notwithstanding this sense of outrage and injury, time and the hour had their usual effect upon joyce. there are few things that the common strain of everyday does not subdue in time—few things, that is, that are of the nature of sentiment, not actual evil or wrong. she reconciled herself to the affectionate demonstrations of her old friends, which were such as they had not made in the old times, without at least saying again that these were for colonel hayward’s daughter, and not for joyce; and she learnt to make new ones, or at least to receive shyly and respond as much as her nature permitted to the overtures of acquaintanceship made to her by the society among which she lived. the sense of strangeness faded away; she became familiar with her surroundings, and with the things which were required of her. she acquired, to her astonishment and amusement, and pleasure too, when she had become a little accustomed to her own appearance in them, a number of new dresses and ornaments, the latter chiefly presents from her father, who found it the most delightful amusement to make a little expedition into town—a thing which was at all times a pleasant diversion to him—to go to hancock’s, or some other costly place, before or after he went to his club, and bring joyce a bracelet or a ring. these expeditions were not always agreeable to mrs. hayward. she said, ‘if you would tell me what you wanted, henry, i could get it a great deal cheaper for you at the stores—half the price: these hancock people are ruinous.’
‘but, my dear, i bought it only because it chanced to take my fancy—in the shop-window,’ said the scheming colonel, with wiles which he had learned of recent days. his wife knew as well as he did that this little fable was of doubtful credence, but she said no more. after all, if he could not give his child a bracelet or two, it would be a strange thing, mrs. hayward said
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to herself with a little heat. she was determined to be reasonable, but she could not help being slightly suspicious of his meaning, when he announced his intention at the breakfast-table of taking a little run up to town, and seeing how those fellows were getting on. he meant his old cronies at the club, whom he was always pleased to see; but it always turned out that there were other little things to be done as well.
and joyce was far from being without pleasure in these pretty presents, and in the tenderness which beamed from the colonel’s face when he stole his little packet out of his pocket with the air of a schoolboy bringing home a bird’s nest. ‘my dear, i happened to see this as i passed, and i thought you would like it.’ she did not know much about the value of these gifts, overestimating it at first, underrating it afterwards—and cared very little, to tell the truth, after the first sensation of awe with which she had regarded the gold and precious stones, when she found such unexpected treasures in her own possession. but what was of far greater importance was the tender bond which, by means of all the kind thoughts which resulted in these gifts, and the grateful and pleased sentiment which these kind thoughts called forth, grew up between the colonel and his daughter. she became the companion of a morning walk which up to this time he had been in the habit of taking alone—mrs. hayward considering it necessary to be ‘on the spot,’ as she said, and looking after her household. the colonel, who never liked to be alone, took advantage one lovely morning of a chance meeting with joyce, who was straying somewhat listlessly along the shrubbery walk, thinking of many things. ‘i am going for my walk,’ he said—his walk being a habit as regular as the nursery performance of the same kind. ‘if you have nothing to do, get your hat and come with me, my dear.’ and this walk came to be delightful to both, joyce making acquaintance thereby with those genuine reflections of a mind uninstructed save by life, which are so often full of insight and interest; while the colonel on his side listened with delighted admiration to joyce’s information on all kinds of subjects, which was drawn entirely from books. he talked to her about india and his old friends there and all their histories, enchanted to rouse her interest and to have to stir up his memory in order to satisfy her as to how an incident ended, or what became of a man.
‘what happened after? my dear, i believe he was killed at delhi, poor fellow!—after all they had gone through. yes, it was hard: but that’s a soldier’s life, you know; he never knows where he may have to leave his bones. the poor little woman
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had to be sent home. we got up some money for her, and i believe she had friends to whom she went with her baby. that’s all i know about them. as for brown, he got on very well—retired now with the rank of a general, and lives at cheltenham. the last time i saw him, he was at woolwich with his third boy for an exam. it is either the one thing or the other, joyce—either they get killed young, or they live through everything and come home, regular old vieux moustaches, as the french say, with immense families to set out in the world. the number of fine fellows i’ve seen drop! and then the number of others who survive everything, and are not so much the better for it after all.’
‘when i read the vision of mirza to my old granny at home—— at bellendean—she said life was like that,’ said joyce gravely,—‘some dropping suddenly in a moment, so that you only saw that they had disappeared.’
‘the vision of—— what, my dear? it has an eastern sound, but i don’t think it’s in the bible. very likely i’ve heard it somewhere: but my memory is rather bad’—(he had been giving her a hundred personal details of all kinds of people, in the range of some thirty or forty years)—‘especially for books.’ colonel hayward added, ‘more shame to me,’ with a shake of his grey head.
and then she told him mirza’s vision, with the warm natural eloquence of her inexperience and profound conviction that literature was the one deathless and universal influence. the colonel was greatly pleased with it, and received it as the most original of allegories. ‘it’s wonderful,’ he said, ‘what imagination these eastern chaps have, joyce. they carry it too far, you know, calling you the emperor’s brother, the flower of all the warriors of the west, and that sort of thing, which is nonsense, and never after the first time takes in the veriest johnny raw of a young ensign. well, but your old woman was very right, my dear. if i were to tell you about all the fellows that started in life with me—such a lot of them, joyce; as cheery a set—not so clever, perhaps, as the new men nowadays, but up to anything—it’s very like that old humbug’s bridge, which, between you and me, never existed, you know—you may be quite sure of that.’
joyce held her breath when she heard the beloved addison called an old humbug, but reflected that the colonel did not mean it, and made no remark.
‘it is very like that,’ he continued musingly. ‘one doesn’t even notice at the time—but when you look back. there was jack hunter went almost as soon as we landed: such a nice
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fellow—i seem to hear his laugh now, though i haven’t so much as thought upon him for forty years,—dropped, you know, without ever hearing a shot fired, with the laugh in his mouth, so to speak. and jim jenkinson, the first time we were under fire, in a bit of a skirmish for no use. his brother, though—by george! he hasn’t dropped at all; for here he comes, as tough an old parson as ever lived, joyce. excuse the exclamation, my dear. it slips out, though i hate swearing as much as you can do. we’ll have to stop and speak to canon jenkinson. i think, on the whole, rather than grow into such a pursy parson, i’d rather have dropped like poor jim.’
colonel hayward directed his daughter’s attention to a large clergyman, who was walking along on the other side of the road. the colonel had the contempt of all slim men for all fat ones; and joyce, too, being imaginative and young, looked with sympathetic disapproval at the rotundity which was approaching. canon jenkinson was more than a fat man—he was a fat clergyman. his black waistcoat was tightly, but with many wrinkles, strained across a protuberance which is often anything but amusing to the unfortunate individual who has to carry it, but which invariably arouses the smiles of unfeeling spectators; the long lapels of his black coat swung on either side as he moved quickly with a step very light for such a weight—swinging, too, a neatly rolled umbrella, which he carried horizontally like a balance to keep his arm extended to its full length. when he saw colonel hayward he crossed the road towards him, with a larger swing still of his great person altogether. ‘halloa, hayward!’ he said, in a big, rolling, bass voice.
‘well, canon; i am glad to see you have come back.’
‘and what is this you have been about in my absence, my good fellow,—increasing and multiplying at a time of life when i should have thought you beyond all such vanities? is this the young lady? as a very old friend of your father’s, miss hayward, and as he doesn’t say a word to help us, i must introduce myself.’
he held out a large hand in which joyce’s timid one was for a moment buried, and then he said, ‘you’ve hidden her away a long time, hayward, and kept her dark; but i’ve always remarked of you that when you did produce a thing at the last, it was worth the trouble. my wife told me you had sprung a family upon us. no story was ever diminished by being retold.’
‘no, no, my daughter only—joyce, who has been brought up by—her mother’s relations—in scotland.’ the colonel had
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learned his lesson, but he said it with a little hesitation and faltering.
‘oh!’ said the clergyman, and then he added in an undertone, ‘your first poor wife, i suppose?’
the colonel replied only by a nod, while joyce stood embarrassed and half indignant. she was deeply vexed by the interrogatory of which she was the subject, and still more by her father’s look and tone. for the poor colonel was the last person in the world to be trusted with the utterance of a fiction, and his looks contradicted the words which he managed to say.
‘ah!’ said canon jenkinson: and then he turned suddenly upon joyce. ‘are you a good churchwoman, or are you a little presbyterian?’ he said. ‘i must have that out with you before we are much older. and i hear you are going to range yourself on the side of sitwell, and help him to defy me. his school feast, par exemple, when i am having the whole parish three or four days after! you know a good deal of the insubordination of subalterns, hayward, but you don’t know what the incumbent of a district can do when he tries. he is not your curate, so you can’t squash him. miss hayward, i take it amiss of you that you should have gone over to sitwell’s side.’
‘i don’t know even the gentleman’s name,’ said joyce. ‘there was somebody spoke of his schools—and i am very fond of schools.’
‘his schools! you shall come and see the parish schools, and tell me what you think of them. don’t take a wretched little district as an example. i’ll tell you what, hayward,—she shall come with me at once and see what we can do. i don’t go touting round for unpaid curates, as sitwell does. but i do think a nice woman’s the best of school inspectors—in an unofficial way, bien entendu. i don’t mean to propose you to the government, miss hayward, to get an appointment, when there are so much too few for the men.’
he spoke with a swing, too, of such fluent talk, rolling out in the deep, round, agreeable bass which was so well known in the neighbourhood, that the two helpless persons thus caught were almost carried away by the stream.
‘i don’t think she can go now, jenkinson. elizabeth will be wondering already what has become of us.’
‘is that so?’ said the canon, with a laugh. ‘we all know there’s no going against the commanding officer. another time, then—another time. but, miss hayward, you must give me
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your promise not to let yourself be prejudiced; and, above all, don’t go over to sitwell’s side.’
he pressed her hand in his, gave her a beaming smile, waved his hand to the colonel, and swung along upon his way, exchanging greetings with everybody he encountered.
‘my dear,’ said colonel hayward, ‘there is no telling what that man might have plunged you into if i had not been here to defend you. let us go home lest something worse befall us. i think i see the sitwells coming up grove road. if you should fall into their hands, i know not what would happen. walk quickly, and perhaps they will not see us. elizabeth will say i am not fit to be trusted with you if i let you be torn to pieces by the clergy. the canon, you see, joyce, was the means of having this new district church set up. and sitwell has not behaved prudently—not at all prudently. he has played his cards badly. he has taken up the opposition party—those that were always against the canon, whatever he might do. they are good people, and mean well, but—— oh, mrs. sitwell! i am sure i beg your pardon. i never imagined it was you.’
there had been a quick little pattering of feet behind them, and mrs. sitwell, out of breath, panting out inquiries after their health and the health of dear mrs. hayward, captured the reluctant pair. she was a small woman, as light as a feather, and full of energy. she took joyce by both her hands. ‘oh, dear miss hayward!’ she cried, breathless, ‘i ran after you to tell you about the school feast. i hope you don’t forget your promise. austin’s coming after me—he’ll be here directly, but i ran to tell you. to-morrow afternoon in wombwell’s field. colonel hayward, you’ll bring her, won’t you? i know you like to see the poor little children enjoying themselves.’
‘my dear lady,’ said the colonel, ‘i am distressed to see you so out of breath.’
‘oh, that’s nothing. there’s no harm done,’ said mrs. sitwell. ‘i am always running about. here is austin to back me up. he will tell you how i have been calculating upon you, miss hayward. dear, don’t pant, but tell her. i have told every one you were coming. oh, don’t disappoint me—don’t, don’t!’
‘i can’t help panting,’ said the clergyman; ‘it is my usual state. i am always running after my wife. but, miss hayward, it is quite true. we want you very much, and she has quite set her heart upon it. i do hope you will come—as i think you said.’
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mrs. sitwell left joyce no time to reply. ‘you must, you must, indeed,’ she said. ‘ah, colonel hayward, i saw what you did. you brought down the great gun upon her. was that fair? when we had been so fortunate as to see her first, and when she had begun to take to us. and whatever he may say, you are in our district. of course the parish includes everything. i think that man would like to have all england in his parish—all the best people. he would not mind leaving us the poor.’
‘hush, dora,’ said her husband. ‘i don’t wonder you should form a strong opinion: but we must not say what is against christian charity.’
‘oh, charity!’ cried the clergyman’s wife; ‘i think he should begin. i am sure he told miss hayward that she was to have nothing to do with us. now, didn’t he? i can read it in your face. austin himself, though he pretends to be so charitable, said to me when we saw him talking, “now you may give up all hopes;” but i said, no; i had more opinion of your face than that. i knew you would stick to your first friends and hold by your word.’
‘you ought to be warned, miss hayward,’ said the rev. austin sitwell; ‘my wife’s quite a dangerous person. she professes to know all about you if she only sees your photograph—much more when she has the chance of reading your face.’
‘don’t betray me, you horrid tell-tale,’ said his wife, threatening him with a little finger. there was a hole in the glove which covered this small member, which joyce could not but notice as it was held up; and this curious colloquy held across her bewildered her so much, that she had scarcely time to be amused by it. for one thing, there was no need for her to reply. ‘but i do know the language of the face,’ said mrs. sitwell. ‘i don’t know how i do it, it is just a gift. and i know miss hayward is true. wombwell’s field at three o’clock to-morrow afternoon. you won’t fail me! colonel hayward, you’ll bring her, now won’t you? or it will quite break my heart.’
‘sooner than do that, my dear lady,’ said the colonel, with his hat in his hand——
‘ah, you laugh—you all laugh; you don’t think what it is to a poor little woman trying to do her best. good-bye, then, good-bye till to-morrow—wombwell’s field. i shall quite calculate on seeing you. my love to dear mrs. hayward. tell her we got the cakes this morning—such lovely cakes. i shall keep a piece for my own chicks. good-bye, good-bye.’
‘thank heaven, joyce, my dear,’ said the colonel piously, ‘we have got away without any pledge. if elizabeth had only been
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there! but i don’t think she is very sure herself which side she is on. the canon is the head of the parish, to be sure, and a sort of an old friend besides; but these young people take a great deal of trouble. and we were all instrumental in getting this new church built, so i think we ought to stand by them. but, thank goodness, we neither said one thing nor another. so we can’t be blamed, my dear, neither you nor i.
