when i recovered my senses i found myself lying in my bed; my father and mother were standing at the side of it, and our doctor was holding my hand.
“the serpent! the serpent!” were my first words.
dr. brissaud looked at my father, who said a few words to him in a low tone. my head felt so weak that i seemed to hear his voice from a long distance; i succeeded, however, in distinguishing these words: “he went into the garden without a light to look for his mother’s scissors, and in feeling for them he must have put his hand on a coil of rope used for hanging up the linen to dry, and which was left under the garden seat.” upon that i went off to sleep.
i kept my bed for a long time after this, for i was very ill. i was continually having dreams and fancies, in which all the fantastic and horrid creatures conjured up by montézuma were perpetually playing a part. always the same: croquemitaine, the colonel’s horse, the monkey in the jardin des plantes, the little boy who lived opposite who put out his tongue at me, montézuma himself and dr. lombalot, who both made faces at me, and, at last, that dreadful serpent that i had, in fancy, touched with my hand. as the creatures of my imagination would torment me more and more, i would fall to shaking and shivering all over, my poor father standing pale by my bedside, and my mother crying. then, as they caressed me, i would implore them “not to tell marc; not let marc know that i was a coward!”
in saying this, i was not just to myself, i can see that now. i had really displayed great courage; and, under the influence of the best feeling, i had obliged my poor little trembling body to obey my will. only, in a moment of great excitement, i had trusted too much to my strength and it had failed me. i had attempted too much. if i had not been so determined, if i had only asked advice, i should not have imposed upon myself a task so terribly severe to me. to brave unknown dangers in the dark was too great a trial for my nature to attempt all at once. i should have begun more gradually to overcome my fears, and then i should not have failed so sadly.
indeed, after this adventure, i was, for a long time, in a worse state of mind than i had ever been before.