haddie and i were not at all sorry to hear that mamma's call at cranston's was not to be a hurried one.
"we don't mind if you are ever so long," i said; "do we, haddie?"
"no, of course we don't," haddie agreed. "i should like to spend a whole day in those big show-rooms of his. couldn't we have jolly games of hide-and-seek, sis? and then riding the lions! i wish you were rich enough to buy one of the lions, mamma, and have it for an ornament in the hall, or in the drawing-room."
"we should need to build a hall or a drawing-room to hold it," said mamma, laughing. "i'm afraid your lion would turn into a white elephant, haddie, if it became ours."
i remember wondering what she meant. how could a lion turn into an elephant? but i was[pg 18] rather a slow child in some ways. very often i thought a thing over a long time in my mind if i did not understand it before asking any one to explain it. and so before i said anything it went out of my head, for here we were at cranston's door.
there was only a young shopman to be seen, but when mamma told him she particularly wanted to see mr. cranston himself, he asked us to step in and take a seat while he went to fetch him.
we passed between the lions. it seemed quite a long time since we had seen them, and i thought they looked at us very kindly. i was just nudging haddie to whisper this to him when mamma stopped to say to us that we might stay in the outer room if we liked; she knew it was our favourite place, and in a few minutes we heard her talking to old mr. cranston, who had come to her in the inner show-room through another door.
haddie's head was full of climbing up onto one of the lions to go a ride. but luckily he could not find anything to climb up with, which was a very good thing, as he would have been pretty sure to topple over, and mr. cranston would not have been at all pleased if he had scratched the lion.
to keep him quiet i began talking to him about[pg 19] my fancies. i made him look close into the lions' faces—it was getting late in the afternoon, and we had noticed before we came in that the sun was setting stormily. a ray of bright orange-coloured light found its way in through one of the high-up windows which were at the back of the show-room, and fell right across the mane of one of the lions and almost into the eyes of the other. the effect on the dark, almost black, wood of which they were made was very curious.
"look, haddie," i said suddenly, catching his arm, "doesn't it really look as if they were smiling at us—the one with the light on its face especially? i really do think there's something funny about them—i wonder if they are enchanted."
haddie did not laugh at me. i think in his heart he was fond of fancies too, though he might not have liked the boys at school to know it. he sat staring at our queer friends nearly as earnestly as i did myself. and as the ray of light slowly faded, he turned to me.
"yes," he said, "their faces do seem to change. but i think they always look kind."
"they do to us," i said confidently, "but sometimes they are quite fierce. i don't think they[pg 20] looked at us the way they do now the first time they saw us. and one day one of the men in the shop shoved something against one of them and his face frowned—i'm sure it did."
"i wonder if he'd frown if i got up on his back," said haddie.
"oh, do leave off about climbing on their backs," i said. "it wouldn't be at all comfortable—they're so broad, you couldn't sit cross-legs, and they'd be as slippery as anything. it's much nicer to make up stories about them coming alive in the night, or turning into black princes and saying magic words to make the doors open like in the arabian nights."
"well, tell me stories of all they do then," said haddie condescendingly.
"i will if you'll let me think for a minute," i said. "i wish aunty etta was here—she does know such lovely stories."
"i like yours quite as well," said haddie encouragingly, "i don't remember aunty etta's; it's such a long time since i saw her. you saw her last year, you know, but i didn't."
"she told me one about a china parrot, a most beautiful green and gold parrot, that was really a[pg 21] fairy," i said. "i think i could turn it into a lion story, if i thought about it."
"no," said haddie, "you can tell the parrot one another time. i'd rather hear one of your own stories, new, about the lions. i know you've got some in your head. begin, do—i'll help you if you can't get on."
but my story that afternoon was not to be heard. just as i was beginning with, "well, then, there was once an old witch who lived in a very lonely hut in the middle of a great forest," there came voices behind us, and in another moment we heard mamma saying,
"haddie, my boy, geraldine, i am quite ready."
i was not very sorry. i liked to have more time to make up my stories, and haddie sometimes hurried me so. it was aunty etta, i think, who had first put it into my head to make them. she was so clever about it herself, both in making stories and in remembering those she had read, and she had read a lot. but she was away in india at the time i am now writing about; her going so far off was a great sorrow to mamma.
haddie and i started up at once. we had to be very obedient, what father called "quickly obedient," and though he was so kind he was very strict too.
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"my children are great admirers of your lions, mr. cranston," mamma said; and the old man smiled.
"they are not singular in their taste, madam," he said. "i own that i am very proud of them myself, and when my poor daughter was a child there was nothing pleased her so much as when her mother or i lifted her on to one of them, and made believe she was going a ride."
haddie looked triumphant.
"there now you see, sis," he whispered, nudging me.
but i did not answer him, for i was listening to what mamma was saying.
"oh, by the bye, mr. cranston," she went on, "i was forgetting to ask how your little grandchild is. have you seen her lately?"
old cranston's face brightened.
"she is very well, madam, i thank you," he replied. "and i am pleased to say that she is coming to stay with us shortly. we hope to keep her through the winter. her stepmother is very kind, but with little children of her own, it is not always easy for her to give as much attention as she would like to myra, and she and mr. raby have responded cordially to our invitation."
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"i am very glad to hear it—very glad indeed," said mamma. "i know what a pleasure it will be to you and mrs. cranston. let me see—how old is the little girl now—seven, eight?"
"nine, madam, getting on for ten indeed," said mr. cranston with pride.
"dear me," said mamma, "how time passes! i remember seeing her when she was a baby—before we came to live here, of course, once when i was staying at fernley, just after——"
mamma stopped and hesitated.
"just after her poor mother died—yes, madam," said the old man quietly.
and then we left, mr. cranston respectfully holding the door open.
it was growing quite dark; the street-lamps were lighted and their gleam was reflected on the pavement, for it had been raining and was still quite wet underfoot. mamma looked round her.
"you had better put on your mackintosh, haddie," she said. "it may rain again. no, geraldine dear, there is no use opening your umbrella till it does rain."
my feelings were divided between pride in my umbrella and some reluctance to have it wet! i[pg 24] took hold of mamma's arm again, while haddie walked at her other side. it was not a very cheerful prospect before us—the gloomy dirty streets of mexington were now muddy and sloppy as well—though on the whole i don't know but that they looked rather more cheerful by gaslight than in the day. it was chilly too, for the season was now very late autumn, if not winter. but little did we care—i don't think there could have been found anywhere two happier children than my brother and i that dull rainy evening as we trotted along beside our mother. there was the feeling of her to take care of us, of our cheerful home waiting for us, with a bright fire and the tea-table all spread. if i had not been a little tired—for we had walked a good way—in my heart i was just as ready to skip along on the tips of my toes as when we first came out.
"we may stop at miss fryer's, mayn't we, mamma?" said haddie.
"well, yes, i suppose i promised you something for tea," mamma replied.
"how much may we spend?" he asked. "sixpence—do say sixpence, and then we can get enough for you to have tea with us too."
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"haddie," i said reproachfully, "as if we wouldn't give mamma something however little we had!"
"we'd offer it her of course, but you know she wouldn't take it," he replied. "so it's much better to have really enough for all."
his way of speaking made mamma laugh again.
"then i suppose it must be sixpence," she said, "and here we are at miss fryer's. shall we walk on, my little girl, i think you must be tired, and let haddie invest in cakes and run after us?"
"oh no, please mamma, dear," i said, "i like so to choose too."
half the pleasure of the sixpence would have been gone if haddie and i had not spent it together.
"then i will go on," said mamma, "and you two can come after me together."
she took out her purse and gave my brother the promised money, and then with a smile on her dear face—i can see her now as she stood in the light of the street-lamp just at the old quakeress's door—she nodded to us and turned to go.
i remember exactly what we bought, partly, perhaps, because it was our usual choice. we used to think it over a good deal first and each would[pg 26] suggest something different, but in the end we nearly always came back to the old plan for the outlay of our sixpence, namely, half-penny crumpets for threepence—that meant seven, not six; it was the received custom to give seven for threepence—and half-penny bath buns for the other threepence—seven of them too, of course. and bath buns, not plain ones. you cannot get these now—not at least in any place where i have lived of late years. and i am not sure but that even at mexington they were a spécialité of dear old miss fryer's. they were so good; indeed, everything she sold was thoroughly good of its kind. she was so honest, using the best materials for all she made.
that evening she stood with her usual gentle gravity while we discussed what we should have, and when after discarding sponge-cakes and finger-biscuits, which we had thought of "for a change," and partly because finger-biscuits weighed light and made a good show, we came round at last to the seven crumpets and seven buns, she listened as seriously and put them up in their little paper bags with as much interest as though the ceremony had never been gone through before. and then just as we were turning to leave, she lifted up a glass shade[pg 27] and drew out two cheese-cakes, which she proceeded to put into another paper bag.
haddie and i looked at each other. this was a lovely present. what a tea we should have!
"i think thee will find these good," she said with a smile, "and i hope thy dear mother will not think them too rich for thee and thy brother."
she put them into my hand, and of course we thanked her heartily. i have often wondered why she never said, "thou wilt," but always "thee will," for she was not an uneducated woman by any means.
laden with our treasures haddie and i hurried home. there was mamma watching for us with the door open. how sweet it was to have her always to welcome us!
"tea is quite ready, dears," she said. "run upstairs quickly, geraldine, and take off your things, they must be rather damp. i am going to have my real tea with you, for i have just had a note from your father to say he won't be in till late and i am not to wait for him."
mamma sighed a little as she spoke. i felt sorry for her disappointment, but, selfishly speaking, we sometimes rather enjoyed the evenings father was late, for then mamma gave us her whole attention,[pg 28] as she was not able to do when he was at home. and though we were very fond of our father, we were—i especially, i think—much more afraid of him than of our mother.
and that was such a happy evening! i have never forgotten it. mamma was so good and thoughtful for us, she did not let us find out in the least that she was feeling anxious on account of something father had said in his note to her. she was just perfectly sweet.
we were very proud of our spoils from miss fryer's. we wanted mamma to have one cheesecake and haddie and i to divide the other between us. but mamma would not agree to that. she would only take a half, so that we had three-quarters each.
"wasn't it kind of miss fryer, mamma?" i said.
"very kind," said mamma. "i think she is really fond of children though she is so grave. she has not forgotten what it was to be a child herself."
somehow her words brought back to my mind what old mr. cranston had said about his little grand-daughter.
"i suppose children are all rather like each other," i said. "like about haddie, and that little girl riding on the lions."
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haddie was not very pleased at my speaking of it; he was beginning to be afraid of seeming babyish.
"that was quite different," he said. "she was a baby and had to be held on. it was the fun of climbing up i cared for."
"she wasn't a baby," i said. "she's nine years old, he said she was—didn't he, mamma?"
"you are mixing two things together," said mamma. "mr. cranston was speaking first of his daughter long ago when she was a child, and then he was speaking of her daughter, little myra raby, who is now nine years old."
"why did he say my 'poor' daughter?" i asked.
"did you not hear the allusion to her death? mrs. raby died soon after little myra was born. mr. raby married again—he is a clergyman not very far from fernley——"
"a clergyman," exclaimed haddie. he was more worldly-wise than i, thanks to being at school. "a clergyman, and he married a shopkeeper's daughter."
"there are very different kinds of shopkeepers, haddie," said mamma. "mr. cranston is very rich, and his daughter was very well educated and very nice. still, no doubt mr. raby was in a higher[pg 30] position than she, and both mr. cranston and his wife are very right-minded people, and never pretend to be more than they are. that is why i was so glad to hear that little myra is coming to stay with them. i was afraid the second mrs. raby might have looked down upon them perhaps."
haddie said no more about it. and though i listened to what mamma said, i don't think i quite took in the sense of it till a good while afterwards. it has often been like that with me in life. i have a curiously "retentive" memory, as it is called. words and speeches remain in my mind like unread letters, till some day, quite unexpectedly, something reminds me of them, and i take them out, as it were, and find what they really meant.
but just now my only interest in little myra raby's history was a present one.
"mamma," i said suddenly, "if she is a nice little girl like what her mamma was, mightn't i have her to come and see me and play with me? i have never had any little girl to play with, and it is so dull sometimes—the days that haddie is late at school and when you are busy. do say i may have her—i'm sure old mr. cranston would let her come, and then i might go and play with her sometimes[pg 31] perhaps. do you think she will play among the furniture—where the lions are?"
mamma shook her head.
"no, dear," she answered. "i am quite sure her grandmother would not like that. for you see anybody might come into the shop or show-rooms, and it would not seem nice for a little girl to be playing there—not nice for a carefully brought-up little girl, i mean."
"then i don't think i should care to go to her house," i said, "but i would like her to come here. please let her, mamma dear."
but mamma only said,
"we shall see."
after tea she told us stories—some of them we had heard often before, but we never tired of hearing them again—about when she and aunty etta were little girls. they were lovely stories—real ones of course. mamma was not as clever as aunty etta about making up fairy ones.
we were quite sorry when it was time to go to bed.
after i had been asleep for a little that night i woke up again—i had not been very sound asleep. just then i saw a light, and mamma came into the room with a candle.
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"i'm not asleep, dear mamma," i said. "do kiss me again."
"that is what i have come for," she answered.
and she came up to the bedside and kissed me, oh so sweetly—more than once. she seemed as if she did not want to let go of me.
"dear mamma," i whispered sleepily, "i am so happy—i'm always happy, but to-night i feel so extra happy, somehow."
"darling," said mamma.
and she kissed me again.
