once upon a time, yes, in the days of king sennacherib, a young assyrian captain, valiant and desirable, but more hapless than either, fleeing in that strange rout of the armies against judah, was driven into the desert. daily his company perished from him until he alone, astride a camel, was left searching desperately through a boundless desert for the loved plains of shinar, sweet with flocks and rich with glittering cities. the desolation of ironic horizons that he could never live to pierce hung hopelessly in remote unattainable distances, endless as the blue sky. the fate of his comrades had left upon him a small pack of figs and wine, but in that uncharted wilderness it was but a pitiable parrying of death’s last keen stroke. there was no balm or succour in that empty sky; blue it was as sapphires, but savage with rays that scourged like flaming brass. earth itself was not less empty, and the loneliness of his days was an increasing bitterness. he was so deeply forgotten of men, and so removed from the savour of life, from his lost country, the men he knew, the women he loved, their temples, their markets and their homes, that it seemed[72] the gods had drawn that sweet and easy world away from his entangled feet.
but at last upon a day he was astonished and cheered by the sight of a black butterfly flickering in the air before him, and towards evening he espied a giant mound lying lonely in the east. he drove his camel to it, but found only a hill of sand whirled up by strange winds of the desert. he cast himself from the camel’s back and lay miserably in the dust. his grief was extreme, but in time he tended his tired beast and camped in the shadow of the hill. when he gave himself up to sleep the night covering them was very calm and beautiful, the sky soft and streaming with stars; it seemed to his saddened mind that the desert and the deep earth were indeed dead, and life and love only in that calm enduring sky. but at midnight a storm arose with quickening furies that smote the desert to its unseen limits, and the ten thousand stars were flung into oblivion; winds flashed upon him with a passion more bitter than a million waves, a terror greater than hosts of immediate enemies. they grasped and plunged him into gulfs of darkness, heaped mountains upon him, lashed him with thongs of snakes and scattered him with scimitars of unspeakable fear. his soul was tossed in the void like a crushed star and his body beaten into the dust with no breath left him to bemoan his fate. nevertheless by a miracle his soul and body lived on.
it was again day when he recovered, day in the likeness of yesterday, the horizons still infinitely far. long past noon, the sun had turned in the sky; he was[73] alone. the camel was doubtless buried in the fathoms he himself had escaped, but a surprising wonder greeted his half-blinded eyes; the hill of sand was gone, utterly, blown into the eternal waste of the desert, and in its track stood a strange thing—a shrine. there was a great unroofed pavement of onyx and blue jasper, large enough for the floor of a temple, with many life-size figures, both men and women, standing upon it all carved in rock and facing, at the sacred end, a giant pillared in black basalt, seven times the height of a man. the sad captain divined at once that this was the lost shrine of namu-sarkkon, the dead god of whom tradition spoke in the ancient litanies of his country. he heaved himself painfully from the grave of sand in which he had lain half-buried, and staggering to the pavement leaned in the shade of one of those figures fronting the dead god. in a little time he recovered and ate some figs which he carried in a leather bag at his hip, and plucked the sand from his eyes and ears and loosened his sandals and gear. then he bowed himself for a moment before the black immobile idol, knowing that he would tarry here now until he died.
namu-sarkkon, the priestless god, had been praised of old time above all for his gifts of joy. worshippers had gathered from the cities of assyria at this his only shrine, offering their souls for a gift to him who, in his time and wisdom, granted their desires. but namu-sarkkon, like other gods, was a jealous god, and, because the hearts of mankind are vain and destined to betrayal, he turned the bodies of his devotees into[74] rock and kept them pinioned in stone for a hundred years, or for a thousand years, according to the nature of their desires. then if the consummation were worthy and just, the rock became a living fire, the blood of eternity quickened the limbs, and the god released the body full of youth and joy. but what god lives for ever? not namu-sarkkon. he grew old and forgetful; his oracle was defamed. stronger gods supplanted him and at last all power departed save only from one of his eyes. that eye possessed the favour of eternity, but only so faintly that the worshipper when released from his trap of stone lived at the longest but a day, some said even but an hour. none could then be found to exchange the endurances of the world for so brief a happiness. his worship ceased, namu-sarkkon was dead, and the remote shrine being lost to man’s heart was lost to man’s eyes. even the tradition of its time and place had become a mere fantasy, but the whirlwinds of uncounted years sowing their sands about the shrine had left it blameless and unperishable, if impotent.
recollecting this, the soldier gazed long at the dead idol. its smooth huge bulk, carved wonderfully, was still without blemish and utterly cleansed of the sand. the strange squat body with the benign face stood on stout legs, one advanced as if about to stride forward to the worshipper, and one arm outstretched offered the sacred symbol. then in a moment the assyrian’s heart leaped within him; he had been staring at the mild eyes of the god—surely there was a movement in[75] one of the eyes! he stood erect, trembling, then flung himself prostrate before namu-sarkkon, the living god! he lay long, waiting for his doom to eclipse him, the flaming swords of the sun scathing his weary limbs, the sweat from his temples dripping in tiny pools beside his eyes. at last he moved, he knelt up, and shielding his stricken eyes with one arm he gazed at the god, and saw now quite clearly a black butterfly resting on the lid of one of sarkkon’s eyes, inflecting its wings. he gave a grunt of comprehension and relief. he got up and went among the other figures. close at hand they seemed fashioned of soft material, like camphor or wax, that was slowly dissolving, leaving them little more than stooks of clay, rough clod-like shapes of people, all but one figure which seemed fixed in coloured marble, a woman of beauty so wondrous to behold that the assyrian bent his head in praise before her, though but an image of stone. when he looked again at it the black butterfly from the eyelid of the god fluttered between them and settled upon the girl’s delicately carved lips for a moment, and then away. amazedly watching it travel back to the idol he heard a movement and a sigh behind him. he leaped away, with his muscles distended, his fingers outstretched, and fear bursting in his eyes. the beautiful figure had moved a step towards him, holding out a caressing hand, calling him by his name, his name!
“talakku! talakku!”
she stood thus almost as if again turned to stone,[76] until his fear left him and he saw only her beauty, and knew only her living loveliness in a tunic of the sacred purple fringed with tinkling discs, that was clipped to her waist with a zone of gold and veiled, even in the stone, her secret hips and knees. the slender feet were guarded with pantoffles of crimson hide. green agates in strings of silver hung beside her brows, depending from a fillet of gems that crowned and confined the black locks tightly curled. buds of amber and coral were bound to her dusky wrists with threads of copper, and between the delicacy of her brown breasts an amulet of beryl, like a blue and gentle star, hung from a necklace made of balls of opal linked with amethysts.
“wonder of god! who are you?” whispered the warrior; but while he was speaking she ran past him sweetly as an antelope to the dark god. he heard the clicking of her beads and gems as she bent in reverence kissing the huge stone feet of sarkkon. he did not dare to approach her although her presence filled him with rapture; he watched her obeisant at the shrine and saw that one of her crimson shoes had slipped from the clinging heel. what was she—girl or goddess, phantom or spirit of the stone, or just some lunatic of the desert? but whatever she was it was marvellous, and the marvel of it shocked him; time seemed to seethe in every channel of his blood. he heard her again call out his name as if from very far away.
“talakku!”
he hastened to lift her from the pavement, and conquering[77] his tremors he grasped and lifted her roughly, as a victor might hale a captive.
“pretty antelope, who are you?”
she turned her eyes slowly upon his—this was no captive, no phantom—his intrepid arms fell back weakly to his sides.
“you will not know me, o brave assyrian captain,” said the girl gravely. “i was a weaver in the city of eridu....”
“eridu!” it was an ancient city heard of only in the old poems of his country, as fabulous as snow in canaan.
“ai ... it is long since riven into dust. i was a slave in eridu, not ... not a slave in spirit....”
“beauty so rare is nobility enough,” he said shyly.
“i worshipped god namu-sarkkon—behold his shrine. who loves namu-sarkkon becomes what he wishes to become, gains what he wishes to gain.”
“i have heard of these things,” exclaimed the assyrian. “what did you gain, what did you wish to become?”
“i worshipped here desiring in my heart to be loved by the king of the world.”
“who is he?”
she dropped her proud glances to the earth before him.
“who was this king of the world?”
still she made no reply nor lifted her eyes.
“who are these figures that stand with us here?” he asked.
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“dead, all dead,” she sighed, “their destinies have closed. only i renew the destiny.”
she took his hand and led him among the wasting images.
“merchants and poets, dead; princesses and slaves, dead; soldiers and kings, they look on us with eyes of dust, dead, all dead. i alone of sarkkon’s worshippers live on enduringly; i desired only love. i feed my spirit with new desire. i am the beam of his eye.”
“come,” said the assyrian suddenly, “i will carry you to shinar; set but my foot to that lost track ... will you?”
she shook her head gravely; “all roads lead to sarkkon.”
“why do we tarry here? come.”
“talakku, there is no way hence, no way for you, no way for me. we have wandered into the boundless. what star returns from the sky, what drop from the deep?”
talakku looked at her with wonder, until the longing in his heart lightened the shadow of his doom.
“tell me what i must do,” he said.
she turned her eyes towards the dark god. “he knows,” she cried, seizing his hands and drawing him towards the idol, “come, talakku.”
“no, no!” he said in awe, “i cannot worship there. who can deny the gods of his home and escape vengeance? in shinar, beloved land, goes not one bee unhived nor a bird without a bower. shall i slip my allegiance at every gust of the desert?”
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for a moment a look of anguish appeared in her eyes.
“but if you will not leave this place,” he continued gently, “suffer me to stay.”
“talakku, in a while i must sink again into the stone.”
“by all the gods i will keep you till i die,” he said. “one day at least i will walk in paradise.”
“talakku, not a day, not an hour; moments, moments, there are but moments now.”
“then, i am but dead,” he cried, “for in that stone your sleeping heart will never dream of me.”
“o, you whip me with rods of lilies. quick, talakku.” he knew in her urgent voice the divining hope with which she wooed him. alas for the assyrian, he was but a man whose dying lips are slaked with wise honey. he embraced her as in a dream under the knees of towering sarkkon. her kisses, wrapt in the delicate veils of love, not the harsh brief glister of passion, were more lulling than a thousand songs of lost shinar, but the time’s sweet swiftness pursued them. her momentary life had flown like a rushing star, swift and delighting but doomed. from the heel of the god a beetle of green lustre began to creep towards them.
“farewell, talakku,” cried the girl. she stood again in her place before namu-sarkkon. “have no fear, talakku, prince of my heart. i will lock up in your breast all my soft unsundering years. like the bird of fire they will surely spring again.”
he waited, dumb, beside her, and suddenly her limbs[80] compacted into stone once more. at the touch of his awed fingers her breast burned with the heat of the sun instead of the wooing blood. then the vast silence of the world returned upon him; he looked in trembling loneliness at the stark sky, the unending desert, at the black god whose eye seemed to flicker balefully at him. talakku turned to the lovely girl, but once more amazement gathered in all his veins. no longer stood her figure there—in its place he beheld only a stone image of himself.
“this is the hour, o beauteous one!” murmured the assyrian, and, turning again towards the giant, he knelt in humility. his body wavered, faltered, suddenly stiffened, and then dissolved into a little heap of sand.
the same wind that unsealed namu-sarkkon and his shrine returning again at eve covered anew the idol and its figures, and the dust of the assyrian captain became part of the desert for evermore.
