while we were arguing thus, dubois' four companions were drinking with the poacher, and as wine disposes the malefactor's heart to new crimes and causes him to forget his old, our bandits no sooner learned of my resolution than, unable to make me their accomplice, they decided to make me their victim; their principles, their manners, the dark retreat we were in, the security they thought they enjoyed, their drunkenness, my age, my innocence everything encouraged them. they get up from table, they confer in whispers, they consult dubois, doings whose lugubrious mystery makes me shiver with horror, and at last there comes an order to me then and there to satisfy the desires of each of the four; if i go to it cheerfully, each will give me a crown to help me along my way; if they must employ violence, the thing will be done all the same; but the better to guard their secret, once finished with me they will stab me, and will bury me at the foot of yonder tree.
i need not paint the effect this cruel proposition had upon me, madame, you will have no difficulty understanding that i sank to my knees before dubois, i besought her a second time to be my protectress: the low creature did but laugh at my tears:
"oh by god !" quoth she, "here's an unhappy little one. what! you shudder before the obligation to serve four fine big boys one after another? listen to me," she added, after some reflection, "my sway over these dear lads is sufficiently great for me to obtain a reprieve for you upon condition you render yourself worthy of it."
"alas ! madame, what must i do ?" i cried through my tears; "command me; i am ready."
"join us, throw in your lot with us, and commit the same deeds, without show of the least repugnance; either that, or i cannot save you from the rest." i did not think myself in a position to hesitate; by accepting this cruel condition i exposed myself to further dangers, to be sure, but they were the less immediate; perhaps i might be able to avoid them, whereas nothing could save me from those with which i was actually menaced.
"i will go everywhere with you, madame," was my prompt answer to dubois, "everywhere, i promise you; shield me from the fury of these men and i shall never leave your side while i live."
"children," dubois said to the four bandits, "this girl is one of the company, i am taking her into it; i ask you to do her no ill, don't put her stomach off the mtier during her first days in it; you see how useful her age and face can be to us; let's employ them to our advantage rather than sacrifice them to our pleasures."
but such is the degree of energy in man's passions nothing can subdue them. the persons i was dealing with were in no state to heed reason: all four surrounded me, devoured me with their fiery glances, menaced me in a still more terrible manner; they were about to lay hands on me, i was about to become their victim.
"she has got to go through with it," one of them declared, "it's too late for discussion: was she not told she must give proof of virtues in order to be admitted into a band of thieves ? and once a little used, won't she be quite as serviceable as she is while a virgin ?"
i am softening their expressions, you understand, madame, i am sweetening the scene itself; alas! their obscenities were such that your modesty might suffer at least as much from beholding them unadorned as did my shyness.
a defenseless and trembling victim, i shuddered; i had barely strength to breathe; kneeling before the quartet, i raised my feeble arms as much to supplicate the men as to melt dubois' heart....
"an instant," said one who went by the name of coeur-de-fer and appeared to be the band's chief, a man of thirty-six years, of a bull's strength and bearing the face of a satyr; "one moment, friends: it may be possible to satisfy everyone concerned; since this little girl's virtue is so precious to her and since, as dubois states it very well, this quality otherwise put into action could become worth something to us, let's leave it to her; but we have got to be appeased; our mood is warm, dubois, and in the state we are in, d'ye know, we might perhaps cut your own throat if you were to stand between us and our pleasures; let's have therese instantly strip as naked as the day she came into the world, and next let's have her adopt one after the other all the positions we are pleased to call for, and meanwhile dubois will sate our hungers, we'll burn our incense upon the altars' entrance to which this creature refuses us."
"strip naked!" i exclaimed, "oh heaven, what is it thou doth require of me? when i shall have delivered myself thus to your eyes, who will be able to answer for me?..."
but coeur-de-fer, who seemed in no humor either to grant me more or to suspend his desires, burst out with an oath and struck me in a manner so brutal that i saw full well compliance was my last resort. he put himself in dubois' hands, she having been put by his in a disorder more or less the equivalent of mine and, as soon as i was as he desired me to be, having made me crouch down upon all fours so that i resembled a beast, dubois took in hand a very monstrous object and led it to the peristyles of first one and then the other of nature's altars, and under her guidance the blows it delivered to me here and there were like those of a battering ram thundering at the gates of a besieged town in olden days. the shock of the initial assault drove me back; enraged, coeur-de-fer threatened me with harsher treatments were i to retreat from these; dubois is instructed to redouble her efforts, one of the libertines grasps my shoulders and prevents me from staggering before the concussions: they become so fierce i am in blood and am able to avoid not a one.
"indeed," stammers coeur-de-fer, "in her place i'd prefer to open the doors rather than see them ruined this way, but she won't have it, and we're not far from the capitulation.... vigorously ... vigorously, dubois...."
and the explosive eruption of this debauchee's flames, almost as violent as a stroke of lightning, flickers and dies upon ramparts ravaged without being breached.
the second had me kneel between his legs and while dubois administered to him as she had to the other, two enterprises absorbed his entire attention: sometimes he slapped, powerfully but in a very nervous manner, either my cheeks or my breasts; sometimes his impure mouth fell to sucking mine. in an instant my face turned purple, my chest red.... i was in pain, i begged him to spare me, tears leapt from my eyes; they roused him, he accelerated his activities; he bit my tongue, and the two strawberries on my breasts were so bruised that i slipped backward, but was kept from falling. they thrust me toward him, i was everywhere more furiously harassed, and his ecstasy supervened....
the third bade me mount upon and straddle two somewhat separated chairs and, seating himself betwixt them, excited by dubois, lying in his arms, he had me bend until his mouth was directly below the temple of nature; never will you imagine, madame, what this obscene mortal took it into his head to do; willy-nilly, i was obliged to satisfy his every need.... just heaven! what man, no matter how depraved, can taste an instant of pleasure in such things.... i did what he wished, inundated him, and my complete submission procured this foul man an intoxication of which he was incapable without this infamy.
the fourth attached strings to all parts of me to which it was possible to tie them, he held the ends in his hands and sat down seven or eight feet from my body; dubois' touches and kisses excited him prodigiously; i was standing erect: 'twas by sharp tugs now on this string, now on some other that the savage irritated his pleasures; i swayed, i lost balance again and again, he flew into an ecstasy each time tottered; finally, he pulled all the cords at once, i fell to the floor in front of him: such was his design: and my fore-head, my breast, my cheeks received the proofs of a delirium he owed to none but this mania. that is what i suffered, madame, but at least my honor was respected even though my modesty assuredly was not. their calm restored, the bandits spoke of regaining the road, and that same night we reached tremblai with the intention of approaching the woods of chantilly, where it was thought a few good prizes might be awaiting us. nothing equaled my despair at being obliged to accompany such persons, and i was determined to part with them as soon as i could do so without risk. the following day we fell hard by louvres, sleeping under haystacks; i felt in need of dubois' support and wanted to pass the night by her side; but it seemed she had planned to employ it otherwise than protecting my virtue from the attacks i dreaded; three of the thieves surrounded her and before my very eyes the abominable creature gave herself to all three simultaneously. the fourth approached me; it was the captain. "lovely therese," said he, "i hope you shall not refuse me at least the pleasure of spending the night with you?" and as he perceive my extreme unwillingness, "fear not," he went on; "we'll have a chat together, and i will attempt nothing without your consent. "o therese," cried he, folding me in his arms, " 'tis all foolishness, don't you know, to be so pretentious with us. why are you concerned to guard your purity in our midst? even were we to agree to respect it, could it be compatible with the interests of the band? no need to hide it from you, my dear; for when we settle down in cities, we count on you to snare us some dupes."
"why, monsieur," i replied, "since it is certain i should prefer death to these horrors, of what use can i be to you, and why do you oppose my flight?"
"we certainly do oppose it, my girl," coeur-de-fer rejoined, "you must serve either our pleasures or our interests; your poverty imposes the yoke upon you, and you have got to adapt to it. but, therese, and well you know it, there is nothing in this world that cannot be somehow arranged: so listen to me, and accept the management of your own fate: agree to live with me, dear girl, consent to belong to me and be properly my own, and i will spare you the baneful role for which you are destined."
