when i exchanged my maiden name for better or worse, and dearest vavasour and i, at the conclusion of the speeches—i was married in a traveling-dress of bluefern’s—descended the steps of mamma’s house in ebury street—the belgravian, not the pimlican end—and, amid a hurricane of farewells and a hailstorm of pink and yellow and white confetti, stepped into the brougham that was to convey us to a waterloo station, en route for southampton—our honeymoon was to be spent in guernsey—we were perfectly well satisfied with ourselves and each other. this state of mind is not uncommon at the outset of wedded life. you may have heard the horrid story of the newly-wedded cannibal chief, who remarked that he had never yet known a young bride to disagree with her husband in the early stages of the honeymoon. i believe if dearest vavasour had seriously proposed to chop me into cotêlettes and eat me, with or without sauce, i should have taken it for granted that the powers that be had destined me to the high end of supplying one of the noblest of created beings with an entrée dish.
we were idiotically blissful for two or three days. it was flowery april, and guernsey was looking her loveliest. no horrid hotel or boarding-house sheltered our lawful endearments. some old friends of papa’s had lent us an ancient mansion standing in a wild garden, now one pink riot of almond-blossom, screened behind lofty walls of lichened red brick and weather-worn, 220wrought-iron gates, painted yellow-white like all the other iron and wood work about the house.
“mon désir” the place was called, and the fragrance of potpourri yet hung about the old paneled salons. vavasour wrote a sonnet—i have omitted to speak before of my husband’s poetic gifts—all about the breath of new passion stirring the fragrant dust of dead old love, and the kisses of lips long moldered that mingled with ours. it was a lovely sonnet, but crawly, as the poetical compositions of the modern school are apt to be. and vavasour was an enthusiastic convert to, and follower of, the modern school. he had often told me that, had not his father heartlessly thrown him into his brewery business at the outset of his career—sim’s mild and bitter ales being the foundation upon which the family fortunes were originally reared—he, vavasour, would have been, ere the time of speaking, known to fame, not only as a minor poet, but a minor decadent poet—which trisyllabic addition, i believe, makes as advantageous a difference as the word “native” when attached to an oyster, or the guarantee “new laid” when employed with reference to an egg.
dear vavasour’s temperament and tastes having a decided bias towards the gloomy and mystic, he had, before his great discovery of his latent poetical gifts, and in the intervals of freedom from the brain-carking and soul-stultifying cares of business, made several excursions into the regions of the unknown. he had had some sort of intercourse with the swedenborgians, and had mingled with the muggletonians; he had coquetted with the christian scientists, and had been, until theosophic buddhism opened a wider field to his researches, an enthusiastic spiritualist. but our engagement somewhat cooled his passion for psychic research, and when questioned by me with regard to table-rappings, manifestations, and materializations, i could not but be conscious 221of a reticence in his manner of responding to my innocent desire for information. the reflection that he probably, like canning’s knife-grinder, had no story to tell, soon induced me to abandon the subject. i myself am somewhat reserved at this day in my method of dealing with the subject of spooks. but my silence does not proceed from ignorance.
knowledge came to me after this fashion. though the april sun shone bright and warm upon guernsey, the island nights were chill. waking by dear vavasour’s side—the novelty of this experience has since been blunted by the usage of years—somewhere between one and two o’clock towards break of the fourth day following our marriage, it occurred to me that a faint cold draft, with a suggestion of dampness about it, was blowing against my right cheek. one of the windows upon that side—our room possessed a rather unbecoming cross-light—had probably been left open. dear vavasour, who occupied the right side of our couch, would wake with toothache in the morning, or, perhaps, with mumps! shuddering, as much at the latter idea as with cold, i opened my eyes, and sat up in bed with a definite intention of getting out of it and shutting the offending casement. then i saw katie for the first time.
she was sitting on the right side of the bed, close to dear vavasour’s pillow; in fact, almost hanging over it. from the first moment i knew that which i looked upon to be no creature of flesh and blood, but the mere apparition of a woman. it was not only that her face, which struck me as both pert and plain; her hands; her hair, which she wore dressed in an old-fashioned ringletty mode—in fact, her whole personality was faintly luminous, and surrounded by a halo of bluish phosphorescent light. it was not only that she was transparent, so that i saw the pattern of the old-fashioned, striped, dimity bed-curtain, in the shelter of which she sat, 222quite plainly through her. the consciousness was further conveyed to me by a voice—or the toneless, flat, faded impression of a voice—speaking faintly and clearly, not at my outer, but at my inner ear.
“lie down again, and don’t fuss. it’s only katie!” she said.
“only katie!” i liked that!
“i dare say you don’t,” she said tartly, replying as she had spoken, and i wondered that a ghost should exhibit such want of breeding. “but you have got to put up with me!”
“how dare you intrude here—and at such an hour!” i exclaimed mentally, for there was no need to wake dear vavasour by talking aloud when my thoughts were read at sight by the ghostly creature who sat so familiarly beside him.
“i knew your husband before you did,” responded katie, with a faint phosphorescent sneer. “we became acquainted at a séance in north-west london soon after his conversion to spiritualism, and have seen a great deal of each other from time to time.” she tossed her shadowy curls with a possessive air that annoyed me horribly. “he was constantly materializing me in order to ask questions about shakespeare. it is a standing joke in our spirit world that, from the best educated spook in our society down to the most illiterate astral that ever knocked out ‘rapport’ with one ‘p,’ we are all expected to know whether shakespeare wrote his own plays, or whether they were done by another person of the same name.”
“and which way was it?” i asked, yielding to a momentary twinge of curiosity.
katie laughed mockingly. “there you go!” she said, with silent contempt.
“i wish you would!” i snapped back mentally. “it 223seems to me that you manifest a great lack of refinement in coming here!”
“i cannot go until vavasour has finished,” said katie pertly. “don’t you see that he has materialized me by dreaming about me? and as there exists at present”—she placed an annoying stress upon the last two words—“a strong sympathy between you, so it comes about that i, as your husband’s spiritual affinity, am visible to your waking perceptions. all the rest of the time i am hovering about you, though unseen.”
“i call it detestable!” i retorted indignantly. then i gripped my sleeping husband by the shoulder. “wake up! wake up!” i cried aloud, wrath lending power to my grasp and a penetrative quality to my voice. “wake up and leave off dreaming! i cannot and will not endure the presence of this creature another moment!”
“whaa——” muttered my husband, with the almost inebriate incoherency of slumber, “whasamaramydarling?”
“stop dreaming about that creature,” i cried, “or i shall go home to mamma!”
“creature?” my husband echoed, and as he sat up i had the satisfaction of seeing katie’s misty, luminous form fade slowly into nothingness.
“you know who i mean!” i sobbed. “katie—your spiritual affinity, as she calls herself!”
“you don’t mean,” shouted vavasour, now thoroughly roused, “that you have seen her?”
“i do mean it,” i mourned. “oh, if i had only known of your having an entanglement with any creature of the kind, i would never have married you—never!”
“hang her!” burst out vavasour. then he controlled himself, and said soothingly: “after all, dearest, there is nothing to be jealous of——”
224“i jealous! and of that——” i was beginning, but vavasour went on:
“after all, she is only a disembodied astral entity with whom i became acquainted—through my fifth principle, which is usually well developed—in the days when i moved in spiritualistic society. she was, when living—for she died long before i was born—a young lady of very good family. i believe her father was a clergyman ... and i will not deny that i encouraged her visits.”
“discourage them from this day!” i said firmly. “neither think of her nor dream of her again, or i will have a separation.”
“i will keep her, as much as possible, out of my waking thoughts,” said poor vavasour, trying to soothe me; “but a man cannot control his dreams, and she pervades mine in a manner which, even before our engagement, my pet, i began to find annoying. however, if she really is, as she has told me, a lady by birth and breeding, she will understand”—he raised his voice as though she were there and he intended her to hear—“that i am now a married man, and from this moment desire to have no further communication with her. any suitable provision it is in my power to make——”
he ceased, probably feeling the difficulty he would have in explaining the matter to his lawyers; and it seemed to me that a faint mocking sniggle, or rather the auricular impression of it, echoed his words. then, after some more desultory conversation, we fell soundly asleep. an hour may have passed when the same chilly sensation as of a damp draft blowing across the bed roused me. i rubbed my cheek and opened my eyes. they met the pale, impertinent smile of the hateful katie, who was installed in her old post beside vavasour’s end of the bolster.
“you see,” she said, in the same soundless way, and 225with a knowing little nod of triumph, “it is no use. he is dreaming of me again!”
“wake up!” i screamed, snatching the pillow from under my husband’s head and madly hurling it at the shameless intruder. this time vavasour was almost snappish at being disturbed. daylight surprised us in the middle of our first connubial quarrel. the following night brought a repetition of the whole thing, and so on, da capo, until it became plain to us, to our mutual disgust, that the more vavasour strove to banish katie from his dreams, the more persistently she cropped up in them. she was the most ill-bred and obstinate of astrals—vavasour and i the most miserable of newly-married people. a dozen times in a night i would be roused by that cold draft upon my cheek, would open my eyes and see that pale, phosphorescent, outline perched by vavasour’s pillow—nine times out of the dozen would be driven to frenzy by the possessive air and cynical smile of the spook. and although vavasour’s former regard for her was now converted into hatred, he found the thought of her continually invading his waking mind at the most unwelcome seasons. she had begun to appear to both of us by day as well as by night when our poisoned honeymoon came to an end, and we returned to town to occupy the house which vavasour had taken and furnished in sloane street. i need only mention that katie accompanied us.
insufficient sleep and mental worry had by this time thoroughly soured my temper no less than vavasour’s. when i charged him with secretly encouraging the presence i had learned to hate, he rudely told me to think as i liked! he implored my pardon for this brutality afterwards upon his knees, and with the passage of time i learned to endure the presence of his attendant shade with patience. when she nocturnally hovered by the side of my sleeping spouse, or in constituence no less 226filmy than a whiff of cigarette-smoke, appeared at his elbow in the face of day, i saw her plainly, and at these moments she would favor me with a significant contraction of the eyelid, which was, to say the least of it, unbecoming in a spirit who had been a clergyman’s daughter. after one of these experiences it was that the idea which i afterwards carried into execution occurred to me.
i began by taking in a few numbers of a psychological publication entitled the spirit-lamp. then i formed the acquaintance of madame blavant, the renowned professoress of spiritualism and theosophy. everybody has heard of madame, many people have read her works, some have heard her lecture. i had heard her lecture. she was a lady with a strong determined voice and strong determined features. she wore her plentiful gray hair piled in sibylline coils on the top of her head, and—when she lectured—appeared in a white oriental silk robe that fell around her tall gaunt figure in imposing folds. this robe was replaced by one of black satin when she held her séances. at other times, in the seclusion of her study, she was draped in an ample gown of indian chintz innocent of cut, but yet imposing. she smiled upon my new-born desire for psychic instruction, and when i had subscribed for a course of ten private séances at so many guineas a piece she smiled more.
madame lived in a furtive, retiring house, situated behind high walls in endor’s grove, n.w. a long glass tunnel led from the garden gate to the street door, for the convenience of mahatmas and other persons who preferred privacy. i was one of those persons, for not for spirit worlds would i have had vavasour know of my repeated visits to endor’s grove. before these were over i had grown quite indifferent to supernatural manifestations, banjos and accordions that were thrummed by invisible performers, blood-red writing on 227mediums’ wrists, mysterious characters in slate-pencil, planchette, and the table alphabet. and i had made and improved upon acquaintance with simon.
simon was a spirit who found me attractive. he tried in his way to make himself agreeable, and, with my secret motive in view—let me admit without a blush—i encouraged him. when i knew i had him thoroughly in hand, i attended no more séances at endor’s grove. my purpose was accomplished upon a certain night, when, feeling my shoulder violently shaken, i opened the eyes which had been closed in simulated slumber to meet the indignant glare of my husband. i glanced over his shoulder. katie did not occupy her usual place. i turned my glance towards the armchair which stood at my side of the bed. it was not vacant. as i guessed, it was occupied by simon. there he sat, the luminously transparent appearance of a weak-chinned, mild-looking young clergyman, dressed in the obsolete costume of eighty years previously. he gave me a bow in which respect mingled with some degree of complacency, and glanced at vavasour.
“i have been explaining matters to your husband,” he said, in that soundless spirit-voice with which katie had first made me acquainted. “he understands that i am a clergyman and a reputable spirit, drawn into your life-orbit by the irresistible attraction which your mediumistic organization exercises over my——”
“there, you hear what he says!” i interrupted, nodding confirmatively at vavasour. “do let me go to sleep!”
“what, with that intrusive beast sitting beside you?” shouted vavasour indignantly. “never!”
“think how many months i have put up with the presence of katie!” said i. “after all, it’s only tit for tat!” and the ghost of a twinkle in simon’s pale eye seemed to convey that he enjoyed the retort.
228vavasour grunted sulkily, and resumed his recumbent position. but several times that night he awakened me with renewed objurgations of simon, who with unflinching resolution maintained his post. later on i started from sleep to find katie’s usual seat occupied. she looked less pert and confident than usual, i thought, and rather humbled and fagged, as though she had had some trouble in squeezing her way into vavasour’s sleeping thoughts. by day, after that night, she seldom appeared. my husband’s brain was too much occupied with simon, who assiduously haunted me. and it was now my turn to twit vavasour with unreasonable jealousy. yet though i gloried in the success of my stratagem, the continual presence of that couple of spooks was an unremitting strain upon my nerves.
but at length an extraordinary conviction dawned on my mind, and became stronger with each successive night. between simon and katie an acquaintance had sprung up. i would awaken, or vavasour would arouse, to find them gazing across the barrier of the bolster which divided them with their pale negatives of eyes, and chatting in still, spirit voices. once i started from sleep to find myself enveloped in a kind of mosquito-tent of chilly, filmy vapor, and the conviction rushed upon me that he and she had leaned across our couch and exchanged an intangible embrace. katie was the leading spirit in this, i feel convinced—there was no effrontery about simon. upon the next night i, waking, overheard a fragment of conversation between them which plainly revealed how matters stood.
“we should never have met upon the same plane,” remarked simon silently, “but for the mediumistic intervention of these people. of the man”—he glanced slightingly towards vavasour—“i cannot truthfully say i think much. the lady”—he bowed in my direction—“is everything that a lady should be!”
229“you are infatuated with her, it is plain!” snapped katie, “and the sooner you are removed from her sphere of influence the better.”
“her power with me is weakening,” said simon, “as vavasour’s is with you. our outlines are no longer so clear as they used to be, which proves that our astral individualities are less strongly impressed upon the brains of our earthly sponsors than they were. we are still materialized; but how long this will continue——” he sighed and shrugged his shoulders.
“don’t let us wait for a formal dismissal, then,” said katie boldly. “let us throw up our respective situations.”
“i remember enough of the marriage service to make our union, if not regular, at least respectable,” said simon.
“and i know quite a fashionable place on the outside edge of things, where we could settle down,” said katie, “and live practically on nothing.”
i blinked at that moment. when i saw the room again clearly, the chairs beside our respective pillows were empty.
years have passed, and neither vavasour nor myself has ever had a glimpse of the spirits whom we were the means of introducing to one another. we are quite content to know ourselves deprived for ever of their company. yet sometimes, when i look at our three babies, i wonder whether that establishment of simon’s and katie’s on the outside edge of things includes a nursery.
