been more torturing for him than the moment in which he waited for the reply of the two ladies, although the reply came rapid, frank, decisive, and affectionate, filling him with joy which he knew not how to conceal, which he read in lilian's eyes and smile, like his own. so from that land where they had arrived from different countries and directions, with different souls and hearts, from that land where destiny had strangely brought them together, with hand clasped in hand they left together, as if they were to journey thus all their lives. now and then lilian's eyes were fixed on the horizon of mountains towering towards the sky, but they seemed to see nothing, being absorbed by their interior vision; lucio sabini saw nothing except the dear face and dear person of lilian beside him, and only a confused regret in the depth of their hearts, just a little gnawing sorrow possessed them on the morning they left with miss may ford for berne.
on the morning of departure it was already calmer at the station, because the crowd had now fled in every direction, by every line, because silence reigned in the valleys and in the two little villages of st. moritz; because only those remained who were allowing themselves some days of calm and comfort before leaving for the large, stifling, noisy cities. silently, and a little pale, lilian followed with quiet steps her two travelling companions, who were busy with the details of departure. she was wearing a thick white veil, and as on the evening of the dance at the "kulm," she had in her hand three white roses which lucio had given her as a souvenir. silent and pale, she got into the train and stood as she watched to see if lucio were following; pale and silent she sat in a corner by a window, watching the hill of the dorf and the plain of the bad below, and the beautiful lake that unites them on its banks. her friend and companion seated herself in another corner, and opened a large english newspaper, while lucio silently settled the luggage. with a feeble whistling the train departed and entered the tunnel along the gloomy gorge of the inn; but lilian still kept her head turned to the window, a little bowed. uncertain and embarrassed by the presence of may ford, lucio had not dared to approach lilian; but at last, unable to resist, he drew near to her, calling her twice, and touching her hand and the roses, and then he perceived that the roses were bedewed with tears. he bent towards her ear and said in a firm voice:
"lilian, you mustn't cry; you mustn't suffer."
simply and courageously she ceased to weep, smiled a moment, and replied:
"that is true. i mustn't cry and i mustn't suffer."