i never enjoyed myself in my life as much as i did at that ball. lady desborough introduced a good many of the first comers to me, and percy brought up more. he had engaged me for the first waltz, and he presently asked me for the first polka after supper; and my card was soon quite full for the whole evening.

at some times i should have been sorry for this, as one does not like to be obliged to refuse any very eligible looking man who may be introduced to one. besides, it prevents dancing a second dance with any particularly pleasant partner,—that is, of course, unless one has the coolness to turn out some one already on the list, which at that time i certainly had not.

but that night i preferred having fresh partners every dance. it was all so new to me, and i wanted to see everything; and in this way i was less engaged in interesting conversation, and was able to give more attention to what was going on.

it was a brilliant scene. the élite of london society were there, and very beautiful were many of the faces, and very exquisite the dresses. not one of them all through was more lovely than ada, and almost every one of my partners remarked to me how very lovely she was; indeed, she made quite a sensation.

the men i was not so much struck with. they were very distinguished-looking and very gentlemanly and polished in manner,—very, very different from what few young men there were at canterbury. but they had a languid air about them which impressed me unpleasantly. they gave me the idea that they had gone out so much into society that they had quite ceased to care for dancing, and that even conversation was too much labour to be undertaken; and i knew it was bad taste, but i certainly preferred as partners the officers i had met at canterbury to these languid young guardsmen and scions of nobility.

for myself, i could not understand how any one could help dancing with spirit to that inspiring music; and the only drawback to my enjoyment was that the rooms were so very full that one was dreadfully squeezed and knocked about. however, on my venturing to remark to one of my partners that the room was extremely full, i found that i knew nothing about it, for he answered,—

"dear me! do you think so, now? why, every one has been remarking to me how pleasant it is that the rooms are not crowded."

i found afterwards that my partner was right, and that i had shown my ignorance; for, at some of the balls i went to afterwards, the crush was so great that dancing was literally an impossibility.

i felt very thankful i had been to the opera, for most of my partners, on finding i was fresh from the country, asked that question, having, i suppose, no other topic in common with me. had i danced oftener than once with some of them, no doubt my conversations would have been more lively. as it was, with a few exceptions, they were not interesting. but they all danced well, and that part i did enjoy most thoroughly. most of all i liked my dances with percy, for he told me who every one was, and did it really good naturedly, while some of my other partners, who had done the same, had been as sarcastic and ill-natured about every one, as if they thought that it must give me pleasure to hear other people run down; whereas, when they were making depreciating remarks upon other girls' dresses and manners, i could not but feel quite uncomfortable in wondering what they would say about me presently.

percy managed to take me down to supper, carrying me off from my last partner in a very dexterous manner; and, what was very nice, he managed to get me a place next to ada, who had been taken down by young lord holmeskirk, a very pleasant young fellow in the guards. ada introduced him to me at once, and he pleaded very hard for a dance after supper; i told him that my card was full, but he urged it so much that i said at last i would dance with him if he would manage it for me, but that i had not the least idea how it was to be done. i may here say that he did so; the second dance after supper, coming up to me as i was leaning on percy's arm, after my polka with him, and saying, in the quietest way, "i believe i have the pleasure of this dance, miss ashleigh," he carried me off immediately the music struck up, before my real partner, whoever he was, could find me. not being accustomed to this sort of thing, and not having the least idea who it was i was engaged to, i felt quite nervous and uncomfortable for the next dance or two, expecting that every gentleman who came near me was on the point of reproaching me for having broken my engagement to him. and, indeed, to the very end of my stay in london, i could never bring myself, in spite of what ada told me about every one doing so, to turn off a partner in this way without feeling that i was doing something very wrong. i dare say my conscience would have been blunted in time, but as it was i never arrived at that point. lord holmeskirk turned out the most pleasant partner of all i had been introduced to, and i could chat with him with more freedom,—he was so perfectly natural and unaffected.

we were a very merry little group at supper; what i ate i have not the slightest idea. percy kept my plate constantly filled, but, with the exception of strawberries and cream, i did not recognise a single thing he gave me. then we pulled crackers, and found the mottoes within them of a singularly silly and unsatisfactory nature.

at last we got up from supper, and went up to the drawing-room, and then the gentlemen, at least those of them who were fortunate enough to find seats, sat down; and when they once did so, i began to think they would never come up again, they were such a terribly long time; and it seemed such a waste to be sitting still doing nothing, with that splendid music ready to go on again. while they were downstairs i was introduced to several ladies, to whose houses i was going in the next few nights with lady desborough and ada.

at last the gentlemen came up again, and we began to dance as if to make up for lost time; for the dancing was certainly better than before supper, and my partners more agreeable and chatty; besides, some of the people had left, so that there was more room, and i enjoyed it accordingly. i think every one else did the same, for there seemed to me to be much more lively conversation and flirting going on than before supper.

i have said that i only danced once with each partner, but there was one exception: this was lord bangley, a captain in the guards. he was introduced to me early in the evening, before my card was full, and he begged so earnestly for two dances that i had no excuse for refusing him; but of all the partners i had that evening, i disliked him certainly the most. he was a handsome man, that i could not deny; but that was all i could say for him. he was tall and very stiff—so stiff that his head seemed set too far back—with a supercilious sneering manner, a very harsh unpleasant voice, and an insufferable air of arrogance and conceit.

ada told me next day that lord bangley had condescended to express to her his great approval of my appearance and manner. i curtsied low when ada told me, but all that i could say was, "that the feeling was by no means reciprocal."

presently the room began to thin in earnest, and there was a great noise outside, in the intervals of the music, of shouting for carriages and prancing of horses; and then, in a very short time, they were all gone, and there remained in the great drawing-room only lady desborough, ada, percy, and myself.

"what do you think of your first ball?" lady desborough asked.

"oh, delightful!" we exclaimed simultaneously; "we could have gone on dancing all night."

"it has gone off very well indeed, and i am perfectly satisfied with everything. but now let us go off to bed; we shall have plenty of time to talk it all over in the morning."

it was, however, very long before ada and

i went to bed. we took off our ball-dresses, let down our hair, put our feet into slippers, and then sat by the fire in my room talking over the evening, and our partners, and our impressions of everything.

at last i said, "if we do not go to bed soon, ada, we may as well give up all idea of going at all. it is nearly six o'clock."

ada rose to go into her own room.

"we have a good five hours to sleep yet. we shall not breakfast till twelve. good night, dear."

after this memorable entrée into society, we were out nearly every night, until, before the end of a month, i had had quite enough of parties and balls, and was really glad when we had a quiet evening to ourselves.

sometimes, before going to the balls, we went to the opera, which, i think, after a time i liked more than the parties. percy always accompanied us there, but he did not often go the balls, which i was sorry for; i liked him so much as a partner, and i could talk with him, so much more naturally and freely about every one there, than i could with my other partners.

for the first few nights i went out, lord bangley was very attentive to me; but i disliked him so much that at last i always was engaged when he asked me to dance; and, although he was very slow to see that any one really could dislike dancing with so very exalted a person as himself, he at last was forced to adopt that conclusion, and so gave up asking me, which was a great relief to me, for his disagreeable manner quite oppressed me.

ada, one morning at breakfast—at which meal, by the bye, lady desborough never appeared—was laughing at me about him, when i said, sharply, that i could not bear him, and that i had shown him so most unmistakably.

"i am glad to hear you say so, agnes," percy said; for by this time ada had pointed out to us the extreme absurdity of our being constantly together for two months, and calling each other miss ashleigh and mr. desborough all that time. so percy, having obtained my willing consent, took to calling me agnes, while i don't think i called him anything; but really percy came almost naturally to my lips, for ada had so often spoken of him to me by that name. "i am very glad to hear you say so, agnes; bangley is hated by his brother officers, and and is what i should call, although an earl's son, a downright snob;—a snob, because he is conceited about his advantages of person and position;—a snob, because he is a narrow-minded, empty-headed coxcomb."

"well done, oh! most outspoken brother," ada said. "pray what offence has poor lord bangley given you for all this outburst?"

"no particular offence, ada; but i can't bear the fellow."

"curious, now," ada said, rather mischievously; "i never heard you say anything against him before: your dislike must be of very recent origin."

"recent or not recent," percy said, dogmatically, "i can't bear him."

after i had been three weeks in london, lady desborough asked me to stay two months instead of one, as i had originally intended. she kindly said that it was so very advantageous and pleasant for ada having me with her, and, indeed, pressed me so much that i saw she really wished it, and on my part i was only too glad to prolong my stay.

i was quite at home now in society, and knew nearly every one, and enjoyed the conversation now as much, or more, than the dancing. ada told me one morning, when i had been there about five weeks, that i was getting a perfect flirt—quite as bad as she was—indeed worse, because quieter—and therefore much more dangerous.

"there is lord holmeskirk, agnes: he is quite assiduous in his attentions to you. now, percy, you have certainly nothing to say against him, for he is an exceedingly nice, unaffected fellow."

"holmeskirk," broke in percy, "why, he is a mere boy!"

"he is an officer in the guards, percy. he is, i grant you, two years younger than your sapient self; still he is more than three years older than agnes. don't mind what he says, my dear: you have my free consent and approbation. i only wish it had been my magnificent self at whom he had deigned to throw his handkerchief."

"nonsense, ada. i do wish you would get out of the way of always talking such ridiculous nonsense;" and percy got up quite crossly, and went straight out of the room.

ada lifted her eyes in comic amazement and penitence.

"dear me! to think of my having angered his royal highness! did i say anything very dreadful, agnes? i do not remember his being so fierce with me since i was twelve years old. one would think he had been crossed in love. eh, agnes! what do you say to that?" she asked, with rather a mischievous tone.

"i am sure i do not know," i said, composedly.

"oh, you are sure you do not know! well, let us see if we can guess. not long ago, when lord bangley was in question, he became furious against him; now, he is enraged with me for recommending that nice little lord holmeskirk. put two and two together, my dear, and four is the undoubted result."

"what nonsense you are talking, ada!" i said, colouring greatly. "your brother no more thinks anything about me than—than—" and i stopped for a comparison.

"than you do about him," ada suggested.

"he thinks nothing of me," i said, ignoring her suggestion, "except as an old school-fellow and friend; and i really am surprised, ada, that ever you should talk such nonsense."

"very well, my dear," ada said, tranquilly; "then i will say no more about it. i certainly thought i had an average amount of perception, and could see as far into a brick wall as my neighbours; but it seems i cannot. i know, now, that my brother, who never cared for music, and who never went ten times to the opera in his life, only goes every night we do because he has acquired a sudden taste for music. still, in that case, you will allow it is odd that he should sit so much behind your chair, and talk to you all the time the music is going on. no doubt, however, he is criticising the performance for your benefit; but, as he never speaks loud enough for me to hear, of course i could not guess that. another thing too, is, to say the least of it, strange—percy, till you came, was at work all day in his room upon sanscrit and hindostanee, and smoking so, that, in spite of the double doors which he has on purpose, the upper part of the house used quite to smell of his cigars, and i was always expecting mamma to complain about it. it is, then, certainly strange that he should now find time to idle away all his morning with us, and to ride out by the side of our carriage in the park of an afternoon. however, i dare say all this is because he has finished his study of eastern tongues, and is arrived at perfection in them. how stupid i have been not to have thought of all this before!" and here ada went on sipping her coffee, as if quite convinced that she had been altogether in error.

honestly, i was astonished. it had seemed so natural having percy always with us, so pleasant listening to his sensible conversation, so different from the light flow of badinage we heard of an evening—it seemed such a matter of course, to enjoy the little quiet—well—flirtation at the opera, that, up to this moment, i can say honestly that it had never seriously entered my head that percy desborough cared for me. as, however, i thought over all our conversation together, not so much what he had said as the way in which he had said it, the conviction came over me that perhaps ada was right after all; and the colour came mounting up into my face, till i felt a deep crimson even over my forehead.

ada was watching me, although she did not seem to be doing so; and guessing, from what she could see of my face, that i had arrived at the conclusion that it was as she said, she jumped up from her chair, and, kneeling down by me in her old impulsive way, she put her arms round me, and kissed my burning cheeks.

"you dear, silly, blind agnes! you know i am right, and that percy loves you."

i was silent a little, and then i said—

"but are you sure of what you say, ada?"

"quite sure, agnes: he has not yet said as much to me, but i know it just as well as if he had. have i not seen the way he looks at you when you are not noticing him? my dear child, i am quite sure about him. but about you, agnes, do you care for him?"

"i never thought of him so, ada—never once. i liked him very much indeed, but it never entered my mind that he cared for me in that way; so i never thought of it."

"but now you know he does?" ada persisted, kissing me coaxingly.

"ah, but i don't know yet, ada; so you will get no answer from me on that head. but, oh, ada!" i exclaimed, suddenly. "what would lady desborough say? oh, i do hope it is not true! what would she say to percy falling in love with a country doctor's daughter?"

ada did not look at all alarmed.

"my dear," she said, laughing, "i do not think you need trouble yourself on that score. country doctors' daughters, in general, are not heiresses of twenty-five thousand pounds. mamma is, no doubt, ambitious, and expects that i shall make a great match; and had percy been like other people, and remained in the guards, and stayed at home, i dare say she would have thought nothing under a duke's daughter good enough for him. as it is, all that is changed. she was very angry indeed with him about it, but she has given it up now. here he is in a regiment which in a year or so will go on foreign service; he is mad enough to intend to go with it, and where is he then? you may be quite sure of one thing, agnes. my mamma is a very excellent woman, but she knows far too much of human nature not to have weighed in her mind, and accepted the possibility of percy's falling in love, before she invited a very pretty girl like you to spend a month in the house at a time she knew percy would be at home on leave."

i had no reply ready to this argument of ada's, which i knew enough of lady desborough to feel was true; so i kissed her, and told her that she had talked quite nonsense enough for one morning, and that it was quite time to get ready to go out.

the last three weeks i spent in eaton square were perhaps more happy than the previous time, but i don't think they were so pleasant; that is, i did not feel so much at home. before, i had been with percy as i might have been with a brother, or rather, perhaps, with a cousin; but now, to feel in my heart—as i now did feel—that he looked at me in quite another way, made me feel different, and at times a little awkward with him. before, if ada left the room for any thing, i continued to chat with percy as unconcernedly as if she had been present; now, i made some excuse to accompany her, or, if obliged to remain, rattled on about anything that came uppermost, to prevent the conversation by any possibility taking a serious turn.

ada told me one day that percy had asked her the reason of my remaining away so; but i told her she had no one to blame but herself, who had made me uncomfortable by talking nonsense to me about him.

"but he is very much in earnest, agnes. he spoke to me last night, and said he was only waiting for an opportunity of speaking to you. you won't say 'no,' will you, agnes darling?"

she asked in her coaxing way, kissing me as she used to do at school when she wanted me to do anything for her.

i did not answer. i felt very very happy to know now for certain that he loved me, still, i could not answer that question except to himself, especially to ada, who would be sure whatever she promised me, to tell percy. so i said at last, "there is no use, ada, in his speaking to me now at all. i would never accept him or any other man, even if i loved him with all my heart, until my father had seen and liked him."

"but how is dr. ashleigh to see percy?" ada asked, with a dismayed face.

"of course, ada, it is not for me to make arrangements for your brother," i said quietly; and then, after a pause, seeing her blank dismay, i went on, "it is not for me to suggest, ada; but as you have promised to come down for a week to us, in another six weeks when the season is over, on your way to lady dashwood's, i have no doubt that papa would be very happy to see your brother if he should be happening to accompany you."

i was conscious that although i said this laughingly, i was blushing crimson; but still i felt it was better so than that percy should ask me now, for i quite meant what i said about papa's consent; but i was by no means sure of my own resolution if he asked me, which he was certain to do if i did not somehow put it off. ada looked me full in the face, she saw that it would be as she wished, and she took me very gently in her arms, and we kissed each other lovingly, as if in pledge of the nearer relationship we were to bear. and then she made one more effort.

"but could you not say 'yes,' now, agnes, and refer him to your papa? it would be the same thing, and put him out of his suspense."

"no, ada," i said positively; "it would not be the same thing at all. if i said 'yes,' but which, mind, i have not said that i ever shall do, papa would be sure to give his consent because he loves me. but before i am engaged to any one, i should like papa to see him and like him first, and then when he tells me he approves my choice, i shall know he really means what he says."

after this, i have no doubt ada told him something of what i had said, for from that time they ceased to try and contrive tête-à-têtes between us, and i saw that percy was content to wait till the time i had indicated. so i was much more comfortable with him. his leave expired, and he went away three or four days before my visit ended. i took care the last day or two not to be alone with him, for i confess i doubted my own resolution as much as i did his. however, nothing was said till he was going, and then as he was saying good-bye, he held my hand and said, "then i may hope to see you again in six weeks, agnes?" and he looked so earnestly at me, that my stupid colour would come rushing up.

"yes," i said, as steadily as i could, "papa will be very glad to see you, if you should happen to be accompanying ada."

for a moment longer he held my hand, and it seemed to me that he drew me a little towards him as if he were going to kiss me. if ada had not been in the room, i believe he would have done so; as it was, he lifted my hand and pressed it to his lips, kissed ada heartily, and was gone.

the very last ball i went to before i left, a circumstance happened which gave me great pain at the time. i was dancing with lord holmeskirk, with whom, indeed, i danced more perhaps than with any one else, and we were speaking of my leaving on the following day, and he remarked almost seriously how much i should be missed, to which i replied with laughing disbelief. after the dance was over we took our seats on a sofa placed in a conservatory on the landing, half way up the stairs, and which was otherwise unoccupied. it was quite surrounded by flowers, so that although any one who came up-stairs could see us, still no one could hear what we said.

when we had sat down lord holmeskirk said, "so you do not think you will be missed, miss ashleigh? now i can assure you that at least by me your absence will be keenly felt." and then without further introduction, he made me an honest straightforward offer.

i felt very surprised, and very very sorry, and told him so. i had looked upon him as a very pleasant partner, and had liked him very much, and i assured him that i had never for a moment imagined that he had regarded me in any other light.

"i don't suppose you love me now, miss ashleigh," he said earnestly. "there is no reason in the world why you should; but don't you think you could some day. is it quite impossible that you may in time get to care for me?" and the honest young nobleman looked so pleadingly up in my face, that i could hardly restrain my tears.

"lord holmeskirk," i said, "i am very sorry indeed for what you have said to me. i am grieved that i should unwittingly have obtained the love of a true heart such as yours is without being able to requite it. it will be a matter of lasting regret to me. but it would be cruel kindness to deceive you. i cannot encourage you even to hope. there are many here far more fitted than i am to win your love, and whose rank would render them far more suitable matches for you than i could be. your parents——"

"i can assure you," he began, earnestly, "i have their consent; i have already spoken to them."

"i esteem you still more for having done so, lord holmeskirk, and i am touched at their willingness to receive me; still, their consent must have been the result rather of their affection for you, than their own real approval of it."

i saw at once in his open face that it was so, and that his parents' consent had been reluctantly given.

"it could not be otherwise," i said; "they naturally wish you to choose one who, from her rank and connections, may strengthen your position, however high that may be. and now, i can only say again how sorry i am for the pain i have given you, but that it cannot be. i shall always remember you with esteem and regard, and nothing will give me greater pleasure than to hear you have made some happier choice."

the young man saw that any further appeal would be hopeless, and the tears stood in his honest grey eyes.

"thank you very much for your kindness, miss ashleigh, but, believe me, i shall ever regard you——" "as a friend," i said, rising, and making a movement to the staircase. he offered me his arm, and as we went up i began chatting on indifferent subjects, as i did not wish any one to even guess what had taken place. as we walked round the room, we passed by where the countess, his mother, was sitting. i saw she looked at us anxiously, and as her son caught her eye, he shook his head slightly in answer to the question she asked, and i could see her eyes open, first in astonishment, and then soften with a variety of emotions,—sorrow for her son's disappointment,—pleasure that he was not going to make a match which she could not have thought suitable. as we passed again, she stopped us, and spoke a few words to me, for i had frequently spoken to her before, and had liked her much, for she was a kind, motherly sort of woman, though she was a countess. she said she heard this was my last ball, and that she should quite miss my face amongst the dancers.

"it is a fresh, happy face, my dear, and i hope it may continue so. good-bye; you have my best wishes;" and she shook hands with me very kindly and affectionately, in a way which seemed to say a very great many things which she could not well express.

when i got back that evening, ada, who had been rather silent on our way home, came into my room, as she usually did, for a talk, and said, "agnes, i was going down the stairs to get an ice, and i saw you and lord holmeskirk go into the conservatory together, and you were there when i came up again, and i am quite sure by both your looks that he has made you an offer. well?"

"what do you mean by well?" i asked, for i felt a little hurt that, after what i had said to her about percy, she should ever dream of the possibility of my accepting any one else.

"of course i mean what did you answer? don't keep me waiting, agnes: you don't know how anxious and impatient i have been to get home to ask you."

"after what i said to you about percy, ada," i said, rather coldly, "i should have thought it hardly necessary to ask. of course i refused him."

"there, you dear agnes," ada said, almost crying on my neck, "don't be angry with me; but i have been so nervous, though i knew you would say 'no.' still, it must require so much courage to refuse a nobleman; i know i never could;" and so she went on till she coaxed me into a good humour again, and we talked a long time before we went to bed. and so my gaieties ended, and next morning, bidding adieu to ada and lady desborough, who was very gracious, and even kissed me, i started for canterbury, under charge of a lady who was going down, and whom i met by arrangement on the platform of the station.