sitting there with the splotches of fresh blood on the deck all around me was more than i could stomach for very long. the sight of them brought back to me with a horrid distinctness everything that i had seen since i came aboard the hulk: the dead man lying on the deck, the other man with his frightful wounds and his wild talk and his death in the midst of his passionate ravings, and the disgusting work that i had been forced to do before i could hide their two bodies from my sight in the sea-depths beneath the tangled weed. and so, presently, i scrambled to my feet, thinking to get back to the hurst castle again—where there was no taint of blood to bring up haunting visions and where, though it seemed a long while past to me, i had been in the company of honest and kindly men.
but when i turned toward this poor escape from my misery—which at best was but a change from a foul prison to a clean one—i saw that i could not easily compass it; for in the time that had passed since i had made my jump in the morning—noon being by then upon me—the hurst castle had swung around a little, being caught i suppose upon some bit of sunken wreckage, so that where the two ships were nearest to each other there was an open reach of twenty feet or more across the weed.
this was too great a distance for a jump, seeing that it must be made from rail to rail without a run to give me a send-off; and yet it was so short that my not being able to cross it never even entered my mind. had there been a mast standing on the hulk, with a yard fast to it, i could have rigged a rope from the yard-arm and swung myself across in a moment; but the decks being sea-swept, with nothing left standing on them, that way was not open to me; nor could i find a light spar—even the flag-staff at the stern being snapt away—that i could stretch across from one rail to the other and make a bridge of. the only other thing that occurred to me was to tear off some of the doors in the cabin and to make of them a little raft that i could pass by, though i saw well enough that pushing a raft through so dense a tangle even for that short distance would be a hard job. and then i had the thought that perhaps on the sailing-ship lying beside me i might find a sound boat, which would better answer my purpose since it could be the more easily moved through the weed. in point of fact i could not have moved a boat a single foot through that thicket without cutting a passage for it, and i might have thrown overboard three or four doors and so made a bridge over the weed that would have borne me easily—but i did not know then as much about that strange sea-growth as i came to know later on.
as there was no hurry in one way, the ships being so bedded fast there that they were certain not to move more than a few feet at the utmost, i hunted up some food before setting myself to what i knew would be a heavy task; finding cold victuals of a coarse sort in the galley—left from the last meal that the two men had made there—and fairly fresh water in the tank. it was hard work eating, on board that foul ship and thinking of the foul hands which had made the food ready; but going without eating would have been harder, for i had the healthy appetite of a sound young fellow three-and-twenty years old.
when i had finished my meal, and i got through it quickly, i made fast a line to the steamer's rail and slipped down it to the deck of the sailing-ship—a fine vessel of above a thousand tons, built of wood and on clipper lines. there was an immediate sense of relief in getting aboard of her, and away from the blood-stained steamer where the dead men had been; but i saw at a glance that what i was after was not there. she had carried four boats on her rail, as i could tell by the davits, and likely enough a long-boat on her fore-castle as well. but all of them were gone, and i could only hope—since they were not there for my use—that her crew had got safe away in them: as well enough might have happened when she was floating water-logged after the storm that had wrecked her was past.
without stopping to explore her—and, indeed, after what i had found on the steamer, i had no fancy for explorations which might end in my stumbling upon still more horrors—i went on to a trim little brig lying on the other side of her; a beautiful little vessel, with all her spars and rigging save her bow-hamper in perfect order for sea-going—but showing by her broken bow-sprit that she had been in collision, and by her depth in the water that after the collision she had filled. naturally enough, her boats were gone too; and so i left her and went on.
in the course of the next two hours or so i must have traversed more than a hundred wrecks—scrambling up or down from one to another, as they happened to lie low in the water or high out of it—and with all their differences of size and build finding them in one way the same: all of them were dead ships which some sort of a sea-disaster had slain. and not one of them had a sound boat left on board. the same reason that kept me from exploring the first of them kept me from exploring any of them: the dread of finding in their shadowy depths grisly horrors in the way of dead men long lying there; and, indeed, i was distinctly warned to hurry away from some of them by the vile stenches which came to me and made my stomach turn sickish and my blood go cold.
i must have walked for a good mile, i suppose, over the dead bodies of these sea-killed ships—and it was the most dismal walk that ever i had taken—before i realized that even if i found a boat and got it overboard it would be of no use to me, since there was no possibility of my getting back in it to my own hulk through that densely packed mass of wrecks and weed. indeed, i should have perceived this plain certainty sooner had not the wondering curiosity which this strange walk bred in me lured me on and on. and then, being brought at last to a halt by my rational reflection, there came over me suddenly a queer shiver of doubt as to the direction in which the hurst castle lay; and then a still more shivering doubt as to whether i should be able to get back to her again by the way that i had come, or by any way at all.
at the beginning of my march in this haze-covered sea-wilderness i had tried to keep upon the outer edge of it; but insensibly—having to pass from ship to ship rather by the way that was open to me than by the way that i wished to go—i had wandered into the thick of it more and more. and so, when at last i took thought of my whereabouts, and stopped to look around me that i might shape a course back again, i found that in whatever direction i turned i saw only what i had seen ahead of me when my hulk was drawing in upon its borders: a dense confusion of broken and ruined ships which fell away from me vaguely under the golden haze. it had been a dismal sight then; but what gave a fresh note to it, and a thrilling one, was that it no longer was only in front of me but was all around me—stretching away on every side of the wreck on which i was standing, and growing fainter and fainter as the haze shut down thick upon it until it vanished softly into the golden blur.
yet even then the full meaning of my outlook did not take hold of me. that i was in something of a coil, out of which i could not find my way easily, was plain enough; but that i really was lost in it did not cross my mind. with all my wanderings, i knew that i could not have traversed any great distance; and the certainty that i had passed always from one ship to the ship next touching it seemed to make finding my way back again entirely open and plain. and so i laughed at myself a little—though that was not much of a place for laughter—because of my touch of panic fright; and then i turned back from the ship on which i was standing to the one next to it, over which i had just come—and so on to the next, and in the same way to three or four more. yet even in that short distance—though my way was unmistakable, for these ships touched only each other as it happened—i was surprised by finding how differently things looked to me as i took my course backward: all the ups and downs of my scrambling walk being inverted, and the lay of the ships one to another and the look of them being entirely changed.
presently i got on board of a brig—which i well remembered, because it was one of the vessels having about it a vile stench that had made me cross it quickly—on the farther side of which two ships were lying, both rising a little above it and both jammed close against its side. for a moment i hesitated, in doubt as to which of the two i had come by; and i should have hesitated longer had not a whiff of the horrid smell struck upon me strongly and urged me to go on. and so away i went, taking to the ship that i thought was the right one; and still fancying that it was the right one when i got aboard of it—for both, as i have said, were ships, and the two had been about equally mauled by sea and storm. indeed, except for the differences in their build and rig, there was a strong family resemblance among these storm-broken vessels; and the way that they were jammed together made their build less noticeable, while a good many of them were dismasted and so had no rig at all.
therefore i went on confidently for a dozen ships or more before i had any misgivings that i had missed my way—which was but a natural reaction against my momentary doubtfulness—and then i found myself suddenly pulled up short. right above me was the side of a big iron steamer—called the city of boston, as i made out from the weathered name-plate on her bows, and a packet-boat as i judged by her build—rising so high out of the water that getting up to her deck was impossible: as equally impossible was my having forgotten it had i made such a rattling jump down. yet this big steamer was the only vessel in touch with the barque on which i was standing, save the schooner from which i had just come; and that gave me sharply the choice between two conclusions: either i had made that big jump without noticing it, or else—and i felt a queer lump rising in my throat as i faced this alternative—i had managed to go astray completely and had lost myself in what had the look of being a hopeless maze.
