sweet children of demurest air,
pale blossoms woven through your hair,
on shifting rainbows gathering,
endowed with love’s engaging mien
and crowding lips that toward me lean,
through little hands, outstretched between
in sympathetic wondering.
children, ye cannot understand,
floating in that enchanted land,
the pathos of our helplessness;
and yet your winsome faces bear,
though ye yourselves are unaware,
the antidote of our despair,—
exorcists of our hopelessness.
children of fancy: the guelder roses.
the great ship lusitania was nearing queenstown on may 7th, 1915, when a terrible explosion occurred, and in fifteen minutes she had sunk. among some 1700 adults and 500 children were a lecturer on art and archaeology and a little girl, with whom he had made friends on board. about 700 people escaped and these two were both eventually picked up out of the water. when they reached the land there was no2 one left to look after her; so he first took her across to her relatives in england and then she went to live in the home of the archaeologist, in scotland, who had three little boys of his own but no little girls.
archaeologists do not know anything about girls’ story books, and he may have been misinformed when he was told that girls’ books were too tame and that most girls preferred to read the more exciting books of their brothers. however, this made him decide himself to write a story for the little girl, which should be full of adventures. it was frankly a melodramatic story, a story of love and hate, and he chose the period of the reformation, so as to have two parties bitterly opposed to each other; but, except for dramatic purposes, religious problems were as far as possible left out.
one difficulty was as to whether the characters should speak in old english; but, as that might have made it hard to read, only a few old words and phrases were introduced here and there, just, as it were, to give a flavour.
afterwards the author was asked to publish the story “for precocious girls of thirteen,” as it was delightfully phrased; that is to say, for girls of thirteen and upwards and perhaps for grown up people, but hardly for superior young ladies of about seventeen; and this is the story:
father laurence, the parish priest of middleton, was returning home from holwick on a dark night in the late spring. he had come from the bedside of a dying woman and the scene was unpleasantly impressed on his mind. sarah moulton had certainly not been a blessing3 to her neighbours, but, in spite of that, he felt sorry for the delicate child left behind, as he did not see what was to become of it. he felt very troubled, too, about the poor creature, herself, for was not his task the cure of souls? not that sarah moulton was much of a mother; but perhaps any kind of a mother was better than nothing, and the poor child had loved her; yet, after she had received the viaticum, she had given vent to the most frightful curses on her neighbours. “if i cannot get the better of janet arnside in life,” she had screamed, “i will get the better of her when i am dead. i will haunt her and drive her down the path to hell, i will never let her rest, i will....” and with these words on her lips the soul had fled from her body. he sighed a little wearily. he was famished and worn for he had previously been a long tramp nearly to lunedale. “i do my best,” he said, “but i am afraid the task is too difficult for me. i wish there were some one better than myself in upper teesdale: poor sarah!”
father laurence’ way led through the churchyard, but clear as his conscience was, he had never been able to free himself from a certain fear in passing through it on a dark night. could it be true that the spirits of the departed could plague the living? of course it could not; and yet, somehow, he was not able to rid himself of the unwelcome thought. as he passed through the village and drew nearer to the church, he half resolved to go round. no, that was cowardly and absurd. he would not allow idle superstitions to get the better of him.
but when he approached the gate he hesitated and his heart began to beat violently. what was that unearthly screech in the darkness of the night? he crossed himself4 devoutly, however, and said a paternoster and stepped through the wicket gate. “‘libera nos a malo,’ yes, deliver us from evil, indeed,” he said, as, dimly on the sky line he saw a shadowy figure with long gaunt arms stretched to the sky.
he crossed himself again, when a ghoulish laugh rang through the still night air. he turned a little to the left, but the figure came swiftly toward him. he wanted to run, but duty bade him refrain. his heart beat yet more violently as the figure approached and at length he stood still, unable to move.
the figure came closer, and closer still, stretching out its arms, and finally a harsh voice said: “is that you, father laurence? ha! ha! i told you sarah moulton would die. you need not tell me about it.”
it was old mary, “moll o’ the graves,” as the folk used to call her. father laurence felt a little reassured, but she was not one whom anybody would wish to meet on a dark night, least of all in a churchyard.
“what is the matter, mary? why are you not in your bed,” he asked; “disturbing honest folk at this time of night?”
“you let me alone,” she replied, “with your saints and your prayers and your holy mother. i go where i please and do as i please. i knew sarah would die. i like folk to die,” she said with horrible glee; “and she cursed janet arnside, did she? a curse on them all, every one of them. i wish she would die too; ay, and that slip of a girl that sarah has left behind. what are you shaking for?” she added. “do you think i do not know what is going on? you have nothing to tell me;5 i assure you the powers are on our side. there is nothing like the night and the dark.”
“you are a wicked woman, mary,” said the old priest sorrowfully, “and god will punish you one day. see you—i am going home; you go home too.”
“you may go home if you like,” said the old hag as he moved on, “and my curses go with you; but i stay here;” and she stood and looked after him as he faded into the darkness.
“silly old dotard,” she growled; “i saw him at her bedside or ever i came along here. the blessed sacrament indeed; and much may it profit her! i wish now i had waited and seen what he did after she had gone; comforted that child, i expect! fancy loving a mother like that! ha! ha! no, i am glad i came here and scared the pious old fool.”
she moved among the tombs and sat down near an open grave that had just been dug. “pah! i am sick of their nonsense. why cannot they leave folk in peace? i want to go my own way; why should i not go my own way? all my life they have been at me, ever since i was a little girl. my foolish old mother began it. why should i not please myself? well, she’s dead anyway! i like people to die. and now mother church is at me. why should i think of other people, why should i always be holding myself in control? no, i let myself go, i please myself.”
“i have no patience with any of them,” she muttered, “and now there is a new one to plague me,” and “moll o’ the graves” saw in her mind’s eye a slim, graceful girl of twelve, endowed with an unparalleled refinement6 of beauty. “what do they mean by bringing that child to holwick hall,” she continued, “as if things were not bad enough already,—a-running round and waiting on folk, a-tending the sick and all the rest of it? let them die! i like them to die. self-sacrifice and self-control forsooth! they say she is clever and well-schooled and mistress of herself and withal sympathetic. what’s the good of unselfishness and self-control? no, liberty, liberty—that’s the thing for you, moll. self-control, indeed!” and again the ghastly laugh rang through the night air. “yes, liberty, moll,—liberty. are you not worth more than all their church-ridden priests and docile unselfish children? what avails unselfishness and affection? father laurence and aline gillespie, there’s a pair of them! no, hate is the thing, hate is better than love. scandal and spite and jealousy—that’s true joy, that’s the true woman, moll,” and she rubbed her hands with unholy mirth.
as she talked to herself the moon rose and gradually the churchyard became light. “love!” she went on, “love! yes, oswald, that’s where they laid you,” she said, as she looked at the next place to the open grave. “ah, but hate got the better of your love, for all that, fine big man that you were, a head taller than the rest of the parish, and all the girls after you, too!”
she looked at the side of the open grave, where the end of a bone protruded. she pulled it out. it was a femur of unusual size. “yes, oswald,” she repeated, “and that’s yours. you did not think i would be holding your thigh-bone these forty years after!
“ha! you loved me, did you? i was a pretty lass then. yes, you loved me, i know you loved me. you7 would have died for me, and i loved you, too. but little sarah loved you and you loved her. i know you loved me most, but i would not have that. ‘i should have controlled myself,’ you say; ha! i was jealous and i hated you. self-control and love;—no, no, liberty and hate, liberty and hate; and when you were ill i came to see you and i saw the love-light in your eyes. they thought you would get well. of course you would have got well; but there you were, great big, strong man, weak as a child,—a child! i hate children. was that it? you tried to push my hands off, as i pressed the pillow on your face, you tried; oh, you tried hard, and i laugh to think of it even now. how i longed to bury my fingers in your throat, but i knew they would leave marks.
“yes, liberty and hate, ha! ha! i would do it again. see, oswald!” and she took the brittle bone and viciously snapped it across her knee. “self-control! love! unselfishness! never! and that child up at the hall, oswald, i must send her after you. i have just frightened sarah down to you. you can have her now, and that child shall come next. hate is stronger than love. liberty, self-will and hate must win in the end.”
the abandoned old wretch stood up and took her stick—she could not stand quite straight—and hobbled with uncanny swiftness across to a newly made child’s grave and began to scrape with her hands; but at that moment she heard the night-watchman coming along the lane; so she rose and walked back to newbiggin, where she lived.
she opened the door and found the tinder box and struck a light, and then went to a corner where there was8 an old chest. she unlocked it and peered in and lifted out a bag and shook it. it was full of gold. “yes,” she said, “money is a good thing, too. how little they know what ‘old moll o’ the graves’ has got,—old, indeed, moll is not old! ah, could not that money tell some strange tales? love and learning and self-control! leave all that to the priests. hate will do for me,—money and liberty are my gods.
“aha, aline gillespie, you little fool, what do you mean by crossing my path? i was a pretty little girl once and you are not going to win the love of upper teesdale folk for nothing, i’ll warrant you.”
