as i make my adieux mr. philip comes in.
when the eventful day of departure came, what with the last packing, the searches to see that nothing should be forgotten, the awkwardness and slowness of hands unnerved by the excitement of a great occasion, it was high noon before i was ready to start. i stood idly in the hall, while my aunt put final touches to my traps, my mind swinging like a pendulum between fear that mr. cross, whom i was to join at caughnawaga, would be vexed at my delay, and genuine pain at leaving my dear home and its inmates, now that the hour had arrived.
i had made my farewells over at my mother's house the previous day, dutifully kissing her and all the sisters who happened to be at home, but without much emotion on either side. blood is thicker than water, the adage runs. perhaps that is why it flowed so calmly in all our dutch veins while we said good-by. but here in my adopted home--my true home--my heart quivered and sank at thought of departure.
"i could not have chosen a better or safer man for you to travel with than jonathan cross," mr. stewart was saying to me. "he does not look on all things as i do, perhaps, for our breeding was as different as the desk is different from the drum. but he is honest and courteous, well informed after his way, and as like what you will be later on as two peas in a pod. you were born for a trader, a merchant, a man of affairs; and you will be at a good school with him."
he went on in his grave, affectionate manner, telling me in a hundred indirect ways that i belonged to the useful rather than to the ornamental order of mankind, with never a thought in his good heart of wounding my feelings, or of letting me know that in his inmost soul he would have preferred me to be a soldier or an idler with race-horses and a velvet coat. nor did he wound me, for i had too great a love for him, and yet felt too thorough a knowledge of myself to allow the two to clash. i listened silently, with tears almost ready at my eyes, but with thoughts vagrantly straying from his words to the garden outside.
tulp was to go with me, and his parents and kin were filling the air with advice and lamentations in about equal measure, and all in the major key. their shouts and wailing--they could not have made more ado if he had just been sold to jamaica--came through the open door. it was not of this din i thought, though, nor of the cart which the negroes, while they wept, were piling high with my goods, and which i could see in the highway beyond.
i was thinking of daisy, my sweet sister, who had gone into the garden to gather a nosegay for me.
through the door i could see her among the bushes, her lithe form bending in the quest of blossoms. were it midsummer, i thought, and the garden filled with the whole season's wealth of flowers, it could hold nothing more beautiful than she. perhaps there was some shadow of my moody fit, the evening after the dinner at the hall, remaining to sadden my thoughts of parting from her. i cannot tell. i only know that they were indeed sad thoughts. i caught myself wondering if she would miss me much--this dear girl who had known no life in which i had not had daily share. yes, the tears were coming, i felt. i wrung my good old patron's hand, and turned my head away.
there came a clattering of hoofs on the road and the sound of male voices. tulp ran in agape with the tidings that sir john and a strange gentleman had ridden up, and desired to see mr. stewart. we at once walked out to the garden, a little relieved perhaps by the interruption.
both visitors had had time to alight and leave their horses outside the wall. the younger johnson stood in the centre path of the garden, presenting his companion to daisy, who, surprised at her task, and with her back to us, was courtesying. even to the nape of her neck she was blushing.
there was enough for her to blush at. the stranger was bowing very low, putting one hand up to his breast. with the other he had taken her fingers and raised them formally to his lips. this was not a custom in our parts. sir william did it now and then on state occasions, but young men, particularly strangers, did not.
as we advanced, this gallant morning-caller drew himself up and turned toward us. you may be sure i looked him over attentively.
i have seen few handsomer young men. in a way, so far as light hair, blue eyes, ruddy and regular face went, he was not unlike sir john. but he was much taller, and his neck and shoulders were squared proudly--a trick johnson never learned. the fine effect of his figure was enhanced by a fawn-colored top-coat, with a graceful little cape falling over the shoulders. his clothes beneath, from the garnet coat with mother-of-pearl buttons down to his shining hessians, all fitted him as if he had been run into them as into a mould. he held his hat, a glossy sugar-loaf beaver, in one hand, along with whip and gloves. the other hand, white and shapely in its ruffles, he stretched out now toward mr. stewart with a free, pleasant gesture.
"with my father's oldest friend," he said, "i must not wait for ceremony. i am philip cross, from england, and i hope you will be my friend, sir, now that my father is gone."
that this speech found instant favor need not be doubted. mr. stewart shook him again and again by the hand, and warmly bade him welcome to the valley and the cedars a dozen times in as many breaths. young cross managed to explain between these cordial ejaculations, that he had journeyed up from new york with the youthful stephen watts--to whose sister sir john was already betrothed; that they had reached guy park the previous evening; that watts was too wearied this morning to think of stirring out, but that hardly illness itself could have prevented him, cross, from promptly paying his respects to his father's ancient comrade.
the young man spoke easily and fluently, looking mr. stewart frankly in the eye, with smiling sincerity in glance and tone. he went on:
"how changed everything is roundabout!--all save you, who look scarcely older or less strong. when i was here as a boy it was winter, cold and bleak. there was a stockade surrounded by wilderness then, i remember, and a log-house hardly bigger than the fireplace inside it. where we stand now the ground was covered with brush and chips, half hidden by snow. now--presto! there is a mansion in the midst of fields, and a garden neatly made, and"--turning with a bow to daisy--"a fair mistress for them all, who would adorn any palace or park in europe, and whom i remember as a frightened little baby, with stockings either one of which would have held her entire."
"i saw the cart laden outside," put in sir john, "and fancied perhaps we should miss you."
"why, no," said mr. stewart; "i had forgotten for the moment that this was a house of mourning. douw is starting to the lake country this very day. mr. cross, you must remember my boy, my douw?"
the young englishman turned toward me, as i was indicated by mr. stewart's gesture. he looked me over briefly, with a half-smile about his eyes, nodded to me, and said:
"you were the dutch boy with the apron, weren't you?"
i assented by a sign of the head, as slight as i could politely make it.
"oh, yes, i recall you quite distinctly. i used to make my brother digby laugh by telling about your aprons. he made quite a good picture of you in one of them, drawn from my descriptions. we had a fort of snow, too, did we not? and i beat you, or you me, i forget which. i got snow down the back of my neck, i know, and shivered all the way to the fort."
he turned lightly at this to mr. stewart, and began conversation again. i went over to where daisy stood, by the edge of the flower-bed.
"i must go now, dear sister," i said. the words were choking me.
we walked slowly to the house, she and i. when i had said good-by to my aunt, and gathered together my hat, coats, and the like, i stood speechless, looking at daisy. the moment was here, and i had no word for it which did not seem a mockery.
she raised herself on tiptoe to be kissed. "good-by, big brother," she said, softly. "come back to us well and strong, and altogether homesick, won't you? it will not be like home, without you, to either of us."
and so the farewells were all made, and i stood in the road prepared to mount. tulp was already on the cart, along with another negro who was to bring back my horse and the vehicle after we had embarked in the boats. there was nothing more to say--time pressed--yet i lingered dumb and irresolute. at the moment i seemed to be exchanging everything for nothing--committing domestic suicide. i looked at them both, the girl and the old man, with the gloomy thought that i might never lay eyes on them again. i dare say i wore my grief upon my face, for mr. stewart tried cheerily to hearten me with, "courage, lad! we shall all be waiting for you, rejoiced to welcome you back safe and sound."
daisy came to me now again, as i put my hand on the pommel, and pinned upon my lapel some of the pale blue blossoms she had gathered.
"there's 'rosemary for remembrance,'" she murmured. "poor ophelia could scarce have been sadder than we feel, douw, at your going."
"and may i be decorated too--for remembrance' sake?" asked handsome young philip cross, gayly.
"surely, sir," the maiden answered, with a smile of sweet sorrowfulness. "you have a rightful part in the old memories--in a sense, perhaps, the greatest part of all."
"ay, you two were friends before ever you came to us, dear," said mr. stewart.
so as i rode away, with smarting eyes and a heart weighing like lead, my last picture of the good old home was of daisy fastening flowers on the young englishman's breast, just as she had put these of mine in their place.
