love that keeps all the choir of lives in chime
love that is blood within the veins of time.
—swinburne.
you all know that funny little inn at st. denis, on what was then the main road between paris and havre; it stands sheltered against north and east winds by a towering bouquet of mighty oaks, which were there, believe me—though mayhap not quite so gnarled and so battered by storms of wind and thunder as they are now—in the april of that year 1678.
the upper story gabled and raftered hung then as now quite askew above its lower companion, and the door even in those days was in perpetual warfare with its own arched lintel, and refused to meet it in a spirit of friendly propinquity. the seine winds its turgid curves in the rear of the building with nothing between it and the outer walls only the tow path always ankle deep in mud.
the view out and across the winding river is only interesting to the lover of colour and of space, for there are no romantic hills, no rugged crags or fir-crowned plateaus to delight the eye. only a few melancholy acacias sigh and crackle in the wind and tall poplars rear their majestic heads up to the vast expanse of sky.
now elegant villas and well-trimmed gardens fill the space over which two hundred and forty years ago the eye wandered seeking in vain for signs of human habitation. rank grass covered the earth, and close to the water's edge clumps of reeds gave shelter to water rats and birds.
[203] through the small dormer window just beneath the gable, michael kestyon looked out upon the melancholy landscape and found it exquisitely fair.
the wind howled down the wide chimney and sighed drearily through the reeds, whereon the spring had not yet thrown her delicate tints of green; but michael thought the sound divine, for it mingled in his ear with the tones of a fresh, young voice which had prattled gaily on throughout supper-time, of past and of future—not of the present, for that was sacred, too sacred even for her words.
she was a little tired at first, when he lifted her off the saddle, and the amiable hostess of the ramshackle inn took charge of her and saw to her comforts. but after a little rest in her room, she came and joined him in the stuffy parlour, the window of which gave on that far horizon, beyond which lay the sea, england and home.
she seemed a little scared when she found herself quite alone with him, without maman or papa to interrupt the tête-à-tête. she was so young, and oh! how tender and fragile she appeared to him, as she came forward a little timidly, with great, blue eyes opened wide, wherein her pure love fought with her timidity.
her whole appearance, her expression of face as she yielded her hand to him, and allowed him to draw her closer ever closer to his heart, made appeal to all that was best, most humbly reverent within him.
rose marie was home to him, she was joy and she was peace, and he, the homeless, the joyless, the insubordinate wastrel, felt a wave of infinite tenderness, a tenderness which purified his love, and laid ardent passion to rest.
he led her to the window, and throwing it wide open, he knelt down beside her there in the embrasure. she sat on the narrow window seat, looking out on that vast ex[204]panse of sky and land whereon the shadows of evening had thrown a veil of exquisite sadness and peace. the bare branches of the acacias as yet only tipped with tiny flecks of green moaned softly beneath the kiss of the breezes. banks of clouds lashed into activity by the wind hurried swiftly past, out towards the unseen ocean, now obscuring the moon, now revealing her magic beauty, more transcendent and glorious after those brief spells of mystery conquered and of darkness subdued. michael said very little. there was so little that he could say, which was not now a lie. he could not speak to her of his home, for home to him had been a miserable garret under the grimy roof of a house of disrepute, shared with others as miserable, as homeless as himself. he could not speak to her of friends, for of these he had none, only the depraved companions of a dissolute past, nor could he speak of kindred, unless he told her that it was because his mother was dying of hunger in a wretched hovel that he had spoken the mighty lie and taken payment for speaking it.
i would not have you think that even now michael felt any remorse for what he had done. he was not a man to act first and blush for his actions afterwards. he knew his action to be vile, but then he had known that ere he committed it, and knowing it had deliberately taken his course. were it to be done all over again, he would do it; since she never could be his save by the great lie and the monstrous trick, then the lie must be spoken and the trick accomplished. for she meant love and purification; she meant the re-awakening of all that was holy in him and which the creator infuses in every man be he cast into this world in a gutter or upon a throne.
and he would make her happy, for he had gained her love, and a woman such as she hath but one love to give.[205] she would never have loved stowmaries, and not loving, she would have been unhappy. he had taken upon himself the outer shell of another man, and that was all; just another man's name, title and past history, nothing more. but it was his personality which had conquered her, his love which had roused hers. she loved—not an earl of stowmaries, the plighted husband of her babyhood. no! she loved him, michael, the blackguard, the liar, the cheat an you will call him so; but she loved him, the man for all that.
therefore he felt no remorse, when he knelt beside her and during that exquisite hour of evening, when shadows flew across the moon, and the acacias whispered fairy tales of love and of brave deeds, he listened to her innocent prattle with a clear mind and a determined conscience, and the while she spoke to him of her simple past life, of her books and of her music, his ambition went galloping on into the land of romance.
the title of earl of stowmaries which he had assumed, he could easily win now; the riches, the position, everything that could satisfy a woman's innocent vanity he would shower upon his snowdrop. she would have all that her parents wished for her, all and more, for she would have a husband who worshipped her, whose boundless love was built on the secure foundation of a great and lasting gratitude.
it was in this same boundless gratitude that he kissed her hands now; those little hands which had been the exquisite channels through which had flown to him the pure waters of love and of happiness.
how quaint she looked, with her fair hair almost wild round her little head. the dance first, then the ride through wind and space had loosened most of the puffs[206] and curls from their prearranged places. that tired look round the eyes, the ring of dark tone which set off the pearly whiteness of her skin, the beads of moisture on her forehead, these gave her a strangely-pathetic air of frailty, which most specially appealed to michael's rugged strength.
her white gown was torn here and there—michael remembered catching his foot in it in the mazes of the dance—it was crumpled, too, and hung limply round her young figure, showing every delicate curve of the childlike form, every rounded outline of budding womanhood.
think you it was an easy task for michael to keep his tempestuous passion in check, he who throughout his life had known no control save that of cruel necessity? think you he did not long to take her in his arms, to cover those sweet lips with kisses, to frighten her with the overwhelming strength of his love and then to see fright slowly changing to trust and the scared look give way beneath the hot wave of passion.
but with all that mad desire coursing through brain and blood, michael knelt there at her feet, holding her hands, and listening to the flow of talk which like a cooling stream rippled in his ear. she asked him about england and about his home, and wanted to know if in springtime the white acacias were in bloom in sussex, and if rosemary—her namesake—grew wild in the meadows.
in the woods round fontainebleau the ground was carpeted with anemones; were there such sweet white carpets in the english woods? then she looked about her in the ugly, uninteresting little room and saw a broken-down harpsichord standing in a corner.
she jumped up gay as a bird and ran to open it. there were several broken keys, and those that still were whole gave forth quaint, plaintive little sounds but she sang:
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"si tu m'aimais, tu serais roi de la terre!"
and he remained beside the window, with the cold breeze fanning his cheek, his head resting in his hand, and his eye piercing the gloomy corner of the room from whence came the heavenly song.
indeed! was he not king of all the world?
thus passed a delicious hour. anon the coach—which originally should have brought the bridal pair hither, had not milor carried off the bride in such high-handed fashion—came lumbering up to the door.
prudent maman had despatched it off in the wake of the impetuous rider. it contained a bundle of clothes and change of linen for rose marie and had my lord's effects, too, in the boot.
rose marie gave a little cry of delight when she realised maman's forethought, and then one of dismay for she suddenly became conscious of her disordered dress.
the worthy hostess—fat, greasy and motherly, had entered, candle in hand, to announce the arrival of the coach.
"me and my man expected monsieur and madame to arrive in it," she explained volubly. "monsieur's servant came yesterday to bespeak the rooms and to arrange for the stabling. i was so surprised when monsieur arrived on horseback, so much earlier, too, than we had anticipated—else i had had supper ready ere this, for monsieur and madame must surely be hungry."
"but supper must be ready by now, good madame blond," said rose marie blushing to hear herself called "madame," "and i pray you have my effects taken to my room."
"they are there already, so please you, my pigeon," said the amiable old soul, "and there is some water for washing your pretty face."
[208] "and will supper be ready soon?" she reiterated insistently for she was young and healthy, and had eaten very little for sheer excitement all day.
"while you smooth out your golden curls, ma mignonne, i'll dish up the soup. nay! but monsieur is in luck's way!" she said, shaking her large round head. "madame is the comeliest bride we have seen at st. denis for a long time past. and they all come this way, you know—away from the prying eyes of kindly friends. me and my man are so discreet!—especially if the bride be so pretty and the bridegroom so good to look at."
she would have babbled on a long time, despite monsieur's look of fretful impatience, but fortunately just then the hissing sound of an overflowing soup-pot came ominously through the open door.
"holy joseph, patron of good housewives, defend us!" exclaimed mme. blond, making a dash for the door, "the cro?te-au-pot is boiling over."
rose marie made to follow her.
"need you go, my snowdrop?" he asked, loth to let her go.
"just to change my crumpled gown, and smooth my hair," she replied demurely.
"you are so beautiful like this, i would not wish to see one single curl altered upon your head, or one fold changed upon your gown."
she was standing against the table, the fingers of one hand resting lightly upon the blackened oak, her head bent slightly forward the while her blue eyes half sought, half shrank from his gaze.
he went up to her, and drew her to him. the desire was irresistible and she almost called for that first kiss by her beauty, her innocence, her perfect girlishness which[209] was so ready to give all bliss and to taste all happiness.
he kissed her fair hair, her eyes, her delicate cheeks now suffused with blushes. then with a look he asked for her lips and she understood and yielded them to him with a glad little sigh of infinite trust.
the hand of time marked these heavenly minutes; surely the angels looked down from their paradise in envy at this earthly heaven. outside the wind sighed amid the branches of the acacias, wafting into the room something of the pungent odour of this spring air, of the opening buds of poplars and of beeches and the languorous odour of newly-awakened life.
gently she tried to disengage herself from his arms.
"i must go now," she whispered.
"not yet."
"for a moment and i'll come back."
"not yet."
"let go, dear lord, for i would go."
"not till i've had another kiss."
happiness and the springtime of the earth, joy and life and love dancing hand in hand with youth! o time, why dost not stop at moments such as this?
the sighing of the reeds on the river bank came as the sound of a fairy lullaby, the scent of the spring reached the girl's nostrils like an intoxicant vapour, which clouded her brain. the room was quite dark, and she could scarcely see his face, yet she felt that his eyes perpetually asked a question, to which she could only respond by closing her own:
"tu m'aimes?" he whispered, and the heavy lids falling over ardent eyes made mute response to him.
a confused sound of horses' hoofs outside, of shouts[210] and calls from within roused them both from their dream. she succeeded now in disengaging herself from his arms, and still whispering:
"i'll come back!" she retreated toward the door.
just as she reached it, the moon so long obscured burst forth in full glory from behind a bank of clouds, her rays came straight into the narrow room and lighted on the dainty figure of the girl standing with crumpled white dress and hair disarranged, cheeks rosy red and eyes full of promise and love against the dark background of the heavy oaken door.
michael looked upon her with longing, hungry eyes, drinking in every line of that delicately-moulded form, the graceful neck, the slender hands, the firm girlish shoulders on which the prim kerchief had become slightly disarranged. then as she retreated further into the next room, she vanished from his sight; the door fell to behind her with a heavy, ominous sound, shutting out the radiant vision of michael's cherished dream, leaving him on the other side of the heavenly portals, alone and desolate.
thus he saw her in full light, and lost her in the shadows. something of the premonition of what was to come already held his heart as in a cold and cruel vice. when the door closed upon his dream, upon his rose marie, he knew by an unerring and torturing instinct that he would never, never see her quite as she had been just now. the rose marie who had left him was for remembrance.
