it must be said that since his arrival at bordeaux, canolles had undergone all the torture of unrequited love. he had seen the viscountess courted and caressed and flattered, while he himself was forbidden to devote himself to her, and had to take what comfort he could in an occasional glance bestowed upon him by claire when the gossips were looking the other way. after the scene in the underground passage, after the passionate words they had exchanged at that critical moment, the existing state of things seemed to him to denote something worse than lukewarmness on her part. but, as he felt sure that beneath her cold exterior she concealed a real and deep affection for him, he looked upon himself as the most to be pitied of all happy lovers that ever lived. his frame of mind is easily understood. by virtue of the promise he had been made to give, that he would carry on no correspondence with the outside world, he had relegated nanon to that little corner of the conscience which is set aside for the accommodation of that variety of remorse. as he heard nothing of her, and consequently was spared the ennui caused by tangible reminders of the woman to whom one is unfaithful, his remorse was not altogether unbearable.
and yet, sometimes, just when the most jovial of smiles overspread the young man's features, when his voice was heard giving utterance to some bright and witty remark, a cloud would suddenly pass across his brow, and a sigh would escape from his lips at least, if not from his heart. the sigh was for nanon; the cloud was the memory of the past casting its shadow over the present.
madame de cambes had remarked these moments of melancholy; she had sounded the depths of canolles' heart, and it seemed to her that she could not leave him thus abandoned to his own resources. between an old love which was not altogether extinct, and a new passion which might spring up in his heart, it was possible that his surplus ardor, which was formerly expended upon the proper performance of his military duties and the functions of his responsible position, might tend to check the growth of the pure flame which she sought to inspire. moreover she simply desired to gain time until the memory of so many romantic adventures should fade away, after keeping the curiosity of all the courtiers of the princess on the qui vive. perhaps madame de cambes was injudicious; perhaps, if she had made no concealment of her love, it would have created less sensation, or the sensation would have been less long-lived.
but lenet was the one who followed the progress of this mysterious passion with the most attention and success. for some time his observant eye had detected its existence without feeling sure of its object; nor had he been able to guess its precise situation, whether it was or was not reciprocated. but madame de cambes, sometimes tremulous and hesitating, sometimes firm and determined, and almost always indifferent to the pleasures which those about her enjoyed, seemed to him to be stricken to the heart in very truth. her warlike ardor had suddenly died away; she was neither tremulous nor hesitating nor firm nor determined; she was pensive, smiled for no apparent motive, wept without cause, as if her lips and her eyes responded to the vagaries of her thought, the contrary impulses of her mind. this transformation had been noticeable for six or seven days only, and it was six or seven days since canolles was taken prisoner. therefore there was little doubt that canolles was the object of her love.
lenet, be it understood, was quite ready to further a passion which might some day result in enrolling so gallant a warrior among the partisans of madame la princesse.
monsieur de la rochefoucauld was perhaps farther advanced than lenet in the exploration of madame de cambes' heart. but the language of his gestures and his eyes, as well as of his mouth, was so closely confined to what he chose to permit them to say, that no one could say whether he himself loved or hated madame de cambes. as to canolles, he did not mention his name or look at him, or take any more notice of him than if he had not existed. for the rest, he assumed a more warlike attitude than ever, posing constantly as a hero,—a pretension in which he was justified to some extent by his undeniable courage, and his equally undeniable military skill; day by day he attributed increased importance to his position as lieutenant to the generalissimo. monsieur de bouillon, on the other hand, a cold, mysterious, calculating personage, whose political ends were admirably served by attacks of gout, which sometimes came so in the nick of time that people were tempted to question their reality, was forever negotiating, and concealed his real thoughts as much as possible, being unable to realize the tremendous distance that lay between mazarin and richelieu, and being always fearful for his head which he was very near losing upon the same scaffold with cinq-mars, and saved only by giving up sedan, his own city, and renouncing in fact, if not in name, his rank as a sovereign prince.
the city itself was carried away by the flood of dissipation and profligacy which poured in upon it from all sides. between two fires, with death and ruin of one sort or another staring them in the face, the bordelais were never sure of the morrow, and they felt the need of doing what they could to sweeten their precarious existence, which could count the future only by seconds.
they remembered la rochelle and its demolition by louis xiii., and the profound admiration of anne of austria for that exploit. why did not bordeaux afford the hatred and ambition of that princess an opportunity to duplicate the fate of la rochelle?
they constantly forgot that the man who imposed his levelling instrument upon all heads and walls that seemed to him too high was dead, and that cardinal de mazarin was hardly equal to the shadow of cardinal de richelieu.
so it was that every one let himself go with the tide, canolles with the rest. it is no less true that there were times when he was inclined to doubt everything, and in his fits of scepticism he doubted the love of madame de cambes, as he doubted everything else. at such times nanon's image would once more fill a large space in his heart, in absence more affectionate and devoted than ever. at such times, if nanon had appeared before him in the flesh, the inconstant creature would have fallen at her feet.
while his thoughts and emotions were in this incoherent state, which only those hearts can understand that have at some time hesitated between two loves, canolles received the viscountess's letter. we need not say that every other thought instantly disappeared. after reading the letter he could not understand how he could ever have dreamed of loving any other than madame de cambes, and after reading it a second time he was sure that he had never loved any other than her.
he passed one of those feverish, restless nights which do not bring exhaustion in their train, because happiness furnishes a counterpoise to insomnia. although he had hardly closed his eyes during the night, he rose with the dawn.
every one knows how a lover passes the hours preceding a meeting with his beloved,—in looking at his watch, running aimlessly hither and thither, and jostling his dearest friends without recognizing them. canolles performed every mad feat that his state of mind demanded.
at the precise moment (it was the twentieth time he had entered the church) he went to the confessional, the door of which stood open. through the small window filtered the last rays of the setting sun; the whole interior of the religious edifice was lighted up by that mysterious light, so sweet to those who pray, and those who love. canolles would have given a year of his life rather than lose a single hope at that moment.
he looked around to make sure that the church was deserted, and when he was convinced that there was no one to see him, entered the confessional and closed the door behind him.
