they had known each other about six months when he proposed to her, and she wouldn't have him. he went on proposing at ridiculously short intervals, but it wasn't a bit of good. wrackham wouldn't give his consent, and it seemed antigone wouldn't marry anybody without it. he said burton was too poor, and antigone too young; but the real reason was that burton's proposal came as a shock to his vanity. i told you how coolly he had appropriated the young man's ardent and irrepressible devotion; he had looked on him as a disciple, a passionate pilgrim to his shrine; and the truth, the disillusionment, was more than he could stand. he'd never had a disciple or a pilgrim of burton's quality. he could ignore and disparage burton's brilliance when it suited his own purpose, and when it suited his own purpose he thrust burton and his brilliance down your throat. thus he never said a word about burton's novels except that he once went out of his way to tell me that he hadn't read them (i believe he was afraid to). antigone must have noticed that, and she must have understood the meaning of it. i know she never spoke to him about anything that burton did. she must have felt he couldn't bear it. anyhow, he wasn't going to recognize burton's existence as a novelist; it was as if he thought his silence could extinguish him. but he knew all about burton's critical work; there was his splendid "essay on ford lankester"; he couldn't ignore or disparage that, and he didn't want to. he had had his eye on him from the first as a young man, an exceptionally brilliant young man who might be useful to him.
and so, though he wouldn't let the brilliant young [pg 192] man marry his daughter, he wasn't going to lose sight of him; and burton continued his passionate pilgrimages to wildweather hall.
i didn't see wrackham for a long time, but i heard of him; i heard all i wanted, for burton was by no means so tender to him as he used to be. and i heard of poor antigone. i gathered that she wasn't happy, that she was losing some of her splendor and vitality. in all burton's pictures of her you could see her droop.
this went on for nearly three years, and by that time burton, as you know, had made a name for himself that couldn't be ignored. he was also making a modest, a rather painfully modest income. and one evening he burst into my rooms and told me it was all right. antigone had come round. wrackham hadn't, but that didn't matter. antigone had said she didn't care. they might have to wait a bit, but that didn't matter either. the great thing was that she had accepted him, that she had had the courage to oppose her father. you see, they scored because, as long as wrackham had his eye on burton, he didn't forbid him the house.
i went down with him soon after that by wrackham's invitation. i'm not sure that he hadn't his eye on me; he had his eye on everybody in those days when, you know, his vogue, his tremendous vogue, was just perceptibly on the decline.
i found him changed, rather pitiably changed, and in low spirits. "they"—the terrible, profane young men—had been "going for him" again, as he called it.
of course when they really went for him he was all right. he could get over it by saying that they did it out of sheer malevolence, that they were jealous of his success, that a writer cannot be great without making enemies, and that perhaps he wouldn't have known [pg 193] how great he was if he hadn't made any. but they didn't give him much opportunity. they were too clever for that. they knew exactly how to flick him on the raw. it wasn't by the things they said so much as by the things they deliberately didn't say; and they could get at him any time, easily, by praising other people.
of course none of it did any violence to the supreme illusion. he was happy. i think he liked writing his dreadful books. (there must have been something soothing in the act with its level, facile fluency.) i know he enjoyed bringing them out. he gloated over the announcements. he drew a voluptuous pleasure from his proofs. he lived from one day of publication to the other; there wasn't a detail of the whole dreary business that he would have missed. it all nourished the illusion. i don't suppose he ever had a shadow of misgiving as to his power. what he worried about was his prestige. he couldn't help being aware that, with all he had, there was still something that he hadn't. he knew, he must have known, that he was not read, not recognized by the people who admired ford lankester. he felt their silence and their coldness strike through the warm comfort of his vogue. we, burton and i, must have made him a bit uneasy. i never in my life saw anybody so alert and so suspicious, so miserably alive to the qualifying shade, the furtive turn, the disastrous reservation.
but no, never a misgiving about himself. only, i think, moments of a dreadful insight when he heard behind him the creeping of the tide of oblivion, and it frightened him. he was sensitive to every little fluctuation in his vogue. he had the fear of its vanishing before his eyes. and there he was, shut up among all his splendor with his fear; and it was his wife's work [pg 194] and antigone's to keep it from him, to stand between him and that vision. he was like a child when his terror was on him; he would go to anybody for comfort. i believe, if antigone and his wife hadn't been there, he'd have confided in his chauffeur.
he confided now in us, walking dejectedly with us in his "grounds."
"they'd destroy me," he said, "if they could. how they can take pleasure in it, simpson! it's incredible, incomprehensible."
we said it was, but it wasn't in the least. we knew the pleasure, the indestructible pleasure, he gave us; we knew the irresistible temptation that he offered. as for destroying him, we knew that they wouldn't have destroyed him for the world. he was their one bright opportunity. what would they have done without their wrackham?
he kept on at it. he said there had been moments this last year when, absurd as it might seem, he had wondered whether after all he hadn't failed. that was the worst of an incessant persecution; it hypnotized you into disbelief, not as to your power (he rubbed that in), but as to your success, the permanence of the impression you had made. i remember trying to console him, telling him that he was all right. he'd got his public, his enormous public.
there were consolations we might have offered him. we might have told him that he had succeeded; we might have told him that, if he wanted a monument, he'd only got to look around him. after all, he'd made a business of it that enabled him to build a tudor mansion with bathrooms everywhere and keep two motor-cars. we could have reminded him that there wasn't one of the things he'd got with it—no, not one bathroom—that he would have sacrificed, that he [pg 195] was capable of sacrificing; that he'd warmed himself jolly well all over and all the time before the fire of life, and that his cucumbers alone must have been a joy to him. and of course we might have told him that he couldn't have it both ways; that you cannot have bathrooms and motor-cars and cucumber-frames (not to the extent he had them) and the incorruptible and stainless glory. but that wouldn't have consoled him; for he wanted it both ways. fellows like wrackham always do. he wasn't really happy, as a really great man might have been, with his cucumbers and things.
he kept on saying it was easy enough to destroy a great name. did they know, did anybody know, what it cost to build one?
i said to myself that possibly antigone might know. all i said to him was, "look here, we're agreed they can't do anything. when a man has once captured and charmed the great heart of the public, he's safe—in his lifetime, anyway."
then he burst out. "his lifetime? do you suppose he cares about his lifetime? it's the life beyond life—the life beyond life."
it was in fact, d'you see, the "life and letters." he was thinking about it then.
he went on. "they have it all their own way. he can't retort; he can't explain; he can't justify himself. it's only when he's dead they'll let him speak."
"well, i mean to. that'll show 'em," he said; "that'll show 'em."
"he's thinking of it, simpson; he's thinking of it," burton said to me that evening.
he smiled. he didn't know what his thinking of it was going to mean—for him.
