paul had been five months in england when he met mrs. sydney bamborough. since his hurried departure from tver a winter had come and gone, leaving its mark as winters do. it left a very distinct mark on russia. it was a famine winter. from the snow-ridden plains that lie to the north of moscow, karl steinmetz had written piteous descriptions of an existence which seemed hardly worth the living. but each letter had terminated with a prayer, remarkably near to a command, that he, paul howard alexis, should remain in england. so paul stayed in london, where he indulged to the full a sadly mistaken hobby. this man had, as we have seen, that which is called a crank, or a loose screw, according to the fancy of the speaker. he had conceived the absurd idea of benefiting his fellow-beings, and of turning into that mistaken channel the surplus wealth that was his. this, moreover, if it please you, without so much as forming himself into a society.
this is an age of societies, and, far from concealing from the left hand the good which the right may be doing, we publish abroad our charities on all hands. we publish in a stout volume our names and donations. we even go so far as to cultivate an artificial charity by meat and drink and speeches withal. when we have eaten and drunk, the plate is handed round, and from the fulness of our heart we give abundantly. we are cunning even in our well-doing. we do not pass round the plate until the decanters have led the way. and thus we degrade that quality of the human heart which is the best of all.
but paul howard alexis had the good fortune to be rich out of england, and that roaring lion of modern days, organized charity, passed him by. he was thus left to evolve from his own mind a mistaken sense of his duty toward his neighbor. that there were thousands of well-meaning persons in black and other coats ready to prove to him that revenues gathered from russia should be spent in the east end or the east indies, goes without saying. there are always well-meaning persons among us ready to direct the charity of others. we have all met those virtuous persons who do good by proxy. but paul had not. he had never come face to face with the charity broker—the man who stands between the needy and the giver, giving nothing himself, and living on his brokerage, sitting in a comfortable chair, with his feet on a turkey carpet in his office on a main thoroughfare. paul had met none of these, and the only organized charity of which he was cognizant was the great russian charity league, betrayed six months earlier to a government which has ever turned its face against education and enlightenment. in this he had taken no active part, but he had given largely of his great wealth. that his name had figured on the list of families sold for a vast sum of money to the authorities of the ministry of the interior seemed all too sure. but he had had no intimation that he was looked upon with small favor. the more active members of the league had been less fortunate, and more than one nobleman had been banished to his estates.
although the sum actually paid for the papers of the charity league was known, the recipient of the blood money had never been discovered. it was a large sum, for the government had been quick to recognize the necessity of nipping this movement in the bud. education is a dangerous matter to deal with; england is beginning to find this out for herself. for on the heels of education socialism ever treads. when at last education makes a foothold in russia, that foothold will be on the very step of the autocratic throne. the charity league had, as steinmetz put it, the primary object of preparing the peasant for education, and thereafter placing education within his reach. such proceedings were naturally held by those in high places to be only second to nihilism.
all this, and more which shall transpire in the course of this narration, was known to paul. in face of the fact that his name was prominently before the russian ministry of the interior, he proceeded all through the winter to ship road-making tools, agricultural implements, seeds, and food.
“the prince,” said steinmetz to those who were interested in the matter, “is mad. he thinks that a russian principality is to be worked on the same system as an english estate.”
he would laugh and shrug his shoulders, and then he would sit down and send a list of further requirements to paul howard alexis, esquire, in london.
paul had met mrs. sydney bamborough on one or two occasions, and had been interested in her. from the first he had come under the influence of her beauty. but she was then a married woman. he met her again toward the end of the terrible winter to which reference has been made, and found that a mere acquaintanceship had in the meantime developed into friendship. he could not have told when and where the great social barrier had been surmounted and left behind. he only knew in an indefinite way that some such change had taken place, as all such changes do, not in intercourse, but in the intervals of absence. it is a singular fact that we do not make our friends when they are near. the seed of friendship and love alike is soon sown, and the best is that which germinates in absence.
that friendship had rapidly developed into something else paul became aware early in the season; and, as we have seen from his conversation, mrs. sydney bamborough, innocent and guileless as she was, might with all modesty have divined the state of his feelings had she been less overshadowed by her widow’s weeds.
she apparently had no such suspicion, for she asked paul in all good faith to call the next day and tell her all about russia—“dear russia.”
“my cousin maggie,” she added, “is staying with me. she is a dear girl. i am sure you will like her.”
paul accepted with alacrity, but reserved to himself the option of hating mrs. sydney bamborough’s cousin maggie, merely because that young lady existed and happened to be staying in upper brook street.
at five o’clock the next afternoon he presented himself at the house of mourning, and completely filled up its small entrance-hall.
he was shown into the drawing-room, where he discovered miss margaret delafield in the act of dragging her hat off in front of the mirror over the mantelpiece. he heard a suppressed exclamation of amused horror, and found himself shaking hands with mrs. sydney bamborough.
the lady mentioned paul’s name and her cousin’s relationship in that casual manner which constitutes an introduction in these degenerate days. miss delafield bowed, laughed, and moved toward the door. she left the room, and behind her an impression of breeziness and health, of english girlhood and a certain bright cheerfulness which acts as a filter in social muddy waters.
“it is very good of you to come—i was moping,” said mrs. sydney bamborough. she was, as a matter of fact, resting before the work of the evening. this lady thoroughly understood the art of being beautiful.
paul did not answer at once. he was looking at a large photograph which stood in a frame on the mantelpiece—the photograph of a handsome man of twenty-eight or thirty, small-featured, fair, and shifty looking.
“who is that?” he asked abruptly.
“do you not know? my husband.”
paul muttered an apology, but he did not turn away from the photograph.
“oh, never mind,” said mrs. sydney bamborough, in reply to his regret that he had stumbled upon a painful subject. “i never—”
she paused.
“no,” she went on, “i won’t say that.”
but, so far as conveying what she meant was concerned, she might just as well have uttered the words.
“i do not want a sympathy which is unmerited,” she said gravely.
he turned and looked at her, sitting in a graceful attitude, the incarnation of a most refined and nineteenth-century misfortune. she raised her eyes to his for a moment—a sort of photographic instantaneous shutter, exposing for the hundredth part of a second the sensitive plate of her heart. then she suppressed a sigh—badly.
“i was married horribly young,” she said, “before i knew what i was doing. but even if i had known i do not suppose i should have had the strength of mind to resist my father and mother.”
“they forced you into it?”
“yes,” said mrs. bamborough. and it is possible that a respectable and harmless pair of corpses turned in their respective coffins somewhere in the neighborhood of norwood.
“i hope there is a special hell reserved for parents who ruin their daughters’ lives to suit their own ambition,” said paul, with a sudden concentrated heat which rather startled his hearer.
this man was full of surprises for etta sydney bamborough. it was like playing with fire—a form of amusement which will be popular as long as feminine curiosity shall last.
“you are rather shocking,” she said lightly. “but it is all over now, so we need not dig up old grievances. only i want you to understand that that photograph represents a part of my life which was only painful—nothing else.”
paul, standing in front of her, looked down thoughtfully at the beautiful upturned face. his hands were clasped behind him, his firm mouth set sternly beneath the great fair mustache. in russia the men have good eyes—blue, fierce, intelligent. such eyes had the son of the princess alexis. there was something in etta bamborough that stirred up within him a quality which men are slowly losing—namely, chivalry. steinmetz held that this man was quixotic, and what steinmetz said was usually worth some small attention. whatever faults that poor knight of la mancha who has been the laughing-stock of the world these many centuries—whatever faults or foolishness may have been his, he was at all events a gentleman.
paul’s instinct was to pity this woman for the past that had been hers; his desire was to help her and protect her, to watch over her and fight her battles for her. it was what is called love. but there is no word in any spoken language that covers so wide a field. every day and all day we call many things love which are not love. the real thing is as rare as genius, but we usually fail to recognize its rarity. we misuse the word, for we fail to draw the necessary distinctions. we fail to recognize the plain and simple truth that many of us are not able to love—just as there are many who are not able to play the piano or to sing. we raise up our voices and make a sound, but it is not singing. we marry and we give in marriage, but it is not loving. love is like a color—say, blue. there are a thousand shades of blue, and the outer shades are at last not blue at all, but green or purple. so in love there are a thousand shades, and very, very few of them are worthy of the name.
that which paul howard alexis felt at this time for etta was merely the chivalrous instinct that teaches men their primary duty toward women—namely, to protect and respect them. but out of this instinct grows the better thing—love.
there are some women whose desire it is to be all things to all men instead of every thing to one. this was the stumbling-block in the way of etta bamborough. it was her instinct to please all at any price, and her obedience to such instinct was often unconscious. she hardly knew perhaps that she was trading upon a sense of chivalry rare in these days, but had she known she could not have traded with a keener comprehension of the commerce.
“i should like to forget the past altogether,” she said. “but it is hard for women to get rid of the past. it is rather terrible to feel that one will be associated all one’s life with a person for whom no one had any respect. he was not honorable or—”
she paused; for the intuition of some women is marvellous. a slight change of countenance had told her that charity, especially toward the dead, is a commendable quality.
“the world,” she went on rather hurriedly, “never makes allowances—does it? he was easily led, i suppose. and people said things of him that were not true. did you ever hear of him in russia—of the things they said of him?”
she waited for the answer with suppressed eagerness—a good woman defending the memory of her dead husband—a fair lioness protecting her cub.
“no; i never hear russian gossip. i know no one in st. petersburg, and few in moscow.”
she gave a little sigh of relief.
“then perhaps poor sydney’s delinquencies have been forgotten,” she said. “in six months every thing is forgotten now. he has only been dead six months, you know. he died in russia.”
all the while she was watching his face. she had moved in a circle where everything is known—where men have faces of iron and nerves of steel to conceal what they know. she could hardly believe that paul alexis knew so little as he pretended.
“so i heard a month ago,” he said.
in a flash of thought etta remembered that it was only within the last four weeks that this admirer had betrayed his admiration. could this be that phenomenon of the three-volume novel, an honorable man? she looked at him with curiosity—without, it is to be feared, much respect.
“and now,” she said cheerfully, “let us change the subject. i have inflicted enough of myself and my affairs upon you for one day. tell me about yourself. why were you in russia last summer?”
“i am half a russian,” he answered. “my mother was russian, and i have estates there.”
her surprise was a triumph of art.
“oh! you are not prince pavlo alexis?” she exclaimed.
“yes, i am.”
she rose and swept him a deep courtesy, to the full advantage of her beautiful figure.
“my respects—mon prince,” she said; and then, quick as lightning, for she had seen displeasure on his face, she broke into a merry laugh.
“no, i won’t call you that; for i know you hate it. i have heard of your prejudices, and if it is of the slightest interest to you, i think i rather admire them.”
it is to be presumed that mrs. sydney bamborough’s memory was short. for it was a matter of common knowledge in the diplomatic circles in which she moved that mr. paul howard alexis of piccadilly house, london, and prince pavlo alexis of the province of tver, were one and the same man.
having, however, fully established this fact, from the evidence of her own ears, she conversed very pleasantly and innocently upon matters, russian and english, until other visitors arrived and paul withdrew.
