my letters! all dead paper, mute and white!
and yet they seem alive and quivering
against my tremulous hands which loose the string
and let them drop down on my knee to-night.
this said,—he wished to have me in his sight
once, as a friend: this fixed a day in spring
to come and touch my hand . . . a simple thing,
yet i wept for it!—this, . . . the paper’s light . . .
said, dear i love thee; and i sank and quailed
as if god’s future thundered on my past.
this said, i am thine—and so its ink has paled
with lying at my heart that beat too fast.
and this . . . o love, thy words have ill availed
if, what this said, i dared repeat at last!