arthur received a letter from somers by the second post. it was still raining, and he was playing billiards with turner when the letter arrived, so he did not open it until after tea.
somers had written in a mood of depression. bates, arthur's successor at the peckham surgery, was not a success. "the fool means well, too well," somers wrote; "but i was wrong in anticipating that the panel patients would like him. they don't. they have taken his measure, and all his good intentions can't disguise the fact that he is pudden-headed. when are you going to canada? if you are going? isn't that visit of yours being amazingly protracted? i suppose you're lapped in luxury and can't tear yourself away. or have you got a permanent job there as tame medico to the old man? or is it a girl? i wish to god you would write and tell me in any case. i can't keep bates (he has got on my nerves) and i should like to know for certain if there is the least hope of your coming back. i can't see you marrying for money, and if the hypothecated girl is the right sort, she would face the world with you on five hundred a year. i might make it up to that. the private practice is better than it was. sackville, who has been here so long, is getting too old. you and i between us would get pretty nearly all the new people. and if my first guess was the right one and you've got some sort of sinecure in the hartling household, the
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sooner you chuck it the better, my son. for one thing you'll get soft, and for another you'll get no experience. if you were doing hospital work (which you ought to be), i should not try to tempt you away, but if you are just letting your mind rot, i shall think it is my duty to save you at any cost."
as he read, arthur lost the sense of his surroundings. he visualised the narrow sitting-room of the little peckham house, and heard somers's voice telling him that he ought to be doing hospital work or getting varied experience in a general practice; that he was becoming soft, going to pieces from a professional point of view. he blushed like a student under the rebuke of the demonstrator.
then he looked up and the illusion vanished. he saw that all his circumstances were now changed. all that advice would be sound enough if he were forced to return to such a general practice as peckham. but if the old man left him, say £10,000, he might have a shot for his fellowship; try for a registrarship at one of the bigger hospitals; perhaps get on the staff of one and set up in wimpole street. with a certain amount of capital, this would be so much easier, and the war had given him a taste for minor surgery. indeed, it had always appealed to him more than medicine. meanwhile, it was true that he must not let himself get rusty. he ought to go on reading, order some books from town; or at least have the lancet sent to him every friday. he must keep himself up to date while he was waiting. at the outside, he could not have to wait more than five years. he would only be thirty-three then....
he paused doubtfully on that thought, but just then hubert came in, and the moment of uneasiness passed and was forgotten. it had stopped raining
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and hubert thought that they might put in nine holes before dinner.
it was made clear on the way up to the links, however, that golf was not hubert's goal on this occasion. he had a wild hope that miss martin might be found at the club house. he had wanted, naturally enough, to tell her at once that the engagement was to be permitted, but his grandfather had sent him up to the farm on a job that had kept him busy all the afternoon.
"probably did it just to tantalise me a bit," hubert complained; "teach me that i couldn't have everything my own way."
"oh, surely not!" arthur protested. he was offended, again, by this imputation of unworthy motives to old mr kenyon. "i don't believe any of you understand him," he continued warmly. "we had quite a long talk this morning and he rather came out of his shell. he may seem a bit hard and inhuman at times, you know, but underneath, i'm certain he's trying to do the best for everybody."
hubert looked faintly surprised. "oh! that was the way he took you, was it?" he remarked.
"there you go again," arthur said. "you, all of you, seem to have made up your minds that—that—i don't know——"
he could not complete his sentence. he could see that they all feared the old man, but they never brought any explicit charge against him unless it were that he bullied them into staying on at hartling. and all that had been explained. arthur, remembering his conversation of the morning, was strongly inclined now to take the old man's side. he knew their weaknesses. they were a poor lot obviously. they lacked independence of spirit; if
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they were allowed to go out into the world they would come awful croppers like the unfortunate, hot-headed james, eleanor's father. the old man had learnt a lesson in the course of that affair. he was a bit of an autocrat, no doubt; but he had good reason to be, with a family that could not be trusted.
hubert appeared either unwilling or unable to provide a definition of the family's attitude. "oh, well," he said, "no good discussing that, is it? here we are and we've got to put up with it. and, personally, you know, i don't care much now—partly thanks to you, old man."
only "partly," arthur reflected, but he made no comment on that. "that's all right, then," was all he said.
hubert was in luck, for miss martin was at the club house, drawn thither, no doubt, by the same hope that had stimulated her lover, and although they cheerfully proposed a foursome, arthur knew that they would sooner be alone, and declined. the proposed fourth player in the case was fergusson, the general practitioner from the village, to whom reference had been made when the post of medical attendant had been first offered to arthur. he and fergusson had met once or twice on the links, but their brief conversations had so far been limited to golf. the doctor was a man of sixty or so, with thick gray hair and moustache and a strong, clumsy figure. arthur had formed the opinion that he was rather a surly fellow.
"care to take me on for nine holes—haven't time for more?" arthur asked him.
fergusson nodded. "not that i'm particularly anxious to play," he said. "the ground will be very wet, i'm thinking, after all the rain we've had to-day. i just looked in on my way home, without
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much idea of getting a game. indeed, to be honest, i've had a very long day and am not so anxious to exert myself."
"scattered sort of practice, i expect," arthur commented. "have a cigar."
fergusson accepted the cigar with a nod of thanks. "one of your perquisites?" he asked, smiling rather grimly.
arthur stiffened. "never thought of it like that," he said. "they're all over the shop up there. you just take 'em as you want 'em."
"no need to get ruffled," fergusson replied quietly. "i know. i used to be up there once a week or so before you came. nice little sinecure."
"but i say, look here," arthur said, suddenly conscious for the first time that he might have been guilty of a breach of medical etiquette, "you don't mean to tell me that i've taken away one of your cases?"
fergusson laughed dryly. "well, you have and you haven't," he said. "but your conscience is no doubt clear enough and everything was done in proper form. the old man wrote to me and explained, and i went up and talked it all over with him. you were playing golf on that occasion, i'm thinking. however, it'll be a soft job for you."
arthur still looked uneasy. "i never once thought about you in that connection, you know," he said. "i ought, anyhow, to have come and seen you."
"oh, no need to fash yourself," fergusson returned. "mr kenyon was very considerate about the affair. i'm not complaining."
"yes, he is very considerate," arthur agreed, automatically. had fergusson been promised a place in that untidy will as compensation? was the
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thought that flashed across his mind, a thought that was in some indefinable way unpleasant. he did not grudge the doctor his possible legacy, he sincerely hoped that it might be a big one, but he had a feeling of vague distaste for the principle involved. why should the old man trade on these rather equivocal promises of future reward? he had given convincing reasons with regard to his own family, but they did not apply to fergusson, nor to scurr, the chauffeur, and the other servants. arthur decided to try a "feeler."
"but hang it," he said, "i've done you out of a certain amount of income. all the consideration in the world doesn't make up for that."
fergusson, looking slightly self-conscious, studied the ash of his cigar. "he's a queer old customer in some respects," he remarked illusively.
arthur chose to overlook that comment. "i think you ought to know," he said, "that i'm not being paid any salary for my job. there's my keep, of course, but in a house like that one person more or less can't make any difference."
"eh! is that so?" fergusson said. "and are you staying on indefinitely?"
"well ..." arthur explained, with a wave of his hand.
"i take you," fergusson acknowledged. "i was on much the same terms. and how d'you think the old man's looking? i've known him for twenty-five years, and he has hardly changed a hairsbreadth in that time. he'll be ninety-two this year, i'm told; but it wouldn't surprise me to learn that he was seventy or a hundred and ten. indeed, it's come to me lately that i'd have been better advised to have sent him in a whacking account when he turned me off, for it's likely enough that he'll outlive
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me. however, you stand a better chance than i do, for i presume you can give me thirty years."
arthur shivered slightly. his suspicion had been fully confirmed, and the thought of it troubled him. still, from one point of view, it was reasonable enough that mr kenyon should have this particular eccentricity. all his life he had been wrestling with a family that could not be trusted with money, and the habit had possibly grown into an obsession. he looked at fergusson, who was somewhat grimly enjoying his cigar. he had all the appearance of an honest man. "known him twenty-five years, have you?" he commented.
"ay!" fergusson said. "i came to this damned place when i was thirty-seven, and i thought i was in luck to get hold of a rich patient like kenyon. well, as you can judge from what i told you, he looked an oldish man then. not so withered naturally, but if he was only sixty-six at that time i should say that he looked more than his age. but there you are. i knew an old chap of the name of simon—he has been dead god knows how long—who was a contemporary of kenyon's, used to do business with him in the 'sixties, and he has told me that kenyon was always a dry stick—one of those men who look old at forty and never change afterwards.
"and there's another queer thing he told me," fergusson went on, after a slight pause, "a thing you'll be disinclined to credit, which is, that kenyon was never a good business man—not really able or far-sighted, that is."
"but he made a pile of money," arthur put in.
"he did," fergusson said, "but simon used to say that he got it by sheer luck; that he never touched an investment that didn't go right by some fluke
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or another, though by all the laws of probability, it ought to have gone just the other way. maybe simon was a bit jealous, but he had a mighty poor opinion of kenyon as a business man—though begob, i'm inclined to differ from him, myself."
"he has been most frightfully decent to me," arthur commented uneasily; and remembered that he had made the same remark to turner a few hours earlier.
"ay, he would be that," fergusson said. "there have been times when i have liked him very well myself; but i always had the feeling that there was something queer about him—a trifle uncanny, if you know what i mean."
"oh, well! perhaps. i don't know," arthur said. "he seems sometimes to be extraordinarily detached; as if he were living a sort of life of his own."
"hm! likely enough," fergusson agreed. "simon told me that kenyon had a hell of a time when he was a young man. his father, who was in the business before him, was one of your old-fashioned bullies. used to treat his son like a dog, simon said. so no doubt kenyon got the habit of keeping things to himself then, and it stuck to him after his father was dead."
"yes, that might account for it, in a way," arthur admitted.
arthur's thoughts went back to that conversation as he dressed for dinner. he was inclined to trust fergusson. fergusson had been very decent about his supersession at hartling, and it did not seem likely that his rather disparaging attitude had been designed to frighten his rival out of the field. indeed, a few weeks ago such a suspicion would not
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have crossed arthur's mind; but there was some influence in the air of hartling that bred suspicions of that kind, and he put them from him now with a just perceptible sense of self-approval.
the trouble that still faced him was that even when he had deliberately cleared his mind of any doubts concerning the good-faith of all the many potential legatees, he was thrust back upon a doubt of the man who appeared in the rôle of his benefactor. a few hours ago he had whole-heartedly advised and trusted him. when he had come away from his interview that morning, he had definitely ranged himself on the old man's side, had, as he believed, learnt at last to understand and approve the old man's motives.
but then, as always, he had been induced by various influences to doubt again. it seemed so impossible in this place to arrive at any certainty. no theory he had been able to formulate accounted for all the facts, not even the far-reaching, comfortable theory that there was a certain amount of right—and wrong—on both sides. there appeared to be some secret, some key to the whole situation, that was as yet beyond his reach.
could eleanor put it in his hands? his thought turned towards her with a leap of hopeful anticipation. she had given him no sign so far that she had repented her manifest disapproval of him that morning. she, too, perhaps, was being continually swayed by the uncertainties bred of the hartling condition. but it might be that she had not yet heard of the unsigned agreement that he had made in imitation of her own method? in any case, he had an excuse for asking her to have a little quiet talk with him. she owed him an explanation. he could even demand it....
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he might be able to judge by her expression at dinner whether she had changed her opinion of his motives since the morning, and if he found the least evidence of her softening towards him, he would ask her to listen to what he had to say; to the reasons that had decided him to stay on at hartling until her grandfather died.
but he received no sign from eleanor in the course of dinner. she would not look at him. though he persistently stared at her, trying to attract her attention, she managed to avoid his glance with a steadiness which could not have been accidental. she talked more than usual both to hubert and his father who sat on her other side, but so far as he was able to overhear her conversation, the subject of it had no relation to his own plans or doings. most of her talk seemed to be concerned with hubert's fiancée, dorothy martin.
and arthur's own attention was continually being distracted by elizabeth. never before had she been so ready to flirt with him.
it seemed that she had dressed for the part. she was wearing a gown that he had not seen before, and that was something too elaborate for a family dinner. her plump, well-developed bust and shoulders emerging with an effect of challenge from a foam of pink chiffon, looked almost startlingly naked. nevertheless, if it were a trifle theatrical, the dress suited her brunette prettiness, and gave value to the air of vivacity that she had, also, assumed. this was one of elizabeth's most effective moods. he had seen her pert and rather forward on other occasions but never quite so daring as she was to-night.
yet he lacked the least inclination to flirt with
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her. he recognised her feminine attractions, but they failed to arouse him. indeed, when he compared her with her cousin, dressed as usual in a soft, simple white frock, he found elizabeth's forwardness vulgar, almost to him in his present mood repulsive. he responded to the best of his ability, he had no wish to snub her, but he felt that she must be distressingly conscious of her failure to strike fire from him.
miss kenyon on his other side gave no indication of cherishing any ill-will against him for having defeated her that morning. he and she rarely talked to each other at the dinner table. they had nothing to say. and to-night her manner discovered no shade of difference from her habitual attitude towards him.
nevertheless, it was miss kenyon who, whether deliberately or not, thwarted him as they were leaving the table. she addressed some unnecessary remark to him as they were getting up, and thus gave eleanor time to leave the room in front of them. when he was able to escape and follow her into the hall, she was half-way up the stairs.
he paused in the hall, staring after her, and when she reached the second landing he caught her eye for an instant looking down at him. but she turned away again at once, and he had not the courage either to attempt to address her from that distance, or to follow her upstairs.
he avoided elizabeth when he went into the drawing-room and almost immediately haled turner out into the billiard-room. elizabeth did not follow them. no doubt she believed that her attractions had no power over him in his present mood. arthur himself would have declared that they had not at that moment, and yet little more than an
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hour later he was seriously debating whether he would or would not propose to her.
billiards was a failure so far as he was concerned that evening. he could not get a shot himself and turner's slick facility began to irritate him. he had to keep himself firmly in hand in order to hide his annoyance. and as the game went on his spirits sank lower and lower into a mood of profound depression.
"you're off your game to-night," turner commented jauntily, when arthur rather impatiently refused to play again. "anything the matter?"
they were alone in the billiard-room—hubert had not joined them to-night as usual—and turner suddenly dropped into a mood of confidence.
"feel a bit doubtful about settling down here?" he went on. "you needn't. we've all passed through that stage, but you soon become reconciled; why shouldn't you? get everything you can possibly want here except a certain measure of freedom, and no one's really free. it's one sort of slavery or another for every one of us. if i were you, my boy, i'd marry elizabeth and make up my mind to it. then you won't be continually on tenterhooks as to whether the old man's going to last one year more or ten."
"oh! good lord!" arthur gesticulated. "it isn't that. i'm a bit out of sorts, that's all, touch of indigestion, i expect. no need to resort to desperate remedies for that."
turner smiled. "i won't tell elizabeth," he commented dryly. "and if you take my advice you'll think it over. coming back into the other room?"
"no, i've got a letter to write," arthur said, remembering that somers would expect an answer
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to his main question. "i'll go upstairs, i think, good-night."
he had wanted, savagely, to get away from turner just then, but when he was upstairs in his bedroom he was oppressed by a sense of loneliness. there was not a single human being in that house in whom he could confide. he had, for instance, to write to somers; he had to say that there was no chance of his returning to peckham, and although he had given his promise and had really no option, he would have liked to talk it over with some one before making an irrevocable decision. had not turner been right after all? if elizabeth was willing to marry him, would not her companionship alleviate the occasional tediousness and loneliness of life at hartling? if they were married they might become friends. it was impossible to be on terms of real confidence with a girl of that sort until you were married to her. she was always too conscious of her sex and doubtful about your intentions.
now that he came to think of it, she had certainly looked very tempting in that pink frock. she was one of the prettiest girls he had ever known—though she might run to flesh in a few years' time.
he got up from the table at which he had been sitting before a still virgin sheet of hartling note-paper, and began to walk up and down the room. how familiar, even commonplace, that room had become to him, he reflected. a few weeks ago it had been a delicious enticement, a thing ardently desired. but he would have missed it horribly if he had had to go back to peckham. would his marriage with elizabeth produce a like development of sensation, beginning with enticements and ardent luxuries that would gradually become
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familiar, a matter of habit? he was not in love with her, but he might be when he knew her better. at present he knew absolutely nothing about her inner life. they had never talked about anything but games for more than a minute at a time....
one thing was certain, he must write that letter and announce his decision. no other had been possible. apart from his promise to mr kenyon, no sane man would hesitate a moment between the alternatives of hartling and peckham. he would ask somers to recommend him some modern works on surgery. he would not allow himself to rust, although it was the practical experience that was most useful. still, he would get that in hospital—later. no one could say how long he would have to wait, but fergusson had been talking through his hat when he had said that the old man would probably outlive him. fergusson was good for at least another ten or fifteen years, probably more; and people did not live to over a hundred. give the old man five years at the outside. he would probably collapse quite suddenly at the end.
but suppose, just for the sake of argument, that the old man left him, arthur, nothing after all? no! he would not consider that. it was disloyal. he had had what amounted to a promise from him, and in common justice some compensation would have to be made for taking the best years of his life. the very fact that he was getting no salary was a guarantee—an absolute guarantee. old kenyon might have various eccentricities, they were only to be expected at his age, but he was a good sort, and if anything a shade too impartial in his administration of justice.
and then, what about the idea of marrying elizabeth if she would have him? he walked over
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to the window and leaned out. it was raining again, a light, steady rain. it looked as if they might be in for a lot of rain. getting engaged to and marrying elizabeth would be something to do, an excitement that would be a pleasant change from golf, billiards, croquet, and tennis. should he go down now and try his luck? she had looked rather ripping in that pink frock. he would be able to put more ardour into his proposal when she was dressed like that. and, unless she had changed since dinner, she was in just the right mood.
still leaning out of the window, he began to picture the proposal. he saw himself alone with elizabeth somewhere—he might make some excuse to take her into the library—and then, beginning to overcome her levity and caprice by his earnestness—he would say that he had been in love with her from the first, but that he had been afraid to tell her—no prospects—that sort of thing. he imagined her becoming suddenly serious, reciprocating his seriousness, confessing that she, too, had always—liked him. they would be quite close together when she admitted that, and he would put his arms round her waist or over her shoulders—she had lovely shoulders—and kiss her....
he came back into the room at that point of his dream and began to walk impatiently up and down. it was very queer, he couldn't in any way account for it; but he did not in the least want to kiss elizabeth. he had just done the thing in imagination, very vividly and realistically, and it had not stirred him in the least degree. on the contrary, it had produced a sense of being mean and contemptible. he had often kissed girls in the past, and had always liked doing it. did he feel like that now because elizabeth was in a different class
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of life, or because that kiss would be the seal of his engagement to her? he conjured up the image of her as he had seen her that night at dinner, held it before him and studied it. no, the whole truth of the matter was that he did not want to kiss her, and that was the end of it. she was not, for some reason or other, his sort.
he would now write his letter to somers, and then go to bed.
to-morrow he might make an opportunity to have that talk with eleanor. he would like her to understand his reasons for staying on at hartling. she ought to know that, as he had just written to somers, he meant to go in for a serious course of study....
he could not conjure up the image of eleanor at will, for some reason, but sometimes it came unexpectedly with amazing vividness when he was not thinking of her—some such picture of her as her swift glance down at him in the hall when she had been going upstairs that evening.
