thursday, november 19, 1942

dearest kitty,

just as we thought, mr. dussel is a very nice man. of course he didn't mind sharing a room with me; to be honest, i'm not exactly delighted at having a stranger use my things, but you have to make sacrifices for a good cause, and i'm glad i can make this small one. "if we can save even one of our friends, the rest doesn't matter," said father, and he's absolutely right.

the first day mr. dussel was here, he asked me all sorts of questions -- for example, what time the cleaning lady comes to the office, how we've arranged to use the washroom and when we're allowed to go to the toilet. you may laugh, but these things aren't so easy in a hiding place. during the daytime we can't make any noise that might be heard downstairs, and when someone else is there, like the cleaning lady, we have to be extra careful. i patiently explained all this to mr. dussel, but i was surprised to see how slow he is to catch on. he asks everything twice and still can't remember what you've told him.

maybe he's just confused by the sudden change and he'll get over it. otherwise, everything is going fine.

mr. dussel has told us much about the outside world we've missed for so long. he had sad news. countless friends and acquaintances have been taken off to a dreadful fate. night after night, green and gray military vehicles cruise the streets. they knock on every door, asking whether any jews live there. if so, the whole family is immediately taken away. if not, they proceed to the next house. it's impossible to escape their clutches unless you go into hiding. they often go around with lists, knocking only on those doors where they know there's a big haul to be made. they frequently offer a bounty, so much per head. it's like the slave hunts of the olden days. i don't mean to make light ofthisj it's much too tragic for that. in the evenings when it's dark, i often see long lines of good, innocent people, accompanied by crying children, walking on and on, ordered about by a handful of men who bully and beat them until they nearly drop. no one is spared. the sick, the elderly, children, babies and pregnant women -- all are marched to their death.

we're so fortunate here, away from the turmoil. we wouldn't have to give a moment's thought to all this suffering if it weren't for the fact that we're so worried about those we hold dear, whom we can no longer help. i feel wicked sleeping in a warm bed, while somewhere out there my dearest friends are dropping from exhaustion or being knocked to the ground.

i get frightened myself when i think of close friends who are now at the mercy of the

cruelest monsters ever to stalk the earth.

and all because they're jews.

yours, anne