since the day in his mess when jim read the news of diana's approaching marriage to henry, he had been immersed in a strange dreariness of feeling and a curious indifference to the homeward-bound journey. night after night he stood alone on the forward-deck of the crocodile bound from bombay for england, and heard the soldiers singing their camp-songs, their strong, rough voices growing tender as they sang their cockney ballads of home. but they roused no responsive echo in jim; watching the southern cross in the sky, his thoughts often drifted back to the seven years of fighting with their sun-scorched days of fatigue and danger, full of work that drained body and brain. he almost wished that he were returning to them.
one night at ismailia the pendulum of his emotions swung back from this indifference to the first hours of joy that he had experienced when he received the news that his regiment was ordered back. the ship had anchored there for a few hours to obtain supplies. with dunlap and singleton he went ashore to the little hotel with its continental atmosphere of cheap table-d'h?te dinners and slipshod italian waiters. it was a shaky wooden building, built around an inside court, with balconies over which clambered in exuberance pale, waxy tea-roses, while the front of the building hung over a cypress-tree garden.
the indifferently good but pretentious meal was served in the tiny court. dunlap's and singleton's boisterous mood jarred jim. he found himself watching the other guests of monsieur carlos' hostelry. at adjacent tables parties of tourists were making merry while waiting for the p.&o. steamer to carry them from cleopatra's land to golden italy, and from a dance-hall came the fantastic music of the nautch women's instruments. in half an hour the hotel was empty of all the diners save jim, who lingered until the shabby proprietor, monsieur carlos, informed monsieur le capitaine that after ten the court was closed, but the verandas were at monsieur's disposal for his kummel and cigarettes. jim ascended the creaking staircase to the broad veranda partly hidden from the road by its screen of blooming roses gleaming like stars against the shadowed foliage. here and there a tight, pink-tipped bud shone like a tiny flame.
the moon had risen and illumined the entire place with an uncanny brilliance, turning the night into an unreal day. jim sank into a chair. the air was heavy with the perfume of the rose-trees. in the distance he could hear the barbarous clash of the dancing women's cymbals. it was their trade-night with two ships in the harbor. jim took from his pocket a leather portmonnaie and drew from it the picture of diana that he had cut from the paper in the hospital.
he had never willingly thought of her since the day he received his aunt's letter. as he sat on the deserted veranda, with the torn page lying on his knee, he was conscious of a sudden, intangible feeling of apprehension. diana was the tenderest memory of his boyhood. why did he fear this marriage with henry? vainly he studied the picture, trying to gain from the cheap illustration some knowledge of the woman into which diana had grown. he tried honestly to face the truth of his great anxiety concerning the marriage. he knew that through his convalescence when the longing to go home had overmastered the soldier in him, the thought of renewing his friendship with diana had been his happiest anticipation. he sought to reassure himself that his disappointment was selfishness—that he feared to find diana absorbed in new interests, with his place completely crowded out of her life. then a vision of henry, sullen and defiant as he had last seen him, flashed before him.... yet might not henry's character have been redeemed by his love for diana? jim knew that the meagre fortune of sir charles marjoribanks could not be a material factor in the marriage. this proved his most reassuring thought. then his memory reverted to diana, and he recalled the child di, who had clung to him on the morning of his departure and begged him to return. he remembered how as a boy he had often played that he was her knight, and fought the unseen foes that were supposed to lurk in the alleyways of the giant trees. was it a prophetic vision of the future?
he rose from his chair. sweeping clouds were rolling over the pale moon. the desolation of the place grew more terrible.
far out at sea he could see the black phantom ship now appearing, now disappearing. it seemed at the mercy of the heavy vapors that at times touched its topmasts. the desire to reach england again grew strong in him. he felt he had a purpose to fulfil.
a half-hour passed. suddenly the moon swept from under a heavy cloud, shaped like the wing of a monster bird. across the road he could see the straggling groups of travellers returning from the festivities. their tired, excited voices reached him, and he was glad to escape from the hotel and make his way to the waiting dinghy. dunlap and singleton joined him, and as he leaned back in the skiff, strong and incessant as the incoming tide that beat against the boat grew the strength of his resolve. diana should obtain happiness if he could serve her to that end.
three weeks later the crocodile swung into the harbor at portsmouth. a symphony in blues and greens greeted jim's eyes as they anchored within sight of the victory. an english june sky with riotous blues—from the palest flaky azure to the deepest turquoise—hung in the heavens over a vivid green sea. the very atmosphere seemed floating about in nebulous clouds of pearly tinted indigo. to jim it was like the beauty of no other land.
towards evening jim reached london. the town was alive with the roar and rush of hansoms and crowded 'buses carrying the day's workers to their homes. his cab turned from st. james's park into the mall towards his club. how he loved the gray, majestic beauty of the place!
the expected arrival of the crocodile had been duly noticed by the papers, and his part in the brilliant work of his regiment warmly commended. at the club he found letters of welcome awaiting him. among them was one from diana, urging him to come to them at once. it seemed the letter of a woman calm in her established womanhood. "henry and i," it said, "will be so happy to see you to-morrow at luncheon at two o'clock. do come." the letter further told him that lady elizabeth and mabel were staying at the towers. "henry wanted a town-house, so we are settled at pont street for the season."
late that night jim sat alone in his club, and wrote an answer to diana's letter. he spoke of his pleasure in being able to go to them on the morrow, but its phrases gave no sign of his intense feeling and his great desire for her happiness. he left the club and walked to the pillar-box opposite. he slipped the letter into the slit of the box, and slowly retraced his steps. a slight haze was beginning to creep over the city, and in the distance it looked as though a gauze theatre-drop was shutting off the scene from the spectators.
jim was loath to leave the streets. there was an enchantment for him in the smoky atmosphere that intoxicated him. the call of london was in his blood. as he crossed the quiet square near the mall, he stretched out his arms, and youth and the joy of life rang out in one great cry—oh, it was good to be home!
