tynemouth, november, 1822.

my dear jane,

it is in compliance with your wish that i have, after much hesitation and delay, made up my mind to give you some account of my life, as it may at a future day amuse you and your brother and sisters in your passage through the crooked as well as the pleasant paths of the world. i will commence by giving you some account of your pedigree as far back as i can.

my grandfather, thomas bewick, farmed the lands of painshaw field and birches nook, near bywell, and also the colliery on mickley bank, or mickley common—how long since i know not, but it might probably be about the year 1700. he had the character of being one of the most intelligent, active, and best farmers on tyneside, and it was said that, by his good management and great industry, he became very rich; but, except his being an expert angler, i know little more about him. my grandmother’s maiden name was agnes arthur, the daughter of a laird of that name at kirkheaton, at which place my father was born in the year 1715, while his mother was there (i believe) on a visit to her friends.

my maternal grandfather, thomas wilson, and my grandmother, whose maiden name was hannah thompson, lived at ainstable, in cumberland; but whether he was curate of the parish of that place, or parish clerk, i do not know. it is certain, however, that he was one or the other, and that he taught a school there; and, from the circumstance of his teaching his sons, and some of his daughters, latin, i conclude he taught some of his scholars the same language. when he died, his eldest son, christopher, became possessed of his freehold property, consisting of a house, &c., and a few fields adjoining. the rest of his family were left little beside a good education, and were spread abroad in the world to do the best they could for themselves. in this state of their affairs, my mother, jane, and her youngest sister, hannah, were taken by a distant relation, a mrs. gregson, of appleby, to remain with her until she could get them places to live at. about this time, the rev. christopher gregson had been appointed to the curacy of ovingham, and wanted a housekeeper; and my mother, though young, was thought able to undertake that office, and accordingly engaged to perform it.

your maternal grandfather’s name was robert elliot, and your grandmother’s jane forster. he farmed the land of woodgate, near bill quay, where your mother was born. he afterwards removed to a farm at ovingham, where he died in 1777, leaving the character of a sensible, honest, and industrious man.

how long my mother lived with mr. gregson, before her marriage, i know not; but from him i afterwards learned that she was a valuable servant to him, both with respect to his house-keeping concerns, and for the occasional assistance she afforded him in hearing his pupils their latin tasks. from ovingham, in the year 1752, she married my father, and went to live with him at cherryburn house, near the small village or hamlet of eltringham, where all their family, of which i was the eldest, were born. the family consisted of myself and brothers, john and william; and my sisters hannah, agnes, ann, sarah, and jane. sarah died at the age of 16; the rest were reared to maturity, and were sent off, one way or another, into the world.

in august, 1753, i was born, and was mostly entrusted to the care of my aunt hannah, (my mother’s sister), and my grandmother, agnes bewick; and the first thing i can remember was, that the latter indulged me in every thing i had a wish for; or, in other words, made me a great “pet.” i was not to be “snubbed” (as it was called), do what i would; and, in consequence of my being thus suffered to have my own way, i was often scalded and burnt, or put in danger of breaking my bones by falls from heights i had clambered up to.

the next circumstance, which i well remember, was that of my being sent to mickley school when very young; and this was not done so much with a view to my learning, as to keep me out of “harm’s way.” i was some time at this school without making much progress in learning my letters or spelling small words; the master, perhaps, was instructed not to keep me very close at my book; but, in process of time, he began to be more and more severe upon me; and i see clearly at this day, that he frequently beat me when faultless, and also for not learning what it was not in my power to comprehend. others suffered in the same way. he was looked upon as a severe, or “cross,” man, and did not spare his rod. he was tall and thin; and, with a countenance severe and grim, he walked about the school-room, with the tawse or a switch in his hand. he, no doubt, thought he was keeping the boys to their lessons, while the gabbering and noise they made, was enough to stun any one, and impressed the people passing by with the idea that bedlam was let loose. how long he went on in this way, i do not recollect; but, like many others of his profession, who were at that time appointed to fill the most important office of a teacher, no pains had been taken to enquire whether he possessed the requisite qualifications befitting him for it. he went on with a senseless system of severity, where ignorance and arrogance were equally conspicuous. conduct like this, sours the minds of some boys, renders others stupid, and serves to make all more or less disgusted with learning. upon some occasion or other, he ordered me to be flogged; and this was to be done by what was called “hugging,” that is, by mounting me upon the back of a stout boy, who kept hold of my hands over his shoulders while the posteriors were laid bare, where he supposed he could do the business freely. in this instance, however, he was mistaken; for, with a most indignant rage, i sprawled, kicked, and flung, and, i was told, bit the innocent boy, on the neck, when he instantly roared out, and threw me down; and, on my being seized again by the old man, i rebelled, and broke his shins with my iron-hooped clogs, and ran off. by this time, the boy’s mother, who was a spirited woman, and lived close by, attracted by the ferment that was raised, flew (i understood) into the school-room, when a fierce scold ensued between the master and her. after this i went no more to his school, but played the truant every day, and amused myself by making dams and swimming boats, in a small burn, which ran through a place then called the “colliers close wood,” till the evening, when i returned home with my more fortunate or more obedient school-fellows.

how long it was before my absence from school was discovered, i know not, but i got many severe beatings from my father and mother, in the interval between my leaving the school and the old master’s death. as soon as another schoolmaster (james burn) was appointed, i was sent to him; and he happened to be of a directly opposite character to the late one. with him i was quite happy, and learned as fast as any other of the boys, and with as great pleasure. after the death of this much respected young man, who lived only a very few years after his appointment, my learning any more at mickley school was at an end.

some time after this, my father put me to school under the care of the rev. c. gregson, of ovingham; and well do i remember the conversation that passed between them on the occasion. it was little to my credit; for my father began by telling him that i was so very unguidable that he could not manage me, and he begged of my new master that he would undertake that task, and they both agreed that “to spare the rod was to spoil the child.” this precept was, i think, too severely acted upon, sometimes upon trivial occasions and sometimes otherwise.

i was for some time kept at reading, writing, and figures,—how long, i know not, but i know that as soon as my question was done upon my slate, i spent as much time as i could find in filling with my pencil all the unoccupied spaces, with representations of such objects as struck my fancy; and these were rubbed out, for fear of a beating, before my question was given in. as soon as i reached fractions, decimals, &c., i was put to learn latin, and in this i was for some time complimented by my master for the great progress i was making; but, as i never knew for what purpose i had to learn it, and was wearied out with getting off long tasks, i rather flagged in this department of my education, and the margins of my books, and every space of spare and blank paper, became filled with various kinds of devices or scenes i had met with; and these were accompanied with wretched rhymes explanatory of them. as soon as i filled all the blank spaces in my books, i had recourse, at all spare times, to the gravestones and the floor of the church porch, with a bit of chalk, to give vent to this propensity of mind of figuring whatever i had seen. at that time i had never heard of the word “drawing;” nor did i know of any other paintings besides the king’s arms in the church, and the signs in ovingham of the black bull, the white hare, the salmon, and the hounds and hare. i always thought i could make a far better hunting scene than the latter: the others were beyond my hand. i remember once of my master overlooking me while i was very busy with my chalk in the porch, and of his putting me very greatly to the blush by ridiculing and calling me a conjurer. my father, also, found a deal of fault for “mispending my time in such idle pursuits;” but my propensity for drawing was so rooted that nothing could deter me from persevering in it; and many of my evenings at home were spent in filling the flags of the floor and the hearth-stone with my chalky designs.

after i had long scorched my face in this way, a friend, in compassion, furnished me with some paper upon which to execute my designs. here i had more scope. pen and ink, and the juice of the brambleberry, made a grand change. these were succeeded by a camel-hair pencil and shells of colours; and, thus supplied, i became completely set up; but of patterns, or drawings, i had none. the beasts and birds, which enlivened the beautiful scenery of woods and wilds surrounding my native hamlet, furnished me with an endless supply of subjects. i now, in the estimation of my rustic neighbours, became an eminent painter, and the walls of their houses were ornamented with an abundance of my rude productions, at a very cheap rate. these chiefly consisted of particular hunting scenes, in which the portraits of the hunters, the horses, and of every dog in the pack, were, in their opinion, as well as my own, faithfully delineated. but while i was proceeding in this way, i was at the same time deeply engaged in matters nearly allied to this propensity for drawing; for i early became acquainted, not only with the history and the character of the domestic animals, but also with those which roamed at large.

the conversations of the nimrods of that day, in which the instincts and peculiar properties of the various wild animals were described in glowing terms, attracted my keenest attention; and to their rude and lengthened narratives i listened with extreme delight. with me they made a winter’s evening fly fast away. at holiday times,—and at other times when prevented by the floods of the tyne from getting across to school,—i was sure, with the most ardent glee, to make one of the number in the hunting parties which frequently took place at that time; whether it might be in the chase of the fox or the hare, or in tracing the foumart in the snow, or hunting the badger at midnight. the pursuing, bating, or killing, these animals, never at that time struck me as being cruel. the mind had not as yet been impressed with the feelings of humanity. this, however, came upon me at last; and the first time i felt the change happened by my having (in hunting) caught the hare in my arms, while surrounded by the dogs and the hunters, when the poor, terrified creature screamed out so piteously,—like a child,—that i would have given anything to have saved its life. in this, however, i was prevented; for a farmer well known to me, who stood close by, pressed upon me, and desired i would “give her to him;” and, from his being better able (as i thought) to save its life, i complied with his wish. this was no sooner done than he proposed to those about him, “to have a bit more sport with her,” and this was to be done by first breaking one of its legs, and then again setting the poor animal off a little before the dogs. i wandered away to a little distance, oppressed by my own feelings, and could not join the crew again, but learned with pleasure that their intended victim had made its escape.

the “musical din” of the hounds still continued to have its charms, and i still continued to follow them; but from that day forward, i have ever wished that this poor, persecuted, innocent creature might escape with its life. the worrying of foxes, the baiting of foumarts, otters, badgers, &c., did not awaken in me similar feelings; for in the fierce conflicts between them and the dogs, there was something like an exchange of retaliation, and not unfrequently the aggressors were beaten; and i have with pleasure seen that wonderfully courageous animal, the badger (with fair play), beat the dogs of a whole neighbourhood, one after another, completely off.

in the vermin-hunting excursions in the depth of winter, while the whole face of nature was bound in frost and covered with deep snow, in traversing through bogs, amidst reeds and rushes, i have often felt charmed with the sight of birds,—flushed, and sometimes caught, by the terrier dogs,—which i had never seen or heard of before; and i am still in doubt whether some of them have not escaped being noticed as british birds.

these were the diversions of the winter months, which i enjoyed in an extreme degree, amidst the storm and the tempest. in that season i was also sometimes better employed in looking after a small flock of sheep on the fell, a part of which was my own.[3] the extremity of the weather had taught them to seek a place of shelter under a steep but low “brae,” overhung with whins, under which, in such weather, i was almost certain to find them and their associates all huddled together. to this place, through wreaths of snow, i early bent my way, with a bundle of hay on my back, and my pockets sometimes filled with oats, which i distributed amongst them. upon these occasions, though at other times extremely wild, they were quite tame, and seemed to know me.

from my sheep thus drawing into shelter, gave rise to an opinion i formed, and which has been confirmed by long reflection, that much may yet be done to protect the larger flocks from being over-blown and lost on the bleak moors, in great snow storms. were long avenues made by double rows of whin hedges, planted parallel to each other at about six feet asunder, and continued in the form of two sides of a square, with the whins of each side drawn together, and to grow interplatted at the tops, so as to form an arched kind of roof, the sheep would, on instinctively seeing the coming storm, immediately avail themselves of such asylums, and particularly in the lambing season. in the corner of the angle of this square, the shepherd might have his hovel, thatched with heather and ling, and his beds for himself and his dogs, made of the same materials; and the whole of this “bield” might be rendered so snug as greatly to defy the severity of the winter’s drifting blasts and wreaths of snow.

at that time of life, every season had its charms; and i recollect well of listening with delight, from the little window at my bed-head, to the murmuring of the flooded burn which passed my father’s house, and sometimes roused me from my bed, to see what it was like. after this, my first and common employment was to “muck” the byer; and, when the servant girl did not come soon enough, i frequently tried my hand at milking the cows; and i was always particularly keen of being there in snow storms. when this was the case, within the byer door, i snugly watched the appearance of various birds, which passed the little dean below, and which the severity of the weather drove from place to place, in search of shelter. with the sight of my intimate acquaintances, the robins, wrens, blackbirds, sparrows, a solitary crow, and some others, i was not much attracted, but always felt an extreme pleasure and curiosity in seeing the more rare visitants,—such as the woodcock, the snipe, and other waders, with the red wings, fieldfares, &c.,—make their appearance.

the winter evenings were often spent in listening to the traditionary tales and songs, relating to men who had been eminent for their prowess and bravery in the border wars, and of others who had been esteemed for better and milder qualities, such as their having been good landlords, kind neighbours, and otherwise in every respect bold, independent, and honest men. i used to be particularly affected with the warlike music, and with the songs relative to the former description of characters; but with the songs regarding the latter, a different kind of feeling was drawn forth, and i was greatly distressed, and often gave vent to it in tears. these songs and “laments” were commemorative of many worthies; but the most particular ones that i now remember were those respecting the earl of derwentwater, who was beheaded in the year 1715, and was looked upon as having been a victim to the cruelty of the reigning family, and who was venerated as a saint upon earth. it was said that the light from heaven attended his corpse to the vault at dilston hall, and that prosperity would shine no more upon tyneside. then followed the sorrowful remembrances of those that were dead and gone. to sigh over them was unavailing; they had filled the space allotted to them on this side of time, and the winds had blown over their silent graves for ages past. the predictions that the mansions of those that remained would soon, for want of heirs, become desolate—these and such like melancholy reflections made a deep impression on my mind; and i have often since, with feelings of extreme regret, beheld these mansions, once the seats of hospitality, dilapidated, and the families which once occupied them extinct and forgotten.

when the winter began somewhat to abate of its rigours, or in the early spring, it was a common job for me, before setting off to school, to rise betimes in the morning,—as indeed i was always accustomed to do,—and equipt with an apron, an old dyking mitten, and a sharpened broken sickle, to set off amongst the whin bushes, which were near at hand, to cut off their last year’s sprouts. these were laid into a corner till the evening, when i stript, and fell to work to “cree” them with a wooden “mell,” in a stone trough, till the tops of the whins were beaten to the consistency of soft, wet grass; and, with this mess, i fed the horses before i went to bed, or in the morning as occasion might require. they were shy about eating this kind of provender at first, and i was obliged to mix oats with it; but they soon became so fond of it, alone, that there was no need of any mixture. i know not whether a scarcity of fodder first gave rise to the suggestion of using this expedient, or it was tried as an experiment; but certain it is that this kind of food agreed so well with the horses that they became soon very sleek, and cast their winter coats of hair long before other horses that were fed in the common way. cows would not eat the whin tops thus prepared, but, in a winter of scarcity, i have known all hands at work in cutting ivy from the trees, and even small ash twigs, to be given to the cattle as fodder.