the little mission bungalow at butabué, a wooden shed neatly thatched with fan palms, had been built and garnished by the native catechist from axim and his wife before the arrival of the missionaries, so that ethel found a habitable dwelling ready for her at the end of her long boat journey up the rapid stream of the ancobra. there the strangely matched pair settled down quietly enough to their work of teaching and catechizing, for the mission had already been started by the native evangelist, and many of the people were fairly ready to hear and accept the new religion. for the first ten or twelve months ethel's letters home were full of praise and love for dear john. now that she had come to know him well, she wondered she had ever feared to marry him. no husband was ever so tender, so gentle, so considerate. he nursed her in all her little ailments like a woman; she leaned on him as a wife leans on the strong arm of her husband. and then he was so clever, so wise, so learned. her only grief was that she feared she was not and would never be good enough for him. yet it was well for her that they were living so entirely away from all white society at butabué, for there she had nobody with whom to contrast john but the half-clad savages around them. judged by the light of that startling contrast, good john creedy, with his cultivated ways and gentle manners, seemed like an englishman indeed.
john creedy, for his part, thought no less well of his ethel. he was tenderly respectful to her; more distant, perhaps, than is usual between husband and wife, even in the first months of marriage, but that was due to his innate delicacy of feeling, which made him half unconsciously recognize the depth of the gulf that still divided them. he cherished her like some saintly thing, too sacred for the common world. yet ethel[pg 10] was his helper in all his work, so cheerful under the necessary privations of their life, so ready to put up with bananas and cassava balls, so apt at kneading plantain paste, so willing to learn from the negro women all the mysteries of mixing agadey, cankey, and koko pudding. no tropical heat seemed to put her out of temper; even the horrible country fever itself she bore with such gentle resignation. john creedy felt in his heart of hearts that he would willingly give up his life for her, and that it would be but a small sacrifice for so sweet a creature.
one day, shortly after their arrival at butabué, john creedy began talking in english to the catechist about the best way of setting to work to learn the native language. he had left the country when he was nine years old, he said, and had forgotten all about it. the catechist answered him quickly in a fantee phrase. john creedy looked amazed and started.
"what does he say?" asked ethel.
"he says that i shall soon learn if only i listen; but the curious thing is, ethie, that i understand him."
"it has come back to you, john, that's all. you are so quick at languages, and now you hear it again you remember it."
"perhaps so," said the missionary, slowly, "but i have never recalled a word of it for all these years. i wonder if it will all come back to me."
"of course it will, dear," said ethel; "you know, things come to you so easily in that way. you almost learned portuguese while we were coming out from hearing those benguela people."
and so it did come back, sure enough. before john creedy had been six weeks at butabué, he could talk fantee as fluently as any of the natives around him. after all, he was nine years old when he was taken to england, and it was no great wonder that he should recollect the language he had heard in his childhood till that age. still, he himself[pg 11] noticed rather uneasily that every phrase and word, down to the very heathen charms and prayers of his infancy, came back to him now with startling vividness and without an effort.
four months after their arrival john saw one day a tall and ugly negro woman, in the scanty native dress, standing near the rude market-place where the butabué butchers killed and sold their reeking goat-meat. ethel saw him start again, and with a terrible foreboding in her heart, she could not help asking him why he started. "i can't tell you, ethie," he said, piteously; "for heaven's sake don't press me. i want to spare you." but ethel would hear. "is it your mother, john?" she asked hoarsely.
"no, thank heaven, not my mother, ethie," he answered her, with something like pallor on his dark cheek, "not my mother; but i remember the woman."
"a relative?"
"oh, ethie, don't press me. yes, my mother's sister. i remember her years ago. let us say no more about it." and ethel, looking at that gaunt and squalid savage woman, shuddered in her heart and said no more.
slowly, as time went on, however, ethel began to notice a strange shade of change coming over john's ideas and remarks about the negroes. at first he had been shocked and distressed at their heathendom and savagery, but the more he saw of it the more he seemed to find it natural enough in their position, and even in a sort of way to sympathize with it or apologize for it. one morning, a month or two later, he spoke to her voluntarily of his father. he had never done so in england. "i can remember," he said, "he was a chief, a great chief. he had many wives, and my mother was one. he was beaten in war by kola, and i was taken prisoner. but he had a fine palace at kwantah, and many fan-bearers." ethel observed with a faint terror that he seemed to speak with pride and complacency of his father's chieftaincy. she shuddered[pg 12] again and wondered. was the west african instinct getting the upper hand in him over the christian gentleman?
when the dries were over, and the koko-harvest gathered, the negroes held a grand feast. john had preached in the open air to some of the market people in the morning, and in the evening he was sitting in the hut with ethel, waiting till the catechist and his wife should come in to prayers, for they carried out their accustomed ceremony decorously, even there, every night and morning. suddenly they heard the din of savage music out of doors, and the noise of a great crowd laughing and shouting down the street. john listened, and listened with deepening attention. "don't you hear it, ethie?" he cried. "it's the tom-toms. i know what it means. it's the harvest battle-feast!"
"how hideous!" said ethel, shrinking back.
"don't be afraid, dearest," john said, smiling at her. "it means no harm. it's only the people amusing themselves." and he began to keep time to the tom-toms rapidly with the palms of his hands.
the din drew nearer, and john grew more evidently excited at every step. "don't you hear, ethie?" he said again. "it's the salonga. what inspiriting music! it's like a drum and fife band; it's like the bagpipes; it's like a military march. by jove, it compels one to dance!" and he got up as he spoke, in english clerical dress (for he wore clerical dress even at butabué), and began capering in a sort of hornpipe round the tiny room.
"oh, john, don't," cried ethel. "suppose the catechist were to come in!"
but john's blood was up. "look here," he said excitedly, "it goes like this. here you hold your matchlock out; here you fire; here you charge with cutlasses; here you hack them down before you; here you hold up your enemy's head in your hands, and here you kick it off among the[pg 13] women. oh, it's grand!" there was a terrible light in his black eyes as he spoke, and a terrible trembling in his clenched black hands.
"john," cried ethel, in an agony of horror, "it isn't christian, it isn't human, it isn't worthy of you. i can never, never love you if you do such a thing again."
in a moment john's face changed and his hand fell as if she had stabbed him. "ethie," he said in a low voice, creeping back to her like a whipped spaniel, "ethie, my darling, my own soul, my beloved; what have i done! oh, heavens, i will never listen to the accursed thing again. oh, ethie, for heaven's sake, for mercy's sake, forgive me!"
ethel laid her hand, trembling, on his head. john sank upon his knees before her, and bowed himself down with his head between his arms, like one staggered and penitent. ethel lifted him gently, and at that moment the catechist and his wife came in. john stood up firmly, took down his bible and prayer-book, and read through evening prayer at once in his usual impressive tone. in one moment he had changed back again from the fantee savage to the decorous oxford clergyman.
it was only a week later that ethel, hunting about in the little storeroom, happened to notice a stout wooden box carefully covered up. she opened the lid with some difficulty, for it was fastened down with a native lock, and to her horror she found inside it a surreptitious keg of raw negro rum. she took the keg out, put it conspicuously in the midst of the storeroom, and said nothing. that night she heard john in the jungle behind the yard, and looking out, she saw dimly that he was hacking the keg to pieces vehemently with an axe. after that he was even kinder and tenderer to her than usual for the next week, but ethel vaguely remembered that once or twice before, he had seemed a little odd in his manner, and that it was on those days that she had seen gleams of the savage nature peeping through. perhaps, she thought, with a shiver,[pg 14] his civilization was only a veneer, and a glass of raw rum or so was enough to wash it off.
twelve months after their first arrival, ethel came home very feverish one evening from her girls' school, and found john gone from the hut. searching about in the room for the quinine bottle, she came once more upon a rum-keg, and this time it was empty. a nameless terror drove her into the little bedroom. there, on the bed, torn into a hundred shreds, lay john creedy's black coat and european clothing. the room whirled around her, and though she had never heard of such a thing before, the terrible truth flashed across her bewildered mind like a hideous dream. she went out, alone, at night, as she had never done before since she came to africa, into the broad lane between the huts which constituted the chief street of butabué. so far away from home, so utterly solitary among all those black faces, so sick at heart with that burning and devouring horror! she reeled and staggered down the street, not knowing how or where she went, till at the end, beneath the two tall date-palms, she saw lights flashing and heard the noise of shouts and laughter. a group of natives, men and women together, were dancing and howling round a dancing and howling negro. the central figure was dressed in the native fashion, with arms and legs bare, and he was shouting a loud song at the top of his voice in the fantee language, while he shook a tom-tom. there was a huskiness as of drink in his throat, and his steps were unsteady and doubtful. great heavens! could that reeling, shrieking black savage be john creedy?
yes, instinct had gained the day over civilization; the savage in john creedy had broken out; he had torn up his english clothes and, in west african parlance, "had gone fantee." ethel gazed at him, white with horror—stood still and gazed, and never cried nor fainted, nor said a word. the crowd of negroes divided to right and left, and john creedy[pg 15] saw his wife standing there like a marble figure. with one awful cry he came to himself again, and rushed to her side. she did not repel him, as he expected; she did not speak; she was mute and cold like a corpse, not like a living woman. he took her up in his strong arms, laid her head on his shoulder, and carried her home through the long line of thatched huts, erect and steady as when he first walked up the aisle of walton magna church. then he laid her down gently on the bed, and called the wife of the catechist. "she has the fever," he said in fantee. "sit by her."
the catechist's wife looked at her, and said, "yes; the yellow fever."
and so she had. even before she saw john the fever had been upon her, and that awful revelation had brought it out suddenly in full force. she lay unconscious upon the bed, her eyes open, staring ghastlily, but not a trace of colour in her cheek nor a sign of life upon her face.
john creedy wrote a few words on a piece of paper, which he folded in his hand, gave a few directions in fantee to the woman at the bedside, and then hurried out like one on fire into the darkness outside.
