some days after mr. ponsonby’s visit, mary westbury saw from her room, where she happened to be sitting, a carriage drive up the avenue. it was only about twelve o’clock, an unusual hour for visitors; and the carriage was of the order known as a fly, with just such a white horse, and coachman in white cotton gloves, as had made an important feature in the landscape to ben renton seven years before in guildford street, manchester square; but there was not, of course, any connexion in mary’s mind between such a vehicle and her cousin’s brief romance. she watched it, with a little surprise, as it came up. who could it be? there was somehow, a greater than ordinary attempt to look like a private carriage about this particular vehicle, with, as might have been expected, a failure still more marked. and flys of any description were not well known at renton. the lodge-keeper had looked at it disdainfully when she opened the gate; and the butler, who was standing at the door, received{94} the card of the visitors with a certain mixture of condescension and contempt. ‘for miss westbury,’ he said, giving it to a passing maid to carry up-stairs, and only deigning, after an interval, to show the visitors into the drawing-room. the card which was brought to mary had a very deep black border, and the name of mrs. henry rich printed in the little square of white. who was mrs. henry rich? there had been very little intercourse between the riches and the rentons since frank’s marriage; but mary recollected with an effort, when she turned her mind that way, that one of the sons had died some time before, and that he turned out to have been married, and to have left an unknown widow to be provided for after he died. these facts came quite dimly to her mind as she pondered the name. but she had never heard who the widow was, and could not think what a stranger in such circumstances could want with her. ‘i don’t know them well enough to do her any good,’ mary said to herself. the border was so black, and the fly had impressed her with such a feeling of poverty,—wrongly, to be sure, for of course had mrs. henry rich possessed a dozen carriages she could scarcely have brought them with her to cookesley,—that the idea of a weeping widow seeking something very like charity, was suggested to mary by the name, and the deep mourning, and the hour of the visit. civility demanded of her that she should see this unexpected{95} visitor. ‘but i must tell her we see very little of them, and that i can do nothing,’ mary said to herself as she went down-stairs. she was dressed in one of her fresh, pretty muslins, pink and white, with all the pretty, crisp bits of lace and bows of ribbon that makes up that toilette fra?che et simple, which is one of the greatest triumphs of millinery, and next to impossible to any but the rich. and a pleasant figure to behold was mary amid the sunshine, in the calm of the stately, silent house which was so familiar to her, and in which her movements were never without a certain grace. the most awkward being in the world has an advantage in her own house over any new-comer. and mary was never awkward. the worst that could be said of her was that she was in no way remarkable. you could not specially distinguish her among a crowd as ‘that girl with the bright eyes,’ or ‘with that lovely complexion,’ or ‘with the fine figure.’ her eyes were very nice, and so was her colour, and so was her form; but, as she herself said, her hair was the same colour as everybody else’s; she was just the same height as other people; her hands and feet the same size; her waist the same measure round. ‘i have never any difficulty about my things,’ mary would say, half laughing, half annoyed; ‘everybody’s things fit me;’ and though she had preserved a great deal of the first fresh bloom of youth, still it was a fact quite known and acknowledged by her{96} that the early morning and the dews were over with her. such was the pleasant household figure, full of everything that makes a woman sweet to her own people, and yet not beautiful, which went softly into the great renton drawing-room, in the morning sunshine, to see her visitor, not having the least fear of the stranger, or anything but pity, and a regretful certainty that her own ministrations, which she supposed were going to be appealed to, could be of no use.
mary went in so softly that she surprised the ladies,—for there were two of them,—in an investigation into some handsome cabinets which were in the room, and which, indeed, were perfectly legitimate objects of curiosity. but to be discovered in the midst of their researches discomposed the strangers. they stood still for a moment between her and the window,—two tall, sombre, black figures,—draped from head to foot in the heaviest mourning. they had their backs to the light, and mary could not for the moment distinguish their faces. she went forward with her soft smile and bow; and then she made a bewildered, involuntary pause. it was many, many years since she had seen that face, and she could not remember whose it was; but yet it struck her, even in her ignorance, a curious paralysing blow. it was the kind of blow said to be given by that mysterious monster of the seas, which the great french novelist has introduced into literature. it{97} jarred her all over, and yet seemed to numb and take all power from her. ‘mrs. rich?’ she faltered, with a wonderful mingling of recollection and ignorance; and then stood still, too much startled to say more.
‘dearest mary, have you forgotten me altogether?’ said the youngest of the two ladies, coming up to her with both hands outstretched. still mary did not remember whose face it was, and yet she grew faint and sick. the tall figure towered over her middle-sized head; the lovely blue eyes looked appealing into her heart. ‘don’t you remember millicent?’ said the sweet voice; and then her reluctant hand was taken, and those softest rose-lips touched her cheek. mary was glad to point to a chair, and shelter her own weakness upon one beside it. ‘it is so unexpected,’ she said, making a feeble apology for her consternation; and then mrs. tracy came and shook hands with her, and they all sat down in a little circle, poor mary feeling the room go round and round with her, and all her courage fail.
‘you did not know me under my changed name,’ said millicent; ‘and i am so changed, dear mary, and you are exactly as you were,—you are not a day older;—that is the difference between living such a quiet life and being out in the world.’
‘i should have known you anywhere, my dear,’ said mrs. tracy, coming a little closer to mary’s chair.
‘that is very strange,’ said mary, recovering{98} herself, ‘for i think i only saw you once. but i am very much surprised. millicent, was it you that married mr. henry rich?’
‘who else could it be?’ said millicent, slowly shaking her head with a soft pity for herself, and then she pressed her handkerchief lightly to her eyes. she was dressed in profound black, in what it is common to call the most hideous of garbs—a widow’s mourning dress. her bonnet was of crape, with a veil attached to it, which was thrown back, showing the lovely face, just surrounded by a single rim of white. though it goes against all ordinary canons of taste to say so, i am obliged to add that her melancholy robes were very becoming to millicent, as indeed they are to most women. her dazzling whiteness of complexion, the soft rose-flush that went and came, the heavenly blue of her eyes, came forth with double force from the sombre background. poor mary was overwhelmed by her beauty, her quiet consciousness of it, her patronage, and tone of kindness. and to come here now, at such a moment, when the world was about to begin again! it was so much her natural instinct to be courteous, that she could not make any demonstration to the contrary, but her manner, in spite of herself, grew colder and colder. the only comfort in the whole matter was that mrs. renton had not yet come down-stairs.
‘her happiness lasted but a very short time,{99}’ said mrs. tracy, taking up her parable; ‘such a young man, too! but my poor dear child has been very badly used. it was not only that; he died just when he ought to have been making some provision for her.’
‘oh, mamma dear, that was not poor harry’s fault!’
‘but we found out afterwards,’ continued mrs. tracy, ‘that he had not anything like what he had given himself out to have. he had squandered his money in speculation,—that was the truth; and now his family, instead of appreciating the position of a poor young creature thus deprived of her natural protector——’
‘oh, please,’ said mary, interrupting her; ‘i know the riches a little, and i’d rather not hear anything about their affairs.’
‘i am speaking of our affairs, my dear,’ said mrs. tracy, solemnly; ‘of millicent’s affairs; for, alas! i can scarcely say i have any of my own. since my poor boy died, seven years ago, i have not cared much what happened,—to myself.’
‘poor mamma worries about me more than she ought,’ said millicent. ‘but we do not come to trouble you about that, dear mary. how nice you look in your pretty muslin! i wonder if i shall ever wear anything pretty again. i feel such an old woman in those hideous caps. don’t i look like a perfect ghost?{100}’
‘i think you look more beautiful than usual,’ said mary, with a certain spitefulness. she intended no compliment. it was rather a reproach she meant, as if she had said, ‘you have no right to be beautiful. why shouldn’t you look a perfect ghost like other people?’ it was sharply said, not without a touch of bitterness, though it sounded pleasantly enough; and millicent shook back her veil a little further, and laid her fingers caressingly upon mary’s hand.
‘ah, it is you who are partial!’ she said, while mary boiled with secret wrath. ‘but tell me about thornycroft, and if it is still kept up; and our old gorgon, you know, and all the people. there was that poor mr. thorny, too,’ said millicent, with a little laugh; ‘tell me about them all.’
‘mr. thorny died,—as you must have heard,’ said mary; ‘and it was your doing, everybody said; and then poor miss thorny gave up. i wonder you like to think of it. it might have been going on like old times but for you——’
‘could i help it?’ said millicent, with a little shrug of her shoulders. ‘if a man is a fool, is it my fault? you must know by this time, mary, as well as i do, what fools they will make of themselves; but it is too bad to call it our fault.’
‘i don’t know anything about it,’ said mary, fiercely, and then there was a pause.
‘this is such a lovely place,’ said mrs. tracy;{101} ‘we have heard so much about it. we used to know your cousin, mr. benedict renton, miss westbury,—at one time. i suppose he is still abroad?’
‘yes, he is still abroad.’
‘what a sad thing for him, with his prospects! it must have upset all your calculations. but the time is up now, is it not?’ mrs. tracy said, with her most ingratiating smile.
mary perceived in a moment what was their object, and hoping it might be but a voyage of inquiry, shut up all avenues of intelligence in her, and faced the inquisitor with a countenance blank of all meaning—or so at least she thought. ‘what time is up?’ she said.
‘oh, the time,’ cried millicent, breaking in impatiently,—‘the time, you know, for the will. as if you did not know all about it! oh, you need not be afraid to trust us. ben renton was not so careful; he told me everything about it. i must tell you that we saw a great deal of ben at one time,’ millicent added, with one of her vain looks. mary says it might have been called an arch look by a more favourable critic. ‘he was, in short, you know, a little mad—but you will say that was my fault.’
‘i have no more to do with my cousin’s private affairs than i have with mr. rich’s,’ said mary; ‘indeed, i wish you would not tell me. my cousin{102} is not a man to like to have his affairs talked about. i would rather not hear any more.’
‘miss westbury is quite right, millicent,’ said mrs. tracy, ‘and shows a great deal of delicacy. she is always such a thoughtless child, my dear. she never stops to think what she is going to say. the harm it has done her, too, if she could only see it! millicent, my darling, if you would but learn some of miss westbury’s discretion! but it will be pleasant for you to have your cousins home again, i am sure.’
to this artful question mary gave no answer at all. indignation began to strengthen her. she sat still, with an air which any well-bred woman knows how to assume when necessary,—an air of polite submission to whatever an unwelcome visitor may choose to say. it neither implies assent nor approbation, but,—it is not worth while to contradict you. such was the expression on mary’s face.
‘ah, mamma, mary has not such a warm heart for old friends as i have,’ said millicent at last. ‘i have been raving about coming to see her for weeks back, but she does not care to see me. she is indifferent to her old friends.’
‘were we ever old friends?’ said mary. ‘i don’t remember. you were older than i was. i thought you were very pretty, as everybody did, but——’
‘but you did not like me. oh, i am used to{103} that from women,’ said millicent, with a mocking laugh; and she actually rose to her feet to go away.
and the colour rushed into mary’s face. used to that from women! because of her beauty, which transcended theirs! the ordinary reader will think it was a self-evident proposition, but mary was of a different opinion, being thus directly and personally accused.
‘i don’t know about women,’ she said, indignantly; ‘but i have never had any occasion,—to be jealous of you.’ this was said with a fierceness which mary never could have attained to had it been simply true. ‘i admire you very much,’ she added, with a little vehemence. ‘i did so at school; but that does not alter the truth. we were never great friends.’
‘well, it is kind of you to put me in mind of that,’ said millicent. ‘mamma, come. you see it is as i told you. we shall find no nice neighbours at renton. it is best to go away.’
the word ‘neighbours’ made mary start, and she had not time to realise that she was about to get rid of them, when the door was suddenly pushed open, and mrs. renton’s maid appeared with her shawls, and her cushions, and her knitting. ‘mrs. renton is coming down immediately,’ said the woman; and on this, to mary’s bewilderment, her visitors sat down again. she was driven to her{104} wits’ end. to leave them to encounter poor mrs. renton was like bringing the lamb to an interview with the wolf.
‘may i ask you to come to the library?’ she said, hurriedly. ‘my aunt is a great invalid, and sees no visitors. pray forgive me for asking you;—this way,’ and rushed to the door before them. but the fates were against poor mary on that unfortunate day.
‘we have made quite a visitation already,’ said mrs. tracy, and got up again to shake hands. as for millicent, though she had been so angry, she took mary’s two hands again; and, stooping over her, gave her another kiss. and all these operations took time, and, before they had made any progress towards their departure, mrs. renton came in, and received with some astonishment the curtsies and salutations of the unknown guests.
‘pray don’t hurry away because i have come. i am always so glad when mary has her friends to see her,’ mrs. renton said, with the sweetest amiability; ‘do sit down, pray.’ the mother and daughter waited for no second invitation. they put themselves on either side of mrs. renton, as they had done off mary; and thus a kind of introduction had to be performed most unwillingly by the victim, who felt that her cause was lost.
‘mrs. rich!’ said the lady of the house, gathering up her wools,—‘that must be a relation{105} of the riches of richmont. oh, yes; we know them very well,—that is, they are very good sort of people, i am sure. when my son frank was at royalborough, he used to go to see them. all the officers do, i believe; and he made me call. oh, yes, of course, i understand,—the son who died. poor thing! your daughter is a very young widow.’ this was aside to mrs. tracy, who had already volunteered to arrange the cushions in mrs. renton’s chair.
‘not much more than a child,’ said that astute mother; ‘and left so poorly off, after all! you may suppose, mrs. renton, if i had not thought it would be a very good marriage in point of money, i should never have sacrificed my child to the son of a man in the city. i would rather have starved. and then it turned out he had not half what he was supposed to have. people that do those sort of things should be punished,’ mrs. tracy said, with fire in her eye.
‘indeed, that is my opinion,’ said mrs. renton; ‘but i always thought the riches were rolling in money.’ and then she made a little internal reflection that, perhaps, on the whole, frank had not done so very much amiss.
‘so we thought,’ said mrs. tracy, confidentially; ‘or rather, so i thought, for my poor child is as innocent as a baby. but poor harry had speculated, i believe, or done something with his money;{106} and his father is as hard,—oh, as hard—— if i could but see justice done to my millicent, i care for nothing more.’
‘and, dear me, we had thought they were such liberal kind of people!’ said mrs. renton, thinking more and more that frank, on the whole—— ‘and your daughter is so very prepossessing,’ she added, in a lower tone. ‘of course they knew all about it,—before——’
‘that is just it,’ said mrs. tracy; ‘the marriage took place abroad, and we were both so ignorant of business, and i fear the settlements were not quite en règle; i am so foolish about business; all i trust to is the heart.’
‘dear, dear, what a sad thing! but i should always have looked over the settlements,’ said mrs. renton, who knew as much about it as her lap-dog, shaking her head and looking very wise. millicent had pretended to talk to mary while this was going on, but principally had employed herself in gazing round the room, noting all its special features. furnished all anew, in amber satin, it would look very well, she thought; and, oh, what a comfort to have such a home, after all the wanderings of her life! and then she wondered what the house was like in berkeley square. poor, dear ben! what a surprise it would be to him to find that she was established at the willows! she wondered whether he would be very angry about her marriage, or whether he{107} would think, as a great many men did, that a young widow was very interesting; and how long a time it would be before they had made up their quarrels and he was at her feet again! these questions were so full of interest that mary’s taciturn manner did not trouble her. ‘i daresay she would like to have him herself,’ millicent said; and the desire seemed so natural that her respect for mary rather increased than otherwise. if she had let such a prize slip through her hands without so much as an attempt to secure it, then millicent would have thought her contemptible indeed.
at length there came a moment when it seemed expedient that she too should strike in to the conversation with mrs. renton. there was an audible pause. millicent was not so clever as her mother; but in such a crisis as the present she was put upon her mettle. so long as there were only men to deal with there was no need for much exertion. nature had provided her with the necessary weapons to use against such simpletons,—her eyes, the turn of her head, her smile, a soft modulation of her voice; but with a feminine audience it was a different matter. there, wit was more needful to her than beauty,—mother wit,—adroitness,—the faculty of adapting herself to her part and her listeners. mrs. tracy looked at her with an anxiety which she could not disguise. a statesman looking on while his son made his first speech in parliament, could scarcely{108} have experienced a graver solicitude. as it was, millicent addressed herself to her mother with the softest of voices. ‘mamma,’ she said, ‘does it not seem strange to find yourself here, after all mr. ben renton used to tell us? how fond he was of his beautiful home!’
and then came the expected question from his mother,—‘ben? my son ben? did you meet him abroad? is it long since you saw him? dear, dear, why i am looking for my boy home every day. they are all coming home about,—about——’ here mrs. renton caught mary’s warning eye, and paused, but immediately resumed again. ‘why, of course, everybody knows! why should not i say what it is about? it was an arrangement of my poor dear husband’s. they are coming to read the will. we don’t know how we are left, none of us, for it was a very odd arrangement; but i am sure he meant it for the best. we shall be together next month, and i am sure ben will be charmed to resume his acquaintance with you. what a nice thing you should be in the neighbourhood! the only thing is, that i am afraid you will find the willows damp.’
‘but what a pleasure for you to have all your family with you!’ said millicent; ‘and oh! what a delight to your sons to return to you!’
‘yes,’ said mrs. renton. ‘of course i shall be very glad to see them. and then, to be sure,{109} shooting will have begun, and they will be able to amuse themselves. i am such an invalid, i tremble at the thought of any exertion.’
and when mrs. renton said this, millicent rose, and declared she knew that she could put one of those cushions more comfortably in the chair.
it was quite late in the afternoon when they left the manor at last, for mrs. renton insisted that they should stay to luncheon. she was distressed beyond measure when she heard of the fly which had been waiting for so long. ‘it will cost you a fortune,’ she cried; ‘and we could have set you down when we went for our drive.’
‘we are not very rich,’ mrs. tracy said in reply; ‘but to have made acquaintance with you is such a pleasure. and it is not often we indulge ourselves.’
mrs. renton declared, when they were gone, that it was years since she had seen any one who pleased her so much. ‘as for the daughter, she is perfectly beautiful!’ she cried, in rapture; ‘and to think that such a lovely creature should have married harry rich!’
‘but we don’t know anything about harry rich,’ said mary, who was disposed to be misanthropical; ‘perhaps he was a lovely creature too.’
‘i don’t understand what has come to you, mary,’ said her aunt. ‘why should you be so disagreeable? such a nice, pretty creature; one would have thought she was just the very companion you{110} want. and your own old schoolfellow, too! i never like to give in to what people say of girls being jealous of each other, but it really looks more like that than anything else.’
‘yes; i suppose i must be jealous of her,’ said mary; and mrs. renton took the admission for irony, and read her a long lecture when they went for their drive. it is hard upon a young woman to be lectured when she is out driving, and can neither run away nor occupy herself with anything that may make a diversion. poor mary had to listen to a great many remarks about the evils of envy and self-estimation, and the curious want of sympathy she showed.
‘poor thing!—a widow at such an early age, and badly left, and with such very sweet manners. and the mother such a very judicious person,’ said mrs. renton. ‘i am so glad they are at the willows. it will be quite a resource to the boys.’
then indeed something very like bitterness rankled in mary westbury’s heart. envy, and hatred, and malice, and all uncharitableness. yes, very likely it would be a resource for the boys. in all her own long and tedious fulfilment of their duties, mary had never once proposed to herself any reward ‘when the boys came home,’ and yet, perhaps, there had been in her heart some hope of appreciation,—some idea that they would understand what abnegation of herself it had been. they{111} would know that this long, monotonous stretch of duty,—which was not, after all, her first natural duty,—was not less, but perhaps more hard, than their own wanderings and labour. and now all at once a cloud had fallen over this prospect. one soweth and another reapeth. mary had laboured and denied herself for their sakes; but it was this stranger who would be the great resource for the boys. and ben! mary’s heart contracted with a secret, silent pang as she thought of ben coming defenceless, unprepared, to find the syren who had,—she did not doubt,—bewitched and betrayed him, seated at his very gates. her last conversation with him rose up before her as clear as if it had but just occurred. ben, too, had ventured to suggest that she,—that all women,—would be envious of millicent. her heart rose with an indignant swell and throb. was there nothing then in the world better than blue eyes and lips like rose-leaves, and the syren’s voice and smile? if that was all a man cared for, was he worth thinking of? she had gone and married henry rich when ben was poor. and now that the man whose name she bore had opportunely vanished from her path, she had returned now ben was about to regain his fortune, to lie in wait for him, with a miserable pretence of old friendship and tender regard for his cousin, who was to be the victim, and scapegoat, and sacrifice for all! perhaps it was not much wonder that{112} mary was bitter. and she had all a woman’s natural distrust in the man’s powers of resistance. it never occurred to her that the syren of his youth might now have no attraction for him. ‘they are like that,’ she said to herself, with a true woman’s feeling of half-impatient tolerance, and pity, and something like contempt,—not blame, as if he were a free agent. it was not he, but she, upon whom it was natural to lay the blame.
