james champernowne tundering-west, or, as for the time being he preferred to be called, jim easton, sat himself down on the camp-bedstead in the middle of the one habitable room of a derelict rest-house, built on the edge of the desert some distance behind the houses of the native town of k?m-es-sultan. all day long he had been feeling an uneasiness of body; and now, when the incinerating june sun was sinking towards the glaring mirror of the nile, this vague disquiet developed into a very tangible malady.
he knew precisely what was the matter with him, and his dark, angry eyes rolled around the dirty pink-washed room, as would those of a criminal around the place of execution. yesterday he had arrived in from the desert, tired out by a four-days’ journey on camel-back across the furnace of rocks and sand which separated the gold-mines, where he had been working, from the nearest bend of the nile. there had been an outbreak of cholera at the camp; and, being the only white man then remaining at the works, which were in process of being shut down for the summer, he had been obliged to stay at his post until, as he supposed,[10] the epidemic had been stamped out. then, with a handful of natives he had set out for the nile valley; but on the journey his personal servant had contracted the dreaded sickness, and the man had died pitifully in his arms, in the stifling shadow of a wayside rock.
the little town of k?m-es-sultan was a mere jumble of mud-brick houses surrounding a whitewashed mosque; and so great was the summer heat that one might have expected the whole place suddenly to burst into flames and utterly to be consumed. no europeans lived there, with the exception of a nondescript greek, who kept a grocery store and lent money to the indigent natives at outrageous interest; but at the village of el aish, on the other side of the nile, there was a small sugar-factory, in charge of an amplitudinous and bearded welshman named morgan, who, presumably, was now at his post, since, but a few minutes ago, the siren announcing the end of the day’s work had sounded across the water. although six hundred miles above cairo, k?m-es-sultan was not so isolated as its primitive appearance suggested; for it was no more than five miles distant from a railway-station, where, once a day, the roasting little narrow-gauge train halted in its long journey down to luxor.
jim cursed his suddenly active conscience that it had not permitted him to take this train as it passed in the morning, for already then he had realized the probability that calamity was upon him; but he had been constrained to remain where he was, alone in the ramshackle and parboiled rest-house outside[11] the town, for fear of spreading the sickness, and he had determined to wait until an answer came from the public health official at luxor, to whom he had sent a telegram stating that his party was infected, and that he was keeping the men together until instructions were received. he seldom did the correct thing; but on this occasion, when lives were at stake, he had felt that for once the freedom of the individual had to be subordinated to the interests of the community, repugnant though such a thought was to his independent nature.
a dismal sort of place, he thought to himself, in which to fight for one’s life! there were two doors in the room, one bolted and barred since the lord knows when, the other creaking on its hinges as the scorching wind fluttered up against it through the outer hall. a window near the floor, with cracked, cobwebbed panes of glass, stood half open, and a towel hung loosely from a nail in the outside shutter to another in the inside woodwork. in the morning it had served to keep out the early sun; but now the last rays struck through the cracks of the opposite doorway in dusty shafts.
he had told his egyptian overseer that he was tired, and that he did not wish to be disturbed again until the morning; and he bade him keep the men in the camp amongst the rocks a few hundred yards back in the desert, and prevent them from entering the town. but in thus desiring to be alone he had not been prompted merely by his regard for the safety of others: he had followed also that primitive instinct which his wandering, self-reliant manner of life had nurtured in him, that instinct[12] which leads a man to hide himself from, rather than to seek, his fellows when illness is upon him. like a sick animal he had slunk into this desolate place of shelter; and he now prepared himself for the battle with a sense almost of relief that he was unobserved.
he went across to the door and bolted it; then to the window, and pulled the shutters to: but the bolt was broken and the woodwork, eaten by white-ants, was falling to pieces. he took from his medicine-box a large flask of brandy, a bottle of carbolic, a little phial of chlorodyne, and a thermometer. there was a tin jug in the corner of the room, full of water; and into this he emptied the carbolic, shaking it viciously thereafter. then he saturated the towel with the liquid, and replaced it across the window.
as the first spasms attacked him and left him again, he gulped down a stiff dose of brandy, stripped off most of his clothes, and rolled them up in a bundle in the corner of the room; uncorked the chlorodyne, and lay down on his mattress. his heart was beating fast, and for a while he was shaken with fear. all his life he had smiled at death as at a friend, and, like marcus aurelius, had called it but “a resting from the vibrations of sensation and the swayings of desire, a stop upon the rambling of thought, and a release from all the drudgery of the body.” yet now, when he was to do battle with it, he was afraid.
he endeavoured to laugh, and as it were mentally to snap his fingers; and presently, perhaps under the influence of the brandy, he got up from the bed and[13] fetched from the outer room his guitar, which had been his solace on many a trying occasion. some years ago, in south africa, he had set to a lilting tune the lines of procter in praise of death; and now, sitting on the edge of the bed, a wild haggard figure with sallow face and black hair tumbling over his forehead, he twanged the strings and sang the crazy words with a sort of desperation.
king death was a rare old fellow;
he sat where no sun could shine,
and he lifted his hand so yellow,
and poured out his coal-black wine
hurrah, for the coal-black wine!
there came to him many a maiden
whose eyes had forgot to shine,
and widows with grief o’erladen,
for draught of his coal-black wine.
hurrah, for the coal-black wine!
the heat of the room was abominable, and he mopped his forehead with his handkerchief, and groaned aloud. then, returning to his song, he skipped a verse and proceeded.
all came to the rare old fellow,
who laughed till his eyes dropped brine,
and he gave them his hand so yellow,
and pledged them in death’s black wine.
hurrah, for the coal-black wine!
the sun set and the stars came out. at length, overcome with sickness, he thrust the guitar aside, and staggered across the room; and presently, when he was somewhat recovered, he groped for a candle, lit it, stuck it in an empty bottle, and lay down again with a gasp of pain.
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now the battle began in earnest, and he made no further attempt to laugh. taut and racked, he stared up at the dim, cobwebbed ceiling, and swore that no man should come near him so long as there was danger of infection. he was, perhaps, a little pig-headed on this point; but such was his nature. “live, and let live” had ever been his motto; and now he was putting into practice the second half of that maxim.
the thought occurred to him that he ought to write a will, or some general instructions, in case the “rare old fellow” were triumphant; but, on consideration, he abandoned the idea for the good reason that he had neither property worth mentioning to leave, nor relations to whom he would care to address his last message. moreover, in his momentary relief from pain, he felt extraordinarily disinclined to bother himself.
he had an uncle—stephen—who was in possession of a little estate at eversfield, a small english village in the neighbourhood of oxford, where the tundering-wests had lived for many generations; but he had not seen much of this correct and conventional personage during his childhood, and nothing at all for the last ten years, since he had been a grown man and a wanderer. this uncle had two sons, his cousins: one of them, mark by name, was, he believed, in india; the other, called james like himself, lived at home. they were his sole relations, he being an only child, and his father and mother having died two or three years ago, leaving him a few hundred pounds, which he had quickly lost.
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there was nobody who would care very much if he pegged out, and in this thought there was a sort of gloomy comfort. moreover, he was known by his few friends in egypt and elsewhere as jim easton; for, many years ago, at a time when he was reduced to utter penury, he had thought it best to hide his identity, lest interfering persons should communicate with his relations. in the name of jim easton he had wandered from place to place, and in that name he had obtained this job at the gold mines; and if now he were to die, the fate of james tundering-west would remain a matter of speculation. that was as it should be: ever since he left england he had been a bird of passage, and is it not a rarity to see a dead bird? nobody knows where they all die, or how: with few exceptions, they seem, as it were, to fade away; and thus he, too, would disappear.
he rolled his eyes around his prison, and clapped his hand with pathetic drama to his burning forehead. “wretched bird!” he muttered, addressing himself. “it was in you to soar to the heights, to go rushing up to the sun and the planets, with strong, driving wings. but the winds were always contrary, or the attractions of the lower air were too alluring; and now you are sunk to the earth, and may be you will never make that great assault upon the stars of which you had always dreamed.”
he dismissed these useless ruminations. he was not going to die: life and the lure of the unattained were still before him.
another and another spasm smote him, tore him asunder, and left him shaking upon the bed. with[16] a trembling hand he mixed the brandy and chlorodyne, making little attempts to measure the dose. the candle spluttered on the floor near by, and strange insects buzzed around it, singed themselves, and fell kicking on their backs.
he opened his eyes and watched them as he lay on his side, his knees drawn up, and his hands gripping the edge of the bed. their agonies, no doubt, were as great as his, but, being small, they did not matter. he, too, as englishmen go, was not large; and it was very apparent that he did not much matter. he was of the lean and medium-sized variety of the race, and was of the swarthy type which is often to be found in the far south-west of england, where his family had had its origin. some people might have termed him picturesque: others might have said, and most certainly just now would have said, that he looked a bit mad.
at length he slept for a few minutes; but his dreams were hideous, and full of faces, which came close to him, growing bigger and bigger, until, with strange and melancholy grimaces, they receded once more into infinite distance. somebody grey, ponderous, and very fearful, counted endless numbers, now slowly and portentously, now with such increasing rapidity that his brain reeled.
in this manner the seemingly endless night passed on: a few moments of sleep, a disjointed procession of horrible fantasies, convulsions of pain, staggerings across the room, fallings back on the bed, brandy, and exhausted sleep again. but all the while he knew that he was growing weaker.
presently the candle went out, and the darkness[17] closed over his agony. the thought came to him that soon he would no longer have the power to dose himself, and with it came that human desire for aid which no animal instinct of segregation can wholly stifle in a heart weary with pain. it was now long past midnight, and from this time till sunrise he fought a terrible double battle, on the one hand with death, on the other with self. it would not be impossible, he knew, to crawl from the room into the silent desert outside, and a cry for help would possibly be heard by his men.
but what would happen? they would go into the town, doubtless carrying the infection with them, and would engage a boat in which they would row across the nile to fetch morgan, who had the reputation of being somewhat of a doctor. but morgan had a wife and child in wales, who were dependent on him: only last autumn that hairy giant had told him all about them as they sat drinking warm lager in the dusty garden by the river, one hot night, just before the mining party had set out for the distant works.
thus, when at long last the sun rose and glared into the room, above and below the fluttering towel, he was still alone.
at nine o’clock, as the day’s heat and the onslaught of the flies began again to be intolerable, he gave up hope. until that hour he had fought his fight with decency; but now convulsion on convulsion had dragged the strength out of him, and he was no longer able to crawl back on to the bedstead. the last drops of brandy in a tumbler by his side, he lay limply on the floor; and where he lay, there the[18] spasms racked him, and there he fainted. with the hope for life went also the desire, and each time that he came to himself he prayed to god for the mercy of unconsciousness. the dying words of anne boleyn, which he had read years ago, recurred again and again to his mind: “o death, rocke me aslepe; bringe me on quiet rest.” he kept saying them over to himself, not with his lips, for they were parched, but somewhere deep down in the nightmare of his wandering brain.
presently a gust of blistering wind flicked the towel from its nail in the window, and with that the creaking shutter slammed back on its hinges, and the sun streamed full on to the white figure on the floor. jim opened his eyes, bloodshot and wild, and stared out on to the rocks and sandy drifts. a few sparrows were hopping about languidly in the shade of a ruinous wall, their beaks open as though they were panting for breath. the sky was leaden, for the glare of the sun seemed to have sucked out the colour from all things, even from the yellow sand, which now had the neutral hue of egyptian dust.
this, then, was the end!—and he could shut up his life as a book that has been read. at the age of nineteen he had abandoned the humdrum but respectable city career towards which he was being headed by his father, and, having nigh broken the parental heart, had gone out to korea as handyman to a gold-mining company. he had dreamed of riches; his mind had been full of the thought of gold and its power. he had imagined himself buying a kingdom for his own, as it were.
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two years later, utterly disillusioned, he had taken ship to california, and had earned his living in many capacities, until chance had carried him to the aroe islands in the pearl trade, and later to the diamond mines of south africa. incidentally, he had become, after three or four years, something of an expert in estimating the value of diamonds, and had made a few hundred pounds by barter; but with this sum in the bank he had failed to resist the vagrancy of his nature and the enticement of his dreams, and had returned to europe to wander through italy, france, and spain: not altogether in idleness, for being addicted to scribbling his thoughts in rhyme, and twisting and turning his speculations into the various shapes of recognized verse, he had filled many notebooks with jottings and impressions which he believed to be more or less worthless.
then he had inherited his father’s small savings, and had been induced by a persuasive friend to invest them in an expedition to ceylon in search of a mythical field of moonstones. returning in absolute poverty, owning nothing but his guitar and the threadbare clothes in which he stood, he had landed at port said, and so had taken reluctant service in this somewhat precarious gold-mining company at a salary which had now placed a small sum to his credit on the company’s books.
a roaming, dreaming, sun-baked, bedouin life!—and this ending of it in a stifling, tumbledown rest-house seemed to be the most natural wind-up of the whole business. often he had enjoyed himself; he had played with romance; he had had his great moments; but at times he had suffered under a[20] sense of utter loneliness, and these last months at the mines in the desert had been a miserable exile, only relieved by those silent hours in his tent at night, when he had endeavoured to put into written words the tremendous thoughts of his teeming brain. and now death and oblivion appeared to him as something very eagerly to be desired—a great sleep, where the horrible sun and the flies could not reach him, and an eternal relief from all this agony, all this messiness.
he fumbled for the last of the brandy, knocked the glass over and smashed it. the liquid ran along the floor to his face, and he put out his dry tongue and licked up a little. then, as though remembering his manners, he rolled away from it, and shut his eyes.
when consciousness came again to him somebody was knocking at the outer door in the hall beyond. a few minutes later there was a shuffling step, and a rap upon the inner door.
“sir, are you awake?” it was the voice of his egyptian overseer.
jim raised himself on his elbows, thereby disturbing the crowd of crawling flies which had settled upon his face and body, and slowly turned his head in the direction of the speaker. “go away, you idiot!” he husked. “i’ve got cholera. i’m dying.”
“what you say?” came the voice from the other side. “i cannot hear you.”
“i’ve got cholera,” he repeated, with an effort which seemed to be bursting his heart. then, with another purpose: “i’m nearly well now ... all right in an hour ... keep away!”
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the footsteps shuffled off hurriedly, then stopped. “i go fetch meester morgan: he is here this mornin’. i seen him comin’ ’cross the river,” the man called out; and the footsteps passed out of hearing.
another convulsion: but this time there was no power of resistance remaining, and long before the spasm ceased he had fainted. the next thing of which he was aware was that the heavy footstep of morgan was coming towards the house. that frightened rat of an overseer had fetched him, then, and the gigantic fool was going to take the risk! what use was he now? there was easy death already almost in possession: not the laughing, rare old fellow of his song, but beautiful desirable rest.
he was powerless to stop the man. his voice failed to rise above a whisper when he attempted to call out a warning. suddenly his eye lighted on the jug of carbolic a yard away. at least he could lessen the danger. slowly, and with infinite pain, he wormed himself over the floor, until his limp arm touched the jug, and his fingers closed over the mouth. a feeble pull, and the jug tottered; another, and it fell over with a clatter, and the strong disinfectant ran in a stream around him, under him, through his hair, through his scanty clothes, and away across the room.
the handle of the door rattled. “are you there, easton? let me in!—i know how to doctor you.” another rattle. “let me in, or i’ll come round by the window.”
but jim did not answer. he lay still and deathlike as the hulking figure of morgan scrambled into[22] the room through the window, and knelt down by his side on the wet floor. the place reeked of carbolic: everything was saturated with it. morgan stepped through it to the door, and pulled back the bolts. then, slipping and sliding, he dragged the half-naked, dishevelled body by the armpits into the outer room, and, propping it up against his knees, felt for the pulse in the nerveless wrist.
the morning sun poured in through the broken-down verandah, glistening on the damp hair of the exhausted sufferer, and gleaming upon the bearded, sweating face of the good samaritan.
jim opened his eyes, and his cracked lips moved. “don’t be a damned fool,” he whispered. “don’t take such a risk ... every man for himself....” his head fell forward once more, and his eyes closed.
“oh, rot!” said morgan. “you brave little chap!—i think you’ve got a chance, please god.”
