i do not suppose that any one ever enjoyed travel and residence in england and on the continent more than i did; but i do not now intend to give any account of my experiences, nor of the effect they had upon me, save in one regard. i had traveled and lived for the most part alone, and one of the greatest pleasures connected with my life in europe was the anticipation of telling my friends who had never crossed the ocean what i had seen, heard, and done.

but when i returned to america i met with a great disappointment: my glowing anticipations were not realized. i could find scarcely any one who cared to know what i had seen, heard, or done.

at this i was as much surprised as disappointed. i believed that i possessed fair powers of description and narration, and many of my traveling experiences were out of the common. in fact, i had endeavored to see things the ordinary traveler does not see, and to do things which he seldom does. i found, however, that my unusual experiences were of no advantage to me in making people desirous to hear accounts of my travels. i might as well have joined a party of personally conducted tourists.

my friends and acquaintances in town were all glad to see me, not that they might hear what had happened to me, but that they might tell me what had happened to them. this disposition sometimes threw me into a state of absolute amazement. i could not comprehend, for instance, why mrs. gormer, who had known me for years, and who i thought would take such an active interest in everything that concerned me, should dismiss my european tour with a few remarks in regard to my health in the countries i had passed through, and then begin an animated account of the troubles she had had since i had been away: how the house she had been living in had had two feet of water in the cellar for weeks at a time, and how nobody could find out whether it was caused by a spring in the ground or the bursting of an unknown water-pipe,—but no matter what it was, they couldn't stay there; and what a dreadful time they had in finding another house; and how the day appointed for jennie's wedding coming directly in the middle of the moving, it had to be postponed, for she declared she would never be married anywhere but at home; and how several of mr. barclay's relations came down from new hampshire on purpose to be at the wedding, and had to stay either at hotels or with friends, for it was more than a week before her house could be made ready for the wedding. she then remarked that of course i had heard of the shameful way in which john had been treated in regard to that position in the treasury department at washington; and as i had not heard she went on and told me about it, until it was time for me to go.

at my club, some of the men did not know that i had been away, but there were others who were very glad to hear that i had been in europe, because it gave them an opportunity to tell me about that very exciting election of brubaker, a man of whom i had never heard, who had been proposed by shuster, with whom i was not acquainted, and seconded by cushman, whom i did not know. i found no one desirous of hearing me talk about my travels, and those who were willing to do so were satisfied with a very few general points. sometimes i could not but admire the facility and skill with which some of the people who stay at home were able to defend themselves against the attempted loquacity of the returned traveler.

occasionally, in social gatherings, i met with some one, generally a lady, who did take an interest in hearing that i had been in such or such a place; but this was always some place in which she had been, and, after comparing experiences, she would go on to tell of things which she had seen and done, and often ended by making me feel very sorry for having neglected my opportunities.

"yes," said one, "it must have been cold on the top of that lonely mountain, with nothing to warm you but those plump little wolves, and the constant fear that their mother might come back; but you ought to have been here during the blizzard." and then she went on with a full history of the great blizzard.

everywhere i was met by that blizzard. those people who had not moved, or who had not had a puzzling disease in the family, or who had not been instrumental in founding a free kindergarten, could always fall back on the blizzard. i heard how their fathers could not get home on the train, of the awful prices the people charged for clearing away the snow, of the way in which jane and adelaide had to get on without music lessons for nearly ten days, and of the scarcity of milk. no one who had seen and felt that irrepressible storm suffered from it as i did. it chilled the aspirations of my soul, it froze the unspoken words of my mouth, it overwhelmed and buried every rising hope of speech, and smothered and sometimes nearly obliterated my most interesting recollection. many a time i have mentally sent that blizzard to regions where its icy blasts would have melted as in a hot simoom.

i truly believed that in our village i should find sensible people who would be glad to hear about interesting things which they never had seen. many of them had not traveled, and a returned tourist was a comparative rarity in the place. i went down there on purpose to talk about europe. it was too early for my grandmother's return to the country. i proposed to spend a week with my village friends, and, before their bright firesides, charm and delight them with accounts of those things which had so charmed and delighted me. the lives of city people are so filled with every sort of material that it is useless to try to crowd anything more into them. here, however, were people with excellent intellects, whose craving for mental pabulum, especially in the winter, could be but partially satisfied.

but bless me! i never heard of such an over-stock of mental pabulum as i found there. it was poured upon me by every one with whom i tried to converse. i was frequently permitted to begin statements which i believed must win their way, if they were allowed a fair start; but very soon something i said was sure to suggest something which had occurred in the village, and before i could brace myself the torrent would burst upon me. never did i hear, in the same space of time, so much about things which had happened as i then heard from my village neighbors. it was not that so much had occurred, but that so much was said about what had occurred. it was plain there was no hope for me here, and after three days i went back to town.

now it was early summer, and my grandmother and i were again in our dear home in the village. as i have said, she was sitting by the open window, where she could look out upon the flowers, the grass, and a little of the life of her neighbors. i sat near her, and had been telling her of my three days in the forest of arden, and of the veritable jaques whom i met there, when she remarked:—

"that must have been extremely interesting; and, speaking of the woods, i wish you would say to thomas that so soon as he can find time i want him to bring up some of that rich wood-soil and put it around those geraniums."

this was the first time my grandmother had interjected any remark into my recitals. she had often asked me to tell her about my travels, and on every other occasion she had listened until she softly fell asleep. i now remembered having heard her say that it interfered with her night's rest to sleep in the daytime. perhaps her present interruption was intended as a gentle rebuke, and no other kind of rebuke had ever come to me from my grandmother.

i went out to find thomas, oppressed by a mild despair. if i were to tell my tales to a stone, i thought, it would turn on me with a sermon.