it was morn in venice: her seventy islets were lighted up with a flood of sunshine of transparent brilliance known only to fair italy, but falling with soft and mellowed rays within the gallery of the proud farsetti palace. thrown open to the youth of both sexes studying the fine arts, private munificence had gathered together the most perfect specimens of ancient and modern art—all that could forward the eager student in his darling pursuit, ensuring priceless advantages even to the poorest and the humblest, fostering in every individual breast the gift peculiarly his own. oh, truly is that country where such things are the nurse of genius! truly may her children decorate her with the fruits of those resplendent gifts with which heaven has endowed them! truly may her poets breathe forth lays to mark her as themselves—immortal! italy, beautiful italy, how does the heart burn, the spirit love, when we write of thee!
to this gallery the young antonio was a constant visitor, and he was so persevering in his studies as to attract the attention and rivet the friendship of its noble owner, at whose order he executed the first specimen of that sculpture which was to enrol his lowly name amid the mighty spirits of his native land, and bear to distant shores the echoes of his fame. morning after morning found him in the farsetti gallery, engaged either in drawing, modelling, or painting from antique casts, or from those modern ones to which the possessors of the establishment directed his notice. no difficulty could deter, no more tempting model could allure. severely, faithfully true to the path marked out, every other student shrunk from competition with him, as pigmies from a giant.
wrapt as antonio ever was in his task, however severe or little interesting, generally so absorbed as to be unconscious of all outward things, it was strange that a voice had power to rouse him from such preoccupation, and bid him, half-unconsciously yet inquiringly, look round. soft, low, silvery, it thrilled to the boy’s soul, as a voice that had haunted his dreams, and was yet to reality unknown. and the being from whom it came? had he ever seen one like to her, or was it the mere embodying of all those visions of beauty, which, sleeping or waking, haunted his soul? he knew not. he only knew he sat entranced, breathless, awestruck, as though some angelic being had stood before him, demanding adoration. young, very young, she seemed yet older than himself; and pale, but oh! so exquisitely lovely—with all of heaven, nought of earth! e’en the deep feeling resting on that full bright lip; the dark, lustrous, deep-souled eye; the rich, the glorious intellect sitting throned upon that beauteous brow; the smile flitting round that chiselled mouth, as an emanation from the soul; nay, every movement of the sylph-like form, too light, too spirit-like, for coarser earth—all whispered to the boy’s full heart with power, eloquence, unfelt though often dreamed before. and matter of astonishment it was to him, that the other students so calmly continued their labours, content with one glance of admiration on the stranger.
leaning on the arm of a friend or attendant, she advanced up the gallery, and took her seat as one of the students. the model was selected, her drawing materials arranged, and silently she pursued her task.
little more did antonio do that day; for the strange, tumultuous emotions of his bosom seemed from that time to paralyse his hand. he worked on, indeed, mechanically till the hour of closing, and then, oh! how grateful was the fresh breeze of heaven, the free, active movement of a rapid walk. yet even then—strange incongruity of feeling—he yearned for the morrow to find himself anew by her side; and then a trembling was upon him, that it was all illusion, all a sweet, bright vision, which would fade as it had come.
but such it was not. the hours of study came and passed, and each morning found that frail, ethereal being in the farsetti gallery, attended on her entrance and departure, but left to pursue her studies, as was the custom, alone; and, irresistibly, the young sculptor chose those casts which drew him closer to her side, that even as he worked he might glance on that surpassing beauty, might watch each graceful movement; and this was happiness, inexpressible happiness, although he knew not wherefore. he could not speak it, even to his dearest friend. he felt it all too sacred, too deeply shrined for voice, as if the first breath that gave it utterance would bid it fly for ever. he shrunk deeper and deeper within himself; not moodily, not sadly, but only sensible that “with such a being he should be for ever happy;” for even her silent presence shed a glow around him, fading not even when she was no longer near. he was feeling what his own lips had so vividly described as beauty’s influence on dante; but the guileless, unsophisticated boy knew not that such it was.
silently he felt, and silently he worked; for those new, strange, yet delicious feelings weakened not his mighty powers; nay, new light suffused them, even to his own impartial, often desponding eye. once she stood by his side, leaning on the arm of her attendant. he felt the glance of those lovely eyes was fixed admiringly on the work of his hand; and that hand trembled for the first time. her voice reached his ear in its sweet music, and though it simply praised his work as “assai bello,” it lingered on his heart as a never-forgotten melody, thrilling through the deeper, louder, mightier voice of fame, of monarchs’ praise, of world’s applause, as an angel’s whispering amidst the crashing storm. he only bowed his head in low acknowledgment, in voiceless answer. he could not summon strength to breathe one word, or meet that gentle glance; but, oh! the deep, full, gushing joy which was upon him from that hour, inspiring more air of beauty in his labours, for her eye might rest on them again.
days, weeks, thus passed, and still, as by magnetic influence, those youthful students were ever side by side; but ere the second moon had wholly waned, antonio sat alone; that lovely one had vanished from her usual haunt, and mournfully, darkly, the hours, once so joyous, passed—for the sunlight had departed from them.
day after day, hope returned to the boy’s heart, but not its beauteous object to his eye, and heavily this silent adoration lay upon his soul. another and another day, and still she came not; a week, another, and how might he inquire her fate, when, even could he speak that yearning sorrow, he had no trace—no clue to her identity? she had come with nought but her own loveliness to steal upon his heart, and he could not violate the sanctuary her image filled by one word of question. he shrunk from every eye, as if he feared his treasure were discovered, and the notice of his fellows would sully its ethereal purity by mingling it with earth.
still he laboured indefatigably as before; for her voice was sounding in the still depths of his own soul, and perhaps it might sound again—her praise might hallow the work, even of his impotent hand, and mark it blessed?
a ray of sunshine had fallen upon the work of the young sculptor, giving it that peculiar light and shadow which it had worn that never-to-be-forgotten day, when his eye first marked the loveliness his soul had visioned. such as the ray had reached him from its fount, flashed back every feeling, every pulsation of that hour, till, in its magic, the very form of the beloved, the worshipped one, stood, or seemed to stand, before him, tangible, palpable as life, save that the smile, the shadowy form, were as if all of earth had gone. breathless, pale, motionless, antonio’s trembling hand refused to guide the pencil—his fixed and starting eye to move, lest all should fade away, and leave him desolate. a noise among the students aroused him, and with a sudden start and heavy sigh he awoke to consciousness. it was but vacancy on which he gazed, or his spirit held commune with beings not seen of earth.
another week, and antonio looked on the faithful attendant of his spirit’s idol; but she was alone, and pale and sad, and robed in all the sable draperies of woe. his heart throbbed, his voice failed, a sickness as of death crept over him; yet, as she passed to seek and remove the portfolio of the missing one, he struggled to subdue that inward trembling, and speak, but only a few brief, faltering accents came.
“the signora—her friend—was she well?—had she quitted venice?”
a burst of agonizing tears answered him, and then the mournful confirmation: “the signora julia had gone to that heaven whose child she was; earth would see her sweet face, list her glad laugh, feel her light step, no more.” and the mourner passed on: and antonio leaned his head upon his hands, as if some invisible stroke had crushed him. gone! and for ever! oh, the unutterable agony to the young, the loving, contained in those brief words!
and never more did the young sculptor hear that name. never did he know the birth, the rank, the story of her who so like a spirit had crossed his path! men knew not, dreamed not, the tide of feeling on that young boy’s soul. now in him were working the silent influences of beauty, of hopeless love. they saw him engaged each day, studying his art, laboriously working under his master, ferrari, on some still, cold, soulless statues, still to be seen in the villa of trepoli; and how could they imagine the glowing visions of beauty, of poetry, at work within? no! it was in after years, when such forms of unrivalled loveliness, of immortal beauty, sprung in almost breathing life beneath the magic chisel of antonio canova, that the vision of early boyhood might be traced; and even now, in the perfection to which his art attained, man may behold the realization of those vague yet impelling yearnings after beauty, infinity, all that genius craves, which had started into life and being from the lovely vision of his first and only love.
